Pity Party
Chapter Seven
HARRY POV
I woke up to the smell of bacon. Melanie isn't in my arms like she was last night. I felt very alone without her. I look to her night stand and see it's 7:30.
So I decided to get up and take a quick shower. Melanie only has cherry scented soap. So I smell like a cherry rose. I wrap myself in her towel and walk out to her closet and grab my boxers and black fitted jeans with a white T-shirt.
It's laundry day so I get ready and take Melanie's sheets off her bed and replace them with new vintage pink sheets. I grab her clothes from yesterday and some of her other clothes and send them down the laundry shoot so her maid could wash them.
I grab my dirty clothes also and send them down. I finish making her bed and lay down. "So what do I do know." I ask myself and the door flies open "Well I would think you are hungry?" Melanie laughs as I fly off her bed to hide.
"Harry what are you doing?" She giggles. Oh how she giggles. She lights up my world. "I thought you were your mother." I chuckle softly and get up. "My parents left an hour ago, they won't be back till twelve. Oh and I also made some breakfast."
She smiles and walks over to me. She gives me a warm squeeze and a peck on the lips. "Your face looks better, I mean it doesn't looked as bruised as yesterday." I try to recover what I said. She laughs and shrugged it off.
"Let's go babe." She grabs my hand and tries to walk out but I grab her arm and pull her in so I could kiss her more. She was really shocked but kissed back so passionately. I love her lips on mine she makes me feel something electrifying. I wrap my hands around her waist and picked her up so her legs are wrapped around my torso.
She kisses down my neck and starts making small love bites. I moan softly and give her âss a tight squeeze. She gasps at the sudden motion and starts to attack my lips again. Why does she make me feel so good? I'm the luckiest guy on the planet. I always have loved her and I always will. I kiss back more roughly and she bites on my lip. She is so amazing, I can't wait to show her off to everyone.
"Uh um. You guys really need to shut the door. I don't want to see you guys swallowing each other." David says as he rubs his eyes and yawns. We start to laugh and I let Melanie down. "You shouldn't keep walking in on us." Mel grabs him into a hug. "Go get washed up, I made breakfast." She let's him go and he runs off saying "yaaay food!"
We start laughing, and walk to the kitchen. So I made pancakes, over medium eggs, potato cakes, biscuit and gravy, toast, sausage, ham and bacon. Oh and there is a breakfast casserole in the oven." she smiles bright. "Wow, you made all of that?" I chuckle and smile. "Yup" she pops the p and giggles. "Well are you hungry?" She laughs and grabs three plates and silverware.
"Always." I laugh and start to serve my plate. "This looks so delicious Melanie. Who taught you how to cook?" I asked. "Believe it or not, my da-. Liam, Liam taught me how to cook." She looks down to her bare feet. "You mean your father." I look for any sign of hope that there relationship will restore. "No, I mean Liam." She sighs and looks up at me.
"Mel, you can't do this. I know what it's like to hurt and "hate" your dad but it's not right." I sigh and look down at my plate. "Oh so hitting your daughter is then." she screams slightly. She got angry very quickly and I'm scared there will be no way to help her not dislike her father. I need to make her understand that her dad loves her and care's for her even if he made a bad mistake.
"I never said that Mel, what he did to you was very wrong, but still you have to restore your guy's relationship. He loves you, I know he does, just give him a chance to prove himself." I say sternly and look up to meet her eyes. A light gloss shines in her beautiful eyes, she is worth so much more than the salty tears. She nodded her head and says okay.
"Hey guys, this smells so gooood." David walks in and grabs Melanie's plate and starts serving himself. She instantly smiles and the gloss disappears. "Hey twerp that was my plate." She swats him on the shoulder. "The key word is "was" Mel." He evilly laughs and takes a bite of his bacon strip. "Your lucky you get food, I could let you starve if I wanted too." She says as she pours us orange juice.
He piles pancakes on to his plate and loads them with banana syrup. "Thanks Mel, you're the best." He laughs and smiles as he sits at the breakfast bar. She hands David and I the juice. I sit next to him and start to eat. "This is so fûcking delicious." I say as I stuff my face more. David and her start laughing. "Just wait till the breakfast casserole, you'll be begging for her to cook for you everyday." David smiles and chuckles.
"I'm starting to regret throwing all that spaghetti away." I say sternly. "Are you really that serious curly fries?" Mel laughs more. "Yes, I'm very serious." I say with a straight face. They laugh more and the oven timer bings. "The casserole is done." She gets up turns the oven off, takes the steamy food out and sets it right in front of me. I swear my mouth began to water. It looks so good. "Okay now, who gets first slice?" She smiles as she cut the cheesy casserole in squares.
"Me!" David and I say at the same time. "Hm let me think; boyfriend or brother?" she can not be doing this to us. "I pick me." She giggles and puts the slice on her plate. "Hey that's not fair, I wanted it." David and I say in synch. "Oh boo hoo hoo, I made it right?" she giggles as she gives David and I a slice. We both dug in rapidly burning our tongues in the process.
"Omg this is so good Melanie." I say as I stuff my face. "Liam taught me how to make this casserole while mom was in the hospital with you Dave. I uh mean dad, Dad taught me how to make it." She correctly says. There was an awkward silence so I broke it. "So uh we have school tomorrow, after school do you want to run some drills?" I ask David.
"Uh yeah, I need to ask dad to buy me some cleats and equipment tho." He says and grabs another strip of bacon "What do you need to ask me son?" Their dad walks in and Mel chokes on her food. "Uh well I was wanting to know if you can buy me some equipment for football. Harry says tomorrow he can run some drills with me." He says very low.
"Oh uh how much is the equipment." He asks sternly. "The cleats are about $50-60, the ball is $15, gloves and cones are $15 each. If you want a goalie net there about $100, the padding is $20 and then the uniform is $35 Mr. Payne" I say. "You play footy, Harold?" He asks. "Yes sir since I was 5." I respond. "Okay I'll give you the credit card. You guys can go buy it today so you can have if for tomorrow." he says as he hands me the credit card.
"So what time did you get here Harold? It's pretty early yeah." He asks me. I feel bad, I don't want to lie about it. "Melanie invited me for breakfast, so I dropped by." I say trying to convince him. "Oh okay." He smiles. "So I heard Mrs. Payne isn't doing to well." I say as I get more food.
"Uh yeah, she is at the doctor's office, they say that she may have food poisoning. The doctors are prescribing her some medicine for the stomach pain. He replied back. "It's such a shame, she is an amazing mom and wife. She is like my second mom. I hope she gets well soon." I say before scarfing my face with food. "Indeed it is, I hope she gets well too." He says and sits down in front of me.
"Do you want some food dad?" Melanie ask very quickly. "Uh yeah love, can you make me some coffee as well." He says as he grabs his tablet. "Yes sir." She replies. She whipped up his coffee and breakfast and gave it to him. "Thanks love." He smiles and then it fades. "What's wrong." She asks. "Uh nothing send the boys up to the game room, I need to talk to you." She nods.
"Can you guys go up to the game room please." She fake smiles and shows us up the stairs. I give her a peck on the lips before I walk up half way and send David up."I forgot my phone I'll be up in a minute." I say as I walk down to the kitchen. I was going to walk in but I heard Melanie talking so I just listened. "So uh what do you need to talk about?" She asks him. "We need to talk about what happened yesterday." He says.
"What is there to talk about, it's done and over with, you can't do anything." She says with a little shake in her voice. "Melanie I just want to say that I'm very sorry. There are no words to explain to you on how sorry I am. I know there is nothing for me to mend our father daughter relationship to how it was, but I would like to try. All I'm asking is for you to give me a chance. Please Melanie, please. He says as he cries softly.
"I try so hard to hate you for what you've done to me, but you're my father and I love you. I'll give you your chance, but I want you to promise me that you will never lay another finger on me, because if you do I will not know how to forgive you." she says as she cries. I hate when she cries, it makes me want to cry. I want her happy and smiling all the time.
"I promise." He says softly as he cries. I peek in and see them hugging. I thank God that they're going to try and move past this. Melanie needs her father and by this he needs his daughter just as much. I was going to tell my father to deny her father's offer at the meeting but this changed my mind.
"I have something to tell you dad. She says as they let go. "Sure love what is it." he asks while he wipes his tears away. "Harry and I are in a relationship." She says quickly and looks for a sign that he isn't going to go mad. "Finally, it took him long enough." He laughs and she starts laughing as well.
"So you're not mad." She asks. "I'm not mad, I know that you liked him, ever since he moved down the block two years ago and I know that he is a good person. I approve of him." She smiles and pulls him into a big hug.
He approves, yes he approved! Wait. what? She liked me ever since I moved into the block. Why didn't she tell me? Why didn't she ask me out, but most important question is how did I not see it. I would have totally said yes to her. I love everything about her I think to myself. They pull away and then I walk in. "Hey, I'm sorry I forgot my phone" I say as I walk to the breakfast island and pick up my phone.
"So this is the famous lad, that is in a relationship with my daughter" He asks. I blush and smile at Melanie and him. "Yes sir, I am that lad" I pull my hand out for a handshake. He puts his hand out but instead of shaking my hand he pulls me into a big hug and pats me on the back.
"Welcome to the family, Harold. I want you to respect my daughter and keep her safe. Make sure she is happy and that she is well taken care of." He says and let's go.
"Thank you Mr.Payne, I promise you I will." I say as Melanie gets really excited, runs to kiss me on lips and hugs me really tight. "Call me Liam, Harold. It makes me feel younger." We all start laughing. "Oy Harry, what the hell? You take longer then my mum when she is at the nail salon." David walks in and says sarcastically. We all start laughing. "Hey sorry mate. Go get ready and we'll go get your sportswear, yeah?" I say and his face lights up.
"Hell yeah" he says as he runs out and up the stairs. We all laugh then my phone started to ring. "Shit, I forgot Lilly is on her way." I say as I answer the phone. "Hey, yeah we are here. Okay, we will be waiting." I say as I hang up the phone and and put it in my pocket. "Why is Lilly coming over? Melanie asked confused. "Your best friend can't come and see you Mel?" Her dad says and laughs. "Well I didn't mean it in a bad way, I'm just curious." She laughs as the doorbell rang.
"Let her explain it to you." We walk to the door and open it and see a girl who has lots of presents in her arms, then we see the blond boy with more wrapped gifts with pink glitter. "So are you going to give me a hug or not best friend." She laughs and pulls Mel into a big hug. Then she looks at her lip and cheek and whispers something in her ear. "Omg, did a unicorn puke or something." David runs down the stairs and laughs.
"I'm pretty sure it did." Niall stumbles in with all the gifts. We laugh and shut the door. 'Who is this for? My dad says and laughs. "Its for our princess." Niall, Lilly and I get on our knees and bow down. We all start laughing. "So are you going to open them because if your not I will." David says. We laugh and Lilly hands her a pink wrapped box and she opens it.
"Omg, you guys didn't?" She squeals and jumps up and down like a little kid. "Oh yes we did." Lilly and Niall said in sync. She pulls out a pair of black ripped shorts and a T-shirt with Brendon Urie on it as well as a CD album. "It's there new album" Niall says. "Panic At The Disco is my everything." Mel says and hugs Niall and Lilly.
She opens the rest of her gifts and I can't help but feel overly excited. Her smile is the most happiest thing I ever seen. I want her to be happy and smiley all the time. "Since you opened all their presents, I have one for you too Mel." Mr. Payne hands her an envelope and she pulls out 12 tickets. Six two way plane tickets to Vegas and six V.I.P tickets to P!ATD concert. "I already talked to your parents and they all said yes you can go as well as your teachers, they said that get your work done in class and you should be good." Her dad says and all of us just stood there in shock.
"Are you like being serious Mr. Payne?" Niall asks uncurtained. "Yes I'm one hundred percent serious." He says with a stern face. "So who is the sixth tickets for?" David asks. "Oh it's for Jessica." Mr. Payne says. "Yay my twin is going with."Niall says sarcastically as we all laugh and look at each other and cheered, "We're going to Vegas!"
We hugged Mr. Payne and thanked him. "I have a 5 star hotel booked for 5 days and my best friend son will be checking up on you guys. Making sure no funny business is happening. We all said okay and are goodbyes. "Thank you dad" Mel says as she gives him a big hug and walks out the door.
*Walks to Harry's house and gets his car.*
MELANIE POV
The car ride was really peaceful. "I really can't believe our parents are letting us go to vegas!" David says excitedly. "Same." Harry and I say in sync. "After we're done shopping can we go eat?" David says. "David are you always thinking about food? Harry laughs while he parks the car. "Pretty much." He laughs and gets out of the car. "What about girls mate?" He smiles cheekily and responds.
"Well there is this one girl, I really like. Her name is Ana Marie. She is the most prettiest girl I ever laid eyes on. I'm always shy when she talks to me or when I'm around her tho." David says as we walk into Academy. "Aw that's adorable Dave." I say as I grab a kart and follow Harold. "You should talk to her mate, she probably likes you too. You just gotta take chances." Harry says and walks into a soccer aisle. "Well there is the 8th grade prom two weeks from now but she probably has a date already." David says sadly.
"You should ask, you never know your outcome till you try. That's how I got with your sister. She liked me ever since I moved here and it's the same for me, but we never knew because we didn't say anything till now. So just ask and maybe you'll get lucky. Just like me." Harry walks and holds me close as he pecks my lips. Omg how the hell did he find out. Did he really like me since he moved here? Why didn't he tell me or ask me out? "Uh yeah, maybe." Davids says as he looks at us with a funky face. We both chuckle and Harry says we should look for the cleats first.
"What size of shoe do you wear and what color do would want?" Harry asks "I wear 8½ and I want them to be red, black and blue" He says as he pulls a shoe box out. "Okay mate, let's see what we can get you." After hours and hours of shopping he finally got a perfect pair of cleats and all the other necessities for footy. I personally hate shopping but with Dave; he just makes everything better. We go to check out and a girl with long blonde hair starts to scan all the items. She starts talking with Harry and I can't help but boil up. She starts giggling and touches his hand as he hands her the card.
"Hey Melanie, are you okay?" Dave taps my shoulder and brings me out of my thoughts of slapping the perky blonde across the face. I grab the bags and put the big goalie box in the cart. "Uh yeah Dave I'm okay." I say and watch the girl write something on the receipt. I see that her number is on it and a winky face. "Call me if you need anything." She says as she puts her finger on her lips. I swear I was going to hop over the shopping belt and punch the living hell out of her, but before I could react. Harry speaks
"Uh not to put you down or anything but I have a girlfriend." He puts his arm around my waist tightly and walks off with David and I leaving the girl dumbfounded. I mentally stick my tongue at her and laugh. Haha he is mine bîtch! We walk to the car and load everything in. "So where to now?" Harry says as he starts the engine and pulls the seat belt over himself.
"Well it is 10:47 we been in there for a good hour, should we go home so I can make food or should we go out and eat." I say as he drives around to exit the parking lot. "I really want to go to the new Chinese place but we should go home and eat because mom is ill." David smiles and taps his toes to the music. "Okay let's go food shopping and then I'll cook at home" I say as I start singing.
" Staying in my play pretend where the fun ain't got no end, ohh can't go home alone again need someone to numb the pain ohh ooh staying in my play pretend where the fun ain't got no end oh ohh oh can't go home alone again need someone to numb the pain."
Harry starts singing and David as well. Its perfect.
"You're gone and I gotta stay high all the time to keep you off my mind oh ohh oh high all the time to keep you off my mind oh ohh oh spend my days locked in a haze try to forget you babe I fall back down gotta stay high all my life to forget I'm missing you"
-ToveLo
Harry has a voice of an angel and David is on the choir team. Then I'm here with no talent at all. "Why didn't you tell me you could sing?" Harry asks me. I just went blank and then started laughing. "I can't sing, well I can but it sounds like a dying squirrel." I say as I laugh more. "Mel has always been in denial when it comes to her singing voice."
David chimes in as he sings the next song. "Why babe, your voice is amazing!" He says as he lays his hand on my thigh. Omg the feels, he gives me shocking electricity powering up in my body, from head to toe. "I just know my voice isn't good" I say quietly. "Babe your amazing, better than me." He says taking his hand off of me and puts it back on the wheel. Why did he do that? I want to feel more sparks!
I start singing again and realizing Harry and David were already singing. I love them both maybe my life is turning around for the better. Maybe all I need is them. They make my life brighter and happy.
"I'm gonna show you loco, maniac, sick bítch, psychopath, yeah I'm gonna show you, I'm gonna show you, yeah I'm gonna show you mental of a brain, bad shít, go insane, yeah I'm gonna show you,I'm gonna show you, I'm gonna show you."
-BebeRexa
We come to a stop and Harry parks the car. We all get off and walk into the market. "I'm gonna go to the restroom guys I'll catch up with you." David says as he runs off to the bathroom. Harry grabs my hand and whispers into my ear. "I don't want you getting all jelly again." He smirks and grabs a cart. My cheeks start burning. "I wasn't jelly." I say quietly. "Melanie don't lie I know you were jealous when that cashier girl was flirting with me." He say's while going down the frozen food isle.
"You mean slùt." I say under my breath. "See I knew it." He pokes my nose. "Okay so what, I should be jelly, she was stepping over her boundaries." I say grabbing frozen pizza bites. "Oh so we have boundaries now?" He chuckles and pushes the cart further down the aisle.
"Well uh I guess so, well only if you want." I stutter and pick out a tub of vanilla ice cream. "Babe your my girlfriend and I'll scream it out to the world. I know you have trust issues but baby I'm here, I'm not going to leave you, and that's a promise I am willing to prove. He say's as he hugs me tightly.
(Lol pours out his feelings in a supermarket means he a keeper)
"Do you really mean that Harold?" I hug him back and kiss his lips. We kiss more passionately and then let go. We receive lots of stares. "I promise Melanie with all my heart." People are still staring then we hear a sarcastic yell. "Yes people, they just did that, they kissed, now go back to your lame shopping and carry on with your day." David walks waving his hands in the air shoeing the people. We couldn't help but laugh really loud while some of the people look like they got the wind knocked out of them.
"Thanks Dave, your the best little brother anyone can have." Melanie hugs him tightly. "I'm not getting anymore used to walking in on you guys, you guys really need to change your timing." He laughs as he pushes the cart down the other aisle. Harry laughs and follows with me hand in hand. After going down multiple aisle we decided on a light salad as an appetizer then for the main course fried chicken, mashed potatoes, macaroni and cheese, with butter rolls and for dessert my homemade cherry pie.
We grab all the items we need and laugh at the jokes David keeps saying. Then it hit me, that I forgot some items. "Give me a minute, I forgot the whip cream and cherries." I say to Harry and David who are currently sitting on a bench complaining they were tired.
"Okay babe hurry back." Harry says as I walk off. I walk into the aisle and then see the cherries on the top shelf. Who puts cherries on the top shelf when they know girls like me are short? I try and reach all the way on my tip toes.
Being in ballet comes in handy but not in this situation because I'm still short. I try and reach more all the way on point. Then I hear an unfamiliar voice. "That's very impressive." The stranger starts clapping. I return back to the ground. "Well yeah I guess." I say while laughing. "Do you need some help?" He asks while laughing. "Uh yeah, I need the cherries please." I say as my cheeks burn from embarrassment. "Ight, here you go cupcake."
I mentally laugh, why cupcake? He could have choose unicorn princess. He hands me the cherries and chuckles. "Do you need anything else ballerina." He asks. "Uh nope, but do I know you. You seem really familiar but I can't put my eye on it" I ask sheepishly.
"Oh yeah I go to the same high school as you, your in my world history and orchestra class. I always sit in the back, keep to myself and the familiarity is because my father is the algebra II teacher." He says explaining everything to me.
"Omg, you look just like your father. He is like my second favorite teacher you know he is super funny." I say examining his facial features. "Father like son ey." he chuckles. "Ey maybe we could hang sometime?" he asks and hands me his phone number on a piece of paper.
(Random right?? lol)
"Uh yeah, here is my number." I rip the paper he gave me and I scrible my digits down. "Well I have to go now. Oh uh I didn't get your name tho?" I say "Its James, James Malik." He says and grabs my hand planting a little kiss on it. "My name is Melanie, Melanie Payne." I say removing my tiny hand from his.
"What a pretty name for a pretty girl, I'll text you Melanie Payne." He grins as he walks off and leaves me there to collect my thoughts. I realize that I took ten minutes up, and run to collect the whip cream and back to the boys.
"What took you so long Mel?" Harry asks concerned. "Yeah Mel, you took forever and I'm starving" David say's. He is so childish. "I couldn't reach the cherries and then I met a friend that goes to our school and we talked for a little bit." I say as I put the items in the cart. "Oh who did you meet babe?" He asks as he gets up and pushes the cart to the checkout center. "The boy in our world history class, his name is James and his fath-" I was cut off mid sentence.
"I know his father. He is Mr Malik. I don't want you talking to him Mel, I mean it." He says harshly making sure his threat was clear. We receive some stares so we walk more. "But why can't-" Again I was cut off with a more pissed off Harry. "Because I said so Melanie, am I clear?" He yells sternly and the image of my father pops in front of me.
The only thing I could say was "Yes sir." Random people stare at me with sad faces, one even said you don't need all that abuse. I held my tears in and I know David was comforting me by holding my hand tightly but it just made me want to cry more. i can't stand him being angry with me. i didn't even do anything wrong.
The cashier scanned our items and looked at me with sympathy and say's "everything happens for a reason honey, you'll get through it." I look at her and smile weakly. I hate people feeling sorry for me, I feel weaker than I already am. We pay for the food and head off. Harry walked faster than David and I then I hear James call out but I ignore him for the sake of my sanity. He quickly catches up with me. "Hey what's wrong Mel? Are you okay?" He asks sadly.
"Nothing is wrong, I'm fine, can you please not talk to me." I say trying to keep my tears from spilling over and walk out to the car leaving James standing there confused.
Harry already loaded the car so David and I hop in and he takes off. The car ride home was really tense. I wanted to cry and cry. I really am a crybaby. I hate being so sensitive. We arrive at my house and I immediately jump out and go inside leaving Harry and David.
I walk half way up the stairs already crying my heart out when my mom calls out. "Sweetie are you okay?" She asks concerned. "Yes mom I'm fine, where is dad?" I sniffle my tears back "He went to his meeting and has been gone since." she says. I go back to crying because he is with that whôre from yesterday then the door flies open with Harry and David loaded with bags.
Harry looks at me with hurt and sorrow in his green watery eyes. "I'm going to my room I'll be back down to cook in a little." I run up the stairs crying tears falling faster. "Baby wait a minute can we talk?" Harry cries out but I ignore as he sprints up the stairs. I reach my room and lock the door in enough time before he reached me. He banged on the door wanting to come in but I ignore everything and head to my drawer and pull out my bandages panting and crying.
"Baby please listen to me, I'm sorry that I hurt you. I didn't mean it. Don't do it, please Melanie I beg you. I'm so sorry I hurt you baby please forgive me, please open the door, I'm sorry." He cries on the other side of the door. I grab my blade and walk to the door. "I'm sorry too." I say into the door and slid the blade on my wrist as I slide down the wall. I absolutely feel nothing as blood trickles down my wrist.
"No Mel,No No No. Baby why, why Melanie why." he cries and starts banging on the door like his life depended on it. I slid it three more times and get up cleaning myself and covering them with my hello kitty bandages. "Melanie please, open the door baby, please stop, I love you so much baby, I'm so sorry, please open the door." He tiredly bangs on the door "baby please, I didn't mean to hurt you" he cries louder I quickly change into a long sleeve and sweat pants with my vintage socks.
I put my blade and bandages away. I walk to the door open it and Harry falls in. He quickly gets up and hugs me. Nothing is said but all the emotions poor out in the hug. Harry is crying sorry, he is saying please forgive me, I love you, stop hurting yourself.
"I'm so sorry Melanie." He croaks out. He let's go of me and looks me in the eyes. His eyes are red and puffy with stained tears on his cheeks. Full of pain and grief. Why do I always hurt people that mean the most to me? "Its my fault, I forgive you but its my fault" I cry slightly. "Baby we will get through this I promise. You'll get better and happier." he cries out as he kisses my lips in between words.
"I'm sorry." I kiss him back passionately. He starts kissing down my neck and lifts my sleeves up. My body shudders and moves his hands away.
"My arms are ugly, I'm ugly." I say as I back away slowly and roll my sleeves down. "Baby no your not, your the most prettiest girl on the planet." He walks slowly and grabs me by the waist.
He brings my hand up to his lips and kisses it. He pulls my sleeve up and I can't help but close my eyes tightly. He is going to leave me now, he seen this yesterday and I know he is disgusted by me. I open my eyes and see his green eyes water. I hurt him, I'm destroying him.
He starts to kiss my scars and say's "I love you Melanie. Always remember that." on every scar and cut I have on my wrist. And all I can do was stare at him with tears pour out of my eyes staining my pale cheeks. We been together for almost a day and I broke him already. "Let's go cook babe, I'm starving." He kisses one last scar before taking me down to the kitchen.
*Skips Dinner Scene*
HARRY'S POV
I cry tears and pound on the door like my life depended on it. I made her hurt, I cry to myself more. We haven't been together for a day and I hurt her already. I made her harm herself not once but twice, she is so sensitive one wrong word can make her cry.
Have I made her cry before? I mean we have been friends for two years now. I probably hurt her on a daily bases. I'm a horrible friend, I'm a fùck up. I was just trying to protect her. James is a fùcking kid that took my sister. He hurt my sister to the point where she hated herself and now she is gone. This is all my fault. The whole scene flashed before my eyes.
*Flash Back*(READ AT YOUR OWN RISK PLEASE, SUICIDE CONTENT BELOW)
Gemma are you here? Gemma, James is a retard for letting you go. You deserve better. I say and walk into her room. That's when I see her with blood dripping down her arm, pills scattered on the floor and she has a gun pointed to her head. Gemma what the fùck are you doing? I start crying and walk very slow to her. She walks back every step I take.
"This is what I deserve. Everyone hates me Harry. James he was, he is my everything. I love him but he hates me because I'm ugly and loves that other girl." I stare at her confused and shocked. "Gemma, James is a fùcking idiot, you deserve better than that dip shit." I say crying my heart out. Praying that the trigger won't be pulled.
"James broke up with me because of that fùcking girl. I will never be good enough for anyone. I'm so fucking ugly. No one will love me with scars on my arms. I'm a freak of nature. I'm not good enough to live, nobody even noticed how broken I am. I cried for help and nobody helped.
For God sakes my own parents didn't even see the scars on my arms. Harry your the only one who cared for me. I love you, your the best brother anyone could ask for. I'm so sorry. I'm done Harry, tell them I love them and that I am happier now." She cries out.
"Gemma no." I cry and run to her. Then the gun shot went off, and her fresh lifeless body falls to the floor blood painting the walls. I cry and fall to the ground and hold her body close to me.
"No Gemma No! Your everything to me, everything Gemma. I love you so much, why Gemma why did you do this!? Gemma no no no! I fùcking need you Gemma.
Wake up Gemma! Wake up! Fucking WAKE UP!! You had so much for your future. Your beautiful, your pretty, your my world. I need you. I don't know what I'm supposed to do with out you! Please come back Gemma please come back I say dialing 911. Her blood stains my hand and clothes as I pull her closer to me. I will find that girl and I will make sure James pays for what he did to you.
911 what's your emergency?
My my sister, she just com- comm- committed suicide.
What's your name and your location?
1510 Ber- Berry Road, my my name is Harold.
Okay Harold, I need you to stay calm an ambulance and a police officer is on there way.
Okay, okay
I also need you to check for a pulse. Take your pointer and middle finger and place it on her inner neck. If you feel a thump say "I" every time.
There's, no no heart beat, she is gone she is dead. She she is never coming back. There's nothing nothing for me to live for, I'm I'm done.*picks up the gun and points it at my head*
Harold I need you to breath in and out. You have everything, everything to live for. Your important, the ambulance is turning on your corner, where are you located in your house?
But-but she was my my everything, she was was my sister, I don't know what what I'm going to to do without her. I'm I'm on the the second floor first first door on the right.*puts finger on the trigger*
Okay Harold there entering the house, I need you to stay calm and follow their orders. Everything will be okay. Everything happens for a reason Harold, weatherit'sfor good or bad. Your important Harold, your important.
*puts gun down*
I'm important, I'm important. I'm important.
*Flash Back Ends*
The door flies open and I fall straight to the ground. I get up and all I could do is just hug her. I was sorry, I wanted her to forgive me, I love her. I start kissing her like I was dying but maybe it's because I am.
All my feelings are dying and Melanie is keeping the blood pumping. We had our brief intimate moment and all I could do is just go on with the day. She followed me down to the kitchen and started cooking. I watched her and all I could think of was making her life better. I need her to make me function, she is my Gemma
I woke up to the smell of bacon. Melanie isn't in my arms like she was last night. I felt very alone without her. I look to her night stand and see it's 7:30.
So I decided to get up and take a quick shower. Melanie only has cherry scented soap. So I smell like a cherry rose. I wrap myself in her towel and walk out to her closet and grab my boxers and black fitted jeans with a white T-shirt.
It's laundry day so I get ready and take Melanie's sheets off her bed and replace them with new vintage pink sheets. I grab her clothes from yesterday and some of her other clothes and send them down the laundry shoot so her maid could wash them.
I grab my dirty clothes also and send them down. I finish making her bed and lay down. "So what do I do know." I ask myself and the door flies open "Well I would think you are hungry?" Melanie laughs as I fly off her bed to hide.
"Harry what are you doing?" She giggles. Oh how she giggles. She lights up my world. "I thought you were your mother." I chuckle softly and get up. "My parents left an hour ago, they won't be back till twelve. Oh and I also made some breakfast."
She smiles and walks over to me. She gives me a warm squeeze and a peck on the lips. "Your face looks better, I mean it doesn't looked as bruised as yesterday." I try to recover what I said. She laughs and shrugged it off.
"Let's go babe." She grabs my hand and tries to walk out but I grab her arm and pull her in so I could kiss her more. She was really shocked but kissed back so passionately. I love her lips on mine she makes me feel something electrifying. I wrap my hands around her waist and picked her up so her legs are wrapped around my torso.
She kisses down my neck and starts making small love bites. I moan softly and give her âss a tight squeeze. She gasps at the sudden motion and starts to attack my lips again. Why does she make me feel so good? I'm the luckiest guy on the planet. I always have loved her and I always will. I kiss back more roughly and she bites on my lip. She is so amazing, I can't wait to show her off to everyone.
"Uh um. You guys really need to shut the door. I don't want to see you guys swallowing each other." David says as he rubs his eyes and yawns. We start to laugh and I let Melanie down. "You shouldn't keep walking in on us." Mel grabs him into a hug. "Go get washed up, I made breakfast." She let's him go and he runs off saying "yaaay food!"
We start laughing, and walk to the kitchen. So I made pancakes, over medium eggs, potato cakes, biscuit and gravy, toast, sausage, ham and bacon. Oh and there is a breakfast casserole in the oven." she smiles bright. "Wow, you made all of that?" I chuckle and smile. "Yup" she pops the p and giggles. "Well are you hungry?" She laughs and grabs three plates and silverware.
"Always." I laugh and start to serve my plate. "This looks so delicious Melanie. Who taught you how to cook?" I asked. "Believe it or not, my da-. Liam, Liam taught me how to cook." She looks down to her bare feet. "You mean your father." I look for any sign of hope that there relationship will restore. "No, I mean Liam." She sighs and looks up at me.
"Mel, you can't do this. I know what it's like to hurt and "hate" your dad but it's not right." I sigh and look down at my plate. "Oh so hitting your daughter is then." she screams slightly. She got angry very quickly and I'm scared there will be no way to help her not dislike her father. I need to make her understand that her dad loves her and care's for her even if he made a bad mistake.
"I never said that Mel, what he did to you was very wrong, but still you have to restore your guy's relationship. He loves you, I know he does, just give him a chance to prove himself." I say sternly and look up to meet her eyes. A light gloss shines in her beautiful eyes, she is worth so much more than the salty tears. She nodded her head and says okay.
"Hey guys, this smells so gooood." David walks in and grabs Melanie's plate and starts serving himself. She instantly smiles and the gloss disappears. "Hey twerp that was my plate." She swats him on the shoulder. "The key word is "was" Mel." He evilly laughs and takes a bite of his bacon strip. "Your lucky you get food, I could let you starve if I wanted too." She says as she pours us orange juice.
He piles pancakes on to his plate and loads them with banana syrup. "Thanks Mel, you're the best." He laughs and smiles as he sits at the breakfast bar. She hands David and I the juice. I sit next to him and start to eat. "This is so fûcking delicious." I say as I stuff my face more. David and her start laughing. "Just wait till the breakfast casserole, you'll be begging for her to cook for you everyday." David smiles and chuckles.
"I'm starting to regret throwing all that spaghetti away." I say sternly. "Are you really that serious curly fries?" Mel laughs more. "Yes, I'm very serious." I say with a straight face. They laugh more and the oven timer bings. "The casserole is done." She gets up turns the oven off, takes the steamy food out and sets it right in front of me. I swear my mouth began to water. It looks so good. "Okay now, who gets first slice?" She smiles as she cut the cheesy casserole in squares.
"Me!" David and I say at the same time. "Hm let me think; boyfriend or brother?" she can not be doing this to us. "I pick me." She giggles and puts the slice on her plate. "Hey that's not fair, I wanted it." David and I say in synch. "Oh boo hoo hoo, I made it right?" she giggles as she gives David and I a slice. We both dug in rapidly burning our tongues in the process.
"Omg this is so good Melanie." I say as I stuff my face. "Liam taught me how to make this casserole while mom was in the hospital with you Dave. I uh mean dad, Dad taught me how to make it." She correctly says. There was an awkward silence so I broke it. "So uh we have school tomorrow, after school do you want to run some drills?" I ask David.
"Uh yeah, I need to ask dad to buy me some cleats and equipment tho." He says and grabs another strip of bacon "What do you need to ask me son?" Their dad walks in and Mel chokes on her food. "Uh well I was wanting to know if you can buy me some equipment for football. Harry says tomorrow he can run some drills with me." He says very low.
"Oh uh how much is the equipment." He asks sternly. "The cleats are about $50-60, the ball is $15, gloves and cones are $15 each. If you want a goalie net there about $100, the padding is $20 and then the uniform is $35 Mr. Payne" I say. "You play footy, Harold?" He asks. "Yes sir since I was 5." I respond. "Okay I'll give you the credit card. You guys can go buy it today so you can have if for tomorrow." he says as he hands me the credit card.
"So what time did you get here Harold? It's pretty early yeah." He asks me. I feel bad, I don't want to lie about it. "Melanie invited me for breakfast, so I dropped by." I say trying to convince him. "Oh okay." He smiles. "So I heard Mrs. Payne isn't doing to well." I say as I get more food.
"Uh yeah, she is at the doctor's office, they say that she may have food poisoning. The doctors are prescribing her some medicine for the stomach pain. He replied back. "It's such a shame, she is an amazing mom and wife. She is like my second mom. I hope she gets well soon." I say before scarfing my face with food. "Indeed it is, I hope she gets well too." He says and sits down in front of me.
"Do you want some food dad?" Melanie ask very quickly. "Uh yeah love, can you make me some coffee as well." He says as he grabs his tablet. "Yes sir." She replies. She whipped up his coffee and breakfast and gave it to him. "Thanks love." He smiles and then it fades. "What's wrong." She asks. "Uh nothing send the boys up to the game room, I need to talk to you." She nods.
"Can you guys go up to the game room please." She fake smiles and shows us up the stairs. I give her a peck on the lips before I walk up half way and send David up."I forgot my phone I'll be up in a minute." I say as I walk down to the kitchen. I was going to walk in but I heard Melanie talking so I just listened. "So uh what do you need to talk about?" She asks him. "We need to talk about what happened yesterday." He says.
"What is there to talk about, it's done and over with, you can't do anything." She says with a little shake in her voice. "Melanie I just want to say that I'm very sorry. There are no words to explain to you on how sorry I am. I know there is nothing for me to mend our father daughter relationship to how it was, but I would like to try. All I'm asking is for you to give me a chance. Please Melanie, please. He says as he cries softly.
"I try so hard to hate you for what you've done to me, but you're my father and I love you. I'll give you your chance, but I want you to promise me that you will never lay another finger on me, because if you do I will not know how to forgive you." she says as she cries. I hate when she cries, it makes me want to cry. I want her happy and smiling all the time.
"I promise." He says softly as he cries. I peek in and see them hugging. I thank God that they're going to try and move past this. Melanie needs her father and by this he needs his daughter just as much. I was going to tell my father to deny her father's offer at the meeting but this changed my mind.
"I have something to tell you dad. She says as they let go. "Sure love what is it." he asks while he wipes his tears away. "Harry and I are in a relationship." She says quickly and looks for a sign that he isn't going to go mad. "Finally, it took him long enough." He laughs and she starts laughing as well.
"So you're not mad." She asks. "I'm not mad, I know that you liked him, ever since he moved down the block two years ago and I know that he is a good person. I approve of him." She smiles and pulls him into a big hug.
He approves, yes he approved! Wait. what? She liked me ever since I moved into the block. Why didn't she tell me? Why didn't she ask me out, but most important question is how did I not see it. I would have totally said yes to her. I love everything about her I think to myself. They pull away and then I walk in. "Hey, I'm sorry I forgot my phone" I say as I walk to the breakfast island and pick up my phone.
"So this is the famous lad, that is in a relationship with my daughter" He asks. I blush and smile at Melanie and him. "Yes sir, I am that lad" I pull my hand out for a handshake. He puts his hand out but instead of shaking my hand he pulls me into a big hug and pats me on the back.
"Welcome to the family, Harold. I want you to respect my daughter and keep her safe. Make sure she is happy and that she is well taken care of." He says and let's go.
"Thank you Mr.Payne, I promise you I will." I say as Melanie gets really excited, runs to kiss me on lips and hugs me really tight. "Call me Liam, Harold. It makes me feel younger." We all start laughing. "Oy Harry, what the hell? You take longer then my mum when she is at the nail salon." David walks in and says sarcastically. We all start laughing. "Hey sorry mate. Go get ready and we'll go get your sportswear, yeah?" I say and his face lights up.
"Hell yeah" he says as he runs out and up the stairs. We all laugh then my phone started to ring. "Shit, I forgot Lilly is on her way." I say as I answer the phone. "Hey, yeah we are here. Okay, we will be waiting." I say as I hang up the phone and and put it in my pocket. "Why is Lilly coming over? Melanie asked confused. "Your best friend can't come and see you Mel?" Her dad says and laughs. "Well I didn't mean it in a bad way, I'm just curious." She laughs as the doorbell rang.
"Let her explain it to you." We walk to the door and open it and see a girl who has lots of presents in her arms, then we see the blond boy with more wrapped gifts with pink glitter. "So are you going to give me a hug or not best friend." She laughs and pulls Mel into a big hug. Then she looks at her lip and cheek and whispers something in her ear. "Omg, did a unicorn puke or something." David runs down the stairs and laughs.
"I'm pretty sure it did." Niall stumbles in with all the gifts. We laugh and shut the door. 'Who is this for? My dad says and laughs. "Its for our princess." Niall, Lilly and I get on our knees and bow down. We all start laughing. "So are you going to open them because if your not I will." David says. We laugh and Lilly hands her a pink wrapped box and she opens it.
"Omg, you guys didn't?" She squeals and jumps up and down like a little kid. "Oh yes we did." Lilly and Niall said in sync. She pulls out a pair of black ripped shorts and a T-shirt with Brendon Urie on it as well as a CD album. "It's there new album" Niall says. "Panic At The Disco is my everything." Mel says and hugs Niall and Lilly.
She opens the rest of her gifts and I can't help but feel overly excited. Her smile is the most happiest thing I ever seen. I want her to be happy and smiley all the time. "Since you opened all their presents, I have one for you too Mel." Mr. Payne hands her an envelope and she pulls out 12 tickets. Six two way plane tickets to Vegas and six V.I.P tickets to P!ATD concert. "I already talked to your parents and they all said yes you can go as well as your teachers, they said that get your work done in class and you should be good." Her dad says and all of us just stood there in shock.
"Are you like being serious Mr. Payne?" Niall asks uncurtained. "Yes I'm one hundred percent serious." He says with a stern face. "So who is the sixth tickets for?" David asks. "Oh it's for Jessica." Mr. Payne says. "Yay my twin is going with."Niall says sarcastically as we all laugh and look at each other and cheered, "We're going to Vegas!"
We hugged Mr. Payne and thanked him. "I have a 5 star hotel booked for 5 days and my best friend son will be checking up on you guys. Making sure no funny business is happening. We all said okay and are goodbyes. "Thank you dad" Mel says as she gives him a big hug and walks out the door.
*Walks to Harry's house and gets his car.*
MELANIE POV
The car ride was really peaceful. "I really can't believe our parents are letting us go to vegas!" David says excitedly. "Same." Harry and I say in sync. "After we're done shopping can we go eat?" David says. "David are you always thinking about food? Harry laughs while he parks the car. "Pretty much." He laughs and gets out of the car. "What about girls mate?" He smiles cheekily and responds.
"Well there is this one girl, I really like. Her name is Ana Marie. She is the most prettiest girl I ever laid eyes on. I'm always shy when she talks to me or when I'm around her tho." David says as we walk into Academy. "Aw that's adorable Dave." I say as I grab a kart and follow Harold. "You should talk to her mate, she probably likes you too. You just gotta take chances." Harry says and walks into a soccer aisle. "Well there is the 8th grade prom two weeks from now but she probably has a date already." David says sadly.
"You should ask, you never know your outcome till you try. That's how I got with your sister. She liked me ever since I moved here and it's the same for me, but we never knew because we didn't say anything till now. So just ask and maybe you'll get lucky. Just like me." Harry walks and holds me close as he pecks my lips. Omg how the hell did he find out. Did he really like me since he moved here? Why didn't he tell me or ask me out? "Uh yeah, maybe." Davids says as he looks at us with a funky face. We both chuckle and Harry says we should look for the cleats first.
"What size of shoe do you wear and what color do would want?" Harry asks "I wear 8½ and I want them to be red, black and blue" He says as he pulls a shoe box out. "Okay mate, let's see what we can get you." After hours and hours of shopping he finally got a perfect pair of cleats and all the other necessities for footy. I personally hate shopping but with Dave; he just makes everything better. We go to check out and a girl with long blonde hair starts to scan all the items. She starts talking with Harry and I can't help but boil up. She starts giggling and touches his hand as he hands her the card.
"Hey Melanie, are you okay?" Dave taps my shoulder and brings me out of my thoughts of slapping the perky blonde across the face. I grab the bags and put the big goalie box in the cart. "Uh yeah Dave I'm okay." I say and watch the girl write something on the receipt. I see that her number is on it and a winky face. "Call me if you need anything." She says as she puts her finger on her lips. I swear I was going to hop over the shopping belt and punch the living hell out of her, but before I could react. Harry speaks
"Uh not to put you down or anything but I have a girlfriend." He puts his arm around my waist tightly and walks off with David and I leaving the girl dumbfounded. I mentally stick my tongue at her and laugh. Haha he is mine bîtch! We walk to the car and load everything in. "So where to now?" Harry says as he starts the engine and pulls the seat belt over himself.
"Well it is 10:47 we been in there for a good hour, should we go home so I can make food or should we go out and eat." I say as he drives around to exit the parking lot. "I really want to go to the new Chinese place but we should go home and eat because mom is ill." David smiles and taps his toes to the music. "Okay let's go food shopping and then I'll cook at home" I say as I start singing.
" Staying in my play pretend where the fun ain't got no end, ohh can't go home alone again need someone to numb the pain ohh ooh staying in my play pretend where the fun ain't got no end oh ohh oh can't go home alone again need someone to numb the pain."
Harry starts singing and David as well. Its perfect.
"You're gone and I gotta stay high all the time to keep you off my mind oh ohh oh high all the time to keep you off my mind oh ohh oh spend my days locked in a haze try to forget you babe I fall back down gotta stay high all my life to forget I'm missing you"
-ToveLo
Harry has a voice of an angel and David is on the choir team. Then I'm here with no talent at all. "Why didn't you tell me you could sing?" Harry asks me. I just went blank and then started laughing. "I can't sing, well I can but it sounds like a dying squirrel." I say as I laugh more. "Mel has always been in denial when it comes to her singing voice."
David chimes in as he sings the next song. "Why babe, your voice is amazing!" He says as he lays his hand on my thigh. Omg the feels, he gives me shocking electricity powering up in my body, from head to toe. "I just know my voice isn't good" I say quietly. "Babe your amazing, better than me." He says taking his hand off of me and puts it back on the wheel. Why did he do that? I want to feel more sparks!
I start singing again and realizing Harry and David were already singing. I love them both maybe my life is turning around for the better. Maybe all I need is them. They make my life brighter and happy.
"I'm gonna show you loco, maniac, sick bítch, psychopath, yeah I'm gonna show you, I'm gonna show you, yeah I'm gonna show you mental of a brain, bad shít, go insane, yeah I'm gonna show you,I'm gonna show you, I'm gonna show you."
-BebeRexa
We come to a stop and Harry parks the car. We all get off and walk into the market. "I'm gonna go to the restroom guys I'll catch up with you." David says as he runs off to the bathroom. Harry grabs my hand and whispers into my ear. "I don't want you getting all jelly again." He smirks and grabs a cart. My cheeks start burning. "I wasn't jelly." I say quietly. "Melanie don't lie I know you were jealous when that cashier girl was flirting with me." He say's while going down the frozen food isle.
"You mean slùt." I say under my breath. "See I knew it." He pokes my nose. "Okay so what, I should be jelly, she was stepping over her boundaries." I say grabbing frozen pizza bites. "Oh so we have boundaries now?" He chuckles and pushes the cart further down the aisle.
"Well uh I guess so, well only if you want." I stutter and pick out a tub of vanilla ice cream. "Babe your my girlfriend and I'll scream it out to the world. I know you have trust issues but baby I'm here, I'm not going to leave you, and that's a promise I am willing to prove. He say's as he hugs me tightly.
(Lol pours out his feelings in a supermarket means he a keeper)
"Do you really mean that Harold?" I hug him back and kiss his lips. We kiss more passionately and then let go. We receive lots of stares. "I promise Melanie with all my heart." People are still staring then we hear a sarcastic yell. "Yes people, they just did that, they kissed, now go back to your lame shopping and carry on with your day." David walks waving his hands in the air shoeing the people. We couldn't help but laugh really loud while some of the people look like they got the wind knocked out of them.
"Thanks Dave, your the best little brother anyone can have." Melanie hugs him tightly. "I'm not getting anymore used to walking in on you guys, you guys really need to change your timing." He laughs as he pushes the cart down the other aisle. Harry laughs and follows with me hand in hand. After going down multiple aisle we decided on a light salad as an appetizer then for the main course fried chicken, mashed potatoes, macaroni and cheese, with butter rolls and for dessert my homemade cherry pie.
We grab all the items we need and laugh at the jokes David keeps saying. Then it hit me, that I forgot some items. "Give me a minute, I forgot the whip cream and cherries." I say to Harry and David who are currently sitting on a bench complaining they were tired.
"Okay babe hurry back." Harry says as I walk off. I walk into the aisle and then see the cherries on the top shelf. Who puts cherries on the top shelf when they know girls like me are short? I try and reach all the way on my tip toes.
Being in ballet comes in handy but not in this situation because I'm still short. I try and reach more all the way on point. Then I hear an unfamiliar voice. "That's very impressive." The stranger starts clapping. I return back to the ground. "Well yeah I guess." I say while laughing. "Do you need some help?" He asks while laughing. "Uh yeah, I need the cherries please." I say as my cheeks burn from embarrassment. "Ight, here you go cupcake."
I mentally laugh, why cupcake? He could have choose unicorn princess. He hands me the cherries and chuckles. "Do you need anything else ballerina." He asks. "Uh nope, but do I know you. You seem really familiar but I can't put my eye on it" I ask sheepishly.
"Oh yeah I go to the same high school as you, your in my world history and orchestra class. I always sit in the back, keep to myself and the familiarity is because my father is the algebra II teacher." He says explaining everything to me.
"Omg, you look just like your father. He is like my second favorite teacher you know he is super funny." I say examining his facial features. "Father like son ey." he chuckles. "Ey maybe we could hang sometime?" he asks and hands me his phone number on a piece of paper.
(Random right?? lol)
"Uh yeah, here is my number." I rip the paper he gave me and I scrible my digits down. "Well I have to go now. Oh uh I didn't get your name tho?" I say "Its James, James Malik." He says and grabs my hand planting a little kiss on it. "My name is Melanie, Melanie Payne." I say removing my tiny hand from his.
"What a pretty name for a pretty girl, I'll text you Melanie Payne." He grins as he walks off and leaves me there to collect my thoughts. I realize that I took ten minutes up, and run to collect the whip cream and back to the boys.
"What took you so long Mel?" Harry asks concerned. "Yeah Mel, you took forever and I'm starving" David say's. He is so childish. "I couldn't reach the cherries and then I met a friend that goes to our school and we talked for a little bit." I say as I put the items in the cart. "Oh who did you meet babe?" He asks as he gets up and pushes the cart to the checkout center. "The boy in our world history class, his name is James and his fath-" I was cut off mid sentence.
"I know his father. He is Mr Malik. I don't want you talking to him Mel, I mean it." He says harshly making sure his threat was clear. We receive some stares so we walk more. "But why can't-" Again I was cut off with a more pissed off Harry. "Because I said so Melanie, am I clear?" He yells sternly and the image of my father pops in front of me.
The only thing I could say was "Yes sir." Random people stare at me with sad faces, one even said you don't need all that abuse. I held my tears in and I know David was comforting me by holding my hand tightly but it just made me want to cry more. i can't stand him being angry with me. i didn't even do anything wrong.
The cashier scanned our items and looked at me with sympathy and say's "everything happens for a reason honey, you'll get through it." I look at her and smile weakly. I hate people feeling sorry for me, I feel weaker than I already am. We pay for the food and head off. Harry walked faster than David and I then I hear James call out but I ignore him for the sake of my sanity. He quickly catches up with me. "Hey what's wrong Mel? Are you okay?" He asks sadly.
"Nothing is wrong, I'm fine, can you please not talk to me." I say trying to keep my tears from spilling over and walk out to the car leaving James standing there confused.
Harry already loaded the car so David and I hop in and he takes off. The car ride home was really tense. I wanted to cry and cry. I really am a crybaby. I hate being so sensitive. We arrive at my house and I immediately jump out and go inside leaving Harry and David.
I walk half way up the stairs already crying my heart out when my mom calls out. "Sweetie are you okay?" She asks concerned. "Yes mom I'm fine, where is dad?" I sniffle my tears back "He went to his meeting and has been gone since." she says. I go back to crying because he is with that whôre from yesterday then the door flies open with Harry and David loaded with bags.
Harry looks at me with hurt and sorrow in his green watery eyes. "I'm going to my room I'll be back down to cook in a little." I run up the stairs crying tears falling faster. "Baby wait a minute can we talk?" Harry cries out but I ignore as he sprints up the stairs. I reach my room and lock the door in enough time before he reached me. He banged on the door wanting to come in but I ignore everything and head to my drawer and pull out my bandages panting and crying.
"Baby please listen to me, I'm sorry that I hurt you. I didn't mean it. Don't do it, please Melanie I beg you. I'm so sorry I hurt you baby please forgive me, please open the door, I'm sorry." He cries on the other side of the door. I grab my blade and walk to the door. "I'm sorry too." I say into the door and slid the blade on my wrist as I slide down the wall. I absolutely feel nothing as blood trickles down my wrist.
"No Mel,No No No. Baby why, why Melanie why." he cries and starts banging on the door like his life depended on it. I slid it three more times and get up cleaning myself and covering them with my hello kitty bandages. "Melanie please, open the door baby, please stop, I love you so much baby, I'm so sorry, please open the door." He tiredly bangs on the door "baby please, I didn't mean to hurt you" he cries louder I quickly change into a long sleeve and sweat pants with my vintage socks.
I put my blade and bandages away. I walk to the door open it and Harry falls in. He quickly gets up and hugs me. Nothing is said but all the emotions poor out in the hug. Harry is crying sorry, he is saying please forgive me, I love you, stop hurting yourself.
"I'm so sorry Melanie." He croaks out. He let's go of me and looks me in the eyes. His eyes are red and puffy with stained tears on his cheeks. Full of pain and grief. Why do I always hurt people that mean the most to me? "Its my fault, I forgive you but its my fault" I cry slightly. "Baby we will get through this I promise. You'll get better and happier." he cries out as he kisses my lips in between words.
"I'm sorry." I kiss him back passionately. He starts kissing down my neck and lifts my sleeves up. My body shudders and moves his hands away.
"My arms are ugly, I'm ugly." I say as I back away slowly and roll my sleeves down. "Baby no your not, your the most prettiest girl on the planet." He walks slowly and grabs me by the waist.
He brings my hand up to his lips and kisses it. He pulls my sleeve up and I can't help but close my eyes tightly. He is going to leave me now, he seen this yesterday and I know he is disgusted by me. I open my eyes and see his green eyes water. I hurt him, I'm destroying him.
He starts to kiss my scars and say's "I love you Melanie. Always remember that." on every scar and cut I have on my wrist. And all I can do was stare at him with tears pour out of my eyes staining my pale cheeks. We been together for almost a day and I broke him already. "Let's go cook babe, I'm starving." He kisses one last scar before taking me down to the kitchen.
*Skips Dinner Scene*
HARRY'S POV
I cry tears and pound on the door like my life depended on it. I made her hurt, I cry to myself more. We haven't been together for a day and I hurt her already. I made her harm herself not once but twice, she is so sensitive one wrong word can make her cry.
Have I made her cry before? I mean we have been friends for two years now. I probably hurt her on a daily bases. I'm a horrible friend, I'm a fùck up. I was just trying to protect her. James is a fùcking kid that took my sister. He hurt my sister to the point where she hated herself and now she is gone. This is all my fault. The whole scene flashed before my eyes.
*Flash Back*(READ AT YOUR OWN RISK PLEASE, SUICIDE CONTENT BELOW)
Gemma are you here? Gemma, James is a retard for letting you go. You deserve better. I say and walk into her room. That's when I see her with blood dripping down her arm, pills scattered on the floor and she has a gun pointed to her head. Gemma what the fùck are you doing? I start crying and walk very slow to her. She walks back every step I take.
"This is what I deserve. Everyone hates me Harry. James he was, he is my everything. I love him but he hates me because I'm ugly and loves that other girl." I stare at her confused and shocked. "Gemma, James is a fùcking idiot, you deserve better than that dip shit." I say crying my heart out. Praying that the trigger won't be pulled.
"James broke up with me because of that fùcking girl. I will never be good enough for anyone. I'm so fucking ugly. No one will love me with scars on my arms. I'm a freak of nature. I'm not good enough to live, nobody even noticed how broken I am. I cried for help and nobody helped.
For God sakes my own parents didn't even see the scars on my arms. Harry your the only one who cared for me. I love you, your the best brother anyone could ask for. I'm so sorry. I'm done Harry, tell them I love them and that I am happier now." She cries out.
"Gemma no." I cry and run to her. Then the gun shot went off, and her fresh lifeless body falls to the floor blood painting the walls. I cry and fall to the ground and hold her body close to me.
"No Gemma No! Your everything to me, everything Gemma. I love you so much, why Gemma why did you do this!? Gemma no no no! I fùcking need you Gemma.
Wake up Gemma! Wake up! Fucking WAKE UP!! You had so much for your future. Your beautiful, your pretty, your my world. I need you. I don't know what I'm supposed to do with out you! Please come back Gemma please come back I say dialing 911. Her blood stains my hand and clothes as I pull her closer to me. I will find that girl and I will make sure James pays for what he did to you.
911 what's your emergency?
My my sister, she just com- comm- committed suicide.
What's your name and your location?
1510 Ber- Berry Road, my my name is Harold.
Okay Harold, I need you to stay calm an ambulance and a police officer is on there way.
Okay, okay
I also need you to check for a pulse. Take your pointer and middle finger and place it on her inner neck. If you feel a thump say "I" every time.
There's, no no heart beat, she is gone she is dead. She she is never coming back. There's nothing nothing for me to live for, I'm I'm done.*picks up the gun and points it at my head*
Harold I need you to breath in and out. You have everything, everything to live for. Your important, the ambulance is turning on your corner, where are you located in your house?
But-but she was my my everything, she was was my sister, I don't know what what I'm going to to do without her. I'm I'm on the the second floor first first door on the right.*puts finger on the trigger*
Okay Harold there entering the house, I need you to stay calm and follow their orders. Everything will be okay. Everything happens for a reason Harold, weatherit'sfor good or bad. Your important Harold, your important.
*puts gun down*
I'm important, I'm important. I'm important.
*Flash Back Ends*
The door flies open and I fall straight to the ground. I get up and all I could do is just hug her. I was sorry, I wanted her to forgive me, I love her. I start kissing her like I was dying but maybe it's because I am.
All my feelings are dying and Melanie is keeping the blood pumping. We had our brief intimate moment and all I could do is just go on with the day. She followed me down to the kitchen and started cooking. I watched her and all I could think of was making her life better. I need her to make me function, she is my Gemma
Notes
Y'all probably read this already but yeah... if my chapters don't make sense cuz they dont pick up off where they left off please tell me!!!
Any who hello my lovelies, first six weeks of school complete. It's going well but I gotta wear uniforms ugh.. Anyone else gotta wear them?? Soo this chapter really made me cry a lot. My heart goes out to people who lost someone who has taken their life, or people who have attempted or harm their self. If any of y'all need to talk to anyone I'm here if you wanna talk or if you just want a listener, I'M HERE FOR YOU!!!!
Love,
Teresa Bravo
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6/20/17