I know places.

I sit in the cafeteria alone picking at my food, it is now four in the morning. I put my headphones in and go to my music and play 'fix you' and flood of memories come from the night Harry and I went to the coldplay concert.

He has been there for me through everything and how did I repay him I lied and broke his belief and trust.

Tears stream down your face

Which they are now.

When you lose something you cannot replace

Harry is irreplaceable.

My phone then lights up.

So sad to hear the devastating news of a certain pop star you were responsible for.If I was you i'd watch yourself!

I look around and scan my surroundings. Who the hell is this message from. I delete the message and see Anne walking towards me, she takes a seat next to me and I remain silent.

"Would you like a few minutes with him to say goodbye" She weakly smiles.
I nod my head like a little innocent child. She takes me by my hand and we walk to his room.


Every one has left the room just Harry and I now. The only evident sound is the machines in the background. My head is tilted rest back on the door I try not to cry but it's useless.


I place a delicate kiss to his lips and tears fall. I caress his cheek slowly and kiss it, I then slowly sit down beside him and take his hand.

"Harry I" I whisper and let all my emotions pour out.

"I just want you to know that even though I broke your heart. i promise you that I am never ever going to fall in love with anyone ever again, even though I might find someone new I promise you this until my final breaths on this earth I will never fall in love ever again.
I am so sorry for the pain, doubt I made you feel . I am sorry for making you fall in love with a stranger but I promise you this stranger that I am to you it was all real and genuine.

But in a way I don't regret anything because if I hadn't done all those things I would never have met and fell in love with you." I cry and cry letting my tears spill on the bed.

"I love you so much and will never forget you."






My head is now resting in his stomach and I look up at him and memorise his beautiful yet broken face, this here and now is my last moment with him forever I will hold it in my heart and never let it or him go ever.

I hear a faint knock on the door and a final tear falls from my eye. I stand up and place another kiss to his soft pink lips. "I love you" I whisper one last time.
Everyone (Anne, Des, Robin, Gemma and the boys) come in. "Lyla would you join us" Anne says and I nod.

"Were going to say a prayer." She says with a broken voice. "It's fine it's for his family." I say politely. "Please sweetheart he would want you to join us." She replies and I glance over to Harry and smile weakly.

I take her hand and Gemma's hand and everyone else is holding hands in a little circle.

"Heavenly father we pray for our son, brother, friend for this truly amazing, pure, innocent, talented man. We pray for his peace and give us all strength to go on without him. He leaves us with his kindness, generosity and charming smile and leaves footprints in all our lives. Thank you for the time we have all spent with him, please look after him and know we will never forget him." She concludes. Then Liam speaks.

"We pray for our brother Harry. We have shared mist of our life and our dreams came true together. We have such amazing memories together that we have to look back on. Not only was he known for his creativity but his amazing brotherly personality."

Liam and the two others break away and stand beside his bed.

Let's dance in style,
Let's dance for a while,
Heaven can wait, we're only watching the skies,
Hoping for the best but expecting the worst,
Are you gonna drop the bomb or not?

Liam starts to sing.

Let us die young or let us live forever,
We don't have the power but we never say never,
Sitting in a sandpit,
Life is a short trip,
The music's for the sad man.

He continues.


Forever young,
I wanna be
Forever young.
Do you really wanna live forever,
Forever,
Forever young?

They all sing softly.


So many adventures couldn't happen today,
So many songs we forgot to play,
So many dreams are swinging out of the blue,
We let 'em come true.

Liam goes on.

Forever young,
I wanna be
Forever young.
Do you really wanna live forever,
Forever
Or never?

They all conclude.


We then all group hug and hear some cries.



"I better um go" I stand up after sitting here with everyone for about half an hour.
"Lyla no stay, we would like for you to be in here when it happens" Anne says I don't even know that I can. But I sit back down and agree.

I hear a knock at the door and answer it and it's the specialist. I let him and the nurse in, oh god it's happening.

"Ok first off, nothing will happen until your ready." He says. I go beside Anne and Gemma,
"were ready now" Anne says. We then all stand back and I now go beside Louis and he wraps his arm around my waist and I bury my head on his shoulder. I take a deep breathe and squeeze his hand tightly.

"ok ready?" the specialist ask, Anne replies "No. But go ahead," Gemma is holding her dad's hand and her head rests on Anne's shoulder and Robin is holding Anne's other hand.

My lips start to tremble as the nurse starts peeling the tape off that holds the tube. I think I'm going to be sick I try and think back to happy memories Harry and I shared and I go back to a date we had on the beach once.

"Lyla, I'm not that great with words but this song is for you" Harry pecks my lips as we sit by the ocean shore and I blush.

And truly, madly, deeply, I am
Foolishly, completely falling
And somehow you kicked all my walls in
So baby, say you'll always keep me
Truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with you

He sings to me, and a tear falls from my eye. "Oh crap I didn't mean to make you cry." He comes and puts his arm around my neck and I do the same, "no it's beautiful" I kiss him passionately.



His lips against mine I will always remember there the only lips I want against mine ever again until my dying day.
I can't and don't want to say goodbye it's wrong, this isn't meant to be happening. I see the nurse go for the powerpoint to switch off his life support and hear Gemma gasp.






"NO WAIT, STOP!"

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