Chapter 1




Hi. My name is Darcy. I'm 16 years old and live in Mullinger Ireland . I'm in my 3rd year of High School . I have hazel eyes, wavy brown hair that falls to mod back, and light skin . Im 5'6 . My life is terrible . But in public, I pretend everything's fine . But really, my inside are being torn apart and i feel useless .




Everything started to go wrong last year. In February, my parents died in a car accident . I felt empty without them . I have an older sister, but she moved at when she was 19 and I haven't heard from her since . I basically have no family in Ireland and I don't want to go through all this trouble trying to find a steady place for me to stay . I felt so alone .



But in April, oh , in April, I met someone who changed my life forever .



I was in 3rd period science and bumped into this guy . His name ? Josh Devine . The moment I laid eyes on him I got butterflies . You know that phrase love at first sight ? Yea, well at that moment, I believed in it . We talked for the rest of the class and he gave me his number . Yes, I have a phone, but the way I pay it falls in in a bit .



A week after meeting Josh, he asked me to be his girlfriend . Of course I accepted, cos how nice would it be to have a boyfriend ? Wow, if I only knew what that would have gotten me into .. Little did I know Josh sold drugs for a 22 year old HighSchool drop out . And, Josh was addicted to Class A drugs . I didn't care at the time, because I thought Josh was a good guy and would never hurt me . Hah, big mistake ..



I stayed with him and he let me live with him because he moved out when he was 17 . About a month into our relationship, he somehow convinced me to try cocaine.. I was scared but gave in . I thought I loved him, and when you love someone, your willing to try new things for them, right ? Well I ended up becoming an addict as well...



Me and Josh had a daily routine .
Wake up, go to school, go to Ricardo's house (the friend he sells drugs for), have a 'sesh' , take a nap, eat, do what we got to do, free time, go to bed, repeat .

It seemed great for a while, until Josh started drinking .



He wouldn't drink for the fun of it, he would drink just to drink . And you didn't want to be around Josh when he drank . He got drunk very easily and would just get angry at the world .


Then he started leaving the house without telling me where was going . He would leave for hours and hours and leave me afraid by myself . But when he did come home, he would still be slightly drunk and abuse me . He would hit me and call me names and leave me with bruises on the floor to cry . Then leave again . I would cry myself to sleep for nights on end .


I knew it was wrong of him, but then he would apologize and tell me he would change . The only reason I forgave him was because I was scared to be alone again ..


Soon Josh got caught with drugs and was arrested . I heard the rumour at school that they were going to investigate his house . Which meant I on,y had a few hours to clear out the things that belonged to me and that I wanted to keep, and a new place to stay . Josh still had his car and keys at the house . So what I packed in the boot was all my clothes , the left over money I found in Josh's dresser, some food, toiletries, a gas card I found, and what I least expected I would bring ..

2 crates of the bloody drugs ..



Yes, I was still addicted . I couldn't help it .. I just - I just got this feeling every time I got the chance to blow .. And I felt like everything was okay . When really I know nothing was .


I was able to find an empty studio . I just had to pay $65 a month and it included power . I was excited . I ended up going back to Josh's house to get some furniture . I got a dresser, the bed (or the mattress), and a microwave. And some more food because I knew I had a fridge in the studio already .


I needed a job but nowhere would hire a 16 year old with no experience . I didn't know what to do so I was forced into prostitution .



Almost every night I would go home with a different guy and fulfill his sexual desires . He would fall asleep and I would steal money from wherever I could find it, and leave . I ended up using all of the drugs . Including the patches . Which is incredible judging by it had only been about 3 months . I would still go to Ricardo's house and get more . I even stayed the night at his house a few times and 'worked' for him too ..


Eventually my land lord found out I was doing drugs and kicked me out . I even tried opening up to her and saying I had no where else to go and I had no choice and telling her some things about WHY I was so addicted .. But she wouldn't give in . Now I'm at the point of my life that I am right now . I was kicked out 2 weeks ago and still have nowhere . I stay in random alleys behind trash cans feeling broken . I never stop crying . I had a small bag filled with the keys to Josh's car (which has no gas anymore) , a few bottles of water that I refill at local parks, a brush, a few shirts, a mirror and mascara. I only had 5 minutes to pack and get out so I just took what I thought I needed .


I still 'work' . And I freshen up for school at the local bus stations and restaurants . I know, pathetic right ? I need friends or something .. I need to just, get away from this mess of my life. But first, I need to try to at least get myself back up. I can't just stay down and give up.. I need to at least try .


Try .


That's what I'm going to do . Starting tomorrow, I'm going to be nicer to people at school . Darcy isn't a quitter , omg how weird am I . Talking in 3rd person . I really am a fun person, once I let people in .. But no, I don't talk to anyone . Shutting people out just seems easier . But lonely ...


Lets just hope all goes well at school tomorrow ..

Notes

Notes

A/N - hey (: this is my first story .. comment & vote please ? tell me what you think ? (: thanks .xx and yes I did get the inspiration from TheA Team by the Ginger Jesus <3

Its also on wattpad & http://www.harrystylesfanfiction.com/Story/6068/Give-Me-Love/1/. I have the same username


- SheerioTommo