All Hidden Away

The first thing I noticed when I started waking up was how warm and cosy I was. The second, was the splitting headache from last night. I try to remember most of the night, but things get hazy after dancing with everyone. I know I started to feel anxious in the crowd and that someone took me outside for fresh air but after that… I sniffed and tried to move over to try block out the light in my eyes but was unable to. Something felt like it was pinning me down. That was the third thing I noticed. Someone’s arms are around me. It is nice and makes me feel happy, content. It didn’t cross my mind who it was or why someone was in my bed. It was just nice… But funnily enough, that wasn’t exactly what woke me up. No, you see what woke me up, was the fact THAT SOMEONE WAS IN MY BED! I jolt awake and feel the arms around me loosen. I look at the man sleeping next to me and feel a blush on my cheeks when I realise exactly who the blond quiff belongs to.
“Tasha.” Says Luke slowly waking up. I don’t say anything but just stare at him he sits up and I realise he’s not wearing a shirt. Oh god. I touch my legs and am grateful to be in the clothes I was wearing last night. “Hey, why do you look so freaked?” He asks in a gruff morning voice. I swallow and try to blink away the pounding headache. “Oh!” he says, his eyes going wide and hands coming up to his face. “No, no it wasn’t like that, I promise.” He says soothingly.
“What, uh… what exactly happened then?” I ask feeling completely embarrassed at how drunk I must have been. Oh god, I didn’t come onto him, did I? He laughs slightly.
“I didn’t realise how drunk you were.” He smiles before looking at me gently. “I left some Advil in your bathroom. I thought you may need it.” I smile at him gratefully and shove off the covers and try to stand up. He chuckles. “Come on. Let me get it for you.” He says getting out of bed and walking to my bathroom. I smile and get cosy in the bed again wrapping the covers around me, I look around my room awkwardly. He comes back and hands it to me, I don’t make eye contact and take the pills and chug the water before putting the glass down.
“Thank you…”
“Hey, I promise nothing happened last night.” He says sitting back down and putting a hand on my knee. I look up and find his blue eyes studding my face and frown carefully. “I would never do that.” I wonder if he means with me or with a drunk girl in general…
“Can.” I take a deep breath and look down at my hands in my lap. I’m so fucked. “This is really embarrassing, but can you tell me what happened?” I say playing with my fingers nervously and only looking at him when I finished asking him. He smiles gently.
“Of course, and it’s way less embarrassing than you think, and some of my drunk times… well, after we all went and danced after the shots, you started to look panicked because there were these girls asking you questions. So, I went over to check you were okay. I ended up talking to them a bit because they were fans and I could tell you started to freak out so I took you back to the seats.” I frown trying to remember any of this. “You were stumbling a bit but I wasn’t sure if it was the anxiety or the alcohol.” Says Luke running his fingers through his hair and smiling. “Then I noticed that some of our party had left-” two guesses who… I think to myself “And that almost the rest of us were drunk. I was still pretty sober so when you said you couldn’t breathe, I look you outside to get some fresh air.” I smile and nod.
“Yeah, I kinda remember that.” I say and he smiles before carrying on.
“It took a while to get you to answer some of my questions. But eventually you started to respond and, although now thinking about it I realise that you really were not sober… but you had told me earlier you needed to pack to go back to your flat today, so you wanted to be back earlier.” I nod at vaguely remembering this. “But you were getting really cold so I gave you my jacket again. And I called a cab and we came home. You fell asleep in the car so I carried you to your room. I didn’t bother to get you undress or changed because…” He blushed slightly and I smiled at him in thanks. “And as I was about to leave, you uh. You took my hand and said you needed someone to stay with you.” Now it was my turn to blush. I hate it when I have a panic attack and then sleep alone. I get the worst nightmares.
“Did… uh, did I elaborate on why?” I ask looking down at my hands. He nodded slightly.
“So, I sat with you for a bit but, but uh… you were too scared to close your eyes so. Uh.” He chuckles slightly. “I got into bed with you and you asked me to sing. And then I fell asleep after you.” He says looking away. I put a hand over my face.
“I’m so sorry…” I say shaking my head not really believing myself and how stupid I was. I hear him chuckle slightly before prying my hands away from my face.
“I didn’t mind. It wasn’t a hassle.” He says gently. I smile and look anywhere but at the caring young man sitting in front of me. He slowly takes his hands and wrap them around mine.
“Thank you.” I say quietly still not looking at him. I could feel the mood in the air shift but tried to ignore it. Then. Of course, with my luck. THE most embarrassing moment of my life takes place. Without knocking, my dearest darling brother barges into my room screaming my name.
“NATASHA LOUISE STYLES YOU BETTER BE IN HERE OR ELSE I WILL –” I quickly look at him with shock on my face. The colour drains from Harry’s face and I quickly let go of Luke’s hands.
“Hazz-”
“Is she in… oh…O Oh! oh no.” Says Liam quickly sticking his head through the door. “Well, uh… yeah.” He says before closing it quickly behind him.
“What, what…?” Asks Hazz quickly clearly baffled by the sight in front of him. His eyes are wide yet frowning and his mouth is partly open…My heart starts pounding in my chest even though I know I didn’t do anything.
“Harry, I swear-” starts Luke quickly standing up as I sat frozen in my bed.
“Oh, my god. Did, did you - ?” asks Harry before realising. “Did you fucking sleep with my sister? In my own fucking house?!” He asks looking horrified and his voice raises in both pitch and volume.
“Nonononono… it wasn’t like that-” I say quickly. Harry takes a step back and runs a hand through his hair.
“Oh god… mum’s going to kill me.” He takes a deep breath before looking back at us. “And I’m going to kill you!” He says pointing at Luke. Luke’s eyes go wide and he quickly turns to me.
“Harry, we didn’t do anything… nothing happened.” I say quickly removing the covers. “See, I’m still wearing what I wore last night.” Harry covers his eyes before sighing heavily.
“So, so you’re still, I mean… you didn’t-” if it wasn’t for the current situation I would probably be laughing at how flustered Hazz was. It reminded me of the time I helped Zayn and Louis prank the boys with that pregnant lady.
“He just stayed because I had a panic attack at the club and was the only one I could find.” I say looking at Luke. Harry nods slowly before walking over and giving me a strong brotherly hug. As he pulls away he seems to realise what I said.
“Oh shit. I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have left. Are, are you okay?” He asks searching my face for answers and sounding more like himself than before.
“Yeah, I’m fine… just a bit of a hangover.” I say smiling slightly. He smiles and shakes his head before turning to Luke. He sticks out his hand in a sign of truce.
“I’m really sorry, I shouldn’t have jumped to conclusions.” Says Hazz as Luke takes his hand in the shake. However, Luke still looks like he is about to shit his pants or run away.
“Hazz, could you… you might want to go tell everyone that what Liam saw wasn’t what it looked like.” He nods reluctantly and smiles.
“Yeah, yeah… but Luke.” Harry’s smile drops as he turns to the poor, scared boy. “You’re coming with me. I need to talk to you.” He says. Luke shoots me a concerned look before following Harry out of my room. I roll out of bed and look at my phone which Luke must have put on to charge for me. I had sixteen messages from Stu and Jared. Most of them about the fact they wanted to know what happened at the event last night and then some about the pics of us entering the club and the ones of me and Luke sitting outside the club before we left. They also mentioned the hashtag Luke and the guys got started but I didn’t really read them. The other thirty were from Harry and the guys asking where I was. I don’t respond to Stu or Jar but start getting changed to go jump in the shower instead. I sigh as I turn the taps on and remove my shirt standing in just jeans and my bra. I sigh again untying my hair from its plait and running my fingers through it. Fuck last night was stupid. No, last night I was fucking stupid… well not fucking because… I shake my head and unclasp my bra and pull off my pants and jump into the hot water. I sigh as the water hits my back. They are not going to let this go. I swear Louis and Niall will bring it up to everyone whenever they can. I sigh and turn so the water hits my face before grabbing my shampoo and lathering it into my hair. I sing quietly to myself as I finish washing and rinsing myself.

I sigh again looking at my cupboard, looking for something to wear. Today is going to be a long day… I drop the towel around my chest to the floor and pull on a sports bra and a pair of underwear before grabbing a pair of grey track pants and an old t-shirt of Niall’s that I have. They know when their clothes get to small to pass it onto me for when I want comfy clothes. I pull on the dark navy shirt and track pants before giving my hair a shake and walking downstairs.
“HEY NATASHA! HOW ARE YOU?!” Screams Louis at me as I get to the last step. I shake my head and give him a middle finger.
“Why do you guys always try do that?” I ask shaking my head. He shrugs and comes over to give me a hug.
“I heard you did the dirty?” He whispers in my ear. I slap his shoulder and push him away.
“No, I didn’t. But judging by that love bite.” I say pointing to the purple mark just under his ear. “You did.” He laughs and shakes his head but can’t hide his naughty boy smirk.
“You can be such a bitch.” He laughs as he drags me over to Niall and Ash.
“Takes one to know one.” I joke as I sit down next to Niall.
“Nice shirt.” He says as I lean into him. “Awe, does the baby have a headache?” He asks. I nod my head and cuddle into his shoulder.
“Woah there, Tasha. We don’t want you to have a thing with both your cousin and your boyfriend. That would just be awkward.” Says Ash shooting me a wink before giggling.
“You know, I was going to ask if we could set up a snapchat account and things for me today before I go. But now I just want to smash your head in with a metal chair.” I say quietly but loud enough for him to hear me. Niall laughs manically in my ear and I pull away from the loud noise.
“No, don’t be like that! We can make a video on Instagram together!” Says Ash pouting. I shake my head and hear a phone ring.
“Aggghhh… someone shut it up.” Says a grumpy Mikey walking down the stairs. He flops onto the couch beside me and rests his head in my lap. “Cuddles?” He asks quietly. I freeze for half a second before realising that it’s Mikey, and that for him this wasn’t weird. I run my hand through his hair and he smiles cuddling closer into me. “You’re nicer than anyone else.” He says still smiling.
“Yeah, sex makes you a nice person.” Says Louis smiling. I shoot him a death stare and feel Mikey sit up and look at me.
“WHAT? WITH WHO?!”
“MICHAEL YOU ARE SCREAMING!” says Ashton loudly.
“She and Luke did the dirty. Caught them in bed this morning.” Says Liam walking into the lounge. Michael’s eyes go wide and he turns to me looking horrified but slightly impressed.
“Oh, my god… I swear. Fuck you, Liam.” I say shaking my head before looking at Mikey. “We didn’t have sex. I had a panic attack at the club and he brought me home.” I say rolling my eyes.
“Yeah right! So, he woke up in your bed?” says Mikey scoffing.
“Yes! Because I asked him to stay because I get nightmares after I have panic attacks and I was drunk.” I say pushing Mikey away slightly. He frowns, pouts slightly and pulls me in for a hug.
“Sorry… but just so you know. We would be perfectly cool with you if you did.” I roll my eyes again.
“Where is Luke, anyway?” he asks before resting his head back in my lap. I run my fingers through his hair again.
“Talking to Hazz.” Says Niall trying to hide a smile. The boys ooh at varying pitches and the room goes silent for a second or two.
“You sure you gotta go back today, Luv?” asks Lou looking at me.
“I think so. I don’t want to be a drag on tour with work.” I say looking down at Mikey who now looks asleep again.
“But then who’s going to give cuddles?” He says pouting again.
“Ask Niall. He’s had a crush on you for a while.” I stage whisper to him. He and Niall laugh until we hear the door to the garden open up. I freeze, hoping to see a smiling Luke and Hazz.
“It’s alright, it’s alright. No one’s dead, yet.” Says Hazz walking in and shooting a slightly quizzical glance at Mikey’s head in my lap, before shaking his head pretending not to notice. I look at Luke and although he still looks slightly nervous, he smiles when we make eye contact.
“Luke. Tasha said she was thinking of agreeing to the hashtag thing.” Says Ash smiling.
“Oh really?” He asks taking a seat next to Ash. I nod and roll my eyes.
“If it gets you all to shut up about it.”
“But first, breakfast.” Says Hazz getting back up. Lou stands and follows him into the kitchen quickly followed by hungry Niall.
“I’m not hungry!” I call out so Hazz can hear me.
“You’re still eating!” He calls back. I shake my head and look around the room.
“Hey. Where is Calum?” I ask frowning. I see realisation down on the boys before they all start laughing.
“Probably doing the walk of shame.” Says Michael giggling slightly. I shake my head.
“Yeah, he got pretty hot and heavy with that blonde girl last night.” Says Luke.
“With that bimbo?” Asks Liam sounding shocked. I try to remember any blonde girl and remember the half-naked one.
“Well she did have a nice rack.” Comments Mikey. I scoff as the boys laugh.
“Classy guys. Real classy.” I say shaking my head before Hazz sticks his head through the doorway.
“Bug? Could you stay for supper tonight before we take you back?” He asks with a smile. Correction, with his pleading smile. I frown. What was Lou planning.
“How come?” I ask not sure if I could say yes.
“Ed’s back and wants to say hi. He’d love to see his little sis.” Harry pouts. I sigh and think about it for a few seconds.
“Eh, yeah. Okay. I just need to chat to Stu and Jar but it should be fine.” I say looking at him. He smiles.
“I’ll call him and let him know later. For now, how does everyone want their eggs?”

Notes

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