For Your Eyes Only

Niall's POV
As we drove farther and farther away, I felt my heart tearing in two. How could I desire a girl so much that I only just met? I loved her hair, the way it swayed around when she moved. I loved her perfect blue eyes and her full lips, especially when they were on mine. I could still feel her hands on my back and waist, in my hair, on my face. I almost felt sick as I thought of how she had come to see me leave, but kept her distance. It was probably wise, but it still hurt.
“What’s got you so starry-eyed, Horan?” asked Liam, ducking his head to meet my gaze. I tried to glare back, but I couldn’t. I opened my mouth to answer, but was cut off by my phone. I stood and pulled it out of my back pocket, not bothering to read the caller I.D. before swiping the screen to answer.
“Hello?” I asked quietly.
“N-Niall?” a soft female voice wimpered from the other end. I straightened and took a couple steps forward.
“Annie! Are you ok?” I asked. She sounded as though she’d been crying.
“It’s Auntie, she-she’s in the hospital,” she cried. She sounded so broken.
“What? Is she ok?”
“I-I don’t know… An officer is driving me to the hospital now. What if she doesn’t make it, Niall? What if I’m all alone again?” I slammed my hand on the wall in anger and forced myself to take a breath before replying.
“Stop right there. You’ll never be alone as long as I have a say in it.”
“Niall, are you ok?” asked Harry, standing in the doorway. I hadn’t realized he was watching…
“I’ve got to go, so call me back after you hear something. Bye, babe,” I said quietly. I felt a hand on my back and turned, acknowledging the shock on his face when he saw the tears building in my eyes.“I-I don’t… I can’t… Why do I miss her so bad?” He pulled me into an embrace and hugged me tight. I buried my face in his shoulder and let out an embarrassing sob. Why? She was perfect, that’s why. I had waited so long to feel this way about a girl and now… now that I did, I couldn’t be with her.
I felt two more bodies join the embrace, rubbing my back and whispering words of encouragement. A few minutes went by before we wordlessly broke away and I headed to my bunk for something more comfortable to sleep in. I had never felt like this before. She incited such… protectiveness in me. I wanted to hold her every second and tell her that she’d be ok. I wanted to kiss her and make her laugh… but I couldn’t because of my job. I couldn’t be with the girl I loved because of… did I love her?
My train of thought was interrupted by a piece of paper jammed into the front pocket of my green suitcase. I tugged it out and gently flattened it out on my thigh.
If I could fly
I’d be coming right back home to you.
I think I might
Give up everything, just ask me to.
Pay attention, I hope that you listen
Cause I let my guard down.
Right now I’m completely defenseless…
For your eyes only
I show you my heart.
For when you’re lonely,
Or forget who you are.
I’m missing half of me
When we’re apart.
Now you know me.
For your eyes only.
For your eyes only.

I’ve got scars,
Even though they can’t always be seen.
And pain gets hard,
But now you’re here and I can’t feel a thing.
Pay attention, I hope that you listen
Cause I let my guard down.
Right now I’m completely defenseless…

For your eyes only
I show you my heart.
For when you’re lonely,
Or forget who you are.
I’m missing half of me
When we’re apart.
Now you know me.
For your eyes only.
For your eyes only.

I feel your heart inside of mine.
I’m going out of my mind.
I know I’m just wasting time
And I hope that you don’t run from me…

For your eyes only
I show you my heart.
For when you’re lonely,
Or forget who you are.
I’m missing half of me
When we’re apart.
Now you know me.
For your eyes only.
For your eyes only.

Thanks for the best weekend of my life, Niall Horan. I am trusting you with my heart, but it’s kind of delicate right now, so please don’t drop it.
With love,
Annie xoxo

Notes

Stuffed peppers are amaaaaaazzinnnggg... for real. They're fantastic. Also chocolate waffles are really good. I had those for breakfast.