Summer Sky | L.T.

Today was the day we were putting my dad to rest and nobody bothered me. I know that the station wanted me in for some questions but they respected my privacy for today. A lot of them would be there to give their chief a proper send off.

I was staring at the ceiling right now, dreading to get out of bed and in the shower. No one wants to bury their parents because that would make it real. I had deflected all conversations about this subject and only talked about it when it was absolutely necessary. Today was going to an endurable day. I rolled over to stare at the man who was lying next me. He was still peacefully sleeping and I really didn't want to wake him up, I turned on my side to stare at him, he looked so peaceful and I couldn't help but trace my fingers over the shape of his face, he had stubbles from not shaving,he looked older with stubbles, I sighed because I really had to get up.

I slowly got up from the bed and grabbed some underwear and walked into the bathroom, not really caring if Louis would see me in only my black lace underwear, he had already undressed me when I was unconscious a few days ago, so what was the point of being a prude now? I quickly took my shower trying to relax some muscles but it didn't really work so I got out and quickly dried my body. I pulled the brush through my hair and let it hang loose for now so that it could air dry. I brushed my teeth and put on my underwear. My dress was already hanging on my closet door. I walked through the room when I heard someone scrape his throat. I swiftly turned into his direction and he was eying me slowly and to be honest that did give me a good feeling about myself. "Morning love." He didn't say good morning like he usually did knowing I would huff in sarcasm if he did that today.

"Morning, did you sleep well?" I asked politely whilst continuing walking to my closet. "I did thank you." He got up as well and stopped me by grabbing me softly at my waist. He turned me around so I was facing him. "You smell heavenly" He stopped abruptly when he heard those words and his face went from I-guess-you-can-call-it-seductive-to-apologetic and I just smiled at him and kissed him gently on his lips. "Don't worry and thank you." I shimmied out of his grasp and grabbed the dress from the door. I swiftly pulled it over my body "Louis, could you help me with the zipper please?" He came up behind me instantly and when he touched my bare back I couldn't stifle back the pleasant shudder that ran over my body.

He stopped for a second and touched my back lightly with his nuckles, he even went so far as to press a soft kiss in my neck, I leaned back into him and he held me quietly, he made me feel safe. "It's going to be okay love."

"I know." He zipped the dress all the way up after that and before he walked away I turned around and hugged him tightly. He pressed a kiss to my head and the minute he stepped out of our embrace I walked over to the window "The sun is shining today." I noticed, this was a good sign right? I felt a headache coming up because even if I tried to stay numb about this all, it didn't mean that I didn't actually felt something. I wanted to cry but I couldn't, not yet. There was a time and place for everything and this wasn't the time nor the place to do that.

First I had to take care of everything and that included police business and making sure certain people wouldn't see daylight for a really long time. That all had to wait till tomorrow though. I heard a soft knock on my door and I had completely forgotten about Louis, who was no longer standing next to me but I did hear my shower running, so he was taking a shower, right in time.

"Sky, how are you chèri?" Marie asked while poking her head around my door. I shrugged because shrugging was allowed today right? I couldn't quite get my finger around how I was feeling today to be honest.

"You do look lovely." She said and I know she meant well but I really didn't care about that today. I just wanted to get through this day. "Thank you Marie, you look beautiful as always." I said in return because she did actually look really beautiful. She smiled friendly at me but didn't come into the room. "I will see you two downstairs, we have to leave in 30 minutes."

When she closed the door, Louis came walking out the steaming bathroom in only his black boxer, he did this on purpose but I really didn't mind. I just watched him getting dressed, when I suddenly remember that I still had to do my hair, this did made me a bit nervous because I didn't have much time.

Louis felt my nervousness and turned to look at me bolting into the bathroom, he followed whilst buttoning his shirt. "What's wrong Sky?" he sounded worried. "My hair, I still need to do my hair but I don't have enough time. how could I forget to do my hair." I know I was rambling as he took the hairbrush out of my hands and made me sit down. "I will help you, just tell me how you want it." I was stunned for a second because I wasn't sure if he even knew how to do a girls hair in the first place.

He was brushing my hair gently and when he was done he stopped and looked at me through the mirror, wafting for instructions. "I want it up. So what you have to do; pull all my hair really high up and make sure that it doesn't look messy on top." He listened to my instruction carefully and did exactly what I wanted, he even made sure there wasn't a hair out of place. He stopped when he had all my hair together. "Okay now you twist it, yes like that and pull a hair tie around it." He did what I asked and when he was done, he took a step backwards to make sure everything was okay. I nodded because he did it really good. "Thank you." He pulled me in and kissed me, whilst holding me tightly and I know I should t be thinking about his lips on mine but to be honest it was a welcome distraction and I know it was meant as a short kiss but I did t wanted him to stop and I deepened the kiss, one of his hands was caressing the side of my face and the other pressed me into him. We did t stop until we heard Marie shout. We pulled back and I was happy to see him breathing as hard as I, it even made me smile for a second.

We walked downstairs, where my aunt and nephew were waiting but when we walked outside, I was a bit shocked to see so many people driving to the church. I know my dad was loved but I never expected that there would be so many people. We walked slowly towards the church, I know people were expecting a speech from me and that made me even more nervous, especially as I wasn't on friendly terms with a lot of people. Or let's just say I ignored pretty much everyone after what had happened.

When we were finally at the church I noticed that my heart was racing, my hands were sweaty but Louis still kept my hand firmly in his. He was being a real trouper through all of this. When everyone had taken a seat, the pastor got up to the plate and started to welcome us all on this this tragic day, he was telling everyone what a kind of guy my dad was and everything was adding uo to the father I knew. He even addressed my mom for a second, I knew that as soon as my name would be mentioned I had to get up and give a speech and when he finally said my name, my heart was beating so hard that I was afraid it would burst out of my chest.

I got up and walked to the stand slowly, not looking at the crowd once. I couldn't ignore the people for long but as long as I was walking towards the stand I could pretend that there was no one watching me. I took a deep breath before turning myself to the waiting crowd. My eyes fell on Louis and I kept my gaze pointed at him, just in case I saw someone I didn't want to see. I unfolded my piece of paper and put it down. I stayed silent for a few seconds before clearing up my throat.

"I know this man
Who is dear to my heart
Suddenly one day
It was torn all apart

This man taught me everything
That I needed to know
But I never really listened
Until he had to go

He gave me love
And touched my life
It's all over now
He no longer has to fight

He tried to teach me
Right for wrong
The day he left
I wasn't that strong

He is gone now
It is hard to believe
This man is my dad
Who I will never see

But I will see him again
This I know
The day will come
When it's time for me to go

So, I'll hold him dear
And close to my heart
Cause the day we meet
I know we'll never be torn apart."

I kept looking in Louis eyes for the sign that I could walk of stage and when he understood the question in my eyes, he nodded slightly but before I walked of stage I looked up to everyone in the crowd and I was surprised by the grief everyone was showing it made me swallow the lump that was in my throat. "Thank you all for coming today." Was all I could say before I hurried of the stage.

The pastor gave a few other people the chance to say something and it was all really heart warming. I wasn't looking forward to what was coming next as he asked everyone to follow him to the cemetery behind the church. The colleagues of my dad, had asked me if they could carry the casket and I didn't object as I know that was what my dad had wanted.
We were the first in line behind my dad. I kept Louis close and my aunt was right behind me with Lucian next to her. Everyone was quiet as we followed the pastor to the place where he would be buried and it was under a lovely tree, which would provide some shade. The pastor did his thing before we had to say goodbye. Everyone threw a white rose on the casket but they didn't say anything to us, as that was instructed, they could condole us when they got to our house.

I didn't expect Lindsey but there she was and I actually hissed when she made eye contact. How dare she show her face here? If this weren't a funeral I would have thrown her out. She knew what she was doing and the fact that still affected me, bothered me way too much. I heard my aunt gasp when she saw Lindsey and I know she was watching my reaction so I quickly put on a pokerface, though Louis had already feel me tensing up. He squeezed my hand softly but didn't say a thing.

When everyone had finally left, we went home as well. I took one more glance at my dads grave before joining the others. "How are you holding up?" Louis asked but I didn't have an answer for that right now. I shrugged again as we walked to my house. There were already a few people waiting, one of them was my dad best friend. He walked over to me and hugged me. "I'm so sorry kid." He said softly and I thanked him. "How are you holding up?" I asked him copying the exact words Louis had used on me earlier and he smiled friendly at me. "I'm doing fine kiddo." He assured me and I smiled at him and let everyone in.

People where walking in and out and they had a lot of food with them, which I was grateful for. I thanked everyone for coming and paying respect to my dad. I had taken a seat on the couch and was looking through a photoalbum. "What do you have there?" I heard Louis ask before he took a seat next to me. I smiled and showed him. I told him stories that went along with the pictures and he actually listened to me. We were in our own personal bubble when I suddenly heard Lucian yel. "You're not welcome!" I looked up and saw Lindsey walking into the living room. I felt a rage when she walked into my view.

"Get out!" was all I could muster through my clenched teeth. People looked up surprised because as far as they know we were still friends. "Chill, I'm just here to pay my respects." I got up and let the photoalbum fall on the ground. I walked up to her with Louis close behind. He would stop me if I was going to hit her and not because he would mind me hitting her but just because of the time and place.

"You are not welcome in this house." I said menancily but she just laughed. "I don't think you are in a position to throw me out because that would cause a scene and do you really want people to talk about you behind your back." She was really that stupid wasn't she, as if I would care for that, it's not like they haven't been doing that ever since I had changed.
"Bad luck for you then because I really don't care about that and now leave." I pointed to the door and she was looking at me as if I had lost my mind. "Really?! Damn you are more pathetic then I had ever thought." She turned around and walked out. I felt the people stare at me but I couldn't care less. I did owe them an apology for that though. "I'm sorry you all had to see that." I walked to the kitchen when I heard Marie. "She is just exhausted. I don't want to be rude but maybe it's best if you all went home, so we can get some rest as It has been a difficult day but thank you all so much for your support."

People nodded in agreement and said their goodbyes and after 15 minutes the house was empty again. I had started to put away all the food. This would make me life through the next couple of days and that was all I needed, as I was staying here until everything was resolved, I just had to tell Louis this news but not today.

I felt two arms around me. "You need to eat something Sky." I nodded. He led me into the dining room where Marie and Lucian were waiting for me to join them. "I'm sorry about earlier, I shouldn't have lost it like that." I apologized but they just smiled sadly at me. "We don't blame you sweetheart, so don't worry about it." Marie said and Lucian nodded in agreement. I wasn't hungry at all but they probably wouldn't let me go without me visibly eating something. I ate everything on my plate and excused myself. When I reached the door I stopped. "Louis, will you come with me please?" I asked him and he immediately got up and followed me to my room.

I pulled of the dress the minute I stepped into the room and I know Louis was watching me carefully not really knowing what to do. I rummaged through his bag and pulled one of his shirts over my head, earning me a smile from him. He walked to me and grabbed me by my waist. He put one of his hands under my chine and lifted my face so he could stare into my eyes, I felt the heat coming from his stare and even if I wanted to look away I couldn;t, he held me in place with just his eyes and his mouth touched mine in a featherlight touch but it still had the same effect as every single time he touched me, it left me breathless. He stepped back and directed me towards the bed. "You should get some sleep love."

He had a point because I really did feel exhausted. Louis pulled me into his arms and started rubbing my back in soothing circles, it was working as I felt myself drift away when I heard him say.

"I love you.'"

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