Made by Modest!

I toss and turn in my bed, unable to find peace and sleep. The thoughts of going further with harry plagued my mind but I couldn’t get rid of them either. I’m panicking about the whole situation and have decided that keeping my feeling inside isn’t going to solve anything. I need to talk about this.

“Lucy” I whisper, shaking her a little and she begins to stir. “Lucy” I whisper a little harsher.

“What?” she groans, rolling over and pulling her covers up closer to her face nuzzling into them.

“I need a girly chat” I say, knowing that she’ll get it. She gives a fake and over exaggerated groan and its up.

“Go on” she says, sleepy
“Harry tried to go a little further with me” I say, cringing at the awkwardness of saying it out loud.

“WHAT?!?!” she screeches, instantly waking up a bit more “What the fuck happened!?!” she carried on, still excited.

I told her in specific detail about everything that happened up to me walking out and not being able to sleep.

“I just don’t want him to get the wrong idea because I like him and now he thinks that I’m not ready and he text me that stupidly adorable text and how am I supposed to be around him it’s so awkward Lucy hellppp me” I wine

“Calm, Phoebe, calm” she said giggling. “He likes you, he’s not going to hate you because you slowed things down” she says coolly.

“Okay” I say taking a breath “but what do I do when I next see him?” I ask

“See how he acts, if he’s normal, then leave it. But if he’s acting weird, talk it out” she says, this is why you need a best friend, how can she be so calm in a crisis.

“Okay, just take it how it comes yeah?” I say, slowing my breathing.

“Yeah!” she laughed “now get some sleep you crazy hoe” and with that she rolled over and
went back to sleep. And so did I.

****

The next day I wake up after an adamant amount of sleep. Today is house hunting day. I quickly jump in the shower and get changed into jeans and a flowy blouse. I let my hair air dry and wake Lucy up. I do my regular makeup look, but this time I add a red lip. Once my hair is mostly dry I tie it up into a messy bun and grab my phone. I sit down on the bed whist Lucy is still getting ready contemplating what to order for breakfast.

“Why don’t you go eat breakfast with Harry” Lucy says laughing, but it’s actually a good idea.

To Styles:
Hey, you want to grab breakfast before I go out? x

I tell Lucy that I might be ditching her to have breakfast with Harry before our flat hunting and she doesn’t mind. She’s excited for me and hopes that he says yes but waiting for his reply is making my stomach turn.

From Styles:
Yeah sure, come over x

I mentally squeal, I slip on my shoes and head out of the door promising Lucy that I’ll be done by 10. Our first viewing is at 10:30. I get to Harrys hotel door and take a breath before knocking. Within a few seconds he opens the door.

“Hey” I say with a hesitant smile.

“Hi” he replies, moving out of the way to let me in. I get in to see that room service has already been up here.

“Foods already here?” I ask shocked.

“Err yeah I told them to hurry it up” he said with a chuckle.

“It looks so good” I say sitting down. A situation is only awkward if you make it awkward. A situation is only awkward if you make it awkward. A situation is only awkward if you make it awkward. I repeat in my head trying to act at ease when in reality I just want to apologise for
running out yesterday. I guess that’s what I should do.

“Hey, sorry about running out yesterday” I say with an awkward laugh, loading my fork up with pancakes.

“Its fine, I thought I did something wrong” he said, a little bit of hurt in his voice which broke my heart. I gave a faint smile,

“No, it’s not you. I just. I don’t know where this is going you know?” I look down at my plate, trying to hide my red cheeks.

“Me neither, I mean. I would ask you to come out, you know just you and –“

“A date?” I cut him off getting a bit annoyed with his awkwardness.

“Yeah” he replied confidently “but I can’t, can I?” I get what he’s trying to say. I can’t be seen out on a date with harry. The press will have a field day. But I completely ignore the serious note behind his point and focus on the fact he practically just asked me out.

“Did you just ask me out on a date Styles?”

“Phoebe” he scolds to which I giggle. I decide to change the subject, we can talk about this another time. Just when the conversations are getting good I get a text from Lucy.

From Lucy:
Ten minutes bitch :)

Indicating that I only have 10 minutes left.

“I have to go in a second” I say, sighing

“Okay, have fun flat hunting”

“I shall” I say in a posh English accent causing him to laugh. I loved his laugh.

“Come here a second cuddles” he said, I almost forgot how my heart flutter when he calls me that. I walk slowly over to him and he grips the back of my neck before pulling me in for a kiss.

“Yeah, I could definitely get used to that” he says after pulling away a little too soon. I laugh, because to be honest I’m speechless.

Notes

Made by Modest is back Bitchesss <3

Lots Of Love,

HB xxxxxxx

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