Tori’s POV.

Damn it damn it damn it.

I didn’t even want to deal with this right now. Everyone pretty much felt some type of way right now. Lina looked like she was going to die, Niall was so fucking pissed, and me? Well I was scared as hell at the fact that he now knew my past and it wasn’t even from me. This pretty much sucks for me right now and I couldn’t really say anything.

My eyes kept darting back and forth from Lina to Niall. The look in his eyes just showed anger mixed with hurt and concern. I slowly turned my head to Lina and stared at her. She looked guilty for some reason. “You told him…” And for a second she had a terrified look and her face.

I didn’t know I scared her like that. I mean was tough like but not enough to get pissed at someone for not having a choice to tell someone something so personal….okay maybe a little. I quickly fired back, letting her know it was okay.

“I’m not mad Lina.” She stared at me for a while but slowly came to terms that I wasn’t pissed off. “Uh can you give me and Niall sometime to talk?” She quickly nodded her head and shot up and out the door, closing it silently.

I chuckled to myself before turning around to still see a not so happy Niall looking back at me. I sighed and brushed my hair back. “Niall…” “How could you keep this from me?” I literally felt my heart break into a million pieces. He sounded so heart, looked so broken.
“Niall please-“

“No Tori. I felt like I knew you. I mean everything about you. And now I have to deal with the fact that you kept something from me that would have mattered to me if you just told me. I didn’t even find out from you! I had to answer your phone and listen to this douche go on and on then here the WHOLE story from Lina!” I couldn’t even look at him.

I wasn’t ready for this. “Why?” My head shot up to meet his eyes which at this point, had tears pouring out. I wasn’t the one to cry or feel any sympathy for petty shit but this, this moment, wasn’t petty. It was a small moment. We’re dating for god’s sake. This little thing slipped over my head and now I have to deal with it.

“Because of this! I wasn’t ready for this. All the problems it would bring and the uproar it would cause. I have always put this in my past and I never wanted to bring it up because of this exact moment that played out in my mind when I thought of telling you. Niall you have to understand. I did some stupid shit in my past life, things that should stay in the past then be revealed to everyone!” I didn’t know if me saying this was making this moment any better and when silence resume its place in the room, I knew it wasn’t.

I brought my head up and look over my shoulder at Niall who wasn’t looking at me, but the floor. The freaking floor. Oh god I really fucked up. I sighed and turned around, walking to the chair that was sitting in the corner of my room. I picked it up and brought it in front of him, sitting down. I guess I have to let out the soft part now. The part that I really wanted to say and should have said the first time he asked me why.

“Niall, look. I’ve been on this world for 19 years. 3 of those years I did dumb shit and learned from the mistakes. I’ve had my heart broken way to many times to even count it. The main reason being my past life. That gang I joined. Anytime I could build up the courage to tell any of my boyfriends that I am in that gang or I was, they would run off. Leave me without even saying why. I knew it because of that one thing I told them all. No matter how small I tried to make it seem, it wasn’t good enough to keep any of them around. I decided to leave boys alone for the time being, and then I met you. “

I smiled to myself, forgetting that I was talking to him. “You were so different from all the other guys I dated. You weren’t like them. No tattoos, no problems, just a clean cut image and for some unknown it attracted me to you. I got so caught up in you that I forgot all about the bad things in my past. Anytime I was around you, I felt happy and I didn’t need to worry about anything. The fact that I should tell you about that one part in my life flew right over my head. I fell in love with you and now it’s coming back to bite me in the ass.”

I didn’t even realize I was crying until I felt his hand wiped one away. Did I seriously just cry? Oh god no. I panicked. I didn’t like people to see me cry, it just wasn’t okay to cry in front of people. “Oh great, no I’m crying.” I hurriedly got up and wiped my face of any tears left, turning away from him.

“No Tori, its okay.” I felt his arms wrap around me, engulfing me in one of his comforting hugs. I didn’t believe him. I couldn’t believe him. Nothing was okay now. Jace not only kept to his promise, but coming at a wrong time. The first time, in a really long time I was scared. Not scared for me, but for Niall. For Harry, Zayn, Liam, and Louis. What he could do to them. I wouldn’t dare forgive myself if Niall got hurt, if any of them get hurt for that matter.

But for right now, I have to focus on telling everyone about this. Deep down, I know it wasn’t going to be easy.

Notes

Here's a new chapter for you guys :)
I know im like over a month late but I am so sorry.
What's gonna happen with all of them?
Between Niall and Tori?
You'll found out pretty soon.