Unconditionally*ON HOLD*

I sigh to myself as I stare at the next video. Those girls weren’t playing around anymore, they were being serious.

Some singed, some talked, some cried and talked at the same time. But yet, even after all these I’ve watched so far.. none of them are intriguing to me.

I want something different, something unique. Or some one unique. Whatever I get though I will take I guess.

But still, these girls have the same ideas. Singing to me one of their favorite songs of mine, or telling me how much they would love to meet me.

But to be completely, one hundred percent honest with myself and the world.. those ideas are nothing but boring.

I mean yeah, its sweet to hear what they have to say and I love my fans. I really do. But its just that I asked for the best, and I have yet to come across it.

“Harry?’’ I heard a voice say and I glance up from my seat at the table. I was in a meeting room at my manager’s company.

‘’Yeah?’’ I ask as I see Jacob shutting the door behind him.

‘’We got something in the mail..’’ He tells me as he sits a large, thick envelope on the table.

‘’What is it?’’ I ask, curious to know if it was for me, which it probably was.

‘’I’m not too sure actually.’’ He sighs as he slides it over to me. I pause the current singing fan video I was viewing and I push my lap top to the side as I grab the envelope.

I pull off the tape that was holding the little closing flap in place. Then I stick my hand inside and pull the things out.

First thing I saw was a piece of paper and then I saw a CD case, but it was blank and had no paper in it. It had nothing but a DVD in it. And also it was a small, normal sized envelope with writing on it.

‘’I thought you asked for everything to be emailed?’’ Jacob says as he probably assumes it’s the same thing I think it is, a video submission.

‘’I did..’’ I sigh, remembering my strict rules I had set for the small contest.

“I don’t even want to watch it now.. but.. I guess I might.’’ I shrug with a huff as I unfold the piece of paper. I furrow my eyebrows as I see it was a letter, addressed to me of course.

‘’What’s that?’’ He asks me curiously.

‘’Um.. nothing. Can I have.. a little privacy, please?’’ I ask as I glance up at him.

Jacob nods and stands from his chair. He exits the room quickly, leaving me like I like it, alone and undisturbed.

‘’Lets see what this is.’’ I mumble to myself as I begin to read the long letter.

Usually I don’t take time to read fan mail, well if its on paper I don’t. I ask for everything to be emailed, but I guess some one wanted to go against my rules.. But whatever,I’ll read it anyways.

Harry,

I just wanted to let you know that my little sister is your biggest fan. She doesn’t know I wrote this to you, and probably won’t find out either. But anyways, she’s been through a lot and she says you’re the only thing that keeps her going.

Like most of the other girls who share a interest in you, she knows every word to all of your songs. And she doesn’t hesitate to sing to herself when she’s bored. And I just wanted to thank you for being who you are, because if you weren’t in this world.. my sister might not be either.

A few times in the past few years, my sister tried to take her life away. But because of you, and her love and devotion to you, she didn’t want to do that. She’s not the type of person to be open about how she feels about anything, or any one. She usually keeps to herself.

But lately that’s all changed. Just last month, my mother and her were in a horrible car accident. I ask if you don’t show your pity too much while you read this, she doesn’t like for people to feel sorry for her just because of what happened.

She was injured very badly. Her lower left leg was completely torn down the middle and it crushed her bones. There was a slim chance she could possibly loose it.

But thankfully, the doctors are able to fix it. They’re trying their best to do what they can at the moment, but it has to recover before they can completely fix it.

As for me, being her older, annoying brother, I have no desire to talk to you personally. But as for her, it would mean the entire universe if you just reply in some given way. She always decided to send you a video for your little contest or whatever.

I know a lot of people try to make you grieve for your hospitalized fans, but I promise you I’m just being completely real when I say that you are her entire world. She doesn’t have many friends, and the ones that she does have don’t even talk to her that much.

She wants to be happy again, and I want her to be happy. Sadly, I’m all she has left in the world, and I’d be honored if you would please continue to make my little sister smile. You’re the reason she keeps on going. And she’s the reason I keep going.

So please as I ask you to understand the real and true impact you have on my sister’s life. And this means a lot to me that you read this and that you understood it all. So I thank you again. And so does she.

-James Hayward
Memphis, TN, USA

I gulp gently as I sit the paper down. I grab the smaller envelope and read what was written on the front of it. Inside this is a picture of my sister, she never thought you’d be able to see how truly beautiful she is.

I open the envelope and pull the picture out. I smile gently as I see the truly beautiful girl in the photo. Beautiful blue eyes, long blonde hair.

She looked like the type that thought she was ugly. The type with insecurities and doubts about herself and her life.

But to me, she was completely beautiful. Her story inspired me actually. Knowing that this girl depends on me to make her smile all day makes me feel good and makes me feel… worth something.

Of course I’m literally worth millions. And I’m worthy of my life, my friends, my family. But I have never felt like this, not this way. The fact that she goes along with her life with me in it, even though physically I’m not there for her, it all makes me smile inside.

It feels in the pain, the sorrow, the grief, the everything that I have. It overtakes my heart, and I honestly have no clue what to do about it.

But I need to watch the video, I need to hear what this girl has to say about me.

I need to hear her voice say it, not her brother’s handwriting. So, I do just that.

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