I was a freshman at Trinity’s College. I only moved here a couple of weeks ago from America. I now live in London which I actually liked since everyone in my past school hated me or bullied me to the point I couldn’t handle it. My parent’s were so helpful, they helped me through every problem I had, that’s why I loved them. I started getting all my belongings from the garage and place them into my new room. My parent’s let me have the best room in the house. It didn’t really bother me if I got the crap one anyway. I started to get my clothes and shoes out and placed them into the closet. I was always organized, I didn’t like when things were messy. I finished unpacking my stuff and sat on the bed. I checked my twitter and posted a photo of my new room. I then put music on and went straight to sleep since it was almost the middle of the night and I had school the next day.

I woke up feeling happy but a bit nervous in my stomach, since it was my first day of a new college. I went and had a quick shower and applied some makeup on. I really wanted to fit in at this college. I was never a popular girl, and I wanted to try my hardest to be one. I was always the nerd, the ugly one, the slut. I was a virgin, but everyone just threw words around and assumed I was a slut. I found a cute outfit to wear, it wasn’t to revealing but it did show some cleavage. I got into my car, and drove to school. I arrived and parked in the parking lot. I got out and started walking inside. Everyone was staring at me, I felt really nervous so I looked down. A few girls came up to me and asked me what my name was. “Hello, I’m Allison what’s your name” She asked. “Nicole” I replied looking down. “Welcome to Trinity’s College, if you want me and my friends will show you around” I took her offer and she showed me were the cafeteria, toilets and classes were. They were really nice. The bell rang and we were off to our first class, I was happy since Allison and I had the same class first up. We both walked inside and went and sat down. I noticed a brown curly headed boy staring right at me. I had to admit he was really cute. The teacher came in and told us what to do first. “Hey Allison who’s the curly headed boy over there” I asked. “Don’t even start with him, he’s such a flirt. He hurts girls, uses them and then goes onto the next one” She said harshly. “Oh, what’s his name though” “Harry” “Thanks, he looks nice though” “If you got to know him, you’d be surprised” She said. I felt like someone was watching my every move. I looked over and saw Harry staring at me. He winked at me. I got butterflies in my stomach, but since Allison told me he hurts girls I have to pretend I don’t like him or find him attractive. That’s it I have to play hard to get. I rolled my eyes, but inside I was dieing. I felt like he was different. I was trying to act busy doing my work, but he couldn’t get out of my head and I don’t know why. What’s so special about Harry, I asked myself.

It was time to go home now. I walked outside to wear my car was and saw a note on my windscreen. It was a number and Harry’s name on it. “How the hell does he know this is my car” I spoke. I heard a chuckle coming from a few feet away it was Harry. “I saw you hop out of your car when you arrived at school babe” “Are you a stalker or something and don’t call me babe” I spoke angrily. “Someone’s feisty, I like you your different compared to all of the other girls” “What because you’ve never been shut down before” “Not that, every girl is always over me but your not” “Because I actually have self respect” “I see” “I have to go bye” “Wait there missy, I need your number” He asked. I didn’t want to give him my phone number but I had to he was just so good looking. I wrote my number down on a piece of paper and handed him it. “There you go, now stop harassing me” “See you later babe” “As I said before don’t call me babe you creep” He just winked and smiled back. Was he trying to get me angry or something. I drove back home and went to lay on my bed. My phone vibrated, it was a message from an unknown number. “Who the hell is texting me” I got angry. I opened the message and saw it was from Harry. ‘Hey babe it’s Harry meet me at the park near your house tonight at 8, you better be there ;) xx’ He wrote. I didn’t know whether to go or to just stay home. I haven’t known him for that long, what if he hurts me. ‘Okay’ was all I replied. I got another text from him saying ‘Don’t be blunt babe, see you tonight ;)’ I had a gut feeling that I shouldn’t go, but of course I did anyway.

I got dressed into my jeans and my cute shirt that I loved. I walked to the park and saw a dark figure sitting on the swing. I got closer and saw it was Harry. “Why did you ask me to come here” I asked. “I wanted to get to know you more babe” “Real reason Harry” “I’m not lying” He winked. “Whatever” I went and sat on the bench that was near the monkey bars. “I didn’t actually think you would turn up” “I wasn’t going to come, but I needed fresh air anyways” “You only came because you wanted to see me” “Why would I want to come see you, I barely even know you” He just chuckled. He came and sat next to me. He was very close, he placed his hand on my knee and started to come closer to my private spot. I grabbed his hand and put it in his laps. “Can you not” “Why not babe I know you want too” “No I don’t” He put his hands on my mouth covering my lips and nose. I started to scream but nothing came out. He placed his hands on my pants, taking my pants off. I started crying, why was he doing this to me. “You know you love it” “Please stop” I cried. His eyes went dark and red. He slapped me across the face. “Your a bitch and I love it” He said. I cried and tried to scream for help but no one heard. Harry’s hand still covering my mouth.

I struggle trying to get out of Harry’s grip. Why was this happening to me, I felt as I shouldn’t even bother trying to stop Harry. His eyes were just full of darkness. I should of listened to Allison. I tried my best to get out of his grip, it worked. I jumped up and kicked him as hard as I could. I ran away frightened and traumatized. I saw someone in the ally way crying. It was becoming louder sobs as I walk closer to this black figure. It was Harry. What the hell. “Why are you crying” I asked. Even though he did almost rapped me, I felt I needed to go and ask why he was crying. He seemed different to me. “I’m so sorry Nicole I really am” “It’s okay” I put my hand in his fluffy curls. “I got really drunk this afternoon and I was horny, I can’t handle it. If I see someone I like I will go after them” Harry said while sobbing. “It’s okay Harry, I forgive you but please don’t ever do that again” “I promise. Harry cupped my face and kissed me. It got pretty intense until I broke the kiss. “Why did you stop” He whined. “I’m sorry, I have to go” I ran away crying. I felt like he just wanted to use me. I felt a spark while we kissed but I’m not entirely sure if Harry did. I ran home and opened the door to my house. I walked up to my room and jumped on my bed. I cuddled up to the first pillow that was nearest to me. I just cried all night. I wake up smelling pancakes down stairs. “I must of fallen asleep” I had no idea what would happen if I went to school today. Would Harry just brush me off, or would he keep chasing me. I was confused. I got to school and went to my first class which was with Harry and Allison. Harry would keep looking at me and then look away. What was wrong with him. I was frightened of him in some sort of way. What if he hurt me again, what if he actually kills me. The bell went for lunch. Allison, I and the group of girls I hung out with sat in the cafeteria eating our lunch. I saw Harry keeping a close eye on me. I tried my best to ignore him and just eat with the girls. A group of boys that Allison were very close with came over and sat with us. One guy caught my eye. Dave’ he was really handsome and good looking. He sat next to me. “Hey Nicole” “Hey” “How are you babe” “I’m good actually been busy doing assignments and stuff, what about you” I asked. “I’ve been pretty good actually just been training a lot” “Oh sounds fun, what do you train if I may ask” ” Football train” “Silly me I should have known sorry” “It’s okay” He laughed and hugged me. He was such a sweet guy. I felt as someone was watching me this whole time, I looked over to Harry. He was eying Dave and I. Someone must be a bit jealous. “I really need a tutor” Dave exclaimed. “If you want I could help you out” I replied while smiling at him. “That would be amazing, I owe you one” “It’s okay” I smiled. “Well I’m off I’ve got to get to football training” “Okay have fun, I’ll talk to you later” “Okay see you Nicole” He said while kissing my cheek.

I was finally home time. I was walking home until I got a text from Allison saying that Dave got bashed up by Harry. Why the hell would Harry want to beat up Dave. I mean he has done nothing wrong at all. ‘Hey Nicole, I just got told that Dave got bashed up by Harry’ Allison wrote. ‘Why would Harry want to bash Dave? Xx’ I replied. I was almost home until I received another text message from Allison saying; ‘Dave told one of the boys Harry told him to stay away from you because you were his. What’s going on with Harry and you?’ ‘Nothing is going on between Harry and I. I’m actually really confused. If you hear anything else can you please tell me straight away. Thanks Xx’ ‘Okay I will, I’ll see you tomorrow’ She replied.

I went on my phone and dialed Harry’s number. One ring, Two ring, Three ring, He picked up. “Hello” “Hi Harry it’s Nicole” “Oh Hey babe” “I heard you bashed Dave, what the hell were you thinking you idiot” I yelled. “I saw him flirting with you Nicole, I didn’t like it. I know your not mine but I like you” “Harry, stay as far away from me and my friends do you got it” I yelled. “I can’t do that Nicole, your the only girl I actually care about, I’m sorry for what I did. I got jealous, I know I’ve only known you for about a couple of days but you are the only girl I’ve ever actually care for” “Harry I can’t be with you, you know that. You’re a bad guy, I can’t associate or be around with someone like that” I said harshly. “Please Nicole, I will change for you” “Harry no one can change who they are, you are who you are” “Please” He begged. I couldn’t handle it so I hung up. I went into bed and put my alarm on to wake up extra early tomorrow for school.

DREAM**

“Morning love” Harry’s voiced echoed. “Morning” I kissed him. “I’m going to the gym, I’ll be back soon” He placed a light kiss on my right cheek. “Alright, I’ll make you something to eat when you get back, I love you” “I love you too love” He kissed me. I layed in bed until I felt a wave of nausea rush through my body. I quickly ran to the bathroom and vomited into the toilet. My period was a week late. I got a pregnancy test from inside the draws in mine and Harry’s bathroom. I always kept one in case the day came, and the day was today. I peed on the stick and waited for a couple of minutes. I was so anxious to find out if I was or not.

Notes

Sorry if it wasn't good. I will update tomorrow Xx