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Gabriella's POV
I awake to screaming.

"What the actual fuck?" I hear a voice say, Niall's voice.

"It's not what you think." Ashton says.

I turn to my side and stare at them. It wasn't really right to just lay there while they argued.

"Niall what the hell are you yelling at him for?" I groan.

"You two were lying in bed alone." Niall says, looking hurt.

"Ni," I sigh. "I don't know what place I'm in and we aren't dating because of that. I do have feelings for you but I want to be free of a relationship for a while okay?"

"I'm sorry love, I just forgot." He says looking down.

Why did I have to do this? I love Harry. I love Niall. I love Ashton. Where is this going? I want to just know who I am and I have to figure out it out without someone else there.

I may be a whore or slut but I never wanted this. I'm confused on who I love and I'm pretty sure Harry and I would never have lasted. If there isn't trust there isn't anything. I just want my own "forever and always" and for that I need to know myself.

"I need to love myself to love someone else." I say.

"Gabriella and I were just lying down because she didn't want go to sleep alone." Ash says, leaving the room.

How did I end up here?

Notes

Part two (: sorry it sucks IM LATE FOR SCHOOL