Once it was away we quickly got changed into our decorating clothes and we started to bring in the paint and wallpaper.
We finally brought everything in. one off the good things about this house is the music system that is built in. All we have to do is turn on our Bluetooth and then play our music from our phones and it goes anywhere in the house. Once the music was done we started to do the front room. there was a false chimley so we had decided to paint it the royal blue we had got. Once that was done we painted the kitchen walls the same colour and the wall right at the end off the living room so it all tied in. It was amazing well it looked amazing. We stopped for a little break and we made a cuppa, well that is once we have put the mugs into the cupboards. We sat down at the island and looked at what we had done. A huge smile came to my face and not once at all have I felt down or low. We had then decided to start on the spare bedroom after about aan hour or two fighting over what wall paper we would use we ended up going for a cream background with a red and brown flower detail. We also got a nice mocha colour paint. I concentrated on the paint and Niall done the wallpaper. We had decided after that to get some tea.

"HMmm babe what about chinease." he said. All off a sudden a massive smile came to my face. He knew that I was glad he said that.we quickly had a shower to get rid off all the paint and whilst I was waiting for Niall to finish in the shower I decided to check where the nearest chinease is. Once I had done that Niall was done. We locked up the house and made our way to the chinease. Once we were there we had decided to kinda order like half the menu. Opppssss. Once we got the order we made our way back to the house. Once we got there we decided that we would just eat out off the containers. Tbh even if we did have plates we wouldn't have anything to eat off of. We sat on the floor and then started to dig in. Once we were completely stuffed we just started to laugh. Whilst Niall was tidying up and putting the leftovers over in the fridge for tomorrow morning. Whilst he was doing that I got the pillows and the quilts and got comfy. He soon came over and sat next to me.
"you know everything we have been through has just brought us closer together. I love you." Niall said and kissed my cheek.
"Niall. You know I have only been taking these tablets for a day and I know the doctor said that they will take at least a week to kick in," I paused and Niall jestured to carry on. "well I was thinking off possibly just going to one off those centres you know like the doctor was on about just to kinda find ways of maging it." "if its what you want. You know I willk support you in any desition you make." "I've found this one place its in Cornwall. It let's you confront your depression head on by focusing your mind on something else. There are lot off activities that they offer. I think this is the place Niall. The only problem is the only available two week programme is the last two weeks off my college year." "do you think Jim would let you. If you done the work when you where there." Niall replied. "I honeslty do not know I could always ask. Well I'm gonna have to email him cause I can ask when I get back to college. Will you help me Niall." I asked.
He moved closer to me and I got up my emails.
To: Jim
Subject:---------
From: KatieFKelland

Hi Jim, sorry to be contacting you in the holiday but I have recently been to the doctors and they have diagnosed me with a case off depression. They have given me tablets and they said they will review them after a month but they were on about a residential centre to sort it out if they do not work.
I have decided that I would want to go to a centre. I have found one but the only problem is that the only available time is the last two weeks off college. I don't want to miss any college but I also want to do this so I have a full understanding in how to deal with this. I was wondering if there was anything that we could do to accommodate the situation.
Many thanks Katie Kelland
“Niall why is it that I am scared to do this. I know I will have to face it someday but its it’s…” I couldn’t finish the sentence tears just started to fall out of my eyes. Uncontrollably it’s the second time today that this has happened. “Shhhsssshhsss it’s alright honey we will get it sorted out. I’m sure Jim will understand and he will most probably say that you can do your college work from the centre. He has been understandable so far with everything and he has accommodated for you in the past. Don’t worry okay babe we have a house to do up, you have alice’s prom dress to make also you have uni and the rest of our lives together to look forward too.” He said as he wipped the tears away from my cheek. He moved me closer to him so I had my head reasted on his chest. He kissed my head and I calmed down. We watched a little TV on his ipad and I must off fell asleep.
I woke up in the night. Turned over to see Niall wide awake. "babe why are you awake" I questioned him. " I just can't really sleep. I've been thinking. When your gonna go to the centre I want to be with you and help you but I can't cause me and the boys will be in america." he said. I took a deep breathe. "its alright ni ni. Honestly you have work that has to be done. I will be fine. And its not like we won't be talking cause we will. We can call each other each day and skype as well. Okay." I moved closer to him and kissed his forehead. "it will be fine I promise. I don't want the others to know. I only wanna keep it between you, me and Jim and maybe my sister. I will tell the others afterwards." I said lieing back down close to Niall. "okay princess. Love you lots." and after that we soon fell asleep.
I couldn't help but feel that Niall felt quilty that he can't be there for me but even if he could I would wanna do it on my own. I know that sounds really bad but if he wasn't here then I would have to anyway and I don't want to put him under anymore stress and worry than he already is. I woke up to the smell off bacon eggs toast well the smell off a fried breakfast. I opened my eyes and got up. He was stood in the kitchen in his boxers. I went and sat ont the island chairs and waitied for him to turn around. "morning." I said a little down. "morning my princess. How about a fried breakie and left over chinease." he said I couldn't help but laugh. "I will take that as a yes then.". He brought over the plates and poored me a cup off tea. "so when I'm away in that centre I really don't want anyone else too know just me you and obviously Jim so I was gonna say that I had been asked to go on a trip for uni. I know people are gonna find out in the end but I just don't want anyone to know." I said after I took my first lot off tablets of the day.
He agreed and we ate our breakie. We done a little bit more decorating upstairs and then we packed up and turned off the appliances and we locked up. We got in the car and made our way back to the apartment. My mum and dad were going back home today. By the time we got back they were in the apartment waiting for us. I knew I had to act normal but it was weird. Amy and will were there too. "I'm gonna miss you mum and dad." I said as I walked down to the car park with them. We said our goodbyes and I waved them off. As soon as i got back up stairs it was time to take another lot off pills.
The next couple off days went bye fast and it was soon time for my sister to head back home. I have become ever so close with her recently. I think its because I hardly see her. I had decided to tell her about the depression. As soon as I did she just couldn't help but crying. It did kinda make me laugh. Anyway I had told her about the tablets and about me hopefully going away but I also said not to tell mum and dad, I will when the times right. She understood and I helped her to gain control off herself by slapping her. She laughed. I helped her take her stuff to the car and then I waved goodbye to her. Just as she went she rang me and said. "I know ur most probably crying but I am to but if you honestly need something whislt Niall is away call me and I will drop everything and bring it. Okay. Love you sis." I couldn't really reply to that. All I said was "love you more." and then the tears started. Niall helped me to calm down. We walked back up and I had to do a couple off skype calls. One in poticular to Alice. Her prom was only a couple off months away and I needed to design and get the fabric for it before I went back home. I had designed a couple off options and emailed then too her earlier and said to pick the favorite.
Once on the call her mum helped out measuring Alice so I could start to make it. She picked out my favourite one out off the ones I had designed. We were talking away for a little bit and then she had to go. Once I had a little lunch I made my way to the fabric warehouse and brought all the stuff i will need to make alices dress. I arrived back at the apartment and decided to start on the dress. Headphones in and pattern making complete. The weekend went fast and it was now Thursday. The boys had a load of promotion and apperances ToDo this week before they started perform at the O2 areana. I've had two bad days this week. All I've done is stay in my room and have hardly ate. Niall's found it hard not to tell anyone but I've said if he finds it hard then he can always talk to my sister. he's been saying that I'm not very well and was feeling dizzy. They understood and didn't really bother me. I woke up today feeling good. Thank god today was a good day. I went to the gym and done about a three four hour session. I had to prepare for my uni open day tomoz. I put all the dresses in the bags and they were still labled. I put my sewing stuff in a bag and it was all done. I'm glad that the doctor said that I could do some little exersices to build up the strength in my stomach. Its good considering I'm trying out for the uni's football team. I put my outfit out on a hanger and then had a shower. By the time I was finished the boys were back. I put on a pair off leggings and one off niall's hoodies. I just wanted a nice chilled day before tomoz. Perrie was being an absolute star and was flying to London after her show tonight from Liverpool and then flying back tomorrow afternoon after she's modeled for me.
I walked out into the living room and the boys were there. Niall was sat with his back to me and I had a plan. Louis was sat next to him. I quickly went into the kitchen and got out a bag off onion ring that I had hid from the others. I then went and jumped inbetween Niall and Louis and scared the shit out off them. I couldn't help but laugh. I carried on tucking into the onion rings. Niall noticed and joined in. He leaned closer so his mouth was near my ear and whispered. "a good day I see." he made me smile and I laughed. "what are you too whispering about." liam asked. "ohh nothing." I replied. "soo you looking forward to the uni day tomoz Katie." Danielle asked after she took a sip out off her Starbucks cup. "hell yeah. Tbh I Aint nervous about the actual day its more about the football tri out. I'm more worried about my stomach." I replied. " ahhh it will be fine. Its gonna be amazing and your defo gonna make the team with no doubt about it. " zayn said reasuring me. We all laughed. I decided to have a healthy tea which was a chicken and bacon Salad. Everyone else ordered pizza and junk food. We were talking away and it was about 10 o'clock when perrie came running through the doors. She saw the left over pizza and went straight for it. We laughed. After that I made a cuppa drank it, and the said my goodbyes. We all had to get up at 6:30. The boys had a few interviews ToDo before they went to the areana to practise. We said goodnight and as soon as I hit the pillow I was gone.