Afraid to love again
Chapter 4 ; Not going back to class
ambers POV:
I was crying, all my make-up was fuckt up, whatever. i'm not going back to class no way!
i just want to leave this place my life! i hate my life ! nobody cares! my mom hates me..
and OOyeaah there is patsy, i can't leave her alone.. but what i'm i suppose to do??
i'm really depressed i know but you need to imagne that nobody likes you.. you mom hates you and yeaah jacob just brook me in 10000 pieces.. my dad left me with my mom.. he doesn't care about me neder.. and yeeah i'm the punchball for my mom.. thats why i have brushes on my arm and stomach.. i'm going to the park.. i was thinking for about 2 hours and stand there.. i know what i'm suppose to do. I wrote a letter :
Dear Patsy ;
I know i'm not the best friend you could wish for.
but i'm really greatful to have you!
you know everthing of me..
and we are like soulmates, sisters, best best best friends !
you remember that night i wass at your house, being crazy, watching : vampire diaries, singing to One direction and stuff.. haha i will never forget that!
i hope you will forgive me for what i'm going to do now..
but you need to understand that i'm really sick and tired of being here..
I need to go and i hope in heaven will be beter than here..
''i love you'' ''i love you'' ''i love you''
your best friend ''Amber''
never forget or memories!
' a tear left my eyes but i decided to end my life!'
i went to patsy's house and left ''the note on the table with the house key''
I went to the brigde, looking around secrecy hoping that maybe my dad would be there to save me.. so i could ask everthing that went through my mind.. but no..
so as i stood on the brigde, i was crying because thats what i wanted, but a part of me said that i need to return and not leaving patsy.. but i had already decided and i was ready to jump when suddenly i hear someone ''scream'' NO WHAT ARE YOU DOING PLEASE TRY NOT TO DO A STUPID THING! YOU MAYBE WILL REGRET IT!
I was crying, all my make-up was fuckt up, whatever. i'm not going back to class no way!
i just want to leave this place my life! i hate my life ! nobody cares! my mom hates me..
and OOyeaah there is patsy, i can't leave her alone.. but what i'm i suppose to do??
i'm really depressed i know but you need to imagne that nobody likes you.. you mom hates you and yeaah jacob just brook me in 10000 pieces.. my dad left me with my mom.. he doesn't care about me neder.. and yeeah i'm the punchball for my mom.. thats why i have brushes on my arm and stomach.. i'm going to the park.. i was thinking for about 2 hours and stand there.. i know what i'm suppose to do. I wrote a letter :
Dear Patsy ;
I know i'm not the best friend you could wish for.
but i'm really greatful to have you!
you know everthing of me..
and we are like soulmates, sisters, best best best friends !
you remember that night i wass at your house, being crazy, watching : vampire diaries, singing to One direction and stuff.. haha i will never forget that!
i hope you will forgive me for what i'm going to do now..
but you need to understand that i'm really sick and tired of being here..
I need to go and i hope in heaven will be beter than here..
''i love you'' ''i love you'' ''i love you''
your best friend ''Amber''
never forget or memories!
' a tear left my eyes but i decided to end my life!'
i went to patsy's house and left ''the note on the table with the house key''
I went to the brigde, looking around secrecy hoping that maybe my dad would be there to save me.. so i could ask everthing that went through my mind.. but no..
so as i stood on the brigde, i was crying because thats what i wanted, but a part of me said that i need to return and not leaving patsy.. but i had already decided and i was ready to jump when suddenly i hear someone ''scream'' NO WHAT ARE YOU DOING PLEASE TRY NOT TO DO A STUPID THING! YOU MAYBE WILL REGRET IT!
Notes
Heey guys !i know really depressing ;s
sorry tell me what you think ! <33
LOVEE Zoë ! <33
hi, sorry i'm going to update, today or tommorow promise..
i don't have really time for the moment , because i'm working..
i'm really sorry..
And thaks it means a lot, because i had the feeling nobody like it..;s
LOVE Zoë <33
7/4/13