Summer Sky | L.T.

"Sky?" I heard someone whisper next to me but it couldn't be morning yet. It felt like I had just fallen asleep. I opened one eye and saw Lucian stand next to me. "What?" I whispered back.
"Someone dropped off flowers for you." So that was the scent I smelt. It was absolutely divine. I opened both eyes and sat up and my mouth dropped because it wasn't just one bouquet of flowers no my whole room was full of sunflowers and roses. "Wow" was all I could manage. I quickly climbed out of bed to see if there was a card somewhere but there wasn't.

"So do you know who did this?" I smiled because I had a feeling I did know and if that was the case I had to thank him for being such a romantic bloke. "I have an idea yes." I couldn't stop smiling. "wait, is it from Louis? Because that would be so damn romantic!" he was more excited than me as he was dancing through my room.

"I think they are from him yes but then again I can't be sure of anything unless I ask him." Lucian almost threw the damn phone to my head. I was just in time to catch it. "Lucian, really?!" He just shrugged and took a seat in one of the chairs. I took a deep breath before I dialled Louis number. I'm not great on the phone but this deserved a phone cal. I was praying for him to not pick up but of course he did and boy did he sound sleepy and his voice damn.
"Sky, is everything okay?" he asked slightly confused, this made my heart sink a bit. "Uhh, No everything is fine. I just woke up in a sea of my favourite flowers. You happen to know something about that?" I was afraid that he had fallen asleep again, as he was completely silent. My heart was beating so fast right now, what if I just made a complete fool out of myself. "No I didn't Sky." He sounded sincere but then who did it? "Ow okay, I'm sorry for waking you then." I quickly hang up the phone again, this was so embarrassing but I could've known because I never told him what my favourite flowers were.

"I guess he didn't send you the flowers then?" Lucian asked whilst standing up. I shook my head and plopped down on my bed . "No he didn't but who would send me these then?" We began searching again just to see if there was a note that we missed and I had just given up when Lucian hold up a small note. "Don't forget princess" I felt like I had stepped into a ice bath because there was only one person who called me princess and that was Mike.

Lucian noticed the change in my appearance. "Sky, are you okay?" he asked carefully whilst approaching me. I held up my hand to indicate that I didn't want him near me. "Get those flowers out now!" I yelled at him but he was shocked to the core that I would get so upset. "Please Lucian, get them out." I was on the verge of a panic attack and all he did was stare at me. We both turned around when we heard a thud coming from the window and as I already was on edge I jumped. "Louis, what the hell?" I know I sounded pissed but when he got up he stopped dead in his tracks when he saw my room. "Wow" just like my reaction but then he turned his focus on me and I never even saw him move. "Who send them?" I wanted to speak but Lucian handed over the note. "Princess huh?" He saw my expression when he said that and I could read the fear in his.

"I want those flowers out now!" this was the third time I asked or okay commanded and still nobody listened so I snapped. I picked the first one up and threw it with as much force out of the window and the next one followed just as quick. I know I scared the living crap out of Lucian but Louis was the first who stopped me by simply lifting me in his arms and carrying me out of the room. "Lucian, please get rid of those flowers, I will make sure Sky is all right." He ordered Lucian.

"Louis, please put me down, I'm fine." He didn't listen and kept carrying me to the living room. He closed the door with his feet and walked towards the sofa. He then put me down on the sofa but I couldn't even replace myself because he just sat down next to me and grab a hold of me again. "Why were you so upset with those flowers?" I know it was time to tell him but could I trust him not to tell anyone else? What if he turns out to be exactly like Mike? I just didn't know what I should do. I lost all confidence after what Mike did and now it was only dragging me down.

"Sky, please know you can trust me." He was stroking my cheek gently, I felt those familiar sparks again. I focused on his eyes and they were pleading me to tell him what was wrong. "Those flowers were from Mike." I whispered, 'Who is Mike, love?' he was really confused you could just tell by the sounds of his voice. "He is my ex." I closed my eyes and buried my head against his chest, he rubbed my back gently. Everything came back and that was the last thing I wanted.

"What has he done to you?" I shook my head as indication that I really didn't want to tell because telling him would reliving it and that was the last thing I wanted, never ever did I want to relive that day. I heard the radars turning in his Louis and he stopped rubbing my back at some point. He had figured it out. "Sky, is he the one who abused you?" I tried to shake my head but he had put his hand under my chin and lifted it towards him so there was no way of escaping. I opened my mouth to deny it but he shook his head slightly "Don't you dare lie to my now Sky." So I nodded. "He is one of the guys who raped me." I mumbled, I felt the first tears slide down my cheek.

I had kept this so long inside and now I couldn't stop, I had to tell him and it scared me because he would probably think that I was a slut just like all the others did. "What do you mean with one of the guys, were there more?" he asked with some disbelief. I took a deep breath and started talking.

"5 months ago I was a whole different girl. I was a cheerleader and really popular and also a virgin, with a loving boyfriend, that's what I thought but I apparently had lead him on to many times without giving up my virginity and one night he was sick of it and he decided to give a party and drug me. I woke up the next morning feeling sore and I had blood everywhere but I couldn't remember anything. So I went downstairs to talk to him and he was having sex with my best friend Lindsey. They didn't even stop doing it whilst talking to me. That's when he told me what had happened. He told me that he enjoyed having sex with me just like all the other guys and that I had been like a whore opening my legs to everyone but I couldn't remember anything so I went to the doctor and got a few tests and I was happy to find out I didn't have an disease and I also took the morning after pill, not that it worked though. I found out that I was pregnant one month later, around this time I had drastically changed and I didn't have one friend left. I also couldn't tell anyone because he would put pictures and clips of me online. I lost the baby though due stress but it's maybe for the better. I mean what can I offer a baby?"

I didn't dare to look at him, as he was completely silent. I tried to stand up but he held me even tighter. "I knew you would think differently about me, you don't have to say anything, just let me go." He still held me so I looked up to see the rage in his eyes. "If I ever see him, I will kill him." He said this so serious that it scared the crap out of me. "I just want to pretend like it never happened." I mumbled. I know I had been crying as my shirt was completely soaked and that reminded me about the fact that I wasn't wearing a bra. "Shit" I mumbled.

"What?" I know this wasn't that important right now but it made me even more insecure. "I uhm, I need to get dressed." But he still didn't budge "Sky, I want you to know that what happened to you wasn't your fault, you know that right?" Louis forced me to look at him and to be honest I know he was right but it was still hard to accept that because I was the one who led him on.

"I teased him for months Louis, so it probably was." I softly said and I could feel him tense up. "No it wasn't your fault, he should've kept his hand to himself and the fact that he put a roofie in your drink proves that, you were to out of it to know what was happening." We were battling by staring intensely in each other's eyes, I didn't realise that we were leaning closer and closer until he broke eye contact. I need to head home for awhile but I will be back to talk about this a bit more." He was running away, I should've known that this would happen.

"All right." I got up and let him go. I let myself fall on the couch and didn't even respond when Lucian put his hand on my shoulder. "It will be all right." He soothed me, at least he was trying. "Are the flowers gone?" I mumbled and I saw him nod. I got up and went to my room. I stepped into the bathroom and grabbed my razor. As I didn't have my Xanax anymore this had to do. I took a seat at my toilet and put the razorblade against my lower waist again just under my waistline.

I thought it would make me feel better but it actually made me feel even worse. I sat down on the bathroom floor and hugged my own body and just sat there crying. I shut every noise out and just concentrated on my own despair.

"Sky open the door please." I recognized the voice but I wasn't feeling like I should open the door. "Just leave me alone." I whispered in the hope they had heard me. I now I must have fallen asleep as I almost jumped out of my skin when the door flew open and crashed into the wall. "Sky, let's get you of the floor shall we." Louis had already put his hand under my body and carried me to my chair. "Really, this isn't necessary, I'm completely capable to walk on my own." He put me down immediately. "I'm sorry but you made me worried as you didn't open the door when I asked you twice."

"This is exactly what I didn't want, everything is changed now. I don't need pity." I almost yelled. I looked at him and he opened his mouth to say something but he then closed it again. "You know please just go away." I pointed at the door but he didn't move and kept staring at me, which pissed me off even more. "I'm serious Louis, this hanging out was a bad idea and maybe it's better if you just go." I opened the door and stood in the doorway. He was walking towards me and stopped walking when he was right in front of me. He grabbed my waist and pulled me closer.

"What are you doing?" I was more curious then pissed at this moment as he pulled me closer. "I'm not going anywhere and I do not pity you." Next thing I know he put his hand in my hair and pulls me closer. My god he was going to kiss me and this time I didn't want to stop it. There was something between us but I just couldn't put my finger on it. When his lips touched mine I forgot everything around me. First he was being gentle, letting me get used to his mouth and when I didn't pull back, he deepened the kiss by biting softly on my lower lip for access. This was a kiss that only existed in books. It felt like we were made for each other and to be honest I could kiss him the whole day. I never felt like this with Mike.
When we finally pulled back we were both breathing fast. He looked just as shocked as I. I don't think he had expected a feeling like this.

"Wow."

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