All Hidden Away

-Luke POV-

I could tell she had been crying, and I was just really hopping it wasn’t something I had done. I don’t like announcing things like this, especially over radio… She and Mikey are in the bathroom doing her hair, I hope he does just a dip dye – I don’t think she was keen on doing her whole head. I’m sitting in the lounge trying to stay concentrated on the story Ni is busy telling me but my mind keeps wanting to make sure she’s okay. I still feel like shit for getting her sick, and now this? I’d have to chat to Mikey later to see why she was so upset.
“So then, she asks why I wasn’t with anyone and-” I look up to see Ni telling us his story from the club he went to in Manchester.
I stand to go get something to drink, I feel like I need to be doing something. I walk into the kitchen and see Louis and Harry are still talking.
“Luke?” asks Harry. I turn to look at him. “Is she okay?” he says looking concerned and stressed. I look down and play with my lip ring. I was about to ask him the same thing.
“Uh, I’m not sure. She, I mean it looked like she had been crying but she’s with Mikey now.” I say frowning and pointing to her bathroom.
“Harry, they making me announce it on the radio tomorrow…” I inform him after a brief silence. He nods sadly and turns to Lou to say something but I interject.
“H, should we… I mean should she and I or someone and her, should we maybe not go on Friday?” I ask moving my hands around slightly before rubbing the back of my neck. “To the awards show I mean…” Harry looks questioningly at Lou.
“Well I mean, you can, but why?” he says smiling slightly.
“Well, I just. I’m worried about her and the crowds and paparazzi… I just want her to have fun y’know? But I don’t know if she will or if she’s going because she has to go…” I say rather quickly. Lou smirks slightly before looking at Harry. Harry smiles up at me.
“That’s not our decision to make… chat to her, see what she says.” Says Harry shrugging. I nod and go back to the fridge. “Luke, what were you planning instead?” asks Harry almost laughing.
“Oh, uh…I didn’t really…” I say pulling the milk from the fridge. And enjoying the cool breeze that drifted out when I opened the door.
“Drink out of the carton and we will kill you.” I hear Ashton say. I look up and see him staring at me. “Pour me some?” he pouts. I nod and grab two glasses and pour the white liquid into it. I stare at my cup watching as the sides condense over with small drops of liquid and listen to Louis and Harry talking about taking Lou, Tasha and I out shopping and who, other than Paul of course, should be there. I stand and think about Friday night. What if she has another panic attack? I can’t get the image out of my mind of her freaking out when we first met her. Aston places his finished glass in the sink and walks over to me.
“What’s got you so down today?” he asks quietly. I shrug. But know he doesn’t buy it so I explain.
“Tired, stressed… I feel bad for Tasha, like… what we are having to do is kinda normal for me or us… but, like…” I scratch my cheek and look around trying to figure out how to say this. “She shouldn’t have to go to award shows with a fake story and a fake boyfriend. She should be able to go to a bar with her friends after her afternoon lectures or do whatever university students do on a Friday…” I say. He nods but doesn’t say anything.
“Luke, if it helps, I feel just as bad… I’m the famous brother.” Says Harry quietly. Lou places a hand on his arm in a comforting manor. “It’s my fault she’s here…” he says after a while.
“Well that’s actual bull shit. Don’t any of you get that I might have wanted to be here…” I hear her voice echo in the kitchen. Wanted… past tense. I look up to see her with a towel wrapped around her head and her arms folded across her chest. “Yes it’s not ideal, but I want to spend time with my brother and his friends.” She smiles slightly before looking at me. “Stop being such a wuss and let’s stop being mopey and have some fun!” she says smiling. Her smile lights up her face and makes her green eyes sparkle.
“I’m here now, and this is the situation. So let’s enjoy it.” She says stepping more into the kitchen and leaning on Harry and hugging him from behind.
“Gee… someone is awfully optimistic considering she’s about to go shopping.” Says Lou jokingly.
“Fuck off, Lou.” She says laughing.
“HEY! DON’T SWEAR!” says Ashton smiling at her. She rolls her eyes.
“I just need to dry my hair and then we can think about going.” She says smiling as she stands on her toes to reach for a bowl. I go to stand next to her and reach above her head with ease to grab it for her. I pass it to her and she smiles, making her forest like green eyes sparkle more.
“Thanks.” She says rather quietly looking down before looking back up and pointing to the fruit loops. I laugh and grab it for her, placing it down on the counter.
“What are tall friends for?”
She smiles and makes herself a bowl of cereal while Mikey walks in with a dab of blue on his white t-shirt.
“Never ever offer to dye a girl’s hair if the hair is long… your hands die!” he says melodramatically falling into a chair. Tasha giggles.
“Sorry Mike. I’ll do yours sometime okay?” he smiles and nods. We stay around, hanging in the kitchen till Cal and Liam walk in.
“Ooooh! Let’s see!” says Cal like a little kid.
“Touch it an I’ll cut off your balls…” says Michael.
“Protective of your work of art I see…” she says shovelling the last little bits of milk into her mouth. Cal frowns and pulls a face at Michael before coming to stand next to me.
“Are we all going shopping or what’s the plan?” she asks taking her plate to the sink while I rest my head on Calum’s shoulder.
“What are we shopping for?” I feel his voice echo through his shoulder.
“Clothes mostly, but we can also just chill.” I say remembering what Claire told me.
“Okay, yeah. I’ll come.” Says Cal.
“Me too.” Says Ash cheerily.
“Will there be exercise involved?” asks Mikey leaning against the table with closed eyes.
“God I hope not.” Says Louis jokingly.
“Oh come on, Mikey. You’ve done nothing since arriving in London. Let’s go?” says Niall swatting Mikey gently on the back of the head. He groans loudly.
“Fine…”
“Hazza?” asks Tasha. He smiles at her and nods and I raise my head to go pull on my shoes. I walk upstairs as the door buzzes. I go and see it’s Lou. She smiles fondly and pulls me into a hug.
“You okay Luke?” she asks stepping inside. I nod.
“Just slightly stressed.” I admit as I start walking to the stairs. “Everyone is in the kitchen.” I shout before going to my room. Now I know this is going to seem silly… but I went into my room to call my mum.

I sit on the bed and call her number. She picks up almost immediately.
“Hello, Luke! How are you?” she says cheerily.
“All good, just a bit stressed… Claire is making me take Tasha to an awards show on Friday, but I’m worried about her because she gets really claustrophobic and has panic attacks which is how I actually met her, and I don’t want to see her like that ever again…” I say quickly, sighing at having gotten it off my chest.
“Luke, love, I’m sure she will be fine… all you need to do is be there to support her and remind her she is fine if she begins to panic. I know you will probably already be having to hold her hand, but just give her some human contact without crowding her if worse comes too worst… but just be the good friend you are and I’m sure she will be fine…” she says. I sigh acknowledging she is right. I roll over my side a bit.
“Okay… thanks mum… how is everything at home?”

We spend a few minutes catching up, talking about plans for tour and new music. I hang up after sending my love and feeling better, now knowing what to do so the images of Tasha panicking in my mind fade away.

I walk downstairs and see Lou talking to Tasha, with her hair still in the towel, about Friday night. I smile at them and go into the kitchen smiling.
“Aaaah! There is the Lukey I know and love!” says Ashton smiling at me. I bro nod him and smile.
“Have a good wank?” asks Cal teasingly. I flip him off.
“No, I spoke to my mum you twat.” I say laughing.
“Naaawww, Lukey – Pookey spoke to Mummy Liz.” I hear Tasha teasing me. I turn and pull a tongue at her.
“What did mummy say?” asks Ashton smiling at the fact I felt better.
“Just, discussed some stuff…” I say vaguely. I hear a beeping sound and Mikey jumps up and jumps up and down.
“COME QUICKLY, TASHA! I WANT TO SEE MY MASTER PEICE!” he screams taking her hand and pulling her upstairs as she laughs at his excitement. Lou follows behind obviously needing to make sure Mike doesn’t shave her head or something.
“STOP SCREAMING!” screams Ashton. The entire mood in the house seems lighter, better.
We sit around, chilling on out phones for a bit while we hear Tasha and Mike laugh and messing around. Unfortunately, while on twitter, I get another message from Claire.

We need you to include Natasha in more of the things the band does… Make it believable, Luke.

I read over it quickly and shake my head but don’t respond. We do include her… we just don’t want to shove her into the dark pit that fame can be, never to be seen again. I look at Ash who is also frowning.
“I think we got the same message…” he mumbles while showing me his phone. I roll my eyes… “I’m going to make a Keek, Luke do we mention her?”
“Mention who?” asks Liam walking in. I smile and show him the message. He frowns. “Hold on one second…” he says before running upstairs. Ashton looks at me and I shrug. We go back to our phones and I see some hate on twitter, not just for Tasha but just in general. I quickly type out a message:
People need to relax, too much negativity in the world and add a koala just so it doesn’t seem too angry. I post it and put my phone away as Liam walks down the stairs.
“Hey, good response Luke…” says Ash getting notifications already. I smile at him.
“So, I spoke to Tasha and she says she’ll be fine being mentioned and being in Keeks.” He says smiling. Ashton giggles.
“Let’s hope she’s better than Luke at keeks…” I shake my head as Cal high fives Liam about hoping to get to dump her in a pool or something. I turn to see Ash already opening the camera.

“Hey people of keek!” he giggles like a two-year-old. “So we just chilling in Harry’s house, waiting for our friend to finish dyeing her hair-” he giggles as I watch him fixing his hair before carrying on. “Michael is helping her so it hopefully looks cool…Luke get in here you bastard.” He giggles as I lean in and make my eyebrows dance and start to laugh with him. “Anyway, see you guys soon… and read Luke’s new tweet it’s really important! BYYYYEEEE!” he says still giggling.
“OH MY GOD! I AM A FUCKING GENIUS!” screams Michael running down the stairs.
“Wow, so humble!” says Cal rolling his eyes.
“Everyone get in here!” he screams jumping up and down like a kid.
“Michael Clifford, only gets excited about food and hair dye.” I say smiling at my friend who flips me off at my comment. Harry, Niall and Louis all fill into the lounge as we turn to look at the stairs.
“Okay, Tasha. Everyone is here.”
“Mike, I don’t need to make some huge entrance…” she says shyly as we hear her coming down the stairs. I don’t know about everyone else but I smile at seeing the tips of her hair.
“Oh my god! Bug it looks awesome!” gushes Harry smiling. Louis nods along. She looks up and blushes at the remark.
“Tasha! Its soo cool! Like when I had purple hair!” says Niall smiling.
“Thanks…” she says quietly. She looks over at us and smiles. “And? Do I look punk rock?” she teases smiling.
“It looks so cool!” exclaims Calum. “I wanna do it!” he says making us laugh. I smile at her and stand up. She squints at me.
“Look okay?” she asks shyly.
“It looks fucking awesome!” I say grinning from ear to ear.
“Hey! I’m making a keek, don’t fucking swear!” She smiles and turns to Ashton.
“What are you doing?” she says frowning but not losing her smile.
“Say Hi to the 5SOS fam on keek!” he screams giggling which makes her giggle too.
“Uh… hey…” she says giving a short wave.
“She just dyed her hair, doesn’t it look amazing?” asks Mikey proudly.
“Just because you did it!” she says smacking his arm playfully.
“Yeah… but you suit galaxy!” he says shrugging and pulling on a strand. She looks back at Ashton.
“Hey. Turn that off…” she mumbles going to sit next to him before they both pull funny faces and scream bye before putting down his phone. Harry steps forward and pulls her up into a brotherly hug.
“It really does look good though…” he says smiling. Mikey and I lunge forward and join the hug, and soon everyone is hugging everyone else while Tasha tries to get free, before most of us head out to go shopping.

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