Undercover

I wake up dazed and confused.
I see two figures a woman and a man. My vision is a bit foggy and so is my memory. I’ll remember soon.
“Mom? Dad?” I mumble really out of it.
“No baby. Its Josh and Chloe.” the woman says softly in a broken voice
“What happened?” I ask shutting my eyes tightly trying to remember
“Baby you got shot. You saved two, maybe even more people from being hurt” the man says
“I don’t remember.” I say opening my eyes again
“You have been in coma for about a week baby girl. The doctor said memory loss is common. What do you last remember?” Chloe asks
“Um..I don’t know.” I say trying to sit up only to wince in pain loudly, my hip area hurt like fucking shit! “It’s all fuzzy right now.” I explain
“Take it easy, you’ll tear your stitches.” a man walks in and look at him confused. “I’m your Dr.” He says and I nod slightly
“How are you feeling?” He asks sitting beside me in a chair ready with a clipboard to document my answers.
“Confused...and like..sleepy.” I mumble
“That is very normal. Once you are off this medication your memories should come back. But you are pretty...drugged up right now so it should be a little fuzzy. I will send in a meal and have nurse come check on your vitals and everything make sure everything is in order.” He says and I nod before he leaves
“You are lucky. He shot you in a bad bad place. When Harry called us he was frantic and crying. He said he thought you died trying to save that girl and that cop. We thought you had died when we came in and they wouldn’t say anything..” josh says softly and I look at him confused by his sadness
“Well then you wouldn’t have me to burden you. Win Win. I get to be with my parents. You get rid of me.” i say. My voice is so simply, as if we were talking about the weather instead of me losing my life
“Never say that Katie.” Chloe says tears in her eyes”You could never burden us. You just need time to adjust.” She says hopefully
“I’m scared.” I mumble. My brain is doing the talking. I’m on complete autopilot right now because of these meds i’m on. “You’ll get hurt. and then I’ll be hurt again because everyone around me dies...Haven’t you noticed? First James..Then my parents. Anyone I get close to dies. I think it is because of me.” I say tiredly
“Who is James? None of that was ever your fault” josh says
“James is my friend. He died when I was 7. At least that is what my parents had told me. James Steele. He was my best friend.” I mumble
“James? You know James?” Chloe asks wide eyed
“Baby James is not dead! he went to train at age 10. Maybe your parents just didn’t want you to ask to go train with James as well. because you didn’t know about the fact you were non-existent to everyone and couldn’t do normal spy things until you were about 12.” Josh says
“So james is alive?” I ask foggily “I’m too tired for this.” I say softly and they smile
“Rest darling. Rest. Wake up when the meds wear off.” Chloe says and I nod falling into another heavy sleep.

I wake up to the door opening and closing hard.
“Has anything changed?” i hear Harry ask
“Is she feeling better?” I recognize the voice as Louis. A conversation breaks out and I slowly open my eyes and face all the guys.
“You are all crazy loud.” I say in a mumble making the room shift to look at me. Their eyes light up and they tackle me in hugs and bombarded me with questions
“How are you?”
“Are you feeling any better?”
“Dude you got shot!”
“Are you in pain?”
“Will you be able to come to school ever again?”
“Guys! Give her some space. Katie. Talk while you are eating this food the doctor dropped off.” Chloe says sternly and then lovingly towards me. She hands me a tray and I make a move to sit up and wince but keep going. Once I am sitting up I lean back instantly wanting to lay down again.
“Answer our questions.” Zayn pouts and I shrug taking a bite of my apple
“Well..I’m good. I feel like I’ve been shot. I’m in a great amount of pain. and I hope I never go to school again.” I ramble off and everyone frowns at my bluntness
“Everyone knows at the school what happened. GOing back won’t be smart because everyone will be paying attention to me.” I roll my eyes “And.. Um what happened after I passed out?” I ask
“Well. Um. Everyone flipped out. Zayn as holding your bloody body and an ambulance was getting through the crowd and well the girl you save was sobbing like crazy thinking she killed you. The guys were put in jail and you were ruled a hero for saving a cop and a girl.” Niall says in a dramatic way that had me giggling at the end which make everyone look at me
“Your giggle is nice. I like it better than your blank face.” Harry smiles and i nod going back to my usual blank face
I pull down the sheets a bit and see the goss on my wound. I begin to take it off and I hear shouts to stop.
“Don’t!”
“Ew”
“Gross!”
“NO ew”
“I want to see my gun shot hole.” I frown at them and they make gagging noises.
I take off the goss and it is clearly a new one because it is only slightly tinted. My hole is red. Go figure.
The stitches make it looks so cool..I think to myself while staring at it.
“How are you not freaked out?” Louis asks looking at me shocked
“I’ve been shot before.” I mumble and then my eyes widen oops.
“When!?” Harry asks in disbelief
“When I was little. I was in the wrong place at the wrong time.” I shrug it off. “I was in the hospital for 2 months because it hit me in the chest and I collapsed a lung while running back to my dad.” I chuckle at the memory. The truth was Dad was the one who shot me. Because he said I had to learn the pain and expect the same thing if I got shot by a real person.. I don’t remember much but he had BAD logic. My mom had shot him in the leg because of that day...ahhh my memories as a child. Big guns and blades.
That is crazy. How old were you?” Niall asked
“6.” I say
“Wow. When I was six I played with toy cars. and here you were playing with guns.” harry say and I from in realisation. Harry had a normal childhood..and people knew he was a alive. And he was perfectly fine...Why couldn’t I have that too? I didn’t understand my parents motive anymore.. Other than being spies who were well known and very dangerous. “Can I talk alone with Chloe and Josh please.” I say suddenly having the urge to cry.
“Sure.” the guys nod confused hurrying out.
Right when the door shuts I throw my tray to the wall making it bang loudly and fall to the floor.
“Why can’t I have that?” i say softly “I want that.” I say my voice cracking
They look at me shocked and stunned unable to find a way to answer me.
“WHY can’t I be a normal kid? I want that. I want that so bad. I don’t like not trusting every single breathing thing. I hate not being able to have friends that i’ve known forever.” I cry “Why did my parents hide me?” I ask not understanding anything anymore “They could have gave me a false name to go by so I could go be normal...Like now.” I say “ I could’ve had everything.” I say and they frown at me
“You aren’t ready for the truth. We will tell you when you can handle it.” Josh says in a final tone
“What do you even mean?” I ask hysterically
“Josh lets just tell her! She has a right to know.” Chloe says
“Know what!?” I cry
“We will tell her when she is fully recovered.” josh snaps in a final tone.
I cry into my hands and let my confusion and frustration out this way.
“Are you guys okay?” Harry pokes his head in. When He sees me crying he hurries in and pulls me into a hug. The guys come in shortly after and immediately seem concerned.
“What happened?” Harry asks
“I hate my life. It is as simple as that.” I say laying down again
“Don’t say that...You are lucky to have it after this blow.” Niall says softly and I frown at him
“My life is a JOKE. You don’t see it. But it is all lies and more lies. I have no childhood. I’m an empty shell. And I can get shot 100 times and it wouldn’t be as painful as the life im leading right now.” I scream “I want to go home.” I say
“We will go home when-” Harry starts
“Not that place. My home Harry. The place I know. The place I used to know.” i say

Notes

SORRY this is short and crappy. but I didn't want to leave you guys with a dramatic cliff hanger because Idk my schedule and if I have time.

IT IS OFFICIALLY MY SUMMER BREAK! And I will be updating a LOT more now, once school starts up again in 2 months I will go back to my weekend schedule!

Hope you guys enjoy this short little chapter. <3
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