"Lyla. Lyla"
"Huh yea sorry gran" I look to her.

"hows your job going? I asked you, you seem spaced out?" She takes a sip of her tea.
"Yea it's good, everything I've always wanted." I half lie, it's been two months since started my nursing and it comes really easy and naturally to me. Working on the cardio ward fixing everyones' hearts except my own. I look at my watch and notice I need to get back.

"Are you ok to get home." I ask her as I get up. Gran is back in LA and is heading back to Uk tomorrow. "Yes love, go make some money. I'll see you at home." I peck her cheek goodbye and walk. Ahh my home I have now thanks to my new job I love and making money. But all of this would not have happened if it wasn't fro him. I think about him all day everyday and would do anything to just speak to him and thank him. I just want to hear his voice and apologise again and again.

"Ly, patient needs a set of obs room 207". The nurse on duty hands me the folder.

"Hi, just need to check your bp real quick." I place the folder on the patients table and make my way to the blood pressure standing machine. I place the cuff around her arm and make small talk. "So your pain today on a scale of one to ten."

"About a six now, I think"
"Ok that's an improvement" I make notes in her folder. "Anything interesting on?" I ask her as the blood pressure machine is still going. "Just entertainment tonight" I look up at the screen.

"hmm we might do that one again, first reading isn't always accurate" I refer to slightly elevated blood pressure. I press the button and it goes off again.

"These mages just in Harry Styles and Kendall Jenner enjoying a romantic dinner date out in London." My eyes divert back to the tv again, but I proceed with my job.
"My granddaughter will be devastated."
"Oh why's that?"

"Well she thinks she will be marrying Harry styles." Oh god even his name breaks me.
"I mean she's only ten but still." She laughs,
"Ok that's a better reading. 150 over 79" I record it. "Tell her there is always hope" I smile and leave her.




I return to the nurse station and do a bit of paperwork. Harry and Kendall he didn't waste any time. But it's none of my business, my head and heart always wanders back to that life changing day.

I am the reason I have this job right now because of him, but when Anne asked me to open my wallet and what I found still makes me tear up to this day. He left me a cheque, a big amount of five million dollars. I know generous isn't a big enough word, when I saw it I ran back to his house but he wasn't there, I tried to call him to take the money back but he wouldn't answer my calls, texts, emails nothing. Until one night a text he sent me saying to take the money and make a life for myself and not to be stuck in a job that made me out to be someone I'm not. I then tried to respond back but his phone was cut off or he maybe changed is number.

But one day I will pay him back, my life now is all coming together cohesively and all because of him. When I earn more money and make it bigger hopefully I will pay him back I don't care if he declines I will one way or another.

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"Ok I'll see you all later." I say goodbye to the rest of the nurses and head home which is only few block away.
Walking alone at night\\morning it's 2am most people might think is scary but I'm used to it by noway shift is over and I have a day off thank god, the only thing about nursing is the weird inconsistent hours, apart from that I love my job.

I havent seen or heard from Jack so that's a good thing, but Harry is always on my mind has he really moved on? I know I hurt him and we weren't together that long but he was always doing the sweet kind, loving things anyway I need to move on with my life- yea my life I have only because of him.



I finally get to my home, well it should be Harry's home, and it's an actual house. I quietly make my way upstairs carful not wake gran. I have a quick shower then climb in my double heavenly bed http://www.robesondesign.com/wp-content/gallery/la-jolla-luxury-master-bedroom-ba/La-Jolla-Luxury-Master-Bedroom-1.3-After.JPG


I scroll through my social media something i need to do before I sleep, and I try and avoid anything Harry related but of course I don't follow my own advice and see the pics of him and Kendall at a restaurant, coming outside the restaurant linking arms. These images were taken a week ago, I lock my phone and turn the tv on, another thing I need the tv on to sleep at night, I guess it makes me feel less alone in a sense.

After a long, emotional day my eyes give up and begin to close and I fall asleep thinking of him.

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