What Goes Around Comes Back Around

Days had passed quickly, more like way too fast. I was packing up all my belongings and stuffing them into my suitcase. I had barely talked to any of the girls or the boys. Though I overheard the girls talking that they were bored and hated being on lockdown. Tonight I was flying to New York, but I was having mixed feelings. I wanted to go and do my own stuff, but it didn’t feel right the way I was leaving all of them behind.

I let out a deep sigh as I zipped up my suitcase and put it on the floor. It was heavy, maybe even too heavy, but I had so much to take with me and there was no way I was leaving some stuff behind. I looked at the letter placed on my bedside table and looked around the room another time. My eyes glanced at my watch; it wouldn’t take long now before I had to leave.

The phone in the hotel room started ringing and I walked over. Peyton picked it up and without a word she held out the phone to me. I walked up to her, taking over the phone. I watched her march off to her room, her hurt expression made me feel guilty in an instant.

‘yes, okay…thank you, I will be down in a bit’ I said and hung up the phone.

The reception desk called to inform me that my taxi to the airport had arrived. I glanced around the room and no-one was here, all three doors were shut. I had to try and say goodbye at least. Even though Peyton, Rose and Sapphire disliked my choice of going.

Sapphire was the least bothered, simple more excited that I was given a shot of a lifetime. I knocked on her door and she mumbled something and I entered. Her head shot up and I could see the tears in her eyes.

‘please don’t Saph, you’ll make me cry too’ I started

‘I know, but this is just so sad. I’m happy for you, but I have been feeling so emotional today and Ashton is out writing with god knows who’ Sapphire spoke breaking down completely.

‘come here you’ I opened my arms as I neared her and she fell into my arms. I rubbed her back and rocked her back and forth a little ‘ssshhh, we’ll stay in touch. You losers won’t get rid of me that easily. It’s only six months’

‘I know I know I’m just going to miss you. That’s all’ Sapphire sobbed as she pulled back out of my grip

‘you’re so ugly when you cry’ I tried to wipe away her tears

‘you don’t look like a supermodel either when you cry’ Sapphire giggled through her sobs.

‘no I don’t, but see, I did make you laugh’

‘you have to go and say bye to Rose and Peyton. At least if they want to talk to you’ Sapphire started ‘I’ll see you out’ she pushed me back a little and I nodded.

I stood in front of Peyton’s room and sighed before I placed a knock on the door. When she opened she wanted to throw it shut, but I stopped it with my hand. She let out a low and annoyed grunt, but let me step inside.

‘Pey, please, it’s only for six months’

‘you and I both know this will be way longer then six months Wills’ Peyton snapped

‘I don’t know that and you don’t know that. We’ll stay in touch’

‘it’s not the same’

‘I know it’s not, but at least I won’t ignore you and unfriend you guys’ I started ‘I wouldn’t be able to even if I wanted to’

‘well why don’t you do it now then?’

‘I won’t, you guys mean to much. You have been there for so many things and that is not something to give up on’ I pleaded

‘it feels like you are giving up though’

‘I’m not, just see this as me doing something on my own. Like a project…like I did with Shawn months back’

‘I don’t want you to go Wills’

‘I know you don’t, no-one want me to go. I have to though’

‘no you don’t’ Peyton started and I could see the tears forming in her eyes

‘we will see each other way sooner then you think’ I held my arms open for her and to my surprise she walked up to me and collapsed into my arms. I soothed her and stroked her hair ‘I don’t have long and I have to say bye to Rose too’

‘I know, I’m going to miss you Wills’ Peyton cried as she pulled back, looking at me

‘I’m going to miss you too’ I said, feeling a lump form in my throat ‘Rose’ I whispered

‘good luck’ Peyton spoke and I headed up to Rose’s room.

I knocked, but there was no answer. I knocked again, a little louder this time…still no answer. She couldn’t ignore me; she had to start facing me at some point. I opened the door and I saw Rose lying in bed, soft sobs filling the room.

‘Rose please don’t’

‘you are leaving me’

‘I’m leaving all of you’

‘I need you Wills’

‘Saph and Pey will look out for you’ I spoke as I sat down on her bed.

‘they are not you’

‘you are not five anymore Rose’

‘please leave, so this can become bearable’ Rose whispered and she pulled the covers over her head.

‘I’ll miss you cutie’ I ruffled her hair and placed a kiss on top of her head

‘I hate you for leaving. First you and then Calum’ Rose spoke, her words muffled a little from under the covers

‘I know doll. I’ll speak to you soon’ I said, the lump in my throat only growing, fighting back the tears.

I got up from the bed and headed out, it hurt so much to see Rose like this. I knew she needed me, but she had others surrounding to help her through the rough time. I darted into my room quickly and grabbed my stuff. I glanced around the room one more time and headed out. Sapphire gave me a weak smile and Peyton hugged me one last time.

Before the door closed I could hear Peyton cry loudly. Why was I doing this again? Sapphire grabbed my bag of my shoulder and put it on hers. I gave her a thankful smile and we headed into the elevator silently. When we reached ground level, Sapphire halted and handed me my bag.

‘I can’t go any further, I don’t want to end a hysterical crying emotional girl out there’ Saph apologized

‘I understand’ I nodded and swung my bag on my shoulder. We shared one last hug and I walked out of the hotel alone.

No goodbyes from any of the boys, that didn’t mind really, they were busy. Though it stung a little that Luke didn’t even send me a text or came to see me last night. I had given him so much space this week and there he was, back to pushing me out.

I walked up to the only taxi that was in front of the hotel and the driver placed my suitcase in the back. I stepped in and glanced towards the hotel a single time, it had made up for lost time with Luke. It held good and bad memories, but it was okay, I had peace with it.

‘are you alright miss?’ the man asked and I noticed that tears were streaming down my cheeks

‘yes sir, could you please take me to the international airport?’

‘I will miss’ he gave me a gentle smile and drove off.

Notes

Hopefully more tomorrow guys and hope you liked it

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