I Can't Fall for him!

" Sammmmyyyy" Sohpia yells out to me and I run up to her and jump in for a hug.
"I'm so happy your here" she says and I laugh.
"Sam, how are you" Liam comes up and hugs me, then returns next to Sophia.
"Hey Sam" Louis joins in and hugs me and I hug him back
"My Ferris wheel selfie buddy" Niall comes in and I turn and hug him. "I've missed you all" I say "We all missed you as well, Harry stop hogging her" Louis says and we all chuckle.

"Ten minutes boys"
"first show back in London boys, let's do this" Niall says excitedly.
"I better go babe" Harry kisses me "I'll see you later, love you" he says and pecks my cheek and I go in and hug him but rudely interrupted. "Yea, yea come on curly" Louis pulls Harry away.

I am sitting with Sophia and we are just talking about life and the boys, and how she can't wait for this tour to be over, so Liam and her can spend a lot of time with each other and I completely agree. I turn to the stage and see the boys smashing it. They are singing 'No Control' and Harry's solo is up he turns away from the crowd and looks at me..

Sweet where you lay
Still a trace of innocence on the pillowcase

He sings and winks at me. I could just die right here.

After a few more songs they are now performing 'what makes you beautiful' Soph and I are singing and dancing along. Then I notice some people "Hey Soph who are they?" I say looking over to two girls. "Oh that's Cara and Kendall" she says. Well this is awkward I sit back down, "Harry didn't mention they were coming" she sits next to me and I just shake my head and place my hands on my thighs itching them a bit, "I'm sure he just forgot" she rubs my back.


They boys finish with 'Drag me down' Soph and I make our way to the boys and what do I see Harry talking with Kendall I step behind him and tap him softly and he looks at me for half a second then goes back to talking to her, like I wasn't even there. I wait for them to finish their conversation, then I step in front of Harry "Hi I'm Sam, I'm Harry's girlfriend" I say in a obvious tone to Kendall my god she is tall, almost has tall has Harry which makes me look like a dwarf even with heels on. I feel really intimidated right now standing in the middle of two trees. "Nice to meet you" she says surprising nicely and shakes my hand. I then grab Harry's arm, "Well Harry I'm in London for another week so let me know if you want to catch up" the bitch says. Umm is that her appropriate to ask my boyfriend out in front of me, and what does Harry do, nods his head which makes me let go of his arm right away. Kendall walks away in her ten inch heels, like serious who wears shoes so high at a concert, I am wearing heels but that's because I am short and there not even high, their wedges.

"So shall we go" Harry says and starts walking away and I follow him behind. We jump in the car and head home, "So did you enjoy the show" Harry ask me but I am busy scrolling down my phone, "Sam" he nudges me we are at a stop light. "Huh, yea it was ok" I say.
"Just ok" he laughs,
"Yea I mean you were a bit pitchy to be honest" I say, you can probably tell I am very annoyed right now.
"ok then" he murmurs and we take off again, we get home no problem in five minutes.
We make our way in the house and I plonk myself on the couch grab the remote and first thing that comes on 'Keeping up with the Kardashians'

"Of course" I say under my breath, but Harry must of heard "what?" he ask "nothing" I reply rolling my eyes.
"Ok Sam what's going on you have been in a mood ever since the show finished, what's up" He asks me with his voice getting a bit louder. "The sky" I sarcastically respond, "huh? he ask in confusion. "You asked me what's up, and I said the sky" I say, "Ok forget it, I'm going out with the boy----" before he can finish I cut him off "What with Kendall?'
"Ah so that's what this is all about, Sam she's just a friend you know that I'm with you." He says.
"Really is that why you practically ignored me while I was there" I stand up and raise my voice.

"I was in the middle of a conversation with her , it's rude to cut her off" he tries to defend himself. "Whatever Harry if you and Kendall Jenner wanna hang out then you can I'm not stopping you. But I swear to God I will never ever, ever speak to you again, I will not be one of those girls for you, I gave you my heart and that's all I can give, my small fragile heart". I say with tears coming down my face.

"Sammy, please you know it's nothing. I love you so much it hurts I can't even last two hours while being on stage without you. Baby I would never ever cheat on you, you know that right?" He asks me pulling my chin up, "I'm not so sure Harry, not any more, How can I compete with her or any other girl, I mean look at me" I step back and use my eyes to look up and down at myself. I have always been self conscious about myself, my height, the way I don't meet societies expectations, and then to put me up against a tall, sliming girl who has everything including natural beauty, I can't compete with that, but to be honest I don't want to compete with it because I am who I am, god made me this way and there is only one me and only I know how to be her.

With that I make my way into the guest room and fall asleep alone.

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