I walk back into our hotel room, everyones eyes on me. I can tell they are angry, but I try to push past them. They all glare at me continuously and I want it to stop. I am in a good place at the moment and I don’t want to let anyone kill my mood, I refuse. I am not okay with all this hostility, so I decide to speak on my own behalf. “I am sorry.” I say plainly, even though I am not really sorry for staying the night with Niall. I do not regret anything I have done, but I should have let them know. Nobody responds to me, but my brother laughs in amusement at the situation.

Since no one will respond, I continue the conversation by myself. “I am going to another concert tonight.” Their eyes widen. “Why?” Ronnie asked “You already went last night, you don’t need to go to another one.” He says with annoyance in his voice. I ignore his statement. I don’t want to deal with him at all. I can see the disappointment in my mom’s eyes, and I want to cry. I hate to disappoint people, if she knew all my secrets I am sure she would want nothing to do with me. So many things come floating in my mind and I can’t handle it. I want to be buried in Niall’s chest.

I go to get in the shower, but my mom stops me. “Were you safe?” she asks me and my face drains of all color. I don’t need to have this conversation. “Nothing happened.” I speak loudly. “Yeah right.” I can hear Ronnie talking behind us. Everything in me wants me wants to scream, in the back of my mind I can hear the rumors going around. Great something else for me to deal with when I have to go home. Finally my mom laughs, “I am still mad you didn’t let me know you were staying out, I was worried.” I apologize. “What you do is your own business you are an adult.” Relief moves through my body. “You have fun tonight, one of us should be having fun while were here.” She said sarcastically. I smiled lightly then went on my way to get ready.

5 Hours Later

I presented my pass, and walked backstage. I watched as the boys rehearsed, their songs. A smile fell upon my face when Niall looked up at me. The sparkle in his beautiful blue eyes, is breath taking. I could melt into a puddle. He notices me looking at him and he smirks largely, I could almost die. He walks toward me and embraces me in his arms, and kisses my forehead, my insides liquify and I am putty in his hands. He laughs in amusement at my reaction. “You look beautiful.” he smiles lightly at me. “Well thank you, you’re not so bad yourself.” Playfully I wink at him. He smirks and presses his lips against mine. We get interrupted as Liam walks toward us. “It’s time to go on.” Excitedly I watch them perform in the background. I can’t believe I have been to two one direction concerts, it feels unreal.
Niall’s P.O.V.
The energy from the crowd is overpowering tonight. I can feel the adrenaline course threw my body, it is amazing. I look back and see Rachel contently watching us perform, she looks so beautiful. I really want to make her mine, but is it too soon? I don’t really know, all I know is since the second that I saw her she has been on my mind. She won’t leave my mind, and when I am not with her I feel like there is a piece of me that is missing. It’s so strange, I have been attracted to other girls before; but I have never felt this way before. It feels good, but it scares me all at the same time.
I am singing, but my head is nowhere in it. I want so badly to embrace her in my arms, and feel her soft lips against mine. I don’t know if I will be able to let her go again. If I could make her permanently mine, I would never have to let her go. I have to find out what she feels behind her resistant eyes. I know she wants me just as much as I want her, I can feel it and I can see it. The way her body reacts to my touch, and when I kiss her I can feel her melt into me. But her eyes, they are resistant, and I have to know why.
1 Hour Later

The show has ended and everyone evacuates the room, it is empty and I am left with only my thoughts. Suddenly I feel arms around my waist. I turn and their she is looking down at me. I smile largely as I quickly stand up and crash my body into hers. Suddenly we are on the floor and I am on top of her once again, recreating our first awkward encounter. Her cheeks turn red and she has a beautiful awkward smile on her face. I look into her eyes asking for her permission to continue, her big brown eyes look at me kindly. I pick her up and carry her back to our suite. I quietly sneek past the other lads rooms, and set her down gently on my bed.

Rachel’s P.O.V.
I want this so badly, but my mind just won’t let it happen. I am laying here in Niall’s bed, and I won't allow anything to go farther, this is so frustrating. He looks down at me his eyes tell me he wants more, and I want it to. His lips crash into mine, as he pulls his shirt over his head. I go weak. His hands run along my body, if I don’t stop him now I might not be able to. Before I can say anything, he stops.
“What’s wrong?” He asks me slightly confused. “I am scared.” I am honest with him. “Why?” He looks hurt. “It’s not you, I am just not ready for this.” He looks into my eyes and tries to be understanding. Tears run down my face. What the fuck is wrong with me? I am in bed with the most beautiful man, and I manage to ruin the moment. “Don’t cry.” He wraps me up into his arms and I nuzzle my face into his neck. He kisses my temple, and more tears stream down my face. “I am sorry, I really want this, but I am scared.” I don't know what else to say. He looks at me puzzled. “What are you scared of?” “I am afraid that once this happens it will be over, I am afraid that that if you get to know the real me you won’t really like me.” He looks at me his eyes look sad. “That will never happen.” He says trying to reassure me.

“Let me take you on a real date?” He asks me, and quickly I agree. I want this so badly. I want him so badly. He smiles at me and gently kisses my lips, pulling me into his chest he holds me tightly. He pulls the blanket over us, and I rest my head on his chest. I can hear his heart beat, it is the most beautiful thing I have heard. I have fallen for him completely.

Niall's P.O.V.

How could she think I would leave her after this? She just doesn't understand that I am not going anywhere. I want get to know her. I want to be with her, I don't care what baggage she carries with her. Anything that she has done is in the past and I want to be in her future.

I look down she is asleep on my chest, I have never seen anything more beautiful. Her eyes are still a little puffy from her tears. I kiss her cheek and clothes my eyes. I have to plan a perfect date.

Notes

Sorry it took me so long to update, been busy with family stuff. Anyway hope you like the update. It is kinda just a filler chapter things should get a little more intense between them soon.<3