It’s been four months, since I haven’t talked to Niall. I haven’t seen him. No one really brings him up. Cayla and Harry are going Easter shopping, while I’m here alone. I roll out of bed and walked towards the kitchen.



After having my favorite for breakfast the phone rings, “Hello?” “Hey Lo,” Liam’s voice rings through my ear. “Hi Liam, what’s up?” I asked putting a waffle in the toaster. “Well, Kate is having a get together at mine and hers’ house for Easter and I wanted to invite the boys, Perrie, Eleanor, Cayla and you…” “That would be great! What time?” I asked while taking out the syrup. “Around four, she wants it to be all fancy so yeah… let Harry and Cayla know,” his voice beamed. “Haha I will and great now I have to get a dress for this.” We exchanged good byes and hung up.



Cayla and Harry promised to meet me here for nice and fancy dresses. While waiting for them I began to look around for a dress I like. Oh the get together is going to be so much fun; I can’t wait to see all of the boys again. I see Harry everyday because well he lives with us… but I haven’t seen the other for four months because I’ve been avoiding them because Niall will be with them. Niall. He’ll be at the get together. I can’t see him. I know it’s been four months but I overhear Harry talking to Cayla about him seeing Sarah. How they had sex. I can’t do it. I dropped the green dress I was looking and headed out the door until I see Cayla and Harry. “Where are you going?” They both ask. “I uhh… don’t want to go…” I looked down. I hear them sigh, “I knew it was too good to be true that you actually wanted to go to a get together for the first time since Norway…” Harry hugged me. “I’m not ready to see him… I know what he’s been doing I hear you guys talking about it downstairs. There’s no way in hell that I want to see him.” I say sitting down. They look at each other and Cayla slaps me, “You needed that honey. Look we haven’t been talking to Niall either; ever since the boys been on break he’s been ignoring us. Harry told me that Zayn thinks that him and Sarah broke up but still go to parties and clubs together… plus I don’t think Liam would want him near you. If he does show up, you are going to show him what he’s been missing out on. Hey, how about you invite Logan? You’ve been meeting up with him…” she’s right I do need to show up and if Niall is there and show him how strong I am without him, but if I see him with Sarah I’ll probably break. I look up at the two and roll my eyes, “Thanks for the slap… I guess I’ll go before you slap me again.” Cayla smiles and drags me to a dress section.




“Girls, it’s already two thirty… we’ve been here for an hour and thirty minutes.” Harry groans. I giggle and step out in a dark purple dress, while Cayla steps out in a short white one. “Cayla, you are not getting that… it’s too short,” Harry grunts. A giggle escapes Cayla mouth and she goes back inside the dressing room. I twirl around in the purple until I spot a long black dress with jewels outlining the top. I grab it and took it in the dressing room. I zipped it up and stepped out, “Oh damn, Lauren that one is perfect for you!” Cayla smiles. I look over at Harry who is starring at my dress, “Harry?” “It.. uhh… it’s fits you perfectly.” Cayla nudges him and drags him to the check out line.



I slide on my silver heels and pull my dress over. My phone starts buzzing and I see Logan’s name pop up. “Hi Logan,” I piped. “Hey, so Harry told me to come over here because he’s taking us all,” He said. “Oh that’s fine you can come now and chat with Harry, I’m still doing my make up and hair.” I say pulling out my curling iron. “I’ll see you soon,” Logan says and I smiled, “See you then, bye.” I curl my hair for fifteen minutes while Cayla runs in, “I’m going to help you with your make up, sit.” I roll my eyes and sit on my bed. She keeps blabbering about Logan, “Liam said Niall never responded so you don’t have to worry.” My heart drops, I am happy that I wont see him and I also really want to see him. “Oh,” was all I can say. “You’re done! Now come on or we will be late,” Cayla drags me down stairs. Logan smiles as I walk downstairs, he looks, cute. “You ready?” he asks taking my arm. “Yes,” no I’m not.




We pull up into the driveway and Cayla runs up to the door while Harry walks by me and Logan, eyes him every now and then. Perrie opens up the door and squeal when she sees Cayla, they have their moment until she looks at me. “Lauren, you are sexy tonight. Wow I never knew people can change in four months! What’s your secret,” I laugh, “Exercising and dance.” “We need to catch up now, and your lovely friend can join us too.” she winks at Logan and pulls us in. As I walk in there are other faces that I don’t remember, “Who are these people?” I ask looking around. “Kate’s friends from Oxford, yeah they are a big pain in the ass.” Perrie rolls her eyes and she points out to Eleanor standing by Louis with the group. We all walk up and they all greeted us. “I missed you guys,” I say. “I thought you died,” Louis says and we all laugh. “Now who is your friend standing by you,” Eleanor eyes Logan. “Oh this is Logan; he goes to my academy…” I introduce them. Arms wrapped around me and stood still, I turn around to find Liam. Relief flies over me, “Hi Liam.” “Hey Lauren I’m so happy you showed up!” He handed everyone a glass of wine and we all started talking about what we’ve been doing. The doorbell rang and Liam went to go get it. Minutes later he comes back and whispers in the boys’ ear. “We will be right back girls… Logan.” Harry says and kisses Cayla’s cheek. “I think we should all sit down these heels are killing me,” Perrie huffs as she sits down. I sit next to Logan, I look at him and he smiles at me.





*Niall’s P.O.V.*


“You fucking invited me, let me in.” I say looking at Liam. What an ass. “You can’t Niall…” He’s looking for words. As Harry steps in between us, “You can’t come because Lauren’s here and we don’t want her to leave.” My chest tightens. She’s here… “Is that why I can’t come in,” I ask. “Yes,” Harry speaks calmly. “I want to see her,” I demand. “No, I don’t it’s a good idea if she sees you mate,” Louis butts in. “I just want to see her,” I beg. “I’m going to the girls, c’mon Lou…” Zayn says and they both rush inside. “You can see her, but only from the far. Don’t even go near her Niall, you fucked up everything after you had sex with Sarah and became drunk continuously. Don’t make yourself noticeable.” Harry says. I roll my eyes and walk in; Harry stops me as Cayla walks up. “Where’s that dick,” She asks Harry. She’s talking about me… great. She looks over Harry’s shoulder and notices me. I give a fake smile and she frowns, “You better stay out of her way or I’ll chop your balls off Horan.” I laugh at her threat attempt. “Stay with Liam,” Harry ordered and flicked him off. I watch him and Cayla make their way into the crowd. I quickly followed; knowing wherever they are Lauren will be there. I stopped and watch them sit back down. I don’t see Lauren, that’s when the guy with Brown hair stands up and Lauren stands up taking his hands. Who the fuck is that? Why the fuck is he holding her hands? She laughs as they make their way to where everyone else is dancing. I want to just go up to them and slam the guy into the ground, to not touch her. If I do that she will for sure hate me. I watch her fumble around picking up that dress… that dress showing her curves and her boobs look huge, she’s changed and I can’t handle it.






*Lauren’s P.O.V.*

as we glided across the floor we kept a short conversation. Logan can really dance and he is such a gentlemen. I could dance like this in his arms for forever. The clock rings and Liam and Kate make and announcement for dinner. We quickly sat down by Harry and Cayla. I look around to see what the boys were looking at, is that… Niall? My heart stops, he looks… stronger and his body is full of tattoos and is he wearing piercings? He catches my glance and I look away. Is that why all of the boys left? Is that why Cayla is pissed off? They all kept it from me that he’s here. Food is served and I make little conversation with Logan. I daze off from what Logan has been saying and been wondering about why they never told me. “Lauren,” Logan's voice comes back to mind. “Oh yeah sorry… I’m just out of it tonight,” I give a small warm smile and he nods. He scoots closer to me and puts his hand on mine. A loud chair squeaked and I looked over to find that Niall standing up. He is gripping the table and Liam is trying to calm him down. He glares directly at me; he’s fuming and trying so hard to not make a scene. Although I’m broken my heart is untamed still. I miss him, I need to move on. I turn my head to Logan who is still holding my hand but talking to a couple beside him. I look back and Niall is seated; starring at me still. I shake my head and he lets go of the table and mouths “I Love You” my hearts nearly jumps out of my chest and I stand up. Everyone turns to me, “You ok?” Logan asks. “Yes I just need air…” I say not making eye contact at Niall. “Excuse me Liam,” I apologize. “No it’s fine, go get fresh air,” He smiles. I push my chair in and quickly walk off. I hear Harry and Cayla back at table before I closed the back door, “No Niall don’t go to her.” I quickly closed the door, took off my heels and ran to the gate that leads to the woods.




I kept running, damn I should have brought a flashlight… I stopped to catch my breath. I scream to let out all of the pain. “Why do you do this to me,” I screamed. “I don’t know…” I turned around and I see Niall walking towards me. “Niall leave me alone,” I say backing up. “No, I finally have you alone,” He comes close to me. My breath quickens and tears began to slide down my face. I push him back, “You had sex with Sarah after I left, and you told me you had no feelings for her. You let me go broken, you didn’t even try.” I cried throwing my heels at him. “Shit Lauren, I was drunk. I thought you stopped loving me, that’s why I never came for you. I began drinking for what I’ve done. I wake up everyday without you by me and I pick up another beer to wash you out of my mind. I’ve been waiting for you, but I keep imagining that you’re with another man. Which you are, that’s why the boys wouldn’t let come in the house. I wanted to see you. I miss you Lauren. I still love you and I know I’ll never get you back because you’re with him.” He says as he comes closer with my heels. I whisper, “Lies.” I turned around and start running. “Fuck Lauren don’t run,” Niall yells. He throws him self on me and we began to roll. Once we stopped he was on hovering over me. I close my eyes, “You’re just going to hurt me, again…” I cried. “I will never hurt you again Lauren,” He soothes and I open my eyes. His eyes are glowing and he leans closer to me, “But I will only leave if you tell me that you don’t love me.”

Notes

Sorry I haven't wrote in months, I really do miss writing! School keeps me busy and I hate it, but im planning to type a new chapter every Sunday. I miss you guys! How are ya'll? What do you think Lauren will say?


xx Lo