Broken Parts

Rachel’s P.O.V.

I am awakened as the sunlight peaks through my closed eyelids. I open my eyes to see a sleeping Niall. I smile at the thought of being with him. Everything feels so unreal to me, I can’t believe that I am laying here next to him.

I briefly close my eyes, and a feel his hand run across my cheek, as he pushes a piece of my hair back gently. I open my eyes and look up at him. A smile grows on his soft lips. “Good morning beautiful.” He states in a husky tone. I can’t help but blush. Without another word he presses his lips onto mine.

Louis’s P.O.V.

I open my eyes, it is morning already. I did’t get much sleep last night, my thoughts wondered keeping me wake. Even if I am tired I decide to get myself out of bed. I walk to the bathroom undressing as I step into the shower. The water wakes me completely from my groggy state.

I can’t get her out of my mind. I don’t know what time they got back from their date, I never heard them come in. All the thoughts of Rachel and Niall being together flood back into my brain. I stand motionless as the water rolls down my unclothed body.

Niall’s P.O.V.

I pull Rachel into my chest, I don’t want to get out of bed, the second I do I know that this moment will have ended. I never wanted it to end, even if it is inevitable at some point; just not now. I look down and see her eyes closed as she is snuggled against my chest, her lips forming the perfect smile. I can’t believe we are laying here together.

Everything happened so quickly. We have not known each other for long, but the moment I saw her I knew I had to keep her. I mean not only was she beautiful, but she did not react in the typical way that any other girl has reacted upon meeting one of us. I close my eyes and the memory of the first day I laid my eyes on her replays in my mind.

I am taken out of my thoughts as her cell phone rings. She moves slightly but when I reach for it she tells me to ignore it. “It is Zander” I inform her with a hint of annoyance in my voice. She looks up at me her eyes wide. “Ignore the call, I have no interest in speaking to him” She states flatly as she closes her eyes and pulls herself back onto my chest. I am confused and angry as I look down and find a tear rolling down her cheek. I wipe it away gently hoping to relax the jealousy inside of me. She looks up at me with a slight smile, I kiss her forehead letting her know it was okay. She had a past before me and I was not going to judge her by it. It was as all still a mystery to me, but I can see behind her eyes that she was hurting herself more than anyone else could ever hurt her. I didn’t want to add to that pain.

Rachel’s P.O.V.

Why was he calling me the thought rang in my mind until a tear forced its way down my cheek. Niall wiped it away, but when I looked at him I could see the confusion written on his face; only making it harder for me. I knew better, I don’t know why I thought I could ever be happy. What made this worse for me, is the fact that all of this would inevitably hurt Niall; something I never wanted to do. I guess Liam was right about me.

After everything, why would I ever think I could be happy much less make someone else happy, especially someone like Niall. Suddenly I feel anger, and I am unable to fight the tears that fall down my cheeks. I open my eyes and see Niall looking at me. My eyes are blurry but I see the confusion in his eyes and it only makes my emotions worse.

Once again my phone rings, this time I pick it up seeing Zander’s name flash across it only angers me even more, but I answer anyway. “What do you want?” The annoyance in my voice very evident. “Down girl.” He mocks me as he laughs in amusement. I can almost see the smirk on his face through the phone. “What do you want?” Once again I speak more demanding this time. “I just wanted to talk” He states, but I knew exactly why had called me.

“What could you possibly want to talk about?” I mused his statement despite my annoyance. “I heard you got yourself a boyfriend?” he stated in a questioning tone. I just laughed coldly. “I don’t believe that is any of your business.” I could hear his voice change, as his voice slowly cracked. “You know I want you right?” He questioned me, unsure of how I would respond. “You know I don’t care.” I mocked him coldly, a smirk very evident on my face.

It was a while before he spoke. “Rachel I am serious, I forbid you to be with anyone else.” He demanded, in a tone I was all to familiar with; I no longer cared though. “You do not own me.” I spat at him, in the harshest tone I could manage. “Tell Ronnie to mind his own fucking business.” Still no sound on the other end, my finger started searching to end the call. “You’re nothing but a whore.” Everything in me wanted to scream and punch a wall, instead tears streamed down my face. “Fuck you.” I spat and on that note I quickly hung up the phone.

A few minutes passed me and Niall sat in silent awkwardness, only to have it be broken by the vibration of my phone. Three messages appearing on my phone Ronnie, Nate, and Zander’s name once again flashing on my phone this time in the form of a text messages. I did not open them, instead without a thought in my mind I launched it against the wall only to watch it shatter into pieces unto the floor. Embarrassment, anger, and frustration all evident on my face. The tears streamed down, as I was unable to control the never ending flow draining out of my eyes.

Niall looked at me as confused as ever, but he was too kind to ask about it. “You okay?” his voice softly spoke as he attempted to rub my back trying to comfort me. My face never left the safety of my hands. I refused to look at Niall I couldn’t handle the look of confused disappointment. To my surprise I felt his warm lips pressed against the base of my neck, as if trying to let me know it was okay.

“Why are you being nice?” I muffled into my hands not sure if he heard me at all. Finally deciding to be brave I lifted my face out of the comfort of my hands. His eyes met me half way, as he slowly reached his arm around me, pulling me into the heat of his chest; his heart beating rather quickly. My fingers slowly traced over his shirtless chest. Before I realized he had entangled his fingers between mine. I looked up and his soft lips gently met mine, there was no other place I wanted to be.

Niall’s P.O.V.

Rachel rested her head on my chest, I held her fingers between mine; her breathing finally normal. Despite my better judgment I spoke. “I don’t understand.” I regretted it the second the words fell out of my mouth. She maneuvered above me, as I lay passively between her legs. The expression on her face remained calm, which made me a little nervous. I was honestly expecting her to freak out, but she did no such thing. She looked me up and down running her hands along my sides before she responded.

“I am sorry.” Her eyes dropped and focused themselves on the spot her hands rested at the waist band of my shorts. I could see the sadness behind them, no matter how hard she tried to hide it. “I am not good for you.” She whispered, but it felt as though she had yelled it me. “Why?” I asked her, trying to make her look at me, but she absolutely refused. This girl is so stubborn, but I absolutely would not let her give up. “I don’t care about who ever Zander is.” I spoke in an assertive tone, even if I was afraid to bring up the subject.

Her eyes now quickly moved up from her hands, and met mine. “I don’t know what to do.” The words look as if they pained her. “Explain.” I demanded this time. “They won’t leave me alone.” Tears falling down her cheeks as she spoke. “I don’t want to hurt you” Silence between us as she took the time to collect her thoughts. “I want nothing more than to be with you.” Her eyes once agin focused on her hands, with my thumb I wiped away the falling tears. “This won’t work.” Her eyes flowing more than they had been. “I am gonna go home and everything is going to go back to the way it has been.” She paused. “I can’t escape.” Before I could respond her presence above me was torn away, as she ran toward the door picking up the broken glass. Her hand reached to turn the knob, but I gripped her dangling wrist in my hand. With force I pulled her into my chest, my arms wrapped tightly around her. “I am not letting you go.” I whispered in her ear. “Stay with me.”

“Niall.” She sighed. “I don’t want to hurt you.” Her sad brown eyes looking into mine. “The only thing that could break me is if you leave.” I truly felt that if I let her go, I would always regret it. “We can deal with all of this later, when we have to. You are mine.” I kissed the tip of her nose. Her smile shone bright through her sad red eyes and tear stained cheeks. “I don’t deserve you.” She whispered into my neck, my heart broke a little with her words. Someone made her feel as if she was not worth anything, maybe more than one somebody. It absolutely broke my heart to know she felt as if she was not good enough. Despite everything, all I wanted to do was let her know she now meant everything to me. She is mine and undoubtably I am hers.

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