Will it, Won't it?
Ghana
It's easy to fall in love
But it's so hard to break somebody's heart
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
Once lust has turned to dust and all that's left's held breath
Forgotten who we first met
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
We both know it's coming
Does illusion count for something we hide?
The surface tension's gotta break, one drop is all it takes to flood out this lie
I am singing\ recording with tears coming down my eyes, which I think makes the song sound more powerful.
You and I
We have to let each other go
We keep holding on but we both know
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
Peace will come when one of us puts down the gun
Be strong for both of us
No please, don't run, don't run
Eye to eye, we face our fears unarmed on the battlefield
We seemed like a good idea
We seemed like a good idea
I am four months pregnant now, and back in Australia it has been about three weeks since I left America and the lads and Niall. I cried that entire night but I made the right decision didn't I?
The song that I am recording is definitely about Niall and I we both thought we were a good idea, we still love each other deep down but now that I have surrendered from us we can let each other go.
No blood will spill if we both get out now
Still it's hard to put the fire out
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
Feelings are shifting like the tide
And I think too much about the future
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
We both know it's coming
Does illusion count for something we hide?
The surface tension's gotta break, one drop is all it takes to flood out this lie
You and I
We have to let each other go
We keep holding on but we both know
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
Peace will come when one of us puts down the gun
Be strong for both of us
No please, don't run, don't run
Eye to eye, we face our fears unarmed on the battlefield
I finish the recording.
My album is almost nearly completed which I am very happy about, it is very different from the first it's sounds more mature and I have been more involved in the writing process. I have been asked to perform on GMA in a couple of weeks which I can't wait for I always have a great time in America and the fans are awesome.
"Ok all ready to go?" Kylie ask me, we are on the way to the airport and heading off to Ghana for comic relief which I am really looking forward to do and just meet these kids and hopefully raise the money.
We land and wow it is hot here, I bought Kylie with me for company for one but she really wanted to come and experience this with me.
The tears have not stopped coming down on me or Kylie's face, we are currently at the main emergency the atmosphere is strange and all you can hear a cries from both patients and their families, my heart is breaking so much,there are sick children and babies every where with their mother's holding them like their life depends on it. I sit next to a lady who is with her sick baby who is only 16 months old and she has malaria and within days she will deteriorate. I go up to her in the cot and grab her hand, poor thing is so weak "Hey baby girl" I say to her her mother disappears I guess to get some air. "Can you promise me you keep fighting, ok for your mummy keep fighting" I return back to the little girl. The nurse informs me that there is only a 50\50 survival rate which tears my heart into pieces, this just isn't right it should not be happening I then think to back home where I have spent my fair share of time in hospital and I think about the kidney patients and how we are so lucky to be in a country that can afford vaccinations and we are so blessed to have things that can automatically make us better, from machinery to medication. I then sit with them a bit more and she tells me about her and her daughters life, her husband passed away and she had a son who passed away at birth so it's just her and her daughter who may or may not even be here in a few days. I put my hand through my hair and hold onto her hand I then grab a necklace that I have in my pocket and it's a cross I give it to her so it can keep her safe. My heart and mind is all over the place it is all just so sad I really need to get the word out and hopefully people will donate, I place my hand on my stomach and wonder what if I was in this situation, what if my baby was in this situation ahh I don't even want to think about it.
It is the next day and we are visiting the local school, Kylie and I head in and we walk in and they are all at their little desks writing, it is so beautiful to see that there are kids here and they are happy and willing to learn, it takes me back to my school days when I never could be bothered going and just complain about school all the time, and you see these little kids that are so happy to be here. They all stop what they are doing and their teacher announces me and they all gather in a circle and I go around one by one and introduce myself, I then see a little boy at the back and make my way over to him.
"What's your name little man?" I ask him
"Christopher" he says and clings onto my leg, he is so cute I want to keep him, I pick him up and hug him and he starts playing with my hat, "that's my hat, do you want it" I ask him and he smiles and nods. I take my hair off and put it on his head "there looks much better on you" I say and he giggles.
I have written the song and I am doing a One Direction thing I am filming the music video here and we are about to get started.
We are outside and the kids have just started to dance and they make a huddle and I go in there while looking at the camera and lip sing the lyrics to my song and keep playing with the kids.
The next scene is me with Christopher and he has little one kilogram weights while I have five kilo weights and we are both lifting them, he then smiles at me while lifting them and I look at him with the corner of my eye and lip sing more of the song and we both look at the camera lifting our weights again.
The final scene is me with all the kids and we are all in small groups playing soccer, I am with a little girl and I am pointing to the ball to her and showing her how to kick the ball with my foot and she sees me and replicates my moves and does the same thing and kicks it in the goal and she runs up to me and we put both our arms in the air and cheer I then pick her up and twirl her around and give her a hug.
My journey to Ghana has come to an end, and it was definitely and eye opener, people living with such tough lives and it really pisses me off when people who have everything in their life and they still complain, well they should shut up and experience what I have that is a definition of a tough life. But the most rewarding thing I have learnt is that even the people here who have nothing compared to the rest of us they still wake and have a small on their faces everyday and they are so strong and push every single day to live the best life possible. I decide to send a tweet out.
Thank you @COMICRELIEF for sending me on this journey @Ghana has been the most eye opening experience. Please donate and please don't take life for granted and appreciate the things you do have. Can't wait for you all to hear the new single #LIFT
Love you all xxxxx
But it's so hard to break somebody's heart
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
Once lust has turned to dust and all that's left's held breath
Forgotten who we first met
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
We both know it's coming
Does illusion count for something we hide?
The surface tension's gotta break, one drop is all it takes to flood out this lie
I am singing\ recording with tears coming down my eyes, which I think makes the song sound more powerful.
You and I
We have to let each other go
We keep holding on but we both know
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
Peace will come when one of us puts down the gun
Be strong for both of us
No please, don't run, don't run
Eye to eye, we face our fears unarmed on the battlefield
We seemed like a good idea
We seemed like a good idea
I am four months pregnant now, and back in Australia it has been about three weeks since I left America and the lads and Niall. I cried that entire night but I made the right decision didn't I?
The song that I am recording is definitely about Niall and I we both thought we were a good idea, we still love each other deep down but now that I have surrendered from us we can let each other go.
No blood will spill if we both get out now
Still it's hard to put the fire out
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
Feelings are shifting like the tide
And I think too much about the future
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
We both know it's coming
Does illusion count for something we hide?
The surface tension's gotta break, one drop is all it takes to flood out this lie
You and I
We have to let each other go
We keep holding on but we both know
What seemed like a good idea has turned into a battlefield
Peace will come when one of us puts down the gun
Be strong for both of us
No please, don't run, don't run
Eye to eye, we face our fears unarmed on the battlefield
I finish the recording.
My album is almost nearly completed which I am very happy about, it is very different from the first it's sounds more mature and I have been more involved in the writing process. I have been asked to perform on GMA in a couple of weeks which I can't wait for I always have a great time in America and the fans are awesome.
"Ok all ready to go?" Kylie ask me, we are on the way to the airport and heading off to Ghana for comic relief which I am really looking forward to do and just meet these kids and hopefully raise the money.
We land and wow it is hot here, I bought Kylie with me for company for one but she really wanted to come and experience this with me.
The tears have not stopped coming down on me or Kylie's face, we are currently at the main emergency the atmosphere is strange and all you can hear a cries from both patients and their families, my heart is breaking so much,there are sick children and babies every where with their mother's holding them like their life depends on it. I sit next to a lady who is with her sick baby who is only 16 months old and she has malaria and within days she will deteriorate. I go up to her in the cot and grab her hand, poor thing is so weak "Hey baby girl" I say to her her mother disappears I guess to get some air. "Can you promise me you keep fighting, ok for your mummy keep fighting" I return back to the little girl. The nurse informs me that there is only a 50\50 survival rate which tears my heart into pieces, this just isn't right it should not be happening I then think to back home where I have spent my fair share of time in hospital and I think about the kidney patients and how we are so lucky to be in a country that can afford vaccinations and we are so blessed to have things that can automatically make us better, from machinery to medication. I then sit with them a bit more and she tells me about her and her daughters life, her husband passed away and she had a son who passed away at birth so it's just her and her daughter who may or may not even be here in a few days. I put my hand through my hair and hold onto her hand I then grab a necklace that I have in my pocket and it's a cross I give it to her so it can keep her safe. My heart and mind is all over the place it is all just so sad I really need to get the word out and hopefully people will donate, I place my hand on my stomach and wonder what if I was in this situation, what if my baby was in this situation ahh I don't even want to think about it.
It is the next day and we are visiting the local school, Kylie and I head in and we walk in and they are all at their little desks writing, it is so beautiful to see that there are kids here and they are happy and willing to learn, it takes me back to my school days when I never could be bothered going and just complain about school all the time, and you see these little kids that are so happy to be here. They all stop what they are doing and their teacher announces me and they all gather in a circle and I go around one by one and introduce myself, I then see a little boy at the back and make my way over to him.
"What's your name little man?" I ask him
"Christopher" he says and clings onto my leg, he is so cute I want to keep him, I pick him up and hug him and he starts playing with my hat, "that's my hat, do you want it" I ask him and he smiles and nods. I take my hair off and put it on his head "there looks much better on you" I say and he giggles.
I have written the song and I am doing a One Direction thing I am filming the music video here and we are about to get started.
We are outside and the kids have just started to dance and they make a huddle and I go in there while looking at the camera and lip sing the lyrics to my song and keep playing with the kids.
The next scene is me with Christopher and he has little one kilogram weights while I have five kilo weights and we are both lifting them, he then smiles at me while lifting them and I look at him with the corner of my eye and lip sing more of the song and we both look at the camera lifting our weights again.
The final scene is me with all the kids and we are all in small groups playing soccer, I am with a little girl and I am pointing to the ball to her and showing her how to kick the ball with my foot and she sees me and replicates my moves and does the same thing and kicks it in the goal and she runs up to me and we put both our arms in the air and cheer I then pick her up and twirl her around and give her a hug.
My journey to Ghana has come to an end, and it was definitely and eye opener, people living with such tough lives and it really pisses me off when people who have everything in their life and they still complain, well they should shut up and experience what I have that is a definition of a tough life. But the most rewarding thing I have learnt is that even the people here who have nothing compared to the rest of us they still wake and have a small on their faces everyday and they are so strong and push every single day to live the best life possible. I decide to send a tweet out.
Thank you @COMICRELIEF for sending me on this journey @Ghana has been the most eye opening experience. Please donate and please don't take life for granted and appreciate the things you do have. Can't wait for you all to hear the new single #LIFT
Love you all xxxxx
@ms yn
Ouhh :)) just read your update. Omgg shucks I hope she's alright! What a cliffhanger tho! Please update soon! Its super interesting at this point right now!
11/10/15