Loving him was red

A few seconds later I hear the doorbell ring. I groan and get up walking downstairs quickly. Opening the door I see Eleanor, Louis’ ex girlfriend standing there. “Uh hi, can I help you?” I ask stepping outside. “What happened between you and Louis? He came over crying his eyes out, took a shower and then passed out on my couch. What did you do?” She asks quickly. “Well for one. I did nothing but break up with him. He did it. He cheated on me with my fucking sister!” I say crying again. “O-oh my god, I’m so sorry!” She says quietly. “It’s fine, he can just go be happy with whoever the hell he wants.” I say crying. “Well just know I’m here for you if you ever need anybody to talk too, I know we don’t have the best past in getting along and stuff, but I know what your going through. I know how hurt you are.” Eleanor says standing there. “Thank you Eleanor, that means a lot it really does.” I say smiling up at her. “No problem, now I should probably leave to check on Louis and make sure he hasn’t destroyed the house or something worse.” She says chuckling a little. “Okay, well you might get a call or text from me soon to talk about things.” I say smiling “Well I’ll talk to you soon then, Bye Alyssa” She says walking away. “Bye Eleanor” I say back then shut the door walking too the couch. I turn the TV on a music channel and go make an sausage egg and cheese sandwich. When that’s done I walk back over and sit there listening to music. I decided to check my twitter really quick so I grab my computer and login. All I see down the page is tweets from Louis saying, “I’m sorry” and “I miss her..” I roll my eyes a little bit and go too check my notifications. “Whore” “Slut” “How could you do that too Louis!” Is all they said. I ignore them all and log out closing my computer laying back onto the couch. About 10 minutes later when I’m finally starting to fall asleep the doorbell is rang again. I groan and get up opening the door. “Pizza delivery for Alyssa” The man holding three pizzas says. “I didn’t order any pizza..” I say confused. “A caller ordered it and had me bring it here said it was from Louis Tomlinson and he already paid for it too.” He says handing it over. “Oh. Well thank you I guess” I say taking the pizzas from him. “No problem, have a nice night” He says walking off and getting in his car driving away. I shut the door with my foot and put the pizzas in the kitchen on the table. I sigh lightly and sit down grabbing my computer and sign into twitter once again hate tweets is the only thing that I see. Tears begin falling down my eyes as I shut my computer down and walk away. I head upstairs and go into the bathroom. I close the door slightly and grab the razor up off the bathroom sink. I sink down against the wall and look down at my arms. I make a few more cuts this time they’re a little bit bigger. I watch as the blood trickles down my arm and onto the bathroom floor. I sigh a little bit and stand up gently washing off my arm and walking out. I get down there and see Louis sitting on the couch. “What are you doing here?” I ask surprised and try hiding my arm. “I came to say I’m sorry one last time. And I’m leaving London. I’ll be out of your life forever if that’s what you want. You will never have too see me again. Just say the words.” He says as I sit down on the couch across from him. I try my best too hide my arm from him as I look up at him. “I don’t want you out of my life forever, I just can’t be with you after what happened.” I say looking at him tears forming in my eyes. He reaches over and touches my arm unknowingly and I pull back wincing. “What’s wrong Alyssa?” He asks shocked. “Oh uh, nothing its fine.” I say moving around quickly. “Let me see you arm” He demands moving closer too me. “Why?” I ask scooting away a little bit. “Because I want to know whats wrong.” He says looking at my arm. “Oh my god, when did you do this?” He asks taking my hand. “Once the other day when I found out about you cheating and then today before you came here.” I say fully crying now.

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