Afraid to love again
Chapter 3 ; by accident
Ambers POV:
Gosh, math really sucks , *looking out of the window* ''daydreaming'' about how life really sucks..
Did i already told you about Jacob ?.. Well he is my boyfriend i mean EX boyfriend.. Why ?
Because he isn't that kind everyone is telling everyone.. At first when we met, he was the kindest person i ever knew, i really thought he could be the ''ONE'' you know.. But everthing i thought was wrong.. we dated a month and i wanted the give him a suprise by cooking for him.. i had make chocolate cookies..he came home and was drunk. I gave him the cookies and said Baby for or first month that we are together.. he just threw the cookies in my face.. and said that i was a slut. I didn't understand i just tought he was a drunk and just let him say everthing he wanted.. the next day he said he was sorry and i said it was nothing.. *i'm a dumass for staying with him* but i tought he would change and stop drinking like he said.. But ''NO'' it was all a lie.. he drunk more and more, And i was afraid of leaving him.. because he told me if i ever leave him he would come after me and kill me.. so i staid with him.. even if he hit me almost everynight.. he used to him me in the stomach, or at my back.. never in the face because he knew if anyone would see.. he would be in problems..
The teachers asked me sometimes, but i just said , i had my periods.. i was really afraid.. my mom didn't care, so i couldn't talk to her.. i told my best friend patsy , she immediately told me i needed to leave him.. i said i was afraid that he would kill me.. and she just stood there with her eyes wide open.. she told me to go to the police.. i really thought it.. but what are they gonna do? almost nothing.. so i decide to stay with him.. BAD IDEA.. we were about 8monhts togheter now.. but it went to far this time.. ''He came home around 12 O'clock.. he was Really drunk.. and started to punch me and say that i was wortless, that he understood my dad for leaving me alone, he started to kick me very hard.. this was the first time he kickt me in de face.. i could feel the blood in my mounth.. i said ''please stop'' i'm begging you'' but he couldn't stop.. and i saw black for my eyes.. the next thing i could remember was lying in a hospital, i remember waking up and i saw patsy crying beside me.. i tried to comforte her but she was made at her self , for not helping me out of this situation with jacob.. i just said she couldn't. but she was still mad at her self, i told her i was leaving jacob.. She was happy but scared to.. so was i. *I felt a tear falling from my eye* i quik wiped it away and than asked to the teacher of i could go to the badroom.
Gosh, math really sucks , *looking out of the window* ''daydreaming'' about how life really sucks..
Did i already told you about Jacob ?.. Well he is my boyfriend i mean EX boyfriend.. Why ?
Because he isn't that kind everyone is telling everyone.. At first when we met, he was the kindest person i ever knew, i really thought he could be the ''ONE'' you know.. But everthing i thought was wrong.. we dated a month and i wanted the give him a suprise by cooking for him.. i had make chocolate cookies..he came home and was drunk. I gave him the cookies and said Baby for or first month that we are together.. he just threw the cookies in my face.. and said that i was a slut. I didn't understand i just tought he was a drunk and just let him say everthing he wanted.. the next day he said he was sorry and i said it was nothing.. *i'm a dumass for staying with him* but i tought he would change and stop drinking like he said.. But ''NO'' it was all a lie.. he drunk more and more, And i was afraid of leaving him.. because he told me if i ever leave him he would come after me and kill me.. so i staid with him.. even if he hit me almost everynight.. he used to him me in the stomach, or at my back.. never in the face because he knew if anyone would see.. he would be in problems..
The teachers asked me sometimes, but i just said , i had my periods.. i was really afraid.. my mom didn't care, so i couldn't talk to her.. i told my best friend patsy , she immediately told me i needed to leave him.. i said i was afraid that he would kill me.. and she just stood there with her eyes wide open.. she told me to go to the police.. i really thought it.. but what are they gonna do? almost nothing.. so i decide to stay with him.. BAD IDEA.. we were about 8monhts togheter now.. but it went to far this time.. ''He came home around 12 O'clock.. he was Really drunk.. and started to punch me and say that i was wortless, that he understood my dad for leaving me alone, he started to kick me very hard.. this was the first time he kickt me in de face.. i could feel the blood in my mounth.. i said ''please stop'' i'm begging you'' but he couldn't stop.. and i saw black for my eyes.. the next thing i could remember was lying in a hospital, i remember waking up and i saw patsy crying beside me.. i tried to comforte her but she was made at her self , for not helping me out of this situation with jacob.. i just said she couldn't. but she was still mad at her self, i told her i was leaving jacob.. She was happy but scared to.. so was i. *I felt a tear falling from my eye* i quik wiped it away and than asked to the teacher of i could go to the badroom.
Notes
heey guys what do you think tell meLOVE Zoë <333
hi, sorry i'm going to update, today or tommorow promise..
i don't have really time for the moment , because i'm working..
i'm really sorry..
And thaks it means a lot, because i had the feeling nobody like it..;s
LOVE Zoë <33
7/4/13