For Your Eyes Only

I woke up and barely had time to think before this weekend’s events came crashing down. I groaned and tried to roll over, but I was blocked on both sides. I opened my eyes to see Harry laying on my right side and Niall cuddling into my left. At my feet, Liam and Louis had collapsed on the end of the bed. What was even happening…? How long was I going to stay with them?
“G’morning, babe…” Niall slurred. Oh, gosh… the morning voice accent. On instinct, I leaned my head close to his sleepy one and pecked him on the mouth, much to his surprise. “Good morning,” he said again, but slower, leaning in closer. He planted his lips on mine and I couldn’t help but giggle into his kiss. I felt him smile on my mouth and sit up slightly. He kissed my jaw, and I tensed, unsure as his lips found their way to my collar bone.
“NIALL!” I screamed as his fingers dug into my ticklish sides. I screeched in laughter as he tickled me relentlessly, not giving me a moment to breathe. Harry growled something about sleep and shoved Niall off me. “Gah, you’re so mean!” I shouted, trying to sound angry. But I couldn’t, not when those gorgeous blue eyes were laughing at me.
“Guys, what the…” Louis mumbled, sitting up. Then I realized: we had all gone to sleep in our clothes. I almost laughed again, but Harry and Niall’s conversation from last night came back to me, and I almost instantly turned serious. Apparently it was obvious.
“Guys,” Niall whispered, nodding at the door. Harry groaned and grabbed Louis by the shirt, who in turn dragged a still half-asleep Liam out of bed. As soon as the door shut behind them, Niall had me in his arms. “Y’ok?” he asked, obviously concerned. When I didn’t answer, he pulled back. How could I answer? I wasn’t ok. I hadn’t been for a long time. And now my heart was trying to convince my mind that I wanted Niall. It was too many emotions for one person to handle, and wrong on so many levels.
“Niall, we can’t do this.” We can totally do this.
“W-what?”
“This is wrong, it won’t ever work.” Throw your heart into it. He did.
“We can make it work. I don’t know how you feel, but I know that I haven’t felt this way in… a really long time.” Neither have I, Niall.
“But what if… what about your job?” It’s too much.
“Louis has a girlfriend and so does Liam. We can make it work,” he replied. The look in his eyes made me want to cry and kiss him until he stopped. It should be illegal for him to look this sad. He looked so afraid.
“What if it doesn’t work?”
“It will-”
“But what if it doesn’t?!” I suddenly shouted, climbing off the bed. “What if it doesn’t work and-and you drop me? My heart? What if you see some pretty model or something and she makes you leave me? What if you find someone better? What if-”
“Stop, Annie! Just stop!” he screamed. My knees gave and I sat submissively on the other bed, facing him. He immediately froze and apology filled up his perfect eyes. “Please… I’ll never leave you. Remember? I’ll never let go! I’ve never seen another human being as perfect as you! You’re the only one that I can think about! Why can’t you understand?” A soft knock on the wall brought our attention to Paul standing just inside the room.
“Sorry to interrupt, but Niall, you’ve got press in an hour and Lou needs to see you.”
“Thanks.” He glared at Paul until he left. “Look, Annie. I don’t know if this will work, but I’m willing to try. If you are. And I really, really hope you are because I can’t stop thinking about you. And you know what? I know you feel the same. The evidence was in the front of my suitcase last night.” I looked up, surprised. I had forgotten about that… but he was right. I wanted him. He knew me now, he knew my heart, and he had it. In the name of everything, he was right. A million billion colours of right.
“I-I know… I’m sorry, I just… I’m scared, Niall. I’m so scared. For Auntie. For you. I don’t want to hurt you either. I’m scared that I won’t be enough. That I won’t be there for you when you need me. I’m afraid that one day you’ll need me and I’ll get scared and run away. I haven’t felt this way before. Ever.”
“You’ll always be enough. As long as you want me, I’ll want you. And even when you don’t want me, I’ll be there. And I know you’ll be there too. I just want to give… to give US a shot. Can we?” By now We were standing, our hands joined together for dear life. Us. We. Him. Me. Yes. I wanted to make it work. I wanted to try it. Because deep down, I knew it would succeed. I knew we were supposed to be here, now.
"Yes."

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