Love in a Photograph

Those two words repeated in my mind. 'My girlfriend'.
As soon as Harry dropped me home and I ran in the house crying. I have locked myself in my studio and painted all day for about six hours, I don't even need to soak my brushes in water my tears are pretty much doing it.

I don't know why I am upset. Maybe the fact Harry lead me to believe he was single I mean with all the touching and caring. But at the same time I as so naive and never been exposed to any of this kind of stuff. So I don't really know how it's supposed to happen or anything like that.

I hear mum knocking on the door. "Hayley honey open up."
"Not now mum." I yell in frustration. "Do you need someone to talk to." She replies, gosh she doesn't get it. "NO GO AWAY" I yell louder hoping she'll get the point.
"Hayley don't you dare speak to me that way." She yells back and that when I lose it, I smack my hand and make everything drop around me water all over my painting and everything ruined. I need to get out of here so I storm out of the house my mum calling after me but I ignore her. I storm out of the front door with my jacket and walk.

Once I get sick of walking I stop at the park and sit on the bench and go over everything that has just occurred, I pull out my phone and scroll down to Harry's name. I am so tempted to press the call button, so I brush all instincts away and call him. After a few rings nothing, then goes straight to message bank. I try once more but again nothing.

I don't stay out much longer and walk back home. I then feel my phone vibrate in my pocket and see Harry's name but I press the ignore button. I get home and no one is in the lounge so I make way to my bed and lay there, annoyed at Harry, at myself and annoyed at the world.

I have never had this feeling of being annoyed before, it's an unusual feeling like discomfort. I don't know what to do next being annoyed isn't a good feeling, you want to blame someone for this feeling but who, when I am feeling like this, I am annoyed at this situation not anyone else. I let this emotion take over me and fall asleep hopefully tomorrow will be a better day

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