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After i told Zayn about our baby i knew what i had to do. I had to tell John.

I've been putting it off for the longest, but with morning sickness, not eating enough and a constant roller coaster of emotions, it was beginning to be too much for me to keep in.

I decided to tell him over dinner. I cook some burgers and fries. Nothing fancy. I play Mr. Brightside in the back ground, i sit down at our table as i wait for john to come through the door.

Time goes by as i wait for him and i sit, thinking of different ways that i could possibly break the news to him.

"Hey honey! You remember when you left a few weeks ago? Well i had sex with a stranger and i'm now carrying his baby!"

"Hey babe! How would you like a child? More specifically me, carrying someone elses?"

"Oh! You're home! How was your day today, cause mine was great! I thought i'd let you know your mom called- she wants us to visit, um, you have mail, i'm pregnant with a strangers baby, and we are completely out of frozen peas!"

None of the scenarios sounded good enough. So, i decide to just tell him straight out. I mean, it is what it is.

I hear John come through the door and i groan loudly when i hear him asking how his favorite person's day was.

"Awe. Why the groaning babe? Something happen?" He wraps his arms around me in a comforting manner, but i just feel disgust, so i push him off of me.

"Okay, so i'm just going to tell you this. Wait! I would sit down or something. i mean, its not that bad to where you'll have to sit down, but you know, you might wanna. I don't want to worry you before i tell you."

"Babe!" He laughs, "Just tell me."

He smiles a toothy grin and i let out a deep breath.

"I'm pregnant!"

"What!? This is amazing! Oh my gosh! How long? I'm going to be a dad! I need to call my mother!" He runs to the table to get his phone

"No! No!" I yell nervously at him. His smile falters some, but regardless, he puts the phone down.

"I'm- I'm, It's- Look John, it's not yours."

"Sarah. What do you mean?"

I bow my head in shame and embarrassment. "I went clubbing with Akira- a few weeks ago. And, and i was drunk. And God! Stupid, so stupid." I whisper, "I went with him to his. We had sex. We had sex without a condom and it's his. The baby is his. Not yours."

I don't look up to john, but i can feel his eyes on me. I feel the air move around me as he walks past me, to what i'm guessing is the front door.

My eyes start to tear up, but i won't allow my-self to cry. I did this to my-self.

I go to our room and lie down on the bed, looking at the clock. Watching the time go by.

7:56 PM

8:24 PM

9:41 PM

10:19 PM

At 11:33 i hear my phone going off in the other room, but i don't go to get it.

At 11:37 the house phone goes off beside me, i don't pick it up, but the recording plays.

"Sarah, i've loved you before time. I still do. I'm not mad. I'm on my way home. I went to my mothers, she told me i would stay with you if i truly loved you. And what i'm trying to tell you is, i do. I'll be with you every step of the way, and we'll get through this. I love you and i'll talk to you when i get home in a few hours. Goodnight."

The recording cuts off and i lie in my bed with tear filled eyes. What am i going to do?

Notes

I hope you guys are enjoying the book! Thanks for those who are reading and those that are to come!

l.b.