The Secret Lovers

I was awoken by sun shining in my eyes. I looked over to find Harry peacefully sleeping with his mouth wide open. I laughed softly, he looked so handsome. I got out of bed and looked at my self in the mirror, I looked horrific. I then went down stairs to the kitchen to make myself and Harry when he woke up a cup of tea. I went and turned on the television to waste time while the kettle boils. I was on the NEWS channel. I saw Harry and some blonde hair girl kissing. My gut dropped. I tried to hold back my tears. I went back into Harry’s room and quietly got my bag near the bathroom. I tip toed down stairs and only reached the door until I felt a pair of big warm hands around my waist. “Where are you going” He asked confused. “I um I have to go, I’m sorry” “I’ll drive you” “No thanks you’ve done enough” I couldn’t bare myself telling him what was wrong. Why didn’t I see this coming. I always get hurt, my heart getting shattered into small pieces. Why can’t I come to the conclusion that I will never find someone who actually loves me and will be loyal whilst also treating me like a princess. I wish it was just like in movies. Oh how I wish. “Is there something wrong Nicole” “Nicole” He said the second time since I was just daydreaming. He had the worried voice on. Why would he be so loving and caring but then not tell me that he knocked up some other girl before me. I was over this, I’m not letting this slip. “I’m okay, I have to go bye” I hurried outside to find it pouring outside. I didn’t really care at this moment all I wanted was to get away from Harry. I didn’t really live far away from him but I also didn’t want to go home. I walked to the park near my house to just cry and let my emotions out. The rain settled down after a while. I was soaked, I knew I was going to get a cold and I was going to regret it. My phone vibrated through my jeans. I got it out to go check who messaged me.

‘Hey babe. Are you okay? I’m just checking up on you. You seemed a bit off when you left this morning. You know you can talk and tell me anything. xx Harry.”

I got frustrated why would he not tell me. I tried to figure out what I was going to tell him. Was I going to tell him that I knew or should I just be nice and not worry about it. What if the photo it photo shopped. I made up my mind.

“How was that girl that you made out with the other day? ;) She’s really pretty. ” I got a text back instantly.

“I’m so sorry I can explain Nicole. She went onto me first and I tried to get her off me but she wouldn’t. Can you come over so we can talk about this please? I love you Nicole.”

“I really don’t want to hear your bullshit story Harry, I’m so sick of getting hurt and getting my heart shattered into a million of pieces. I can’t believe I actually thought you were better than that. You lost my trust and I don’t think I could ever forgive you. I’m sorry I’m not good enough for you, I’m sorry I’m not what you want. I’m sorry I’m a screw up. I’m not your second option and I will never be. You are 25 Harry? Grow up and act your age. You aren’t a loyal person. You know you were my first. I don’t think you did because I never told you. You probably only used me for sex then would of got rid of me after you got what you wanted. I never want to hear, speak or see you again. Don’t bother coming to find me. You’re pathetic and I hope she was worth it. I thought we actually had something go on. I thought it was special, but you just ruined it. I actually started to like you. But you ruined it. I fricking hope she was worth it Styles!!!!!! I hate you and get out of my life. I hate you!!!!!!!” Tears were now streaming down my cheeks.

I was now sitting down on the swing for the past couple of minutes waiting for a text from Harry. I felt my phone vibrate again.

“Nicole I love you! I’m sorry but I didn’t kiss her she came up to me first. I would never hurt you can you please believe me! You’re everything I want Nicole, you are the most beautiful, amazing, self confident, cute, gorgeous, sexy, intelligent and funny person I know. I would never use you for sex. When we did it, it was the most meaningful, passionate sex ever. I had a spark when we first kiss, I knew it was a sign. Please Nicole can you believe me. I would never ever do that to you. You mean so much to me and I don’t want to loose you. I don’t know what I’d do without you. Can you come over and talk it through with me. I want you in my arms right now. I miss you. Please Nicole I don’t want to loose you ever. You are the love of my life. I know that it’s so early but I LOVE YOU! I will never ever give up on you even if it takes ages. Can you please come over? Nicole please.”

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