Pity Party

MELANIE POV
I wake up to a slam on the door. “Why do you always have to be like that Liam? I didn’t do anything wrong.” My mom yells as she slams her diamond purse on the table. “Hmm you didn’t do anything wrong? You were flirting with my boss right in front of me.” He screams at her.

I look at Harry and he is still asleep, so I try and wake him up so he can leave. I know where this argument is going and I didn’t want Harry to see me break down again. “Babe, wake up you need to leave.” I whisper just for him to hear. “Harry please wake up, you need to leave now.” I shake him more.

“I wasn’t flirting with your boss! We were just talking, and what about you and his wife you were making fuck me eyes at each other all night!” My mom starts to cry and walk toward the living room. I quickly jump in the bed and snuggle up to Harry.

Harry’s eyes flutter open “close your eyes quickly and keep them closed.” I whisper. He does as he was told and the rest of things unravel. “Why do you care anyways, we are just coworkers!” he yells. Yeah with benefits, I think to myself. I already want to go upstairs and cry blood on my arms.

“Liam shh.” They both walk in and see Harry and I. “I remember when we were like that. I remember when you held on to me like you were scared to lose me.” She cries out slightly. “Yeah well guess what those teenagers holding each other right now are going to grow up like us, he will grow older and he will take it out on her. Just like I do with you!” He scream yells.

That made me cry tears, Harry felt them so he moved himself closer and held me closer to his chest. “Liam they will be nothing like us, I see Harry’s eye’s and see that he truly is in with our love daughter, unlike when I look in yours.” She takes off towards the stair. They continued their argument up stairs till nothing was heard.

My quite tears roll down my cheeks and there was an awful silence. “Babe are you o…” Harry tries to ask but all I wanted was to get all of this pain out. I grab his cheeks and bring his lips to mine. I kiss him roughly and start to straddle him. I try to unbuckle his jeans and he didn’t let me “Babe please stop, I want this to happen but not right now. You are trying to find a release but this isn’t it.” He hugs me tightly as I start to cry into the crook of his neck.

“I want all this pain to go away Harry, I just want to die.” I cry more. “Don’t…don’t say that Melanie, I fucking love you, and you know that…you do know that right?” he looks at me, I was so ashamed of myself.

“Melanie please answer me, you do know that I love you?” He picks my chin up to look at me. “I love you Melanie Adele Payne. I don’t care what anyone says, I love you.” He kisses my lips softly.

“Now let’s go back to sleep, we have to pack for Vegas tomorrow. We need all the sleep we can get.” He pulls me into his arms and I nuzzle my face into the crook of my neck. “I know you love me, and I love you too.” His lips paint a smile on his face, but only if he knew what I was thinking of doing once he fell asleep.

HARRY POV
I was going to try and stay awake all night if I had to, I know Melanie isn’t all right, I know she will wait for me to doze off so she can hurt herself and I will not let it happen, I love her too much. “Babe I have to go to the restroom.” She gets up and walks half way up the stairs before I stop her.

“Melanie I know what you’re about to do, and I can’t let you. Please Melanie please don’t do this.” I wanted to cry but if I cry she cries. “Harry, please let me do this. I need a release.” Tears start to fall down her pale cheeks.

“Let me be your release Melanie. Tell me your problems, tell me how you are feeling. Tell me how much you hurt, tell me everything. I’m always here for you.” I climb the stairs and scoop her up. “Let’s go lay down while you talk to me.” She buries her face into my chest as she cries.

I walk up to her room and laid her on the bed. “Now Mel tell me what you’re feeling, I will not judge you babe.” I tuck her into the comforter and sit at the edge of the bed. “Whatever you tell me, I will not be mad.” I rub her feet through the blanket.

“I can’t tell you, I don’t know how. Can I just cry? That will be the best for now.” She sits up. “But I don’t want you to cry, I want you to be happy.” I get up and walk to her couch. “Harold…please I don’t want to talk.” She mumbles. “Fine! I try and help you but whatever.” I grab my coat and storm down the stairs.

Why am I leaving? She needs me, and I’m acting like a coward, walking out on her. Just like my father did with me. Maybe it is best for her not to talk, but I can’t stand it. I don’t deserve her, she deserves better.

“Wait Harry please don’t leave me, I need you!” She gets up and runs down the stairs. As I was going to walk out she speaks and my heart broke down for her.
“Harry I love you, I need you, I’m sorry I don’t talk to you but that is my way of protecting you. Yes, I understand your feelings but you have to understand mine too. I hurt myself for so many reasons but you’re not one of them.

My father is cheating on my mother and she doesn’t even know. I feel like I am the reason my family is falling apart, I create a mess out of everything. Harry I can’t handle my emotions, I cry so much over the tiniest things. All I do is create problems, I’m sorry for being a little child, you deserve far better than me.”

She is now crying into my arms and I’m lost for words. I want to say something, on the other hand I don’t want to screw up anything else. “Melanie I-I honestly don’t know what to say.” I look down to the floor.

“It’s okay, all I want to know is if you are going to come back to bed?” she pulls me back up the stairs without my answer. We reach her bedroom and climb into bed. “I love you Harry, thank you for listening to me.”

She kisses my lips and wraps her arms around my torso. “I love you too Mel, and don’t thank me, I’m your boyfriend, that is my job.” I kiss her forehead and we fall back to sleep.

*BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP*
I fall to the floor as I hit the alarm off. Mel was still cuddled into the sheets so I let her be as I go and make breakfast. We have a long day of packing for Vegas. We leave tonight and we have nothing done.

I make my way to the kitchen and I see David in the living room watching cartoons. “Hey, you got things to pack boy.” I walk and sit by him. “I got all my stuff packed booy, I got it done last night.”

“Okay, okay, well then can you help me cook breakfast for your sister? She had a bad night and I want her to sleep in. “What happened? Did she hurt herself?” he looks to the ground in disappointment.

“Actually no she fought it.” I smile for the fact she didn’t hurt herself. “Really? She didn’t hurt herself?” He says in shock. “Yeah she didn’t, I’m so proud of her.” I say happily. “I am proud of her too, thank you.”

“Why thank you?” I ask confused. “Because you helped her, she stopped for me, but she grew more depressed and started harming deeper. She said she wasn’t stopping for anyone. And look here you are and she resisted it and for that, I say thank you.”

“Your family David, you don’t have too. I am just glad she is still here. I really do love her a lot. So I am going to attempt to make her food.” I say with a big smile. “If you really want her to smile, she loves noodles for breakfast.” There really easy to make too. We start to walk to the kitchen.

“Here put water in the cup and put it into the microwave for 3 ½ min. Then bam you got cooked noodles.” He shows me how to cook the noodles and I am pretty proud of myself, because I burn water.

“Good morning boys.” A voice calls in it sounds like Melanie but it isn’t. It’s Mrs. Payne. “Good morning Mrs. Payne. How are you this morning?”

“I’m doing well, where is Mel? You guys have lots of packing to do by tonight.” She grabs out a tea kettle and put it on the stove. “Well I wanted her to sleep in, so I am making her breakfast.” I smile brightly.

“She is going to love you, you’re making her noodles. Do you want some tea?” She says politely. “Yes please.” The microwave goes off. “I’m going to take this up to Melanie, I’ll be right back.” I walk off towards Mel door.

I approach Mel’s door and walk into the room. “Mel baby wake up, David and I made you breakfast. Babe wake up we got lots of stuff to pack.” I strip the blanket off her.
“Give me three more minutes” she grumbles pulling the cozy sheet back up. “Baby, I made you noodles.”

She immediately sits up “Gimmie gimmie” she says like a baby child. I hand her the noodles and take out five suit cases of hers. “Which one are you taking to Vegas?”

“I want the one with hearts and rainbows on it. It has a matching carry-on bag.” She says as she slurps up the noodles. “Okay, do you want to pack your things first because all I need is shirts, pants and briefs? The basic bath items, and I know you got lots of girly things to pack.”

“Actually I need to go too Hot Topic to pick up our new Panic customize T-shirts I ordered. They are ready to be picked up in an hour.”

“When did you order t-shirts?” I was confused
“The day when we went to get David gear. You guys took so long I text everyone for their sizes and ordered them.” Well that’s super nice, she didn’t ask me.
“You didn’t ask me my size.”

“Well that’s because I already know your size dummy. I mean you leave all your clothes in my room, you practically moved in here, you just don’t stay overnight all the time.” Well that explains it.

“Oh okay. So what are you taking I’ll pack it.”
“Well I have a lot of clothes to pack so all of the first drawer and second.” She finished up her noodles and walked over to help.

We finish packing but I don’t see undergarments. I’m not a major pervert I’m just stating the facts. “Uh Mel, what about your bras and panties?” Her cheeks flush and turn a crimson color. I love making her blush

“I’ll pack them myself.” She blushes more. “Why can’t I? I mean I will be glad to pack them for you babe.” I walk up to her and kiss her cheek. Then go straight for her undergarment drawer.

“Harry I said no.” She laughs and goes to her bathroom because of the embarrassment. I gasp slowly not because of the laundry but because of all the sharp silver blades in a clear box.

I take the first dozen matching undergarments and put them in her suit case. I quickly grab the box and put it in my pocket. “Babe I am going to go get tea from your mum. Do you want a cup?” I head for the door and wait for her response. “Yes, milk too please.”

“Of course babe” I go straight for the guest bedroom and hide the blades safety and then go to the kitchen. “Love your cup of tea is there.” Mrs. Payne. “Uh Mrs. Payne, may I make a cup for Melanie?” I say in stutter form.

“Of course love, and please call me Sophia.” She smiles brightly at me.

“No disrespect Sophia, but I feel much more comfortable calling you Mrs. Payne, for the fact that you’re Melanie’s mother and I don’t want to disrespect you’re authority.” I stutter out.
“Love, I want you to know you have always been family to us. I remember the first day you came over and visited Melanie. That was the day, I knew you were already in love with my daughter. I accepted it and approved but you didn’t make it official till 5 days ago.
You don’t even have to call me Sophia or Mrs. Payne you can simply call me mum. Now go give Mel her tea she is probably wondering why you are taking so long.” She says as she walks out. I carefully grab Mel’s tea and walk to her room.

“Of course well where do I have to pick them up?” I hear Mel’s voice. I walk in and set her cup on the table. “Oh okay, I will be there in like twenty to thirty minutes.” She hangs up her phone and looks at me nervously.

“Heeeey babe, I need to tell you something.” Well I know this is not going to end well. “Hi babe, what is it that you need to tell me?” I need to keep my cool and breath so I don’t get mad or whatever feeling I am about to have.

“You see what had happen was… I entered a contest a month ago for Panic and plane tickets and well I won three and I need to pick them up. She stutters out.

“Babe why are you nervous, we just have to pick them up.” I don’t get why she is so scared.
“Harry you didn’t let me finish, I am, well actually I told uhm Louis and uhm James and his sister Hannah, I would be giving them the tickets. She backs up slowly.

“You’re kidding right, this is a joke? You’re testing my anger right?” I clinch my fists, I know she isn’t joking and I’m pissed. I want to yell at her but I can’t.

“Well let’s go get them then?” I say threw gritted teeth and grab my keys. “Uhm okay” she says in fright.

Stop it Harry, knock it off right now. It’s not like he isn’t the reason Gemma killed herself. Fuck, I need a breather. “Well are we going or not” I say harshly.

“Uhm, let me go get my purse then we can go” she turns towards the stairs and practically runs up them. She is going to cry again. Why the fuck are you such a dick Harry?

I run up the stairs and walk to her room, I hide her razors so I know she can’t hurt herself. As I walk in, it was just another recap of her birthday but this time it hurt me more.

“Mel put it down, please” The smell of flesh was in the aroma. She held a lighter to her ribcage, making it singe. She was crying already, and now I know there are more scars, not only on her arms but all over her body. How was I so blind, not to see scares on not only her arms but every inch of her body?

She looks at me and still holds the flame against her. “I’m sorry.” She puts the lighter on the dresser and runs into my arms. Why do I always make her do this? I grip her body into my chest tightly.

“Please don’t think this is your fault. I just needed a release.” She cries more. “I’m sorry, Melanie, I just don’t get why you had to give one too James. You know how I feel about him Mel.” I look towards the ground and wait for a response.

“Harry I invited him for a reason, maybe you can start to weld your guys relationship.” She tries to look at me, still in my arms she gives me a kiss on my lip. I need to resist her charm. I will never forgive him, never.

She continues to peck my lips. “Babe, please forgive me.” I will make it up to you. Especially when we are in Vegas. She kisses down my jaw line and plants her lips on my neck.

I groan and tilt my head so she has more access. She starts to nibble and starts to suck lightly leaving small love bites. “I forgive you Melanie, but I swear if he causes trouble, I will beat his ass.” I grab her body softly, and start to kiss her taking her down stairs.
“Is David going to go with us?” I ask looking for him.

“Dude I been waiting for y’all. Since Mel didn’t make me breakfast, you need to take me out for food!” He says in a serious voice. “Well get your arse in the car and maybe we will. Mel says and walks out the door with the keys.

“Is it okay if I stop at my place to make sure my mom is okay?” I back out of the drive way and start to head home. “Of course babe.” I park and unbuckle.

“Do y’all want to come in? I don’t want her yelling at me.” I chuckle “Yeah, maybe she has some food.” David gets off quickly. “Yeah sure” Mel gets off the car and I grab her hand. I open the front door and yell. “Mom I’m home and got company.”

We all walk to the kitchen and there she was cooking. “Harry! Your home, I missed you. Where have you been lately?”

“I’m sorry mom, I been with Mel and her family for the past couple days, and today I need to pack up my stuff. I just came over to check on you.”

“Well now that you’re here just pack your stuff up and take it. I will get breakfast served.” She shoes me up the stairs. “Okay, I’ll be quick.”

MELANIE POV
“Good Morning Mrs. Styles” I shake her hand. “Oh love don’t call me that, I feel old as is. Call me Anna.” She gives me a big hug as well as David.

“Honey I will get your breakfast served soon but for now can you go wake up Louis.” He says okay and she points him to his room. He look really aggravated though.

“I’m sorry I been hogging your son. Just been a lot recently. Do you need help with anything” I smile.

“It’s alright, I mean you guys will be getting married soon so it’s good to get the connection” I start to laugh as she gives me a knife and some fruit to dice up.

“Over my dead body.” I hear a hard raspy familiar voice. It’s the devil in plain sight. He doesn’t look as mean in the morning. I hope he got all his shit packed because I’m leaving his ass in Vegas.

“Oh hush Louis, she is getting married to your brother and there is nothing you can do about it.” She laughs and starts to serve breakfast on the plates.

“I think Harry and I will get married later on, like after high school and that’s only if we still are together. I mean we only been together for a week. Not like 2 years. You know what I mean.”

“All I know is, she is not moving in with us. Harry and her can go get a house of their own.” Louis says harshly.

“Shush Louis you don’t want to scare the poor girl away. Hello my name is Leonardo Styles, but you can call me Leo or dad. It’s really nice to meet my daughter in law. I hope Harry takes good care of you.” He gives me a big hug.

“Now come sit down we have lots to talk about I mean your wedding is only a month away.” Anna says as she places the plates down. They are really committed to this joke.

“Uh okay I guess.” I look to David and he gives me a confused face. “So we were thinking you guys can have the ceremony where your great grand-parents had theirs and well once you get back from the trip we can go dress shopping.” Anna says happily.

“Uhm pardon me, I have to use the restroom.” I get up and Louis follows. I walk to the nearest room and Louis walks in too. “What the fuck is going on?” We both said at the same time.

“Your parents think Harry and I are getting married, Yeah I known him for two years but we’re barely surviving our relationship and that’s because we been together for a week!” I am starting to have an anxiety attack I want to cry and I want to get out of here.

My eyes turn damp. “Mel why are you crying? There probably just joking around.” Louis comes and holds me. I grab him and pull him close to me.

“Louis I’m scared, I don’t know what to do. I mean I love Harry with all my heart and I want to marry him, but I’m so scared we will end up like my parents.

We only been together for a week.” I cry to the bully who hurts me. Yet I don’t let go of him and he don’t let go of me.

“Mel you just need to calm down. I mean we are going to Vegas to get away from all this drama, we will be okay. Now do some breathing with me.

Breath in, breath out, breath in, breath out.” We continue to do are breathing and then there was a knock on the door. “Babe, what is going on?” Harry walks in and I run to him.”
“Our bloody parents scared her, they keep saying you guys are getting married. She don’t want you guys to end up like her parents.” Louis feels him in and I only grab on to him tighter.

“What the hell were they thinking? Mom knows she has anxiety! Babe look I’ll go talk to them okay, just stay here with Louis, he will take care of you” He kisses my forehead and I sit on the bed. I look up at Louis and he is in deep concentration.

“Can I ask you a question Louis?” I look at his arm and I hope he won't hurt me.
“You just did.” He looks at me.
“Well another one, please”
“Fine”

“Why do you hate me so much?” We both look at each other and a big silence filled the room.
“I well I really don’t hate you, it’s just El.”
“Eleanor” I finish his sentence for him.
You hurt yourself because of her, don’t you?
He stays silent and nods his head slowly. “Why are you with her then?”

“She says if I leave her that she would go after the people I love. I mean if she saw us talking like this she would already making our lives a living hell.”

“Well isn’t that the truth. I’m sorry she does that to you. We use to be best friends, but ever since I started hanging with Harry she started to bully me, then got you to bully me as well. She threatened me that if anyone found out she would make sure I would want to take my life.” I say.

“She said the same to me too.” He sighs.
“Can I tell you a secret?” I pray that he won’t think I’m crazy.
“Yeah sure.”
“Well the other day I uh was at home and well I heard Gemma’s voice, I know it sounds crazy but she was talking to me.” I say and look straight to the ground.

“Wait, she talked to you to!” He says with excitement “I thought I was the only one, I thought I was going crazy but I guess not. She talks to me too, well she talked to me once but still.” He smiles.
“I can’t believe it, I think she is trying to contact us.” I look to him.

Louis was about to talk and all of a sudden we see a pissed off Harry. He grabs me and walks us out of the house as his parents yell out to him "wait they can explain.".

“Harry what hell is going on! Put me down now!" I get out of his grip.
"Now tell me what the hell is going on or so help me."

He interrupts me and I just want to forever cry of happiness and anxiety.
"Out parents are making us get married." That is all I heard before falling to the ground and forgetting everything.

Notes

Hello my lalareaders!!!! Well remember that meeting Liam and Harry's dad had, it was their arranged marriage meeting. They are getting married!!!!! Soooooo uh yeah.. Have fun waiting for the next chapter!!!!!!! I love you all!!!!!
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