Broken Parts
Hanging Out
Rachel’s P.O.V.
I open my eyes, and a smile instantly moves across my face. I find my body twisted with Niall’s, this feeling is like no other. I want to be happy like this forever, but I know this is not realistic. What have I done? I have let myself get too close to him, I don’t think I can let him go now. Everything in me wants to run, I have always been better alone. The second I start to trust someone, they hurt me and I am afraid. I am afraid that if he sees me and all of my scars, he will no longer think I am beautiful.
I look down and his eyes are still closed. He looks so adorable when he sleeps. I lay my head back down on his chest and let his heart beat feel my ears. I know I can trust him, he isn’t like the guys from home. I had been so in love once, but I got my heart broken. So many things went wrong, he mentally and physically abused me. I feel broken just thinking about it, how could I have let somebody continuously do that to me. He controlled me, and then lost interest in me when he saw my best friend. The worst part is not all of my scars are visible. I can’t let anyone see the weak side of me, so I shut everyone out; I have gotten very good at it. Invisibility has become my sense of security in this world.
Niall’s P.O.V
I open my eyes, and Rachel is laying on my chest. I can feel her breathing. Her eyes move slightly, so I know she is awake. “How did you sleep?” I ask her, it takes her a minute to respond. “I slept good.” She looks up at me and smiles, I can tell she has got a lot on her mind. “What are your plans for the day love?” I ask smiling down at her. She looks like a small child. “Well I was thinking I was gonna lay here with you all day.” She smiles flirtatiously at me.
The thought of it drives me crazy. I could spend the day here in bed with her our bodies intertwined, but I have a date to plan and prepare for. “I have a few things to take care of.” I say a little disappointed, I want to take her up on that offer. “Oh okay.” Her voice is simple, I can tell she is a little disappointed to.
I kiss her forehead, and jump out of bed. “Come on, I’ll make you breakfast.” She isn’t hesitant, as she follows me into the kitchen. I began cooking bacon and eggs, the aroma brings everyone out of their rooms. “What’s for breakfast?” I hear Louis yell as he walks down the hall. Everyones eyes widen as they find Rachel sitting on a stool at the counter. “You spent the night?” Liam asks her slightly raising his eyebrow. “Umm yeah.” She answers quietly her face bright red. Harry laughs in response to her reaction. She is so cute when she is embarrassed.
I continue to cook. I cook enough for everyone. I get a plate for Rachel, there is a large amount of food on it; she eats it all. No girl has eaten that amount of food in front of me before, it’s kinda sexy. She looks up from her plate, and notices me staring at her, a small smirk takes over her face. Damn she is sexy. Suddenly I am taken over with the desire to taste her lips. Everyone notices as her plate becomes empty. “Get enough?” Zayn chuckles. She looks up slightly embarrassed, “I love bacon.” A smile emerges across her face, she looks like a five year old; it is so adorable. “We can tell.” Everyone looks amused.
We all finish eating, and I head back toward my room to get ready for the day. “Aren’t you forgetting something?” Louis asks sarcastically. I turn around and Rachel is looking like a lost puppy dog. I smile “She is spending the day here. I want her to get to know you guys.” Rachel looks a bit horrified. “Relax I won’t be gone long.” I quickly smile then walk toward Rachel and kiss her lips.
Rachel’s P.O.V.
Everyone is staring at me awkwardly. I have never been a conversation starter, I can keep a conversation going but never am the one to start it. I mean everyone who knows me knows I am not shy or quiet. I have to be really comfortable, then you’ll never get me to shut up. But I mean how can I be calm and comfortable I am in a hotel suite with one direction. All of this feels so unreal to me. I am not the kind of girl that things like this happen to. I am only average, I am not extraordinary in any way. All of this is overwhelming, I have always been the girl in the background. Nobody has ever really wanted me, they only pretend to till they get my friends attention. How can I believe this is real, I mean why would Niall Horan be interested in me? He can have almost any girl he wants. I don’t understand why he would even give me a second thought. A voice interrupts my thoughts.
“So were just gonna hang out here.” Louis looks at me. “Lets Watch a movie?” I question, not really sure what else to say. At least if we watch a movie I won’t have to talk much. “You guys pick one, I am gonna call my mom.” I walk down the hall to place the call, and Niall walks out of the room. “Everything okay love.?” He questions. “Yeah, I am just gonna check in with my family.” Before I get the chance, he pulls me into his room and pushes me against the wall. His lips meet mine and his hand supports me as I arch into his body. I can feel his smirk on my lips. He bites my lip teasingly then lets be gently back onto the ground. “I’ll be back soon.” He kisses my lips only gently this time, and walks out.
I place the call to my mom. When she answers I let her know I am going to be staying, she sounds a little disappointed and I hate that. I want to cry, because I know I should be spending time with my family. She assures me it is fine. “Have fun, but not too much fun.” She laughs. My mom thinks just because I am an adult now, that I should be comfortable talking about sex. I most defiantly am not comfortable talking about it, she knows it to. Sometimes I think she does it on purpose just to get a reaction out of me. I tell her I love her, and we hang up.
There is a knock on Niall’s door. “Everything okay?” It’s Liam. “Yeah.” I say simply as I open the door. He looks at me as if he is untrusting of me. “Before we join the others can I talk to you?” He asks in a soft voice. I nod. “You two seem to be getting close rather quickly.” He says with a hint of concern behind his voice. I don’t really know what to say. “Promise me one thing.” He looks at me. “What’s that?” I ask. “Promise me you won’t break his heart.” He stares into my eyes, I can feel his eyes like daggers cutting threw me. “I have no intention of doing that.” I try to reassure him. I am not sure if he believes me, but he walks out and leads the way back to the main room.
When we walk in I see the boys have picked Iron man. I smile as I see the childlike excitement on their faces, it warms my heart. I find myself a seat on the couch between Harry and Zayn. I shimmy myself in-between them, they look at me amused. I smile and they start the movie. Before the movie ends I feel myself being more comfortable around them. The more I think about it the more it reminds me of how it used to be at home. I enjoy being able to just hang out, it’s been a while since I have done that. I think that I could get used to being around these guys.
The movie ends and we are sitting in silence once again. The guys suggest that we play truth or dare. I feel my stomach turning. I have never liked that game, it always gets me into trouble. I always pick truth, I am always afraid of dare. I guess I am just afraid to be a little adventurous. We start the game, “Rachel why don’t you go first?” Liam asks me. I reluctantly agree. “Truth or dare?” Of course I pick truth. “How many guys have you been in a relationship with?” Immediately I feel my face getting hot, and my eyes begin to get cloudy. “One.” I answer truthfully. “That can’t be it.” He demands. I feel like I am being interrogated. The tears start to fall as I think about my past. I have worked so hard to forget about it suddenly I want to be invisible again.
“That’s enough.” Louis says. He looks serious, he has been so goofy; it takes me by surprise. He looks at me sympathetically and puts his arms around me trying to comfort me. Seeing this side of him made me trust him more. I knew he was silly but this soft and gentle side made me feel that I could confide in him. Somehow I don’t think that any of this was making Liam trust me anymore. I understood that he wanted to protect Niall, but I have no intentions on hurting him. I feel myself getting attached to all of them. I want a mutual friendship between them all. I just have to prove to Liam that I am not going to hurt Niall.
The door opens and Niall walks in with a pink bag. “Did you guys bond?” He laughs. “We sure did.” Louis playfully winks at me and laughs. “She is mine now.” Niall says as he walks toward me and passionately kisses my lips as if he is marking his territory. He hands me the pink bag. “Go get ready, I have a surprise for you.” I walk to his room and undress. I quickly take a shower I can’t wait. My first real date with Niall.
I open my eyes, and a smile instantly moves across my face. I find my body twisted with Niall’s, this feeling is like no other. I want to be happy like this forever, but I know this is not realistic. What have I done? I have let myself get too close to him, I don’t think I can let him go now. Everything in me wants to run, I have always been better alone. The second I start to trust someone, they hurt me and I am afraid. I am afraid that if he sees me and all of my scars, he will no longer think I am beautiful.
I look down and his eyes are still closed. He looks so adorable when he sleeps. I lay my head back down on his chest and let his heart beat feel my ears. I know I can trust him, he isn’t like the guys from home. I had been so in love once, but I got my heart broken. So many things went wrong, he mentally and physically abused me. I feel broken just thinking about it, how could I have let somebody continuously do that to me. He controlled me, and then lost interest in me when he saw my best friend. The worst part is not all of my scars are visible. I can’t let anyone see the weak side of me, so I shut everyone out; I have gotten very good at it. Invisibility has become my sense of security in this world.
Niall’s P.O.V
I open my eyes, and Rachel is laying on my chest. I can feel her breathing. Her eyes move slightly, so I know she is awake. “How did you sleep?” I ask her, it takes her a minute to respond. “I slept good.” She looks up at me and smiles, I can tell she has got a lot on her mind. “What are your plans for the day love?” I ask smiling down at her. She looks like a small child. “Well I was thinking I was gonna lay here with you all day.” She smiles flirtatiously at me.
The thought of it drives me crazy. I could spend the day here in bed with her our bodies intertwined, but I have a date to plan and prepare for. “I have a few things to take care of.” I say a little disappointed, I want to take her up on that offer. “Oh okay.” Her voice is simple, I can tell she is a little disappointed to.
I kiss her forehead, and jump out of bed. “Come on, I’ll make you breakfast.” She isn’t hesitant, as she follows me into the kitchen. I began cooking bacon and eggs, the aroma brings everyone out of their rooms. “What’s for breakfast?” I hear Louis yell as he walks down the hall. Everyones eyes widen as they find Rachel sitting on a stool at the counter. “You spent the night?” Liam asks her slightly raising his eyebrow. “Umm yeah.” She answers quietly her face bright red. Harry laughs in response to her reaction. She is so cute when she is embarrassed.
I continue to cook. I cook enough for everyone. I get a plate for Rachel, there is a large amount of food on it; she eats it all. No girl has eaten that amount of food in front of me before, it’s kinda sexy. She looks up from her plate, and notices me staring at her, a small smirk takes over her face. Damn she is sexy. Suddenly I am taken over with the desire to taste her lips. Everyone notices as her plate becomes empty. “Get enough?” Zayn chuckles. She looks up slightly embarrassed, “I love bacon.” A smile emerges across her face, she looks like a five year old; it is so adorable. “We can tell.” Everyone looks amused.
We all finish eating, and I head back toward my room to get ready for the day. “Aren’t you forgetting something?” Louis asks sarcastically. I turn around and Rachel is looking like a lost puppy dog. I smile “She is spending the day here. I want her to get to know you guys.” Rachel looks a bit horrified. “Relax I won’t be gone long.” I quickly smile then walk toward Rachel and kiss her lips.
Rachel’s P.O.V.
Everyone is staring at me awkwardly. I have never been a conversation starter, I can keep a conversation going but never am the one to start it. I mean everyone who knows me knows I am not shy or quiet. I have to be really comfortable, then you’ll never get me to shut up. But I mean how can I be calm and comfortable I am in a hotel suite with one direction. All of this feels so unreal to me. I am not the kind of girl that things like this happen to. I am only average, I am not extraordinary in any way. All of this is overwhelming, I have always been the girl in the background. Nobody has ever really wanted me, they only pretend to till they get my friends attention. How can I believe this is real, I mean why would Niall Horan be interested in me? He can have almost any girl he wants. I don’t understand why he would even give me a second thought. A voice interrupts my thoughts.
“So were just gonna hang out here.” Louis looks at me. “Lets Watch a movie?” I question, not really sure what else to say. At least if we watch a movie I won’t have to talk much. “You guys pick one, I am gonna call my mom.” I walk down the hall to place the call, and Niall walks out of the room. “Everything okay love.?” He questions. “Yeah, I am just gonna check in with my family.” Before I get the chance, he pulls me into his room and pushes me against the wall. His lips meet mine and his hand supports me as I arch into his body. I can feel his smirk on my lips. He bites my lip teasingly then lets be gently back onto the ground. “I’ll be back soon.” He kisses my lips only gently this time, and walks out.
I place the call to my mom. When she answers I let her know I am going to be staying, she sounds a little disappointed and I hate that. I want to cry, because I know I should be spending time with my family. She assures me it is fine. “Have fun, but not too much fun.” She laughs. My mom thinks just because I am an adult now, that I should be comfortable talking about sex. I most defiantly am not comfortable talking about it, she knows it to. Sometimes I think she does it on purpose just to get a reaction out of me. I tell her I love her, and we hang up.
There is a knock on Niall’s door. “Everything okay?” It’s Liam. “Yeah.” I say simply as I open the door. He looks at me as if he is untrusting of me. “Before we join the others can I talk to you?” He asks in a soft voice. I nod. “You two seem to be getting close rather quickly.” He says with a hint of concern behind his voice. I don’t really know what to say. “Promise me one thing.” He looks at me. “What’s that?” I ask. “Promise me you won’t break his heart.” He stares into my eyes, I can feel his eyes like daggers cutting threw me. “I have no intention of doing that.” I try to reassure him. I am not sure if he believes me, but he walks out and leads the way back to the main room.
When we walk in I see the boys have picked Iron man. I smile as I see the childlike excitement on their faces, it warms my heart. I find myself a seat on the couch between Harry and Zayn. I shimmy myself in-between them, they look at me amused. I smile and they start the movie. Before the movie ends I feel myself being more comfortable around them. The more I think about it the more it reminds me of how it used to be at home. I enjoy being able to just hang out, it’s been a while since I have done that. I think that I could get used to being around these guys.
The movie ends and we are sitting in silence once again. The guys suggest that we play truth or dare. I feel my stomach turning. I have never liked that game, it always gets me into trouble. I always pick truth, I am always afraid of dare. I guess I am just afraid to be a little adventurous. We start the game, “Rachel why don’t you go first?” Liam asks me. I reluctantly agree. “Truth or dare?” Of course I pick truth. “How many guys have you been in a relationship with?” Immediately I feel my face getting hot, and my eyes begin to get cloudy. “One.” I answer truthfully. “That can’t be it.” He demands. I feel like I am being interrogated. The tears start to fall as I think about my past. I have worked so hard to forget about it suddenly I want to be invisible again.
“That’s enough.” Louis says. He looks serious, he has been so goofy; it takes me by surprise. He looks at me sympathetically and puts his arms around me trying to comfort me. Seeing this side of him made me trust him more. I knew he was silly but this soft and gentle side made me feel that I could confide in him. Somehow I don’t think that any of this was making Liam trust me anymore. I understood that he wanted to protect Niall, but I have no intentions on hurting him. I feel myself getting attached to all of them. I want a mutual friendship between them all. I just have to prove to Liam that I am not going to hurt Niall.
The door opens and Niall walks in with a pink bag. “Did you guys bond?” He laughs. “We sure did.” Louis playfully winks at me and laughs. “She is mine now.” Niall says as he walks toward me and passionately kisses my lips as if he is marking his territory. He hands me the pink bag. “Go get ready, I have a surprise for you.” I walk to his room and undress. I quickly take a shower I can’t wait. My first real date with Niall.
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10/23/15