Love in a Photograph

We have all ordered our main meals, I am sitting there not knowing what to do or how to act, it's mostly Harry and dad engaging in their own conversation. I then find my own inner child and take out my notepad and begin to draw.

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Our mains finally come and i pack my notepad away as I reach for my bag on the side of the chair my notepad falls. "Here let me" Harry says as he reaches down my level to get my notepad. "It's ok I got it." But he gets there before me and picks it up. We are now eye level and looking at each other. An unknown feeling runs through my body, looking deeply into his green eyes is like looking at a life full of happiness, free from pain, anger. It makes everything clear I snap back into the reality that is life.
"Wow you drew this?" He says placing the notepad back on the table which I then place back in my bag. "Ah yea, I was bored so." I smile.
"Maybe you can teach me how to draw sometime." He smiles and more fantasy takes over my mind.

We proceed with dinner making small talk. What Harry has confessed to my dad makes me feel guilty. I guess I was to quick to judge him, his family life is stuffed non existent actually. He has no one to turn to expect my dad. I guess my dad is like a father figure to him.

After our meals are done, dad goes and pays for the food, leaving Harry and I in silence at the table. "So Hayls how you been?" he breaks the silence. "Yea pretty good I guess." I don't really know how to engage in a conversation with him it's just so awkward. "You still painting?" he remembers. "Yep." Yea I am so nervous right now I don't know why. I mean it's Harry - the Harry who I used to play legos with, but were not kids anymore, were adults now and I don't think we can go back to the way we were. Too much time has passed and there is great distance of space between us even though we are sitting side by side.

In my heart I want to maybe restore the relationship Harry and I once had. Mainly because I have no friends at all. He was literally the only one I and, and when he left I created a bubble for myself not wanting to get involved in society. I became very isolated and passed up any opportunities came my way, because of my confidence and shyness.

The way we were was so good, we were inseparable and our families were close as well. Every Saturday night we would all go out for dinner and Harry and I would have sleep overs. We used to hang out in the park and stay till dark , it's funny how all this happened so long ago, yet it feels like it was yesterday.

"Ok well we should get going Hayley, Harry I'll see you in a couple days." Dad comes back to our table. I stand up and pick up my hand bag. "It was good to see you Hayls" Harry hugs me goodbye and his cologne takes over my senses. "See you later Harry" I smile and leave with dad.

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