How to Stay

**Dina**

He didn’t think that she felt him watching her, but she did. Every glance he stole in her direction made her skin crawl. And yet somehow she liked the way he looked at her. She had always liked the way he looked at her from the first time they met. At first his eyes were filled with fear, probably assuming she was a cold blooded murderer, but as soon as she spoke his eyes changed. He showed understanding, compassion and sometimes Dina imagined that there was a little lust and love in there too. But something changed when she got out. She couldn’t quite understand what it was, but somewhere deep down she knew it was all on her. She knew that she was the one who had changed, he had stayed the same lovely person for all of those five years she had known him. But she had changed so much that she didn’t even recognize herself in the mirror. Even her facial features had changed, and she wasn’t so sure that it was for the best.

“Dina!” Her thoughts were interrupted by Jo shouting her name. She quickly looked over at her with a surprised smile on her face. When Johanna was certain she had Dina’s attention she smiled largely and pointed to Harry who was standing in front of her. “This random dude…” Jo paused a little and glanced teasingly at Harry. “Says that musicals are lame and that you should only use music as a background noise.” Both Jo and Dina snorted at the same time. Louis was standing next to Harry, trying really hard not to laugh his socks off. As Dina looked into Harrys eyes she plastered the same evil smirk she used on stupid bitches.

“Oh that’s unfortunate.” Dina didn’t let her eyes off Harry as she felt Jo stand next to her. They both crossed their arms and stared at Harry with death glares.

“Oh no, why is that Dina?” Johanna spoke with the same dry tone as Dina.

“It’s just…” Dina took a deep breath and glanced at Johanna as she spoke her next words. “He ran into my knife.” Johanna faked a gasp and looked at Dina.

“You don’t say?” They both turned their eyes back to Harry and Dina gave him one of her most scary looks. She slowly nodded her head and didn’t even blink as she continued.

“He ran into my knife ten times.” Jo let out a small sigh that everyone could hear.

“He had it coming.” Dina nodded and spoke.

“How could you tell me that I was wrong?” Dina sighed and kept her steady gaze on Harry. A small smile played on his lips, and she couldn’t help but smile back. If she could’ve blushed her cheeks would’ve been bright red right now. Dina had blocked out the noise around them as she looked at Harry, and when he spoke she noticed everyone clapping their hands for her and Jo.

“Okay, Okay!” His hands flew and Dina looked around her quickly before focusing back on him. “I give! I give! Musicals rock!” He winked at her and she thought her knees would give in, although they certainly didn’t. Everyone laughed but somehow Dina couldn’t rejoice in his words. She felt like she couldn’t breathe and her heart skipped a beat. Those eyes. It was all in those eyes, those green orbs that made her feel sick. She didn’t know if she liked the feeling or not, it was rather confusing.

“We should make him drink an egg or something!” Johanna laughed loudly at Yvie’s outburst. Dina blinked her eyes once more, completely dazed by the man in front of her.

“Uhm, yeah we should!” Everyone looked at her as she just stared at the smiling man in front of her. “How about we save that for another day?” She smiled to Harry and turned her head towards Johanna. “Time to dance?” Johanna smiled largely and looked over at her husband. Without a word Louis stretched his hand out to her and she gently placed her hand in his. When the slow music started they looked like a fairytale couple.

“Could I perhaps have this dance?” A deep voice whispered in Dina’s ear that made her jump. She twirled around and looked at Harry with his smug smile on his lips. She slowly nodded her head. His hands slipped around her waist and her hands were gently placed on his shoulders. As she always felt when he was around her heart raced and she blushed.

“I’m happy they’re happy.” Harry slowly looked down at Dina as they danced. She felt like she had to defend herself against his accusations he made earlier. He had basically said she wasn’t happy for them.

“I know.” He smiled and she almost blushed again. His smile was heavenly.

“Then why did you assume that it was hard for me to smile for them?” Dina’s voice turned a little harsh, but she didn’t care because she was a little bit mad at him.

“I wasn’t assuming you weren’t happy for them. I just meant that it had to be hard to want what they have.” He paused and swirled Dina in a half circle. “You lost five years of your life, being stuck in that prison. I would find it really sucky if that happened to me.” His eyes fell to the floor and Dina stared at him confused. Somehow he had put her emotions into words, without even knowing what was wrong.

“I just…” She didn’t know what to say. He knew her. Better than both of them wanted to admit. And he understood her feelings, even though she didn’t. “I’m happy for them.” She spoke softly and Harry pulled her body closer.

“I know.” Slowly she placed her head on his shoulder and they danced to the slow song. Somewhere down the line Dina closed her eyes and forgot about the people around them. All she could really think about was his body against hers. Even though the two were not in a happy place, she felt like they could be. The song ended. Harry stopped moving. Dina stayed how she was, refusing to give up the closeness she felt the two of them have at that one little moment.

“Dina.” Harry whispered her name into her ear so softly that it sent chills down her back. She twisted her head and placed her forehead against his shoulder.

“What happened?” All of the memories came flooding back. How he came to visit her when she was stuck in that hell hole of a prison. They connected. They even kissed a few times. He told her he would be there when she got out. She promised she would straighten her act and be there for him too. Even though they couldn’t promise each other a relationship right then and there, they at least promised each other friendship. But she got out, and they didn’t talk. Both of them could be in the same room, but neither would say a word to the other.

“I don’t know.” His voice was defeated. Maybe he felt the same as she did. Dina wanted so badly for them to work. His arms snaked around her body and he held her even closer. They stood quietly for a long time before he spoke up once more. “Will you come with me? To my place?” He sounded almost pleading. She let out a small sigh and looked up at the person that felt like her anchor and like her doom. His face was showing so much but yet so little. He looked happy, hopeful, scarred, sad and a bunch other emotions that she couldn’t encrypt. Her face was probably looking the same.

“I… I don’t know if… If I should Harry.” He smiled slightly and tightened his arms just a little.

“I think we need to talk. And that’s all that’s going to happen. If you don’t want anything else to happen.” Dina nodded and tried to think about it. But she found it difficult. Because all she could really think about was his arms around her. And how much she loved the feeling.

“Okay.” She agreed to go with him. Even though she knew it was a bad idea, felling that the night would eventually end in his bed, she wanted to know what he had to say. And maybe, just maybe, they could work.

**End of Dina**

Notes

I'm so sorry but I'm rounding this off! I have no idea how to write about Dina and Harry and I am so sorry!!
It hurts to tell you guys that I'm going to write a couple of chapters more, make sure that the ending is okay, and then quit this story!

I had big plans for it when I started but it just isn't working out at all! I hope no one hates me to much (beastspencerg)!

I love you guuuuys!

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