LOVE PLANT

I make my way down to Niall’s room with Harry by my side. Maura called me and said it was urgent that Niall needed blood and no one was match so she asked me, and of course I said yes. I go up to the nurse who is in charge of Niall’s case and all I want to do is get started.
“Are you sure you can do this since you just had a transplant.”? Harry interrupts as I am trying to talk to the nurse.
“Well this might change a few things, why don’t we have a chat run a few tests to see if your stable enough to go through with this.” The nurse says.
I nod and follow her back into the room and look at Harry in a disappointing look.
As I am about to go in the room I turn around and I recognized the lady at the nurse’s station so I go up to her and yes it’s her. My doctor from Australia who is also Irish I wonder what she’s doing here.
“Yea I am here to visit someone.” I didn’t want to reveal whom though.
“Oh ok, well I’m going to be here for a few months got some trials we need to run” she says
“Hey can I ask you something with regards to donating blood?” I ask my doctor, and she nods.
Since she is my doctor and looked after me during my transplant she sees that there is no problem since everything with me is fine and stable. I am so relived I just want to help Niall to get better.
The blood is being drawn from my arm and it doesn’t bother me at all I’m used to all of this. As I am looking down at my arm (yes I like to look) Harry walks in.
“Your plan for me not being able to give blood didn’t work Harry.” I say to him looking at him and then my arm.
“That’s what you think is it?” he replies
“Yes, yes it is”
With that I walk out of the room have some orange juice and some crackers just in case but I feel fine after having my blood drawn out. I return back in Niall’s room and the nurse is setting up the blood infusion I can see the blood dripping from the bag to the tube to Niall’s drip slowly going in and I sit by his side while the blood hopefully works. I’m feeling so guilty right now maybe if I didn’t neglect Niall so much when I was England he wouldn’t be here, maybe if I wasn’t so much of a chicken and realised and revealed my true feeling feelings for Niall he wouldn’t be here. All his family are around him, they remind me of mine so much I get up from the chair and let Maura have a seat I leave the room, and on the corner see Harry sitting on the chair with Louis next to him. I pretend not to see them and decide to walk I see Liam and soph walk by with Theo and I just continue to walk. Kylie is still with El at the hotel so I don’t have to worry about that I keep walking until I reach my destination. I get down on my knees and start to pray in the chapel.
“Please God let him live, you did the best thing for me when he came into my life, he deserves nothing but happiness. Don’t take him from me, or his family and friends. Please God I am begging you please just please let him be ok.” I say between my sobs. I really turned to God when I was going through my dark time, and he did answer my prayers, I would often pray to God and ask him to help me get through to be strong and have the will to fight and get up everyday and life live even though I was miserable. And he did that he bought Niall into my life he helped get through it all he helped me see that even though my life was so crap you still need to wake up and fight everyday and to focus on the good things in my life rather than the bad.
A few days has past now and I am sitting at the hotel with Kylie she has been amazing through all of this, she knows I am needed at the hospital and she hasn’t complained once. Its been about two weeks since Niall has been in his accident, on the plus side yesterday the doctor told us that his vitals are stronger, but he still hasn’t woken up yet.

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