All Hidden Away

Ash’s POV

“Hey… yeah, no, I’m fine. Yes, I’ll tell you later. No, shut up.” Says Tasha laughing and heading outside while she calls Stuart. The eggs Harry is cooking smells amazing but I can’t help think over what Harry had said earlier. I look at Luke who was looking at his phone while Mikey tried to get comfy without a lap to rest on. Hope Cal was back soon and didn’t do anything stupid. I sigh before looking at Liam.
“Liam?” I ask, not sure if he would be the right person to ask. Liam looks up at me and smiles. “Why, why does Harry always make sure Tasha has breakfast?” I ask with a frown. I see Luke put down his phone at the mention of her name, daamn he is whipped, and Mikey stopped moving about. Liam’s smile dropped slightly and he looked down at his hands.
“Uhm. I’d suggest you ask Hazz… I don’t know all the finer details.” He says looking sad. I look back at Luke and see him starting to look concerned.
“She, I mean… it wasn’t –” starts Luke sitting forward and looking at Liam. Mikey sits up and frowns as he looks at me, also with concern.
“No, no…” He says frowning and shaking his head understanding what Luke didn’t say. “I just know it was something medical while she was younger. It wasn’t a…” He can’t finish his sentence but I can’t help feeling slightly relieved. I see Luke nodding and seeming to make a mental note to ask her. A slightly awkward silence descends on the room but we can hear her laughing on the phone and the other boys laughing in the kitchen. Okay, we can mostly hear Niall but still. Everyone looks so lost in their own thoughts that we jumped slightly when Louis came back into the room.
“Shit lads. Who died?” He asks looking at as. No one says anything. “Lads, this isn’t funny. What happened?” I look at him and sense his worry.
“I just wanted to ask something. But it’s okay. Do you think we can set up Tasha’s accounts today if she’s staying for supper?” I ask everyone trying to lighten the mood. The door outside opens and Tasha walks back in.
“Stu said it was fine… well. Sort of.” She says giggling. She comes and sits next to me, and curiously I shoot Luke a look and see him looking at her. I try to hide a smile and fail. Mikey shoots me a look and I subtly point at Luke with my head. He notices and also smiles.
“Great. We were just saying we wanted to set up your online accounts and things today.” Says Mikey looking at me and smiling more. She laughs slightly.
“Well, I kinda have an Twitter account. But I don’t know how it works and it’s not under my name.” she shrugs but smiles at Lou. “It’s a fake fan account… you, Liam and Niall actually followed me.” She says laughing. I look at Lou and see his shock before I burst out in laughter.
“Oh god.” I say in between laughing.
“Don’t be mean.” She says blushing slightly.
“Wait a minute, luv.” Says Lou shaking his head. “Did Hazza know?” She shakes her head.
“I wanted to see if he would notice you followed someone called… uh,” She laughs and I look back at Luke to see him smiling and still looking at her. I look at Mikey and see he’s also looking at Luke. Damn. He and Tasha would be cute together.
“No, come on. Tell me?” He says walking over and sitting on the arm of the chair. “Wait, let me see if I can find you…” he pulls out his phone and we lean forward to see this. “Jesus… since when did I follow close to four thousand people?” He asks looking shocked. I open my phone and see everyone else doing the same. I open twitter and see I follow closer to ten thousand, but decide to not say anything.
“NIALL! GET IN HERE!” Screams Louis. The blond boy walks in and looks confused. “You follow Tasha’s secret fan account. Find it.” Says Louis not looking up from his phone. Niall frowns and pulls out his phone.
“Louis… I follow six thousand people…” He says taking a seat next to Liam.
“Well, I follow closer to sixteen, so stop complaining.” Says Liam look through his. I laugh loudly and see everyone else does too.
“Now I feel bad… but I don’t like following people. They always DM me.” Says Lou rolling his eyes but soon going back to his phone.
“I love how this ended up in being a competition on how to be a better person to the fans than to who has more followers.” She says quietly smiling. No one says anything when the front door opens.
“Yeah, I’m fine, thanks for asking.” Says Cal walking in, in his clothes from the night before.
“Walk of shame, much?” Asks Mikey smiling at him. Cal shrugs.
“Why is it shame if it means I got laid? What did you get? A headache?” he asks frowning and shrugging but sounding sassy.
“Luke got laid.” Says Louis smiling evilly.
“Oh my god.” Says Tasha exasperatedly as Cal goes to high-five Luke. I look at Luke who death stares Cal as he realises.
“Holy shit! Harry is going to kill you!” He says laughing. I look up from my phone and shake my head.
“They didn’t sleep together, retard.” Says Mikey. Cal looks confused but Lou, Liam and Niall are still more focussed on their phones.
“Go and shower, already. I’ll explain later.” I say rolling my eyes as he walks upstairs.
“Are you by any chance Yellowsub23?” Asks Niall. I look at Tasha as she frowns.
“Yes, that’s me.” She says with a deadpan expression.
“Oh my god! Really?” Asks Niall sounding excited.
“No, Niall.” She says laughing. We sit on our phones for a bit until Hazz walks through. He shoots us a quizzical glance as we all sit on our phones.
“Social bunch… uh, breakfast is ready?” No one moves, and when Niall doesn’t even look up Hazz laughs. “Should I know about something?”
“I have a secret account on twitter which Niall, Liam and Lou all follow. They trying to find it.” She says smiling as she stands and stretches. “Oh, and I can stay for super.” Hazz nods and leans over Louis to see his phone. I sigh and smile and start to think of my family. I really want to call home today and check on Harry and Lauren. It’s crazy how much I’m missing them. The boys and I have decided that after the tour we’re going to go back home and spend time with our families. I know how much they are missing all of us.
“Okay, but is the pic of you?” Asks Liam looking at Tasha. She smiles and nods before standing and walking in the direction of the kitchen. Soon, music starts playing softly from there and she walks back. Rocket Man by Elton John is playing and I sit listening going through some of my mentions until Hazz starts laughing.
“Come on, breakfast is getting cold.” He says standing straight again. We head into the kitchen and grab plates and serve up the toast, bacon, sausage and eggs that Harry made. Cal walks in and joins us as we sit and listen to music and all laugh together as we eat the delicious food.


“Here. I’ll clean up.” Says Tasha grabbing Harry’s and Liam’s empty plate and standing up and taking it to the sink.
“You sure?” Asks Niall as he grabs his, mine, Luke’s and Mikey empty plates and doing the same.
“Thanks.” I say shooting him a nod. I make eye contact with Luke and realise he wants me to chat to Hazz about Tasha.
“Yeah. Go see if you lot can find me.” She says giggling as she runs a basin of water. Lou stands and takes her, his and Cal’s plate. Harry goes over and hugs her as we all thank her and go back to the lounge. I sit next to Niall as we all get comfy. Lou and him go back to their phones and Harry leans over to help Lou find her.
“Harry?” I ask sitting forward. He looks up at me fixing his long curls out of his face. “Can, can I ask something personal about Tasha?” I say carefully trying to word this. Niall and Lou look up from their phones at me. Harry frowns and licks his lips before nodding slowly.
“Okay…?”
“Well, we were just wondering… why do you make sure she eats? Like, does she have a problem with-?” I don’t have the guts to ask the full question but he quickly shakes his head, letting us know that’s not the case.
“No… it’s a medical condition she has from when she was a child.” He says frowning. “Ventricular Septal Defect.” He says but upon realising that means nothing to us he explains further. “Basically, is a condition people can be born with where there is a hole in the wall separating the two sides of the heart.” My eyes widen and I look to see the other boys are reacting similarly.
“Is, is she okay?” asks Cal in shock.
“Is who okay?” asks Tasha walking through and stopping when we all look at her. “Me? Yeah… I’m fine. I think?” She says looking shocked as she takes the empty seat next to Luke.
“I was just telling the boys about your heart.” Says Harry smiling at her gently.
“Oh. Why? What’s come up?” She asks looking around.
“Was just wondering.” Says Luke smiling at her. She smiles back and I resist the urge to say aww.
“I thought when there was a hole in the heart, you couldn’t be super active and things?” says Mikey looking at her. She shrugs.
“As long as I’m careful, I’m fine.” She says smiling. “Basically, it means I have a heart murmur, which is a slightly different heartbeat.”
“So, it doesn’t go glug glug?” asks Cal frowning. I frown, surely that’s not okay? She giggles slightly.
“Well it does, it just goes, glug glug, glug glug, glug… glug glug… it misses every sixth beat.” She says still smiling.
“And I make sure she eats meals because she’s got low blood pressure and glucose levels because of it.” Says Harry shooting her a smile. The room goes quiet for a few seconds trying to process this fact.
“Okay, but like. Surely they should have closed the hole?” Asks Luke looking at her. She nods.
“I had minor heart surgery when I was…” She looks at Harry and frowns. “Five?” he nods.
“You spent three weeks in hospital. I remember because Gem and I were allowed to not do homework because we spent time with you there. You hated it. But they couldn’t close the hole completely.” He says looking down at his hands with a frown before laughing slightly. “Do you remember when Gem and I snuck into the ICU to see you and that nurse shat on us?”
“How, I was in ICU?” She says laughing slightly.
“Do you have one of those giant scars?” Asks Mikey. Typical Mikey question.
“Oh, my gosh, Michael. You can’t just ask people if they have scars.” Says Louis rolling his eyes, but Tasha nods slightly, seeming almost uncomfortable.
“Yeah, but it’s like… across my… basically only certain… people will ever see it.” She says blushing slightly. We all seem to catch her meaning and nod.
“So, Luke saw it last night?” Jokes Niall. Luke, Tasha and Harry shake their heads but smile slightly. Tasha frowns and stands before pulling out her phone. She looks disgusted.
“It’s Claire… Hello?” She asks heading outside quietly.
“She puts it off quite a bit. But she nearly didn’t turn six.” Says Harry quietly. The room tenses slightly. “She got pneumonia after her operation which put more pressure on her heart than it should have taken at that time. But she got better. It’s just one more reason why I like someone to run with her. She pushes herself to hard sometimes.” He says and I recognise the tone he’s speaking in. I know it well. It’s the “I gotta protect my younger siblings” tone.
“But she’s okay, right? Like… it’s not still a huge problem?” asks Luke looking concerned. Poor boy, he’s being so obvious! How has no one called him out on it yet? Better still, has she noticed?
“Put it this way.” Says Lou looking at him. “If she drinks two bottles of red bull, runs a marathon and then does a gymnastics routine… she’ll get really sick again. Otherwise. She’s good.”
“Just prone to chest infections.” Says Niall. Wow. I realise they really are all big brothers to her too. Before I get a chance to say anything she walks in with a scowl across her face making her look too much like Harry.
“Claire will be over with Simon just before lunch.” She says sitting back down and sighing.
“Is everything alright?” Asks Liam looking apprehensive. She rolls her eyes slightly and sighs.
“People are blowing up about some Larry thing that happened last night,” She shoots Harry a knowing look. He and Lou raise their hands in surrender. “Taylor’s people are bitching about what Niall said to Lou and what happened with me and her, some of the photographers from last night are spreading rumours I’m cheating on Luke with Harry – I mean seriously, of all people - want me to continue?” she asks sighing and putting her head in her hands and putting on a fake smile. “And Claire’s pissed about the club.” She says leaning back slightly. I see Luke put a comforting hand on her shoulder. I smile to myself.
“Don’t stress about it. It’ll sort its self out… and if not, Modest! will.” This makes her smile and makes us laugh slightly, although it does sound slightly exasperated.
“One relaxing day without bull shit. Is it too hard to ask for? How you lot do it I don’t know…” She says smiling. I see Luke hasn’t moved his hand yet, and then see Harry also noticed.
“Well, I can call Ed and Gem and chat to them about tonight?” suggests Harry looking at her, she nods and smiles softly.
“Oh, and I forgot to tell you. Mum wants to see us all before we go on tour.” Says Lou looking at her.
“All as in?” asks Luke.
“Right. Sorry lads, I meant us four and Tasha.” He says nodding. I frown slightly confused.
“So your family know about the secret sister?” He smirks and nods his head.
“Family is everything to us, isn’t it boys? No secrets between our families.” He clarifies.
“Well, other than – ” starts Tash with a sly smiles.
“No one asked you.” Says Lou rolling his eyes. We all look at them in confusion, waiting for an explanation.
“Liam’s mum still thinks I’m a natural blonde.” She says smiling slightly. I look over at Liam in confusion.
“Long story short, when I died it, her hair still looked good… right Li?” Says Tasha laughing.
“I swear, we all think you’re this cute, innocent little girl. And the more and more we hear about you, the more and more I think you’ve been influenced by Louis’ shenanigans.” Says Mikey laughing slightly.
“Oh, mate. Trust me. If anything, she influenced me. You honestly think I came up with pickle juice and salt tea?” he says laughing. She smiles and leans back slightly making Luke’s hand drape on her shoulders. He quickly moves his arm and I can see confusion in her face but ignore it.
“And you honestly think that Zayn and Louis came up with that pregnancy prank on their own?” Says Liam laughing.
“And you taught me,” Lou puts his arm out at a weird angle. “Pet the god.” He starts petting the air? “And screw the light bulb.” And makes that movement for a while.
“And some of my jokes…” Says Harry smiling.
“Yeah, you’ve explained a lot of the fandom stuff to us. Now I can’t sing some of my lines without laughing.” Says Niall laughing. Tasha was positively red now.
“Learn how to pronounce ‘chance’ then, assbut. I think they get it.” She says smiling and talking quietly.
“Awe, babe did we embarrass you?” Says Lou pouting.
“Can you shut up? Or better yet.” She smiles and poses waiting for Lou.
“Don’t you dare.” Warns Lou pointing a finger at her.
“Have you quite finished?” She says before chuckling slightly.
“So, Michael. Manley 5SOS thing, hey?” says Cal in a deep voice.
“Yeah, you’re 1D knowledge is impressive, but you need an education in 5sos now. Then you can be our number one fan two.” says Mikey smiling.
“I thought I was your number one fan?” says Niall looking sad.
“And what about the bands and musicians I actually like to listen to?” she says looking at him with raised eyebrows.
“True. You won’t like Luke’s band. It sucks.” This makes us all laugh and Luke roll his eyes melodramatically.
“Okay, I’m going to call Gem and see if she can join us later.” Says Harry pushing himself out his chair.
“Can I go for a run, please Haza?” She asks politely. Harry looks down, clearly feeling concerned after our previous discussion.
“Ash, you alight to go, mate?” I look at her and smile.
“Yeah, sounds good to me.” she smiles in thanks.
“Just going to get changed.” She says before walking up stairs.
“Lucas. You going to come?” I ask looking at him as he watches her walk upstairs.
“Uh, no. no I don’t think so. I have some stuff here to do and some things…” He says vaguely. I shrug but head upstairs to get changed anyway.

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