THE DEATH OF YOU

"Austin.. Please come," I beg of him.
"Why don't you come down here?" He tries to reason with me.
"I can't... I promised Sarah and Perrie and Eleanor to go with them to the party," I reply.
"But they're going with their boyfriends aren't they?" He stops me.
"Well yes.. They will be there too.. But we are going the girls.. Austin please come up.. Who will I kiss when the clock strikes midnight?" I try to seduce him.
"I wish I could be there with you but I can't. . I promise to make it up to you.. k?" His voice turns softer.
"Promise?"
"Absolutely," I hear the smile in his voice.
"Ok.. I'm going to hold you to that," I inform him.
"Yes. You do that love.. My mum is calling me to help her.. miss you," he hurries before hanging up.
I sigh out loudly, disappointed I wasn't able to convince him to come up. I would blow off the party and my friends but Eleanor and Perrie already warned me I better not since they will hunt me down and drag me along.
Truth is I am scared.. I'm scared of seeing Harry. After our talk the other day, and me telling him about the accident... well.. things just didn't go well. He was so upset.. I forgot how angry and scary he can get.
I got a call a few hours later from Ed. He informed me that Harry is racing at the tracks as we speak.
I drove to pick Ed up and we both went down to the tracks to get Harry to stop and come home. His injuries still severe.
After ignoring us for what seemed to be like ever he finally came storming our way.
He stopped right over me, hissing that I have no right to stand there and ask him to stop since we are over.. And if he chose the race over me before what makes me think he won't do the same this time round. That was when I slapped him hard in the face, turned around, and walked away without looking back.
It was like losing him all over again. Suddenly he wasn't my Harry anymore and it pierced my heart, opening old wounds and making them bleed again.
I thought it would make me feel better, I can finally go back to giving Austin all of my attention. But then this morning we are in the paper again.
After all this time, we are back.
There is this long article about Harry and I being back in the country, about him racing again, and about us no longer being together, which means that Harry is up for grabs. There is a photo of Harry in his racing gear and a photo of me crying. It is an old photo from Nan's funeral.
"So get you supervisor on the phone then!" I can hear Sam yelling. He is so cross about this photo and my name being dragged in the paper again he is determined to hunt down whoever gave the ok to use the photo and my name without consulting us before. He doesn't care about the fact that they never do and that this will not help him.
I lock myself up in my room away from the yelling and away from the paper.
I tell myself I don't care. In a few days I'll be back at school with Austin and away from the gossip and Watford. I'll be back at a place where no one knows me or Harry.
"Cass?" Sarah sticks her head in the doorway.
"Hey.." I glance up at her.
"So dad is determined," she chimes, taking a seat next to me on the bed.
"Yeah well it is all for nothing... if Harry couldn't stop it a few years ago.. Sam won't be able to stop it now.. if only.. He is making it worse," I sigh.
"Really? You think?"
"Yep... so is Guy working tonight?" I question her.
"He is.. which means you get to be my date and dance away with me while he can get jealous," she wiggles her brows.
"As long as you promise to send some sexy dance photos to Austin making him jealous as well," I make her a deal.
"Deal.. So now we need to get you all sexy.. Let’s see what you own," she steps to my closet. After a short rumble in it she gives up, reaching out to my phone and sending an sos message to Eleanor and Perrie.
It takes them an hour to show up with all the things we need to get ready for later today.
Eleanor picked up a black backless dress for me from the ASOS offices, promising it won't be missed. The chest area is lace and tight while the skirt part puffs out making the dress sexy and fun at the same time.
Just like always, El does my makeup while Perrie takes care of my hair.
It feels just like old times, adding only Sarah to the equation.
Eleanor has her Polaroid like every party and Sarah makes sure to snap some photos with her phone so we could send them to Austin.
Once we are ready we all head down to show ourselves to Sam before leaving for the party.

When we step into the Shack, the party is already in full swing. The dance floor full of people and the tables around packed with groups of loud and happy boys and girls.
I hesitate, overwhelmed by the crowd. Eleanor links her arm with mine and pulls me after her, Perrie and Sarah following after us.
We find Louis with the rest of the lads at a table close to the bar. They all turn to us, their smiles turning larger when they take us in. I spot Harry leaning against the wall. He is in conversation with Niall and when his eyes find me they walk the length of me, starting at my legs, lingering on my dress and finally meeting my eyes. His eyes are big and shiny and his jaw is clenched closed. A sudden frown breaks on his face before Eleanor swats his arm so he would give her the time of day or at least a short hug or hello. After a few words to the girls he turns and walks away ignoring me, and crashing my heart slightly with his silent treatment.
Niall hurries to my side though, pulling me to the dance floor with Eleanor and Sarah, making my mind forget of Harry for the time being.
I can feel the music pumping through my veins and jumping and dancing and goofing around with my friends bring back old and heart warming memories that stick a huge smile to my face. That is until I notice Harry.
He is not far, dancing with not one but two beautiful and half naked girls. He has a beer in his hand while the other one is wrapped around one of the girl’s waist. As if he knew I am watching, his eyes find mind and after they lock he holds up his battle in salute before kissing the girl full on the lips. A gasp leaves my lips, but it is drowned out by the music. He then moves over to the other girl kissing her as well. The first girl is licking his neck now and I feel sick.
Sarah who follows my gaze, pulls me away and over to the bar.
"Demi, this girl needs a drink," she states.
"He's disgusting," Demi nods towards Harry and his PDA on the dance floor, landing two shot glasses in front of us.
"I don't get it.. I mean.. What has gotten into him?" Sarah wonders.
"Me... I told him about the accident the other day.. and since then he has flipped out," I state.
"Shit.. Really? They were trying to keep that away from him.. Trying to get him back to the shrink, so she could ease into it," Demi sends me a sympathy stare.
"Shit... I had no idea.. and he ambushed me," I shake my head.
"It's not your fault love.. drink up," Demi taps the bar.
I do, and Sarah pushes the other shot over to me.
"You need this one too," she claims. I down that as well.
Guy shows up behind Sarah then, wrapping his arms around her and pulling her back to his chest.
"Come dance," he yells so she can hear. She glances at me and I nod. Letting her know she can go, I'm keeping Demi company, although she doesn't need it since the bar is super busy and I am tempted to get behind it and help her.
She places a drink in my hand before she turns to get someone’s order.
"Hey you," someone says into my ear.
I recoil back when I notice who it is.
"What do you want?" I turn to Nick. Just looking at him makes my skin crawl.
"Don't be like that," he smiles. I notice his black tooth.
"This is courtesy of your beloved," he points to his tooth.
"Which one? So I'll know who to thank?" I pull away from him. He lets out a bark of a laugh making me shudder.
"Who do you think?" He shakes his head as if I'm the one insane.
I follow his gaze to Harry with his sluts on the dance floor.
"You're lying," I accuse him.
"No... I'm not.. You were away when him and his squad got to me.." he shrugs.
"And you didn't fight him back? Go to the police?"
"No.. I knew my day will come for some pay back," he smirks.
I can't help but feel cold suddenly. I pick up my drink from behind me sipping it.
"Anyway Bambi.. I'll see you soon," he winks and I feel sick.
I take another sip as he walks away, a young man following after him.
"What did that arsehole want?" Perrie is by my side then, staring after Nick and his pal.
I shrug turning to her.
"Did Harry and the boys jump him after I left?" I ask her.
I notice something cross her face before she nods.
"I guess I owe them a thank you," I mumble to myself.
We lean on the bar watching the dancing bodies when I suddenly start feeling woozy.
"I think I had too much to drink," I frown, glancing at my half drunken glass.
"You definitely had," Perrie laughs.
She gets a glass of water from behind the bar, handing it over.
"Can I get a vodka?" Someone asks her.
"Don't work here darling," she winks, walking out of there. I sip the water, which doesn't help.
"I need the bathroom," I slur.
"I'll come with you," she seems worried. I am unsteady and my mind seems foggy.
Suddenly my feet feel like jelly and I need to sit. Perrie pushes open the door and I slip to the floor.
"Cassie? Cass.. Are you alright?" She questions.
I shake my head softly, the room spinning.
"You don't look good," she worries.
"I don't feel good," I mumble, feeling more ill by the second.
"I'm going to get help," she stands up.
But then sits back down next to me.
"I can't leave you like this," she notes, her forehead crinkled.
"Sarah.. Get Sarah," I whisper, sweat covering my face and my hands turning clammy.
She nodes and hurries out.
I take a shaky breath, my eye sit blurry. The front door opens again and for a moment I think Perrie is back. But the blurry figure is tall and big. It leans over me. I try and glance up, but I can feel my consciousness sway from me. I feel his touch to my cheek as I try to lift my head and blink away the haziness, but it is no use. The darkness takes over leaving me not knowing who the person is and if he is a friend or means any harm.

Notes

so? who do you think it is???