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me iii i was what!!! im 17 years old#!!!
I cannot believe I was pregnant. I can't believe it. I'm 17 years old i have my life ahead off me. Yet I still put my body through this much pain and not just me Niall. What am I thinking. I don't know how he is still with me especially after what I have put him through. But I guess he loves me for some weird and deluded way.
I woke up in the morning. I sat up, forgetting all about my stomach.
"ahhhhhhh shit." I let out a scream. "babe you alright." Niall said in his incredibly sexy Irish morning voice. "ahh yeah just forgot about my side.where is my medication." I said slowly getting up out off bed.
"its in the kitchen. What time is it." he said slowly sitting up and rubbing his eyes. He was soo cute in the morning.
"umm ni ni its 9:45. We are leaving in a bit."
He suddenly got out off bed and whisked me off of my feet. As he opened the bedroom door we walked into the living room.
"ohhh soo the sleepy heads finally wake up." zayn said getting up off of the sofa.
"how are you then katie." Harry asked.
"I'm alright just gotta take medication." I said as Niall placed me on the kitchen counter and handing me my medication.
"sooo we have to leave in like an hour and a bit. What do u want for breakfast. Sugar plum."
I laughed a little. "I think u know what I want. Hmmmmm I fancy some bacon, fried bread and some sausages." I said smiling and laughing.
"Jesus. Does that medication make u hungry or something. Make that for everyone else as well Niall." Liam said.
"well why don't you get up off of ur skinny arse and come and help me." Niall said as he chucked himself on liam's lap.
"omg what are you trying to do kill me off laughter!! stop it and make my food. I'm starving."
"alright alright hold ur horses. I only have one pair off hands." Niall said laughing.
About ten minutes later he had cooked everyone breakfast.
"and for my princess." he said before he kissed my cheek.
By this time it was about 10. We all got changed. Niall put on some sweats and a vest and he had one off his hoodies on.
I had sweats, baggy vest top and also one off his hoodies. Before I put the vest top on. I had to get niall's help to put the bandage on.
I had my sweats tucked into my Hi-tops. We packed up the last off our stuff that we needed to take and we were ready to leave. Everyone all had sweats on. I placed my hair in a neat but messy pony tail. Niall had a snap back cap. He took my bags off of me and he placed his soft pink lips against mine. It was just like the first time we kissed. We were in the car. I put the seat back so I was laying down. We drove out off the car park and headed for the motorway.
"you don't desrve to treat me like a princess. I should be treating u like a prince. The amount off shit I have put you through and your still with me." tears started to fall down my face.
"kitkat you mean the absoulte world to me. I dont care about what you have put me through. It doesn't matter about it. I love you for you. Its bringing us closer together. We have just got to take it a day at a time. We have both been through a lot this weekend. I thought I was gonna lose you." tears started to form in his eyes. His hand was on the gear stick. I placed mine over his. As we stopped at a red light he saw I had tears down my face he lightly grabbed my chin and wipped the tears away. He pulled away.
"I'm only thinking like this is is is because I have soo many insecurities.ever since yr10. I was bullied by our mate abbie and It had a massive aftermath affect on me. Just because I wear bright and in your face clothes it doesn't mean that I'm that confident.and now this whole thing with me having a miscarriage its really affected me confidence wise. "
Niall was just quite for a few seconds. "its alright.you should off told me about this. I can help you. We will get through this. You seem tired try and get some sleep. I will wake you up when we get to the services." he said starting to get concerned.
I put my head down and put my headphones in.
I finally felt relieved to tell someone about my insecurities but it also felt worse.I have heard off people being suicidal but I I I I Aint that bad. I know I have to stop myself from thinking this. I just need to sleep. Sleep it off yes that's what I will do.
I woke up in the morning. I sat up, forgetting all about my stomach.
"ahhhhhhh shit." I let out a scream. "babe you alright." Niall said in his incredibly sexy Irish morning voice. "ahh yeah just forgot about my side.where is my medication." I said slowly getting up out off bed.
"its in the kitchen. What time is it." he said slowly sitting up and rubbing his eyes. He was soo cute in the morning.
"umm ni ni its 9:45. We are leaving in a bit."
He suddenly got out off bed and whisked me off of my feet. As he opened the bedroom door we walked into the living room.
"ohhh soo the sleepy heads finally wake up." zayn said getting up off of the sofa.
"how are you then katie." Harry asked.
"I'm alright just gotta take medication." I said as Niall placed me on the kitchen counter and handing me my medication.
"sooo we have to leave in like an hour and a bit. What do u want for breakfast. Sugar plum."
I laughed a little. "I think u know what I want. Hmmmmm I fancy some bacon, fried bread and some sausages." I said smiling and laughing.
"Jesus. Does that medication make u hungry or something. Make that for everyone else as well Niall." Liam said.
"well why don't you get up off of ur skinny arse and come and help me." Niall said as he chucked himself on liam's lap.
"omg what are you trying to do kill me off laughter!! stop it and make my food. I'm starving."
"alright alright hold ur horses. I only have one pair off hands." Niall said laughing.
About ten minutes later he had cooked everyone breakfast.
"and for my princess." he said before he kissed my cheek.
By this time it was about 10. We all got changed. Niall put on some sweats and a vest and he had one off his hoodies on.
I had sweats, baggy vest top and also one off his hoodies. Before I put the vest top on. I had to get niall's help to put the bandage on.
I had my sweats tucked into my Hi-tops. We packed up the last off our stuff that we needed to take and we were ready to leave. Everyone all had sweats on. I placed my hair in a neat but messy pony tail. Niall had a snap back cap. He took my bags off of me and he placed his soft pink lips against mine. It was just like the first time we kissed. We were in the car. I put the seat back so I was laying down. We drove out off the car park and headed for the motorway.
"you don't desrve to treat me like a princess. I should be treating u like a prince. The amount off shit I have put you through and your still with me." tears started to fall down my face.
"kitkat you mean the absoulte world to me. I dont care about what you have put me through. It doesn't matter about it. I love you for you. Its bringing us closer together. We have just got to take it a day at a time. We have both been through a lot this weekend. I thought I was gonna lose you." tears started to form in his eyes. His hand was on the gear stick. I placed mine over his. As we stopped at a red light he saw I had tears down my face he lightly grabbed my chin and wipped the tears away. He pulled away.
"I'm only thinking like this is is is because I have soo many insecurities.ever since yr10. I was bullied by our mate abbie and It had a massive aftermath affect on me. Just because I wear bright and in your face clothes it doesn't mean that I'm that confident.and now this whole thing with me having a miscarriage its really affected me confidence wise. "
Niall was just quite for a few seconds. "its alright.you should off told me about this. I can help you. We will get through this. You seem tired try and get some sleep. I will wake you up when we get to the services." he said starting to get concerned.
I put my head down and put my headphones in.
I finally felt relieved to tell someone about my insecurities but it also felt worse.I have heard off people being suicidal but I I I I Aint that bad. I know I have to stop myself from thinking this. I just need to sleep. Sleep it off yes that's what I will do.
5/30/13