Will it, Won't it?

My brain is all mixed up and so are my feelings am I making the right decision?
"Hey you ready?" Kylie taps me on the shoulder and snaps me out of my daydream
We are now boarding the plane to go see the boys and Niall, since our argument and me leaving London I have only text him a couple times saying that I'm fine and I need time to think and he has respected that.



Kylie and I have just got to the hotel where the boys are staying in Kansas City and Sophia has come down to get us the boys are recording right now so I have some time before I see Niall. We are in Niall's room having dinner I have filled Sophia in on what's going on and at first she questions me like everyone did but I told her that it's for the best and I have two people to think about in this situation, she also tells me Niall has been quiet but has still been going out which I guess I don't mind, her and Liam are doing fine which I am happy to hear.

It is now 10pm and I am lying down in bed and Kylie and Soph are sitting next to me and we are just watching some tv, until we hear the door and I see Niall along with the rest of the boys walk in, I get up and give Niall a small wave and a weak smile and he does the same, we are all in the lounge eating and of course I eat some more and Niall and I have glanced at each other a few times, the boys then move onto a round of FIFA but I just go back to the bed I am so tired. I see Niall and he closes the door that separates the lounge and the bedroom.
"How are you?" he says breaking the silence
"Good".
"How's---"
"Were both good". I nod
"Good" he says.
"Look this pictures on Instagram there nothing" he says and goes back to annoying me. I proper myself up on the bed and lean agains the two pillows behind me "There nothing Ni really? How would you feel if I was going out every night taking photos with guys and posting them out?" I ask
He doesn't respond, "Exactly" I whisper
"LOOK IF IT MEANS THAT MUCH TO YOU I'LL DELETE THEM OK, RIGHT NOW" He says and grabs his phone
"That's not the point Niall, don't be so stupid. I snatch the phone out of his hand.
"You haven't been there for me at all, and I can't just think about myself now I have another life that I am responsible for and I only want the best for them. I'm sorry Niall" I say with tears
"It's over isn't it?" he ask me I can see his eyes go red and I just nod my head and sniffle. He comes over the other side of the bed and removes some of my blanket and places his hands on my stomach
"Daddy is really sorry peanut, but I love you so much and you have an amazing mother who will take care of you." he says and now I am drowned in my own tears, he then kisses my stomach and stands up and sniffles. He makes his way to the door and I can't even see in front of me right now my tears have taken over. "Niall" I croak I'm sorry I mouth to him and he nods and I can see some tears spill from his eyes. I know, I love you he mouths back to me, and with that he walks out the door.

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