I Can Change Your Life

Monday was a blur. I spent the day with Harry, of course. We didn’t go to school; instead our parents enrolled us into the same school that Niall and Liam were enrolled in. We spent the day running around with our parents – we went to our High School, and then we went to the district office, and then we met our new teacher and received the packets we would be completing and signed up for the same testing day. The way the school worked was that you get a packet per class you’re enrolled in, and once a week you go to the school to turn in your completed packets, take a test for each subject, and then receive your new packets for the week. It seemed easy enough, and I liked the idea of being able to finish high school early if you are ahead on your packets.

Niall and Liam were only a few packets away from being done with their first semester of their Junior year, and if Harry and I mimicked their pace, we could be completely done with our senior year before Christmas break. The only thing was that we would have to return back to school to walk with the rest of the graduating class. It felt weird thinking about graduating. It felt weird to think about anything besides what was happening currently.

After we had spent the entire day running errands together, my mom decided to let me spend the night at Harry’s and Louis’s house, but only if the rest of the guys were there, too. Louis never had a problem with me spending the night, but for some reason he was really pressing the issue to my mom – begging her to let me stay the night because Harry needed somebody to take care of him since he didn’t trust himself or the rest of the boys to make sure Harry took his pain medication and continued to rest.

We stopped by my house so I could grab some things to spend the night and drop my mom off. Before I could walk out the door, my mom grabbed my wrist.

“Gianna,” she said. “I know that you and Harry might have this mature relationship and are having sex-“

“Mom!” I interjected as my cheats heated up.

She continued without letting my embarrassment slow her down. “Just remember that you are still in high school, and no matter how much you like or love Harry, or whatever, just remember that you need to focus on continuing to better your life. I don’t want you to worry about him too much, because you still have yourself to worry about. I know how selfless you are to those you care about, but I need to be a little selfish sometimes. I just…this is all so hard on me, and I know it’s hard on you, too. I just need to make sure you’re going to continue to focus on working through this.”

“I know, Mom. And Harry knows, too.”

“Okay, honey. I love you,” she said as she pulled me into a hug.

“Mom?” I said against her shoulder.

“Hmm?”

“He loves me,” I said quietly.

She pulled me back slowly, but kept me at an arm’s length. She looked into my eyes. “I know he does.”

“And I love him.”

She gave me a proud smile. “I know you do. Now, go. Have fun, be safe, and text me before you go to bed to say goodnight.”

“I will,” I smiled. “I love you, mom.” I gave her a kiss on the cheek and walked out the door and got into the passenger’s seat.

When we arrived back at the house, Louis, Niall and Liam were already sitting in the living room with a box of pizza sitting between them.

Harry was carrying my backpack over his left shoulder and holding my left hand in his right. Our fingers were tightly laced together, just like they were for the entire day. When we shut the door behind us and entered the living room, all of the boys erupting into a round of applause and cheered for us.

“The two love birds have arrived!” Liam shouted as he held his hands up and clapped.

“Oh, look at the happy lovers!” Niall shouted.

“Our new sister in law!” Harry cheered loudly.

I blushed and turned to look at Harry. I hadn’t told them about our chat the night before, so Harry had to have been the one to tell them. He gave me a guilty smile and shrugged. I shook my head and turned to look at the boys.

Harry brought my backpack into his room and I went and collapsed onto the couch in between Louis and Niall. When Harry returned he sat down next to Liam on the loveseat perpendicular to the end of the couch. I reached down and picked up a slice of pizza.

“So, now that you’re all in love, does that mean that you guys are boyfriend and girlfriend?” Niall asked as he bit into his own slice of pizza.

I looked over to Harry and shrugged with my eyebrows raised. “I don’t know,” I said, looking into his eyes. I didn’t know what it meant. I didn’t really care if him and I were officially in a relationship or not; like what my mom had said before, we had committed to our feelings and that was the most important thing in any kind of relationship, official or not.

“Uh, I mean, I guess,” he shrugged, too.

“You guys haven’t even talked about that?” Louis asked with a laugh. He looked in between Harry and I a few times.

“I mean, I didn’t think we really needed to?” I said in a questionable tone.

“It’s up to you,” Harry said through a mouthful of pizza. He shrugged once again and continued to look at me.

“Well, do you want to be?”

“I think you know the answer to that,” Harry smiled widely.

The room grew quiet as they all waited for me to say something. Of course I wanted Harry to be mine.

“Then I think you could guess mine,” I said simply with a shrug.

“Okay,” Harry said with a huge grin. “Cool.” He went back down to take a bite out of his pizza with a huge grin still on his face.

“That’s it?” Liam shouted. “Cool, that’s all? Where’s the hugging and kissing and excitement!”

We all burst into laughter. Harry got up and walked over to me and scooped me up into his arms bridal style. I wrapped my arms around his neck as a response and let out a small surprised yelp.

“Harry!” I said through laughs.

The rest of the guys continued to cheer, and eventually started to chant, “Kiss her! Kiss her! Kiss her!”

Harry looked into my eyes as he bit his lip. I stared at his lip and couldn’t help but get turned on at the sight. I pushed my lips against his and the boys all screamed with excitement. I had no idea three boys could be so loud.

After a minute, the sound started to drown out and all I could think about was the feeling of Harry’s body against mine. He pulled away just a bit and breathed, “I love you,” against my lips very quietly.

“I love you,” I said back. He gave me one more kiss before setting me back down on the couch and returning to his seat.

“Damn, is it getting hot in here?” Liam said as he began to pull his back and forth as if to cool himself off. “Whew!”

“Oh shut up,” I breathed out as I secretly wished that I could be fanning myself off. I couldn’t help but feel the tension between me and Harry.

We all sat around talking for a while. Harry stared at me the entire time while his tongue played with his lips. I nibbled on the inside of my lip at the feeling of his eyes on me. It had been a few days since Harry and I had been able to have sex, and I was starting to feel sexually frustrated. I knew a few days isn’t very long, but I couldn’t deny that I loved sex, and for me, it was almost a daily necessity.

I locked my eyes with Harry’s and lightly bit on my lip. He let his tongue run over his bottom lip while he stared at my mouth. I couldn’t take it anymore. Harry placed a hand on the edge of his knee and gently rubbed his knee nervously. I couldn’t take it anymore.

I stood up in the middle of the conversation and everybody stared at me, confused.

“I really need some fresh air,” I said. I wasn’t really lying. My breathing was shallow from the heat that Harry provoked within me.

“You okay?” Louis asked. “Feeling anxious?”

I nodded. That wasn’t necessarily a lie either. I was feeling anxious, but not because of my anxiety like Louis, Niall, and Liam thought. Harry stood up and walked over to me.

“You want me to come with you?” he said in a concerned voice.

“Yes, please,” I said with a nod. I began to head toward the backyard with Harry right behind me.

“Um, I’ll go grab your medication from your bag. I’ll be out in a second,” he gave me a wink that nobody else could see as he disappeared down the hallway. I knew that he wasn’t really going to get my medication.

I headed into the backyard and over to the side of the house where Harry and I would escape to get high and fuck when everybody was home. Trees covered the area so no neighbors could see into the backyard and no windows from the inside of the house were on this wall since it was right next to the garage.

I leaned my back up against the wall as I waited for Harry. A few moments later I heard leaves crunching underneath his shoes as he pushed through the branches that hung low and met my side. He pulled out his box of cigarettes and pulled a joint out from it.

He placed the joint in between my lips and held the lighter up for me. I inhaled for a long time, letting the smoke burn the inside of my lungs. I opened my mouth and let the smoke escape my lips while I breathed it back in through my nose.

“Fuck,” Harry said lowly. “You’re a fucking pro now.” He let out a small laugh as he took the joint from my hand. He pulled it up to his mouth and took in a deep breath.

“Come here,” he said. A small amount of smoke escaped from his mouth as he grew closer to me. He pulled my head close to his and opened his mouth just a few inches away from mine. He let the smoke travel from his mouth and into my own. Before all of the smoke could make its way out, he closed the gap between us and pressed our open mouths together, immediately pressing his tongue into my mouth.

We let the smoke out through our noses as our mouths continued to move together. We pulled apart for a quick second to catch our breath before continuing the rhythm of our kiss. He pulled away to put the rest of the joint into the cigarette box and then let the box drop to the floor.

He came back over to me and in the same motion he pressed his palms against my breasts and his lips against my neck. He continued to bite and suck on my neck as he massaged with his hands. He pulled away and pulled my shirt over my head and then ripped my bra off a second later. The feeling of the air against my bare chest sent goosebumps all over my body. He pulled my pants and panties down in one movement. They remained bunched up in the middle of my calves.

It felt new to be completely naked outside. When Harry and I would hook up out here it was usually quick and with most of our clothing still on, but I knew that he had every intention of taking his time with me. He bent down and connected our lips again in a quick, sloppy kiss. I was starting to feel high just from that one hit and I knew that Harry was high partially because of his pain medication and the hit he had taken as well.

He used his left hand to hold both of my hands high above my head. The stretch forced my back to arch just a bit so I could push my breasts out and against his chest. My nipples were fully erect at the combination of the cool air and his shirt against my bare skin. I let out a soft moan as he bit on my bottom lip. He continued to hold my hands above my head as he moved his lips all around my chest. He sucked on every bit of flesh he could reach.

“Keep your hands up,” he commanded as he released my hands. I kept them up high as his lips continued to explore my body. He kissed my belly button and slowly left a trail of bites lower and lower. He kissed my slit gently before using his fingers to tease me.

He pulled my legs apart as far as they could go, which wasn’t too far since my jeans were still bunched up on my legs. He went down on me, using his tongue to send shivers down my spine. My body began to slightly quiver at the feeling. I let out some stifled moans and my arms began to slowly fall down from the wall.

He stopped what he was doing and looked up at me. “Keep your hands up,” he repeated himself. I bent my arms backwards so my palms were pushed up against the wall and my elbows were bent at ninety degree angles.

He inserted two fingers and began to slowly move them in and out while he continued to use his tongue to make me moan. He gradually picked up the pace with his fingers and I could feel my body tightening at the feeling.

“Do you want to cum like this?” he asked me. “Tell me, do you want to cum?”

“Yes,” I moaned out. “Make me cum.”

He continued to use his fingers and tongue until my body couldn’t take it anymore. I quivered as I tried to keep my legs from giving out at the feeling of my orgasm overpowering my muscles. I let out a moan and my back arched even more until the top of my head was hitting the side of the house.

He stood up and kissed me while still using two fingers on his left hand to draw circles as I continued to moan out for the rest of my orgasm. I moaned into his mouth as he continued to rub my clit, even after my orgasm. I tried to drop my arms down once again to try and remove his clothing. I could feel him poking through his pants, and I wanted more of him; all of him.

“Gianna,” he warned. I put my arms back up onto the wall and let out a groan.

“Take your shirt off,” I said through a groan.

He pulled back and hesitantly removed his shirt. He kept his arms covering his sides. He slowly pulled them away from his body to reveal a pattern of blue, green and yellow painted across his skin. He had bruises all along his stomach and sides. I could see that he felt somewhat self-conscious about them, but I couldn’t help but find him more attractive to me.

“Fuck,” I growled. “You’re beautiful.”

Harry gave me a smirk as he began to pull at the waistline of his jeans. He turned me around quickly, and pulled my arms down. He pulled them back behind my waist and told me to keep them there. I did as I was told as he pulled his belt off. He wrapped them around my wrists loosely. I felt a bit worried about being tied up like this, but I trusted Harry and I knew that he would never do anything to hurt me.

He pressed his body up against mine and brought his hands around me to squeeze my breasts. He leaned down just beside my left ear. “If you don’t like it, tell me, okay?” he said sweetly into my ear. I nodded as he kissed behind my ear.

I turned myself back around and dipped down so I was in a crouching position. My mouth was right as the button of his jeans. He watched me, curious as to what I was going to do without any hands.

I knew that the jeans he had on were old and worn, so the button could easily pop out of its loop and the zipper would glide with ease. I used my teeth to unbutton his pants. I looked up at him as I used my teeth to then pull his zipper down.

“Fuck,” he said in a low growl as he watched me. I released my mouth from his pants so he could pull them down to release his boner. I pulled it into my mouth without any hesitation. His hands immediately went to hold onto my hair.

I felt him getting harder and harder as I continued to suck. He continued to let out low growls and curse words. I eventually stopped; I still needed him in me. There was no way that one orgasm was going to fulfill my needs. I stood up and leaned back on the wall while Harry reached into his jeans to pull a condom out from his pocket. He pulled it out of the wrapper and I watched him as he rolled it over his length. He stroked his length a couple of times before grabbing me and turning me around. I pushed my body up against the wall, my hands still tied behind my back. Harry reached under me and guided himself into me. It was an odd angle since I was standing up straight and he was behind me. He had to dip his hips down a bit to successfully find my entrance, but when he pushed his length into me the feeling was incredible.

I was already moaning loudly when he pulled out just a bit and let out a strong thrust. He continued to pound into me and I continued to scream out at the feeling. Everything was so sensational and new – my arms behind my back, being completely naked outside, and the fact that Harry and I had admitted to our love for each other was adding to the desire.

He pulled out of me and turned me around. Before he could do anything, I stepped through my hands so they were now tied up in front of me. Harry placed his arms beneath me and lifted me up against the wall. I wrapped my legs around his waist and looped his head through my tied up hands so my arms were around his neck. He pushed into me while my back was up against the wall.

“Fuck, Gianna,” he called out. “I feel like you get tighter every time I fuck you,” he grunted out as he continued to push himself into me.

I couldn’t do anything but let out grunts and moans as a response. My back was hitting the back of the house, but it didn’t hurt. It made a loud thumping noise against the wood panels with every thrust he gave. I was growing closer and closer to another orgasm.

“Fuck, Harry, I’m…so…close,” I said breathlessly.

Harry placed his lips on the spot behind my ear and gently kissed and sucked at the skin. The spot still drove me wild. He started to move faster into me. He gripped onto my thighs tighter and slightly dug his nails into the skin where he was holding me up. He bared his teeth and bit on the spot behind my ear and rammed into me at the same time. My walls tightened and my body released with one more thrust. I screamed out his name through a prolonged moan.

His thrusts became rigid as he reached his own orgasm. He pulled out of me after a moment of lingering and pulled his condom off. He walked over to the edge of the fence and reached into the neighbor’s backyard to throw the condom away in their large trashcan that was sitting on the side of their house. He returned to his clothes and quickly got dressed.

“Okay, bye,” he said and pretended to walk away while I stood there with my hands fidgeting in his belt.

“Harry!” I laughed and he walked back over to me. He went to pull the belt from my hands, but first took a step back and placed a finger to his chin as he looked my body up and down.

“Damn,” he said with a jerk of his head and a smile. “The things I would do to you.”

I laughed. “The things you do, do to me,” I corrected. “Now take this off.” I lightly bounced up and down in slight frustration.

“Wait, wait, wait,” he said. “Do that again.”

“Do what?” I asked.

“That little bounce you just did.” He smiled. “Do it again.” He looked down at my chest and waited for me to do it again.

“No!” I laughed. “C’mon,” I pouted. “Please?”

“Okay, okay, fine,” he finally gave in and walked up to me. He unwrapped my hands and took a step back so I could put my clothes back on. He put the belt back through the loops of his pants.

“Okay,” I said as I picked up his cigarette box from the ground. I handed it to him. “Let’s go back inside.”

Harry grabbed my wrist as I held out the cigarette box to him. He looked down at my wrist and saw indents from the belts and purple around my wrists.

“Did I give you those bruises?” he asked with sadness in his voice.

“No,” I said truthfully. “Those are from the other night. Guess you’re not the only one with battle wounds,” I said softly as I placed my hand gently over where his bruises were under his shirt. The bruises were very faint from where Josh was holding onto my wrists the other night.

He pulled my wrist up and placed a delicate kiss against the purple. “I love you,” he said against my wrist.

I used my free hand to cup his face. I gently traced over his stubble with my thumb. “I don’t think I’ll ever get sick of hearing that,” I admitted with a blush.

Harry smiled and turned his head to kiss my palm. He took the cigarette box from my hand and shoved it into his pocket. He laced his fingers with mine as we headed back toward the house.

“It’s about time,” Liam mumbled as we walked through the sliding glass door that led us into the kitchen.

I gave him a confused look as Niall and Louis walked into the room.

“Are you feeling better?” Louis asked me.

“Oh, um…yeah,” I blushed and bowed my head. I had almost forgotten that I used my anxiety as an excuse to leave the house. “I’m pretty tired though. I think I’m to take a shower and then lay down.”

“Oh, I bet you’re tired,” Liam said with a laugh.

I ignored him and let go of Harry to disappear down the hallway and into his room to grab my backpack and head into the bathroom.

-

After my shower, I pulled on a t-shirt and some pajama pants before going back into Harry’s room. He was sitting at his desk singing. I tried my best to remain silent as he went from singing to writing some things down on a notepad in front of him. I crawled onto his bed, still careful to not make a noise and disturb him. I watched him as he worked.

He wrote something down, scribbled it out, and then eventually dropped the pen in frustration. He turned around and our eyes met. “Hey,” he said softly.

“Hi,” I replied with a smile.

“The guys heard us up against the house,” he said with a half frown. “That’s why they were acting weird.”

“Oh,” I blushed lightly. “Guess we need to find a new place to retreat to.”

“Yeah, I guess so,” he said as he climbed onto the bed. He lay down on his stomach with his right arm over my torso and his right leg draped over my left.

“We should try your car again,” I suggested.

“But last time it was so difficult,” he whined. “I’m too tall.”

“No, it could work. You just need to sit on the seat and let me do the work,” I explained. It was so weird having conversations so openly like this, but I also loved it at the same time.

“Oh, why didn’t we think of that before?”

“I don’t know,” I shrugged. “Wanna go try?”

Harry lifted his head from the pillow very quickly. “Are you serious?”

“Yeah, why not?” I bent down and pressed a kiss to Harry’s lips. “Let’s go.”

He got up quickly and pulled a condom out from the drawer next to his bed and shoved it in his pocket. He laced our fingers together and led me out the room in a hurry. As we walked through the living room all of the guys gave us weird looks.

“Where are you going?” Louis asked as Harry picked up his keys from the key ring by the front door.

“Just in the car,” Harry said simply.

“Why?” Louis squinted and peered at us. “What are you doing?”

“I’m going to fuck my boyfriend in the backseat of his car,” I replied with a shrug. Harry let out a laugh from beside me and Niall and Liam soon joined in on the laughter.

Louis’s face coiled in a look of disgust. “No, I don’t want that image,” he whined. “Why did you tell me that?”

“No more secrets, right?” I smiled.

“You guys are seriously going again? It hasn’t even been thirty minutes,” Liam said.

Harry shook his head. “Don’t wait up, honey!” he called into the living room as we shut the door behind us.

His car was parked across the street and it was dark outside, so we didn’t need to worry about parking anywhere else. Harry climbed into the backseat and I climbed in after him, immediately straddling him.

“See? This could work,” I said as I examined all of the room around us.

Harry rested his hands on my hips and gave me a large grin.

“What?” I asked with a laugh.

“You called me your boyfriend,” he said through his smile.

I blushed a bit. “Well, you are.”

“I know,” he said, “I just like hearing you say it.”

I bent down and kissed him. “I love you,” I said.

“I like hearing you say that, too.” He pulled my shirt off before connecting our lips again.

Notes

Another happy chapter before stuff starts to unravel again. We've still got a lot to deal with in this!
We're also going to be learning a lot about Gianna because her therapy is going to be starting soon. And more is going to come along with that...

Also, if you guys are not comfortable with the whole sex thing, please tell me. Especially if you guys are underage. I just ask because there is going to be more coming and I don't want to keep writing it if some of you have issues with it. I should have asked earlier, so that's my fault.

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