All Hidden Away

I spent the evening chatting to Mishie about varsity, boys and just life in general and now I was battling to keep my eyes open as I said goodbye to mum and the boys
“Bye mum! I promise to see you when I can.” I say pulling her into a big hug and her kissing me on the cheek.
“Bye my baby! Stay safe, I love you so much.” She says in-between kisses.
“I love you too mum!” I walk over to the four boys while Stu and Jared are finishing packing the car to go back to varsity. I’m meeting up with the lads later at Harry’s.
“See you all later.” I say giving each one a hug.
“Catch you later alligator…” says Harry with a smile.
“In a while crocodile.” I say walking back to the car. I pull out my phone and grab my pillow going to sit in the back, preparing for the three hour drive.

We wave goodbye to a tearful mum as we pull away and head back to the varsity.
“Okay, pass me the aux and get ready to rock all the way back.” I say reaching forward; Jared looks at Stu who is currently driving.
“How much do you bet little miss energy over here will be asleep within an hour?” he says with a smile. Stu raises his head and he and I make eye contact in the review mirror.
“Na, she doesn’t want to sleep which is why she wants the aux. It’s in the hold if you prepaid for your ears to bleed.”
“My music taste is fantastic, thank you very much!” I say plugging in my phone and going through all my music. I smile as I see 1985 by Bowling for Soup. I turn it up loud and start singing along, and soon the three of us are screaming along, head banging and laughing.
“Not bad, Styles… thank god you’re not a Taylor Swift fan or anything…” says Jared turning around and smiling at me. I laugh and I feel myself blush under his ever green stare. He hasn’t shaved in a while and it’s starting to show, causing butterflies in my stomach which I don’t really want to be there. I smile back and we share some banter before Misery Business comes on by Paramore and I start singing along, playing the beat on the back of his headrest. Im asleep within the hour as he predicted soon and wake up to see Jared smiling at my through the wing mirror. The rest of the drive was fun filled and uneventful and soon we pulling up to the flat.

“GUYS!?” I scream putting my head out the door. “Has anyone seen my All Time Low hoodie?” I wait for a reply from them in the kitchen making lunch.
“Yeah! It’s on the couch!” shouts back Stu. He runs to my room with it.
“Thanks!” I say shoving it into my bag.
“You nearly done packing?” he asks still standing behind me. I turn towards him and slide down onto the floor.
“I have no idea what im meant to bring…” I rest my head in my hands and he pulls me in for a hug.
“I’m sure if you don’t have something you need you’ll be able to get it. Don’t stress babe- it’ll be fun and Harry will be there to take care of you.” I smile gratefully up at him. I stand up and pack my last bag before doing a final check in my room.
“Alright, I think that’s everything…” I say to Stu who stayed with me talking and making jokes.
“You going to change?” he asks, I nod and head into the bathroom to brush my hair. I leave it loose and change into my jeans and grey cut off sleeved Jack Daniels T-shirt and my leather jacket over it. I give myself a once over and head back to my room. We take my bags downstairs and go back into the kitchen to finish our tea.

“You okay?” asks Jared coming and standing next to me. “you seem stressed.” I look up and meet his eyes. I look back at my slightly shaking hands.
“Yeah, it’s just- im going to live with Harry for a month but no one can know? I mean yeah it will be fun, but- I mean there is just so much shit that’s fucked up right now, how is any of this going to work?” I say letting my anger and frustrations show.
“You scared somethings going to go wrong?” he asks with a concerned frown.
“Management is just causing issues at the moment and I don’t want to create tensions between anyone...” I hadn’t been allowed to tell them anything because technically it wasn’t all worked out yet. I sigh and look at my watch, Harry is expecting me there in half an hour. “Come on, we best get going.” I say putting down my now empty tea cup and grabbing my bag and phone. I have 2 missed calls from Hazza and 1 from Louis… I quickly dial Hazza and he answers almost immediately.
“Please tell me you haven’t left your flat yet?” he asks.
“We were just about to - why?” I ask my heart pounding.
“Fans heard we were headed to my place and they are swarming the gates, we coming to pick you up in the car and then can drive you in so they don’t see you.” Everything freezes.
“Tasha? Bug- you okay?” I don’t want to say anything and upset him, but need to ask him.
“Harry… if this is going to happen all the time and going to be-“
“It’s not going to be a problem… I promise. Just- just be ready in about 20 min okay?” I nod my head.
“Yeah, drive safe. See you then.” I hang up and try to not punch a wall.
“What’s going on?” asks Jared who has come up behind me. I turn to look at him.
“Just fan issues… they coming to pick me up.” I force a smile which he notices and pulls me into a hug. I hug back and hear Stu come in but walk back out for some reason. We stand like that for a while before I pull back and start blushing.
“Thank you.” Is all I say looking down before turning the kettle back on, waiting for the new adventure to start.

We are all sitting around my little living room, the boys wanted to see everything so now we are running late, and therefore decided to have a good cuppa before doing anything else. Paul had the guys manage to disperse the fans so it’s safe to go back to Harry’s for now. We grab my bags and I head to my room to do some last minute things. I sit down on my bed and suddenly am laced with fear.

The drive to Harry's went by really quickly. He, Louis and Paul came to pick me up after dropping their stuff off from their flight. I knew they could tell i was nervous, because when they were teasing and joking with me they were gentle compared to what they normally are.
"10 minutes." Says Paul turning to face us who were sitting in the back. He smiles at me and gives me a wink. I’ve always liked Paul, he's like that awesome uncle everyone loves. I smile and turn back to the conversation Harry and Louis were having.
"Yeah but Lou, if they do that mum will have a shit fit."
"No I know... but, agg...Tash we need your help." He says looking at me with big eyes and a pout, his blue eyes sparkling.
"Ew! Put it away! I’ll help!" I joke with him. He rolls his eyes and continues telling me the plans for the next week.
"So do you think if we have some friends coming round this week will be alright?" Asks Harry playing with his hair. I can’t help but notice how old he is looking. I can’t believe how long his hair is and I how often he now wears a frown.
"What’s wrong?" I ask before I can stop it.
He looks shocked an caught off guard.
"Wha- what do you mean?" He asks fumbling.
"Somethings wrong... what?" I ask again, in a softer tone. Louis is frowning down into his hands.
"Just stress... it’s okay though." He says.
"It’s not stress. Harry. Just tell me." I say getting annoyed. He expects me to tell him and they guys everything!
There’s a moment of awkward silence before he looks at me and meets my eye contact.
"Im just worried about the stuff going on with you and management. They contemplating me going on a few dates for publicity stunts and you and Niall is just... its concerning and im stressed about everything." He says still not telling me everything.
"Hazza, I know it’s hard but, I’ll do what I have to okay? It’s not worth making a fuss over it if there isn’t-"
"That’s not the point Tash... the issue is that Niall doesn’t feel comfortable dating our sister and is blaming himself because he hasn’t had a girlfriend in a while. And it’s actually neither of your faults and most of all it shouldn’t be YOUR problem!" He says getting angry.
I look down at my hands in my lap and try to breathe without getting angry.
"Tasha-" he starts
"I’m not saying it’s ideal Harry. But it’s what has to be done." I say closing the discussion.
"I know bug, I just don’t want you getting hurt by the fans or someone for something that is so stupid."
I look up and meet his green eyes.
"Sorry to interrupt guys, but we need to get ready to get out." Says Paul pulling into a drive way. I look out the blackened windows and see crowds of people screaming for harry and Louis. I automatically back away from the window.
"They can’t see you luv..." says Louis with a sad smile. I nod my head and force a smile.
"Bug... you do want to come right? says harry sounding stressed again. I look at him and smile.
"I do, im just... scared about stuff. Like this. How do I leave? Or go for a run? Is there a library for special celebs? Will I still be allowed to just be?" I ask frowning. Louis and Harry laugh and look at each other.
"No one ever said fame was easy luv." Says Louis laughing.
"I think it’s why they want you to "date" someone... so you can still be sort of human." Says Harry with a smile.
"See, no need for you and Niall to stress." I look back out the window and see a mansion in front of me.
"Harold... I thought you said house... not a fucking HOTEL!" I scream at the huge white building we are pulling up to.
Louis laughs while Harry blushes.
"Come on then. It’s time to move." Says Paul opening his door.
"Keep your head down and near us okay?" Says harry squeezing me hand.
I nod as Paul opens my door and helps me out. I look at my feet as i thank him and wait for harry to come lead me inside. Louis places a hand on my shoulder and guids me forward, covering me from the screaming fans and camera flashes that we can still hear going off even though we are up the long driveway. He opens the door for me and i walk inside, and my mouth immediately opens in awe. The house... mansion is gorgeous! I turn to harry in surprise.
"Who knew you had class!"
He and Louis both laugh, and Harry sticks out his tongue at me.
“well, it was Louis’ idea for most of it, don’t give him all the credit!” says Liam pulling me into a hug.
“well then, I don’t know what is more surprising.” I say smiling at Louis. Harry laughs and pulls him in for a hug while Louis feigns hurt emotions.
“well then you can just make your own bloody lunch, you ungrateful child!” he half yells at me before pulling a funny face, crossing his eyes and pulling a tongue. He walks away from Harry and walks around the staircase.
“come on, I want to give you the grand tour.” Says Harry with a smile. I nod and he shows me my room, the band room and all the multiple chilling rooms with all kinds of goods in them. I see the grand piano in the one library like room and smile, noting it for later. It took a while but around every corner and door was absolutely stunning!
“it’s the kind of think I want to make…” I mumble walking back down the stairs in the direction of the kitchen.
“how is the studying going?” asks Harry. “are you still enjoying it?”
“I am, I mean sure some lectures and days are boring, but in the prac room where I can actually make models and design stuff… I showed you the apartment I did the other day right?” I ask enjoying the pure brother-sister moment. He nods and smiles his famous dimpled smile and his eyes light up.
“yeah you did, I couldn’t believe you designed it… it was stunning! I didn’t get a chance to show the lads though, maybe you could later?” he asks. “maybe once they have eaten and calmed down.” He suddenly looks serious and stops me walking down the last step.
“You’re…. You’re sure you okay staying here, with us I mean? You’re happy right?” he asks looking unsure. Spending so much time apart has taken its toll on us, making some things slightly awkward.
“yes you idiot! I wouldn’t have come if I didn’t want to Hazza.” I say with a smile. He pulls me into a hug and I can feel his relief.
“I’m glad bug, im really glad. You have no idea how much I’ve missed you.”

Notes

Let me know what you think :) Been having a rough week so sorry it was not edited properly, will try update asap! xx L