Pity Party

HARRY POV
I didn’t know what to do. I stood there broken in thoughts. My heart was shattered into itty bitty pieces. Why would she do this? What’s wrong? Why was I not here to protect her? Why didn’t I notice this before? Did she barely start hurting herself or has this been going on for a while?

I just stared at this girl who was so lost in her world that she had to take it out on herself. I came out of my deep thoughts, when I heard whimpers of pain. Melanie was trying to clean herself up. I walked over to her slowly and tried to help her.

She was very hesitant about me helping but she ended up asking if I could wrap her arm up with medical bandages. She hissed when I started to wrap her injured arm. It took every ounce of me to continue.

It hurt me so much to see her in so much pain. It reminded me of my sister Gemma. When I finally came to the end of covering her wounds with the bandages. I looked at her but she didn’t look at me.

“Melanie look at me,” I croaked. She didn’t look at me, instead she walked to her washroom to clean her blade that created her bloody cuts. I turned off her music and walked towards her.
“Melanie please look at me and explain why you did this, please” I begged. She shaked her head and looked the opposite way. “Baby, please tell me why, why did you do this, I won’t judge you.” I can’t stand to see her like this.

My whole body felt numb. I start getting flashbacks from when I was taking care of Gemma but pushed the horrible memories aside. She doesn’t deserve all this pain. She deserves to be happy. I thought to myself.

She slowly looks at me, all her makeup washed away from her salty tears. Red shot eyes from all the crying. I don’t know how but my heart broke even more than it was before, if that was possible.

“I-I’m sorry Harry, you shouldn’t have seen me like this.” She started to cry again. I pulled her into a hug making sure I didn’t hurt her. I don’t know if she cuts herself anywhere else.
She buried her face into the crook of my neck the tears rolling down staining her cheeks. “Baby girl please give your explanation for all of this” I looked down her.

She stutters her words, “You left me, alone on my birthday. You promised that you were going to be here, then you just bailed as well as all my so called friends. I thought you all hated me.” Her tears streaming off her paled cheeks.

“Baby, I told them to cancel on your birthday because I had a special surprise party for you.” Then it hit me like a ton of bricks, this is my fault, if I would have followed my plan, she wouldn’t have hurt herself. I felt like a horrible person. How could I have done this to her? I asked myself.

“Baby I’m so sorry this was all my fault.” She looked at me with a confused face. “This isn’t your fault Harold. It was just uh an accident.” she told me.

“Accident my ass, this is my fault and I’m sorry for making you do this to yourself.” I sternly told her. She was about to talk but she was looking really off balanced. She tried standing but couldn’t keep herself up.

I slid my arm around her waist and picked her up bridal style walked her over to the big fluffy bed. I tucked her into the bed and told her to get some rest. She nodded, and slowly closed her eyes. As I walk to her closet I heard her ask if I could stay.

I wasn’t going to leave especially after what just happened. I spend most of my time with her. So now most of my clothes were here at her place. Every now and then I see Melanie wear my shirts and joggers.

“Yeah baby doll, I’ll be over to the bed. Took my shirt off and slid under the covers. Unlocking my phone, typing the messages. When Melanie turned over and asked lazily.
“Please cuddle me Harry.” With her puppy eyes. “Of course, anything for my princess.” I sent the text out and then rolled over wrapping my arms around her waist while her head rested on my bare chest.

God I love this girl. She just can’t see it. I played with her hair until I closed my eyes and drifted into a deep sleep.

MELANIE POV
He just stood there staring at me. It hurt me so much. Not the physical pain but my feelings. I broke him, just like everyone else. I’m a horrible human being.

Why do I fuck things up? Why am I alive? Why was I born? Why can’t I just die already? All the thoughts running through my head, made me cry a little more. I started to move and clean myself up.

He walked to me wanting to help, but my heart couldn’t let him. It was too painful for me to ask him for help. I eventually asked if he could wrap my arm up. I hissed at the string of the bandage. I could tell he was putting all his effort into wrapping my arm.

He finished up and looked at me while I looked at the floor ashamed of what I brought to this boy. It hurt me so much

"Melanie look at me," he croaked out. I couldn't look at him, instead I picked up my blade and walked to my washroom cleaning my bloody mess. He clicked my music off and walked towards me.

"Melanie please look at me and explain why you did this,please" he begged. I just shook my head and turned to face my bath tub and curtains. "Baby,please tell me why, why did you do this,I won't judge you." he sounded like he wanted to cry.

I slowly turned my head to look up at him. "I-I'm sorry Harry, you shouldn't have seen me like this." knowing that I look like shit,as always. I started to cry, he looks like he got the wind knocked out of him.

He looked more heart broken than myself. I stood there crying and then I felt arms carefully wrap around my shaky body. Does he know that I cut all over? I hope not, that will only break him more. I buried my face into the crook of his neck crying more and more.

"Baby girl please give your explanation for all of this" as he looked down at me. I stuttered my words "You left me,alone,on my birthday. You promised that you were going to be here, then you just bailed as well as all my so called friends. I thought you all hated me." my tears streaming off my cheeks.

"Baby, I told them to cancel on your birthday because I had a special surprise party for you." Then he looked like he got hit with guilt. "Baby I'm so sorry this was all my fault." I looked at him more confused than ever.

"This isn't your fault Haz. It was just uh an accident." I told me. "Accident my ass, this is my fault and I'm sorry for making you do this to your self." He sternly told me.

I was going to reply but I was getting dizzy. Trying to keep my balance but not successful. I felt Harry's arm slip around my waist supporting my weight and picking me up. He walked us over to the bed and placed me on my big comfy bed.

He tucked me in and told me to get some rest. I slowly closed my eyes. Then out of now where I asked if he could stay. "Yeah baby doll, I'll be right back I need to change." he said. I just laid there waiting for him to come to the bed.

I felt the bed dip a little from where he was laying all the way on the other side of the king size bed. I wanted him right beside me,cuddling me. I turned and asked if he could cuddle me. To my surprise he said yes.

He rolled over to where I was and wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me close to his bare chest. I felt his heart beat, which made me melt inside. I wanted this moment to last forever but I know when I wake up he won't be here.

He will be long gone. Know where to be found. Gone forever,never coming back.
"Who wants a broken girl in there life?
That's right no one...

Notes

A/N I hope you liked the update. Melanie POV is kinda the same as Harry's but I wanted it to restate the feelings that she was going through. Please comment on it. I really want to hear your opinions. You can share the book if you want. It will mean a lot to me. Love you guys sooooooooooooo much!!! oh and comment and message me if you want :)
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Teresa Bravo