Surrounded yet Alone

On Twitter

@1Directioner4eva “#LunaSucksBecause she has no talent at all!! Why did the boys pick her????”

@HarryStylersLover “#LunaSucksBecause she’s so ugly. Honestly.”

@PaynoTommoGurl “#LunaSucksBecause she isn’t even good!!! Why would the guys add her to the band?? UGGGHH”

@Claudia123 “#LunaSucksBecause she’s actually the ugliest and worst singer ive ever heard. Why is she so fat?? #considerasalad”

Luna’s POV

Tears are about to spill over as I’m sitting in my dressing room. There are thousands of tweets tearing me apart. Some about my looks and some about me being talentless. They’re right. Completely right. I shouldn’t be here. I look at myself in the mirror. My nose is too big, my thighs are too big, my arms are too fat, my ears stick out too much. Every single thing about me is ugly. And my voice isn’t great either. The guys are all so talented and I’m okay I guess.

There’s a knock at my door. Great. “Who is it?”

“It’s Candy. Security wants to take you to the bus in 10 minutes”, my assistant says.

“Oh okay thank you.” Ok Luna. Stop moping around and suck it up. Put a smile on your face and call management and ask them what to do from there. My old manager was really nice and encouraged me to audition for this job, once I got it I had to get a new bigger manager at Modest!. They’re not as nice as my old manager, but they work for now.

I take a deep breath and pack up all my stuff in the dressing room alone. Stop crying Luna. I take another deep breath, put on my dark sunglasses, and find security so I can leave this stadium. We don’t have a show tomorrow, so I guess I’ll just chill out with the guys.

I finally found some security and I walk through the huge groups of screaming fans. Once I’m on the tour bus safely, the guys look up at me. Do they know about the hashtag? We’ll see I guess…

I sit down next to Niall and he puts his arm around me as I snuggle into him. No one has said a word. I’m just watching whatever stupid show is on the television so no one tries to talk to me. I know if they talk to me about it I’ll cry again.

We’ve watched two shows and no one has said anything still. They’re all on their phone so they must know. It’s all over Twitter. Thinking about the tweets and comments make me so upset. I get up and go to the back part of the bus. I immediatally close the door and slide down to the floor. I can’t help the tears that are spilling out of my eyes. There’s whispering from the front of the bus. I try to stop crying so I can listen.

“I mean, does she know? She must she hasn’t said anything all night…”, Harry says.

“I-I don’t know.. I mean probably, right? Should I go talk to her?”, Niall tells the boys.

“Yes! She is your girlfriend and she is getting harassed online!” Louis whisper-yells to Niall.

“Fine, okay I’m going.”

I quickly stand up and try to act normal. Ugh, he’ll be able to tell I was crying. I hate how my eyes get red and puffy when I cry. He opens the door and I turn to look at him.

Niall’s POV

“Fine, okay I’m going”, I tell the guys.

I stand up and walk over to my girlfriend. She’s so beautiful, it breaks my heart that people are saying this bull shit about her I can just hope that she isn’t letting it get to her.

I slide the door open and see my gorgeous girlfriend in bed look up to me with sad-trying-to-be-happy eyes. I freeze for a minute before rushing over to her and pulling her into my arms. Luna breaks down as soon as my arms are around her. My heart breaks.

“It’s okay, love. Don’t listen to it. You’re so beautiful, I love you, it’s oka-”, I realize what I’ve just said. I mean, it isn’t a lie. I do love her. All she does is pull herself closer to me as I rub her back lightly.

We lay there for a long time until she calms down. She hasn’t moved in my arms or said anything. She doesn’t need to say anything though because I know her mind is probably racing.

Finally she looks up at me with sad eyes, “So... you saw Twitter?” she said. Gosh, she’s so cute and innocent.

“Yes, but it doesn’t matter. They’re just jealous of you. You’re the fucking best ever and the guys and I are so happy you’re here.” I tell her honestly.

“And you love me?” she says with her big puppy dog eyes and a shy smile.

“Well, yeah that too.”

“Well that’s good.” she says still looking up at me.

“Why’s that?”, I question her.

“Because I love you too.”

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Notes

I have a few hours before work so I'll pre-write chapters for the rest of this week :)

As always thank you for reading xoxo