Diana(ON HOLD)

Chapter two

Chapter songs: Two voices one song- Melissa Lyons and Cassidy Ladden
Listen with your heart- Disney's Pocohantas
(childish I know. but this is what suits the chapter and who doesn't watch disney even if they are 25? :) )


"Hou Moonlight!" I arrived at my very private place. I inhaled the lovely fresh smell of herbs and orgeanoes. The view always takes my breath away. There are grass covered heels up to where you can see in the horizon and on one side, the blue ocean.

A lovely plain moor, there's a wide river goin straight toward the ocean, connecting it in the delta. Willows and oaks cover the river side, hanging their branches over the clear water which is glowing like a gold magma in the sun's afternoon rays. And here between two willows which hang exactly over water, is my tree. A sweet apple bloom, it gives apples in autumn but now, it has pretty white and orange blooms.

I jump down and tie Moonlight's rein to a branch, climbing up my tree I release my secret swing from higher branches to hang and jump on it. I tie it up every time so no one will realize it.

I take off my summer boots and socks and throw them on the ground beside Moonlight. He snores while pasturing. I hang my bare feet in cool water and a shiver runs down my spine. I start to swing back and forth while my feet touch the soft water.



I pull out my Ipod and plug in my earphones, playing my favorite playlist "My dream time!" and close my eyes and hum to the melody. A song comes up, that makes me wanna cry. A song that makes me wanna scream, remembering all I've been through. I remember the days I used to sing it with her.

I unplug my earphones and throw them on ground as tears build up in my eyes, I remember our moments together, when we used to play this song together with our guitars and sing along together. She always thought her voice was the worst voice ever, but when we sang, we enjoyed it. It meant a lot, like we were truly Barbie and Tressa, like we were going to stay together forever. But, destiny departed us so soon. Who thought 'forever' would be this short? It was a sweet yet bitter time.

I swung back and forth, suddenly an urge of singing OUR song built up in me. I played the blank guitar play we played together without singing and recorded. I played it on my now earphone free Ipod and hummed to it while closing my eyes shut, while swinging back and forth as my toes brushed over heavenly cool water of the river and sang:

It's so rare to find a friend like you
Somehow when you're around
the sky is always blue
the way we talk, the things you say
the way you make it all okay
and how you know, all of my jokes
but you laugh anyway

If I could wish for one thing
I'd take the smile that you bring
Where ever you go in this world, I'd come along
together we dream the same dream
Whenever I'm here for you're here for me
Oh, oah oah two voices one song

Now everyday is something new
And any path we take
I'm looking forward you
The way we try and never quit
The way that all the pieces fit
the way we know the parts by heart and sing out loud

If I could wish for one thing
I'd take the smile that you bring
Where ever you go in this world, I'd come along
together we dream the same dream
Whenever I'm here for you're here for me
Oh, oah oah two voices one song

And anywhere you are you know I'll be around
And when you call my name I listen for the sound

If I could wish for one thing
I'd take the smile that you bring
Where ever you go in this world, I'd come along
together we dream the same dream
Whenever I'm here for you're here for me
Oh, oah oah two voices one song

If I could wish for one thing
I'd take the smile that you bring
With you by my side I can't go wrong
Now I have all that I need
all the sweetness I will ever need
Oah oah two voices one song
Oah oah two voices one song
Oah oah two voices one song

I finished the song, realizing the single tear streaming down my face, the sorrow was way more, I hated her, I hated her for taking our dream time to an end.

I looked up sighing when suddenly I noticed two little swallows playing under branches of whipping willow flying to a branch of apple bloom tree together, singing. I smiled at them for a few moments forgetting about her, pure emotions between those little swallows that could be felt from watching them cleaning all sad thoughts off my mind.

You might have never seen a pair of forest swallows or heard them sing, but believe me that could be the sweetest song you'll ever experience.

Lover swallows sang together for each other, while playing on branches and I found myself singing along with 'em. They were adorable, jumping from one branch to another, dancing playfully yet so lovingly, I always wished a love of this kind if I was going to fall for someone.

The swallows flew away, dancing in a swinging way together, spinning around each other flying forward, toward the ocean side where sun was shining above the big water, but I could still hear them.

l closed my eyes and swung back and forth, smiling to myself this time. Little lovers had lightened my mind by the pure emotion reflecting from them, healing my wounded soul by the affect of the shining strong bound between them.
I felt much better, feeling like I could breathe, like if I was under water for hours and finally came out. Like if many of thousands of my wounds were washed away.

I could finally enjoy the soft heavenly cool water caressing my feet, almost the way I did before. And the most surprising think that I realized later was that, I could daydream ,again!

Yeah, as crazy as it sounds, I was happy to be able to daydream again, and yes, if even crazier, I couldn't daydream after what she did.

I was always the girl that dreamed, the lonely one, but not in a pathetic way. I befriended people, but enjoyed myself and my thoughts more. Well, at least compared to the company of people who lived around me. I met more interesting people in other places.

The biggest ambition here was to have more animals, bigger farm, better harvest or fatter wives! Well, maybe not the last one, but wives with better cooking were, and according to my observations, wives who were better at cooking were the fattest ones, oh if we put it in an equation it gives 'the fatter wife, the better wife' out.

But my father, he always had the biggest farms, best animals, biggest harvest and the most expensive farming machines, but those were never his goals in life.

He read a lot, explored untouched parts of forest, climbed the mountain and spent days there, for thinking. We sometimes went there together, we even went sailing twice, two weeks upon the waves. I guess you could tell I was a daddy girl, though I had no mom to be otherwise. I loved my life here with these kind people but enjoyed my alone time.

As I was swinging back and forth,I drift into dreams slowly, without realizing. I was glad I never brought her here, l insisted a lot but she never came, now, I was happy she never did.

This place was so special for me, my secret place, my very private place. Somewhere I could expect magic happen, somewhere I could hear willow godmother, the old willow standing there talk to me, sing for me. Or a unicorn come out from between silver leaved apple bloom and willow and drink water, or bite an apple on the branch. This place was way too special to ruin with bringing her, or anyone and letting the magic fade away.

No, I would never bring anyone here, only one person was allowed. My one and only prince charming was the one allowed here. He would be here, I knew it. Someday my prince will come, we'll be here together.

He'll walk here, softly, stunned by the magic surrounding him, walking forward, mesmerized, toward the river and then, he sees the petite girl sitting between two giant branches of a whipping willow, it seemed like that the old tree had wrapped her in an embrace. The girl had long long wavy hazel-maroon hair that had fallen over her small shoulders down her back like a waterfall of pure chocolate, following down her bottom to her mid thigh.

A pale milky flawless skin, which had a peachy shade on her chubby chins. Big hazel eyes were the most attractive thing in that angelic face, decorated with two perfect long lush curled black sets of lashes. Those eyes were staring at him, like if they could see through his heart and soul. Her eyes were still but full of life at the same time. They were silent but talking to him at the same time, pouring all her emotions to his soul in a moment.

At the end, to complete this harmony, there was a pair of small full lips like rose bloom, in a light pink color which turned to a darker shade in middle, like the pink color of sky at sunset, slightly apart moving with her soft breathing.

The prince walked toward her, without any hesitation, without any discomfort, he didn't do it intentionally, it was like he was hypnotized but at the same time, it came naturally, as easy as breathing, he knew what to do, he didn't have to think, he did it but had no reason for doing it, but it also felt so right to do.

He reached the tree, standing in front of her. They were now only one step away, gazing at eachother's eyes like if they knew each other for a life time, talking to each other without a word being exchanged. He slowly walked a step forward, closing the space between them to less than twenty centimeters, opening his arms slowly. She watched him for a second, then slid down the tree softly, landing exactly in between his arms. She fit there perfectly, like if those arms were made for her, or she was made for them, like pieces of a puzzle.

He held her closer to his chest, without breaking their eye contact. He slowly began walking toward the certain of willow leaves, carrying her, passing the certain, he slowly noticed the swing hanging above the river. He walked over to the swing sliding over it with her still in his arms.
She softly shifted in his arms making herself more comfortable wrapping her arms around his neck loosely ,now their faces only centimeters apart, while he moved their bodies together on the swing, smiling at her lovingly, like if she was his everything.
She watched him for a while without smiling, then a shy smile appeared on her rosy lips as she laid her head on his shoulder and said in her angelic voice as her soft breath hit his collar bone " You finally came.".


I opened my eyes smiling, realizing that I was still on my swing my head leaning on a side of my swing's rope. I knew it was just a dream but I looked around to see if he was still there. No, it was just a dream. But I really felt like if he was there, sitting with me, on our swing. But no, he will be here in the right time.

I started to swing back and forth harder while standing on my feet on the swing, then jumping on the branch in front of me. I tied the swing up the way I had before,so no one will notice it if they possibly get here. Then I jump down on the herbs beneath the tree.

I walk toward Moonlight caressing his head and neck while he tries to chug down as much clover as he can. I chuckle at his endless hunger and walk around the wood a bit so my wet feet will dry up and I can put on my summer boots. I walk to the edge of the hill and watch the horizon, so beautiful. But I realize the black spot which I saw that morning grow bigger, meaning it'll be here in two or three hours.

My feet were almost dry, I walked over to moonlight and put his rein in his mouth despite his displease of being stopped from baring the whole ground of grass and jumped on him.

I pat his neck friendly and say "let's go boy." Moonlight starts to march down the hill in a zig-zag way circling it until we reach the plain ground and start galloping. I always loved this,the feeling of wild wind tousling my long hair and whipping it on my own back and on moonlight's thighs. It feels like I'm flying.

We were pacing in the moor sun rays making a unique rainbow on moor ocean, it starts with emerald green in the horizon and turns to olive green and finally gold when it reaches where we are. I'm pacing toward the emerald green,my back facing the sun.

The emerald green turns to jade green and when I reach it,it turns to a peaceful meadow.I decrease my speed and turn it to a trot,slowing down until we're only marching in the beautiful meadow.

I love this place as the wood,but this one isn't a secret. I mean people know about here,there is an old path pacing the middle of the meadow but since the new road was built many years ago,this path was almost unused.hardly ever some one passes it cause it's longer than the new one and it's not asphalt covered but it joins the new road in a far distance from here.

There are three farms which connect the main road by this one,two of them are abandoned and there is one that has actual life going on in it.







It belongs to a couple who came to live here from argentina,they used to be explorers,they are originally from here but they had explored the whole southern continents and lived in argentina for years. Mr. & Mrs. Bernards were good friends of me and dad.




Mr. Bernards is a biologist and so literate,he helped me with my biology lessons a lot during school. He was so kind and patient with me in the difficult genetic subjects and respected a lot.

People think he is crazy or something because he spends his time studying the nature around here and pharmaceutical plants and herbs in his lab and tries to extract the formula of the genetics of the gen which causes the herb to make that medical formula,so he could put the same gen in agricultural plants and crops so they would produce the same formula naturally and people could eat them instead of chemical harmful medicine.


People think he's wasting his time with this crazy imagination.most of them thought Mr. Bernards was an idiot for wasting his time with creepy genetical things instead of trying to get a big harvest for a good money. They thought he would be broke if he continued the way he was,but they had no no idea he was being payed for valuable things he was working on every month more than their yearly harvest income.

Poor people; I guess they would faint from envy if they knew he was getting 20 times more than them by doing 'Nothing' and they get this little mount compared to him by spending days and nights sweating in farms.

Mrs. Bernards was a nice,sweet woman, so protective over her husband and his career. She was an educated lady as her husband and helped him with his experiments. She was so young and careless, never a great cook and never a great house wife,but so good at science and also a great person to talk to.she was so understanding and always a good adviser. She was only a few years older than me so she was like an older sister to me.

She listened to me all the time we were together and helped me with everything she could. I, instead helped her with her low cooking skills and cooked for them or thought her a few easy but delicious foods so she won't suffer burning or ruining difficult, crazy food.I love cooking ,so why not help?I actually enjoyed their company a lot. They were so good to be around.

I marched down the old path until I reached their farm. Mr. Bernards was in the farm doing something with tomato bushes. He stood to his full length when he heard moonlights marching.

"Hey Diana! How are you doin' girl? You haven't been around for ages!" "Hey Mr. Bernards! Yeah well,dad needed my help for a few days with Twilight and Hurricane,they were both giving birth to their colts and were so grumpy an moody so it was hard to handle them by himself on their labor."

"Oh congratulations for new babies,heheh! We should pay a visit soon to see how does king's baby look like."he said patting moonlight's neck in a friendly way now that he was standing by the fences where I had stopped.

"Well I gotta say the colt is awesome. A perfect mixture of Moonlight and Twilight, I'm sure he'll be a champion like his dad some day."

"That's for sure. You wanna come in? Analie is making some cupcakes, or at least she's trying to." He said chuckling at his wife's hard try on backing. I laugh along & shake my head at her stubborness. She really is a hard working woman.

"No thanks Mr. Bernards, I was just passing by. I was goin to pay a visit to you soon but I need to stop by Campbells' . I'll come to see you guys soon." I say with a smile to my adult friend. "Okay then,I guess I'll have to cope with Ana's cooking tonight then.well I'll see you then."He sighs and waves as I pass with a smile.

"Bye!say hey to Ana!"

I continue my way galloping down the wide meadow until I reach the cement private road which leads to a few farms including Campbell's.I pass a few farms & exchange some "good evening!" & "Hello!"s as I do so. Well,everyone in this little area is polite. Boring,but polite! Urgh...

I see Campbell's farm in a distance & gallop toward it faster until I'm close enough to slow down to a march and let moonlight's sweat from all running to cool down.

we march slowly past gates and Doki,Jake's shepper dog barks in excitement. He is such a cool dog. He even plays football with us and plays 'Catch me if you can!' with Moonlight! They are great friends.

I jumped down from Moonlights back and bend down to pat Doki's head." Hey Doki! How are you?"Doki barks happily and I chuckle at his Extra excitement. I pull Moonlight toward the peg on the fences which is to tie horses to and has a pail of water for them to drink. I move it a bit further in case Moonlight would drink right after running so much and catch cold.

I dig my hand in my pocket and pull out a few sugar cubs I always have for him. I feed him him a few as a trick and give a few to Doki. Yes! He really eats sugar!

I hear the summer mosquito-net door open and out comes a very excited Jake.

"Di! You're here! You really are here!" He shouts in happiness and I giggle at his reaction. Jake has been my best guy friend since a long time, he was so nice and cheerful and never acted the way other boys did. He never cared about my body and he was a a nice friend to me. He was so fun and carefree to be such a douchebag.

"Yeah well,you're so smart. I am here!"l say with playfulness and smile.

He tackles me in a bear hug and I can't help but hug him back. He's the closest figure to a brother to me.

"I missed you Di,you haven't been around in like,what? Two month?" He was right,I never came here since my break down because of her. Because she lives in the farm beside here and I didn't want to be in any distance closer than a mile to her.

Speaking of devil,like if she was watching from behind the door, Katie came out. She's paler than last time I saw her and she has black puffy bags under her jade green eyes. Her freckles are completely obvious like she doesn't put foundation on her face any more. She looks even shorter,like if she was drowning in more and more. Long story short, she looks Horrible.

I pulled back from the hug and glared up at Jake"why didn't you tell me SHE was here?" I growled through greeted teeth.
"Di,listen,she's been a mess since...ya know...since you guys messed up with each other. Mom pities her so she makes Maddy and Jess to bring her here to help her a bit out of her misery. She's been crying all day long and screams all night in sleep since then. She isn't letting many people around and people are getting distant from her cause they think she is going crazy. Please don't be mad. Maddie almost dragged her out of her room and brought her here so she won't run to her bed when we are not watching her for five minutes!" He said hurriedly while holding my arms so I won't go and hop on moonlight's back and run.

"Well, I'm so sorry you haven't heard but I've been a little bit worse. If she is 'going crazy' I have had almost gone insane for a whole two weeks if you don't remember. And just to let you know I had nerve attacks whole this fucking month. A pity little princess B was crying cause I have been breathing with an oxygen mask for two whole weeks. I was going through the line between life and death while all she did was cry. How fair!" I growled at him with sharp sarcasm.

"Please Di!at least calm down for your own sake! You'll hurt yourself if you keep breathing this uneven. Let's get you inside so you can drink some water. Relax girl!"He tries to calm me down with a worried expression written on his face to see me like this.

I rip my arm out of Jake's grip and march toward the entrance door very cross with him by now. He is MY friend, he should have told me that she is here. I didn't want to see her. It hurts like hell to even look at her. She stood frozen in her spot as I passed without even looking at her but I felt her gaze burning into me.

I walked inside the kitchen grumpily,now that I saw her my mood had changed to bad tempered. But I wasn't going to let her affect me,I can't. I just can't.she has ruined enough of my life,I won't let her do it anymore. I'm not gonna let her ruin my other friendships.

I take a deep breath to calm my nerves and go straight inside."Di!hey! You're here....hey I missed you!"Maddy,Jake's fiancé and my friend says and hugs me tight. I hug her back and smile at her happiness,she really is a great friend.

we pull back and Mrs Campbell Jake and Jess' mom comes and hugs me. She's a cool lady,I love her like an aunt,she always cares a lot for me and acts like a mother to me."Dia dear,we missed you darling. How have you been dear?"she says with a kind smile that leaves little wrinkles by her eyes. She's very kind-hearted and cares about people's feelings a lot.

"I'm fine Mrs Campbell,thank you. How have you been?"I greet her as I look around to take in the familiar view. I see apple juicer and a basket full of green and red apples and a jar on the kitchen counter.

A warm cinnamon and peach smell is in the air telling me there were peach pies baking in the oven. I love this kitchen. It's so homey and cozy. I feel safe and sound here.

"Call me aunt Tatiana honey, how come you became this distant?"Mrs Campbell says in a hurt voice and I regret my unnecessary politeness.

"I'm sorry aunt Tati, I haven't been around a while,I've been a bit out of place by this two month,I'm sorry""It's okay dear,don't disturb yourself. It's okay."she says in a much softer voice with her loving smile.

Maddie pulls me by my hand we walk together toward the kitchen table and sit down.girly chitty chat!urgh no." So how have you been lately? I heard you were busy with twilight and hurricane's labor,congrats for new colts by the way. I'm gonna pay you a visit to see how does baby moonlight looks like,you must be so happy to be the lucky grandma huh?"she rambles and I hit her arm lightly at her lame joke while laughing.

"Yeah I'm happy,then you should be happy to have your child back huh? I saw doki outside, when did they return him?"I said with a hint of humor,she was addicted to Doki so much.

Doki was taken to an animal care hospital cause some thief shoot his leg while trying to barge in and steal one of their valuable horses called Astrit. Yeah as cliché as it sounds, champion horses are still being stolen, so horse keepers need to take care well and put safety locks and guards for them.

Doki was a smart dog and barked enough even after loosing that much blood to get some of neighbors attention,cause campbells weren't home. No need to mention who was the first neighbor that noticed. Yup,it was Katie's dad.sigh.

"He was returned yesterday.they say he is as fine as he was the day he was born Mr. Evens saved his life."fuck,just fuck." Yeah,thanks to him.speakin of devil,how come are you so interested in Katie that you take care of her so much? You were never a 'Katie fan' before,so what comes to happen right after our fight and break apart that makes her so sweet to spend your whole day with her?"I say in a monotone to try and control my anger which is starting to grow again.

"Look Di,she's not sweet or anything. It's just,she really needs help. She's lonely and cries all day. She barely speaks,or eats or even drinks anything. She has lack of sleep cause she has nightmares every night and you know..."

she looks toward the door to see if she is around and lowered her volume to hardly above a whisper and continued "...I think she's going insane,from all lonlieness. She was crying and talking to herself when I saw her in the meadow beneath the oak tree.she was singing some sad song and talking to herself,I think she is goin a bit lunatic. That's why I'm bringing her here since that day. She needs company.I may not be drooling over her personally but I don't hate her either.she used to be quite sweet when you two were friends."

I said nothing.I was a bit taken aback by the part she went to the meadow,beneath the oak tree,where we used to hang out. it was where we went together to daydream out loud and sing together. it made my heart twist a second.

I was a bit shocked and well,sad. Now she seems to sound worse than me. Well yeah,maybe I had the worse reactions at first to our fall apart, but I got myself together almost fast,she seems to get worse by the time pass.
Maddy is right,she might not be the angle one,but I am not a savage either,I have morals.

she at least deserves some help,right? I am not gonna be back to the way we were or anything close to that,but I am not that cruel to force people away from her,that's so unlike me.I sigh in frustration and put my head in my hands.
"Fine Maddy. I got it, just please don't force me be in the same room with her. I can't stand it, it still hurts like a bitch to see her." I groan from between my hands.

I feel a pair of arms wrap around me and Maddy rocks us from side to side. I'm a bit difficult to hug. I mean, people know I don't like to cuddle with everyone. Sure, I'm emotional and touchy feely, but I'm more like the type to cuddle with certain people.But this time,it didn't get to me bad. It was soothing, I actually liked it.

"Di, I know it hurt you so much but now it's been two month. You should try to get over it.if you don't it'll keep hurting. it'll ruin your life. I know you can't forgive her but just try,okay?if you don't it'll hurt worse. It'll burn you from inside. I don't want to see you melt from inside,it breaks my heart. It's not only your own life affected from this,you are a part of our lives,an important part, a part of our family and If you get hurt it hurts us too."

I was completely taken aback by her honest speech.she got all my guards down with those sincere words. I couldn't find anything to say back. I opened my mouth to say something but closed it again when I found nothing to say." Thank you."was all I could whisper.

"I meant it Di. You are like my sister and I won't let anyone hurt my little sis." "Hey! I'm just three month younger than you.you can't call me 'little sis' in that case.we were in the same grade back in school." "Three month or three years you are the younger one." I smacked her arm playfully and we laughed.

"You want some apple juice Diana dear? I know you love apple juice!"aunt Tati asked me and I nodded with a smile." Yeah,thanks auntie Tati."

She handed me my favorite mug full of foamy apple juice and continued her job with the juicer. I sip on my juice and listen to the machine buzz and birds chrip outside.a faint truck's growl is heard from a distance. Maddy is peeling apples and I pick a knife and help her, taking a sip of my juice every now and then.

"Hey mom! Hey Maddy boo! Oh Di!"it was Jessica who walked in with a couple of grocery bags in her hands.she threw them on the kitchen counter and ran to me as I stood to give her a hug.

"Di! I missed my horse riding doodle buddy!where have you been?!"
"Helping dad with new colts that's all. I missed you too trouble maker. Have you made a new disaster lately?" "Oh c'mon. I'm not that much of a disaster! Oh, I almost forgot!"with that she turned around and called out of door:

"Katie! C'mon why are you standing there girl? Come in!"what-the-actual-fuck?!Katie?!she didn't go back to her house?!never in a thousand years I'm gonna stay in the same room with her.

I stood up and glared at Jess"what the fuck?" I say through greeted teeth.
"Look Di,she is here because she is so lonely lately. Please let her be here as well." Jessy said in a pleading tone.

"Oh my dear Jessy,she Can be here,anyway this is your house not mine. She can be here but I'm not gonna be here anymore.bye Jess." I say and stand up to walk away but Maddy grabs my hand and looks at me with pleading eyes." Di?"

I glance away unable to take the unreasonable guilt her gaze gives me.seriously,did I do.something wrong to feel bad?I sigh and take my mug and fill it with apple juice.

"I'm taking this for Jake. I'm outside." I whisper and start to walk to he door." Di,please don't go.stay with us."aunt Tati says and I look down." I'm sorry auntie. I can't stand being near her. It still hurts,as much as I try to forget. It's still so soon. But anyway,I'm not leaving,I'm in the stable if you need me. I just can't tolerate being in the same room with her,I'm sorry." I say and walk out the door.

I came face to face with Katie.She looks at me with tear filled eyes. I guess she heard me,well too bad.stalker.I don't give a damn like I did before. Well,maybe I do,but I was in enough pain myself. I can't take her shit anymore. I look away and walk past her out of the door toward the farm.

I march don toward the back of house where stable and barn buildings are. Moonlight and Doki are playing,running around,chasing each other as much as Moonlight's rein allows. It was an adorable sight but I wasn't in the mood to laugh. it just made me flame more,I can't even keep my friendship as this dog and horse.perfect ,now I'm such a bitch to be jealous of animals.

She is ruining my other friendships as she did to our own.bitch.

I walk inside the stable and walk through the hallway to the end of stable where I know Jake could be,glancing at each horse cell.some are empty and some filled with horses straws with their snouts dipped in their mangers.

Some of them neighed with closed moth and some puffed a sigh when I passed them ,recognizing me. I used to come over and help jake a lot so they know me already.

I reach the last cell and see Jake currying Cloe,a cream colored mare with blond curly mane. Cloe neighs happily seeing me and I tickle her forehead . I hand Jake the mug and grab a curry comb myself and start currying Cloe's neck without a word.





Jake leans on the wooden barrier of the cell and gulps down his juice,watching me. I toss my ribbon tied high ponytail over my shoulder and continue to curry Cloe's velvet like quail. I let out a deep sigh I wasn't aware I was holding and keep combing ,thousands of thoughts running around my head buzzing like annoying bees.

"It hurts like a fucking bitch to be in the same room with her after all that we went through. It reminds me of how we used to be before all these and then how she turned my life to a burning hell. it makes me think of how stupid I was." I murmur more to Cloe than to Jake.

"I know Di. She did what animal won't do with their enemies yet their friends. But look whose the one that got the worse damage at the end?she's practically turning to a maniac.talking to herself,crying almost all day long,having nightmares and screaming all night,laughing suddenly for no reason like a psycho,barely eating or drinking.she's been to hospital twice since then,from lack of sleep and food and dehydration or whatever that shit is.she hurt herself more,that's what she gets for not having an independent mind of her own and letting the bitches she called 'friends' fool her.and where are those supposed to be friends now?making gossips about her being cursed and going lunatic."

So Cherry and Paliss are making gossips for her now? hmmm ,interesting ,I didn't know. They were the reason of our frienship's fall apart mainly as I've heard from some friends they were filling Katie's mind with bullshit about me for so long,and Katie being Katie believed every lie they threw at her like the fucking stupid believer she is.

"Well it doesn't make what she did any better Jake. it doesn't make it hurt any less.she betrayed me by listening to lies about me though SHE was the one who knew the truth about me. it hurts even worse to know that MY best friend listened to anyone but ME."I told Jake running the comb on Clo's skin with pressure making her let out a weird scream and kicking the pail behind her,knocking it down.

"Sorry Cloe." I whispered and caressed where I pressed the comb hard.she let out an displeased snort but went back to chewing her food.

"I know Di,you know that I'm the only one who understands since Sophia's ummmm....incident.I know what betrayal feels like..."I didn't say anything in respond. Sophia was Jake's first love,before Maddy. He was deeply in love with her and she seemed to be in love with him but at the end we realized it was for Jake's wealth and his good looks.she left Jake for a douche bag who came from city.

She slept with him and ran away with her freak of a city boyfriend.she left Jake a note,yeah!a fucking note,saying she didn't love him and she slept with her lover and ran away to make a 'better life'. Like if being a personal whore is called a 'BETTER LIFE'!huh.

Jake fell apart,he was something beyond nothing,he became blank and only talked to me and Jess and even his talk to us was bare minimum.if we weren't there with him every second I guess he would've killed himself. I dragged him out of his room and took him for rides or fishing with me. I even took him to the gym in my house so he could punch the punching bag and let his anger out.poor bag got so damaged ,Jake was attacking it with all he could not only punches.

Then Maddy came to town and,tada!she started to find the key to Jake's heart and healed his wounds and scars,finally Jake was in love but also beloved.they are in love and they got engaged last year in christmas,in our senior year,Maddy is his weak spot now.

"Yeah I remember Jake. I guess you do know." I murmur. "You know how did I forget Sophia?how did Maddy make me forget?" I shook my head no."she thought me if I don't forgive I can't get the pain away from myself. I can't live and fall in love with someone who will love me back.so I forgave Sophia. it took long,days and nights struggling in pain,but I did it. I might not be able to run and hug her if I see her someday,but I can smile and shake her hand and show my Maddy proudly and say 'WE are in love' that's because I learned to forgive." I listened to him thoughtfully.

He was always honest and this was what Maddy told me as well. it made sense,as much as it hurt,if I could try and forgive katie I wouldn't let anger and the feeling of betrayal eat me alive. it would be forgotten.

Jake patted my shoulder and walked past me,to Sesame's cell across from Cloe's and put saddle and rain on him and pulled him out of his room and walked out with sesame following his steps,probably going for the evening check of their farm.

I continued to curry Cloe and hummed for Cloe when a noise from outside caught my attention. The mosquito-net door opened and closed once followed by the sound of feet tapping on the ground and then the net opened again followed by shouts.
"Katie!Katie!where did you go?" "Katie!" "Katie!where are you?!"
"I'm going to check the meadow,you go see if she went to her house,Jess.mom, check the barn.Jake went to the farm so he'll find her if she went there." Maddy's voice rang and rushed foot steps were followed,but the closest one was the pair that entered the stable in a rush and entered the cell beside Cloe's.

I froze, I heard sniffing and shuffling.the wooden boards which were the barrier between the cells cracked and I knew Katie was leaning on them.I continued to curry Cloe until I heard loud sobs and then a sigh.after a while there was no noise,not even the sound of Katie's breathing .

I put the comb in my hand aside and stood there,trying to decide what to do.After struggling for a few minutes with myself,I decide I'll walk straight out of the stable without looking at her. I fix my gaze on the ground and drag my feet out of the cell,walking toward the door when I see a dark liquid dripping off the straws at the empty cell's doorway,a little puddle made where it was dripping. Blood. I look up instantly and enter the cell.

There she is,leaning on the wooden wall with her head bent to a side and in an abnormal form.blood running from her wrist,making a narrow rill which continued to the outside.a knife ,farriery knife to be exact (a knife you cut horse' hoof to put horseshoe on it) in her other hand.

"No,you didn't..."is all that comes out of my mouth. I didn't sound like myself at all.my voice was hoarse with rage and fear.Katie moved her head with struggle and looked at me through half opened eyes."Di...Dia..." " how dare you? "I growled like an animal and marched toward her. I grabbed the knife harshly from her grip and shoot it toward the other wall across from us. It hit the wall and digged in it,staying like that. I grabbed her wrist harshly and unwrapped her scarf from around her neck and bandaged her wrist with it without a word,tying it harshly at the end.

"I thought you were credulous and self-conscious.I knew you were a coward.but I had no idea you would be this cheap,this unworthy to cut to distract yourself from the internal pain instead of facing it and accepting it responsibly. I didn't know you were this weak... " I spat at her.Katie's eyes welled up and tears started to stream down her pail freckly cheeks.

"Dia...I-I ...I'm sorry.I-I did it cause I hurt you and....it hurt. I-I couldn't take the pain." "So what?you cut?and don't lie that it was for me you coward.if you gave a flying shit about me, you wouldn't haven't done what you've done. no, stop with the bullshit cause I don't wanna hear.get up."I spat and pulled her small frame up harshly,she stumbled but I don't care.I just pull her along with me,wanting to get rid of this living misery who turned my life to living hell,unable to tolerate being this close to her.

"Aunt Tatianaaah!" I shout as I walk toward the front yard pulling Katie with me. Jess and aunt Tati run toward me from different directions. I let go of Katie's hand harshly making her stumble.

"Here,take care of this psycho,she cut her wrist with farriery knife , goddamn it. Did you even think for a minute to use a hygener stuff ?you know where does hoofs touch you idiot?" I yell at Katie and she sobs falling to her knees.

"She cut her wrist and lost almost a glass of blood,I wrapped her wrist but it needs stitches and she also needs her wrist to be disinfected and maybe tetanus vaccination and a check up.who knows what viruses and bacterias that knife this idiot used might have." I tell aunt Tati and she nods.Jess is kneeling down beside her with an arm wrapped around her.she glares at me.

"You could be a bit kinder,you know Di.she used to be your best friend for god's sake." "I really am sorry for myself for being best friends with this coward who cuts to run from pain instead of facing what she cooked up herself. I see no reason to be kind with this maniac!" I yell back disgusted,anger pumping through my veins instead of blood,burning my whole body. Jess stands up with her hands in fists,facing me.her facial features turning hard and devil.

"Whatever she did doesn't give you the right to get your anger out on her with your poisonous tongue. I wouldn't blame her for what she did if you behaved like this before as well." I froze with Jessica's words,shattering to pieces again.this nightmare wouldn't end,would it?I guess I'm born to be smashed by my supposed to be friends.somethings just won't change.my bottom lip quivers but I bite it hard,I'm sure it's gonna bleed with the force I put on it but I can't cry,not again.

"Thank you Katelin.thank you for ruining my other friendships as well by making me to seem like a monster even when I just saved your worthless life. be greatful,you succeed in getting my last friends away.and you Jessica,that's it.thanks for showing your loyalty. I appreciate that.Thank you so much for getting to know me perfectly in all these years.enjoy your new pathetic friends company,I hope she's better than me for your loyal arse."

I turn around and walk toward moonlight." Di,I...I didn't mean it in that way."Jessica's apologetic voice comes from behind me,but it's too late. I've already gotten smashed once again and my pieces are not sticking together once more." It doesn't matter.you showed your true identity Jessica." "Dia...Dia..I'm sorry..."katie sobbed harder trying to stand up on her feet but falling back down.how pathetic.

I untied moonlight's rein and pulled him toward the gates without an other word,desperate to get away from them.
"Diana dear,Jessica was wrong to say does words.don't go hon,there's a storm coming."aunt Tati said but I shook my head and jumped on moonlight's back.

"So you are a coward too.you are running away instead of staying."Jessica said with rage evident in her voice. "Call me a coward,suit yourself.but I'm not running away,I'm leaving.there's a big difference between these two that you can't understand."I respond bitterly and usher moonlight to roar away.all I could hear in winds whooshing across my ear was their faint calls.

I roared away,up the first hill and down it.was I really a coward for running? No,I wasn't. I was getting away,not hurting myself.I was avoiding pain by getting distant,not by creating an other pain,not by harming the body that was borrowed to me by god to live in. I was responsible for this earthly mortal skeleton and I was aware of it.

Jessica was the one who hurt me more.didn't she know me enough to know how did I behave with Katie? didn't she witness my pain when we were in bad terms?my crying? well, I guess I'm believing in my dad's words when he says human is an unintelligible creature.I'm roaring down the third hill by now,I didn't realize I was coming here.my instincts driving me here,where I always come when I'm in desperate need to get away from civilization.

But as much as I believed in dad's words,I still couldn't believe Jess, my best and maybe the only girl friend from kinder garden said those words.doesn't she know me enough?

I'm roaring up the last hill,toward the abandoned meadow,running away,getting further from all of them,from everyone. They knew where I am going but they were smart enough to know I don't want them to follow me.anyways, they can't find me even if they come,not easily.

This meadow is way too big and far from town to be found in . it has this breath taking view of horizon in the end of it and yellow flowers and millions of dandelions cover the soft green mat of herbs.this meadow seems like place that dreams come true.I slow my pace to a stop and jump down.




I walk beside moonlight for a while enjoying the view and moonlight's soothing presence.a cool breeze is tosselling my hair to sides. it's so calming,like if the wind is taking my distress and sorrow away,washing it like waves washing upon a shore.

I crouch down on the grass when I see a large butterfly on a yellow flower's so beautiful,with mesmerizing twist and swings on it's lacy light thin wings. I gaze down at it for what seems like hours,admiring the beautiful creature when a cool breeze blows all the grass and plants and also my long hair behind me as it goes around my face, whisper-moaning in my ear.



It's unbelievable,am I going crazy? I listen carefully,no I definitely am not crazy,there's surely a soft thin voice singing in the wind,ringing in my ears. I close my eyes and concentrate on the voice,I can hear it



Ay ay ay yae
Ay ay ya

Que que na-to-ra
You will understand

Listen with your heart
You will understand

Let it break upon you
Like a wave upon the sand

you will find your dream
if you hold out your hand

your destiny will change
by affect of a band

charm will happen when they
in a heartbeat, land

Listen with your heart
You will understand

You will understand ...

I stayed still for a few moments,I'm a bit scared.a cold chill runs down my spine.people say this hill and the whole meadow is abandoned because it's haunted by elves and fairies.they say those magical creatures like this place and you could hear them play flout at sunset or when a storm is coming. I know it's wind blowing in the straw herbs,or at least that's what I thought.now I'm not so sure.a chill runs down my spine,but this time I wasn't dreaming,it was nothing like a dream.it was real,so truly real.

I opened my eyes and looked down,the large butterfly was still there. I ever so gently picked the butter fly with a finger and brought it up until it was my face level,it's softly moving wings tickling my skin. I held it close and picked a dandelion,a big one whole and shiny like a halo from the grass. I made a wish and blew the dandelion,wind taking little blooms away." I wish to forget all the sorrow I'm holding now and get the feeling of being loved. I wish to have somebody who truly loves me and I love him."

The butterfly in my hand was slowly flattering it's wings,obviously it was going to fly away. I brought it up to my lips and whispered to her " I promise there will come a day ,I'll be happy.I'll be as free as you.butterfly fly away..."with that,she flew, flying around moonlight for a few moments and then she flew toward rocks and cliffs.

I sighed and stood up,feeling slightly less pain than before.I walked toward moonlight, feeling a bit lonely and a little afraid of what I heard a while ago. I looked up at the sky when I felt a single drop hit my cheek and saw thick black clouds above my head,frowning down at me.a wild wind was howling in my ears,disheveling my long tail of hair.the storm was starting,I had to head home. I promised dad I'll be home before the storm.

I placed my foot in the pedal and pulled myself up on moonlight's saddle and tapped my heels on his sides,signalling him to move. I marched a bit toward the cliff turning around to roar toward home.right when I was about to turn around I heard a growling voice and turned around to see where it was coming from. I saw nothing.the voice was getting louder every moment but I still couldn't find the cause of it.

Suddenly a lightning shone in the sky and I saw a red flaming object flying toward me,the voice getting louder as it got closer.the voice was coming from that.it was a burning flying object.is it a dragon?oh,please Diana! I guess I'm getting superstitious by the stories about this place.

When the flying thing was close enough,I was finally able to distinguish what it was.a jet,a private jet you could tell by the size.it was falling,it came down now so close I could see it's wheels and then it fell in the cliff right behind this hill,crashing with a deafening voice.

I stood there frozen,what should I do now? I promised dad I'll be home,should I go home and forget?or should I go home and tell somebody about the plain crash to come and check?but there's a storm starting and police won't come to check until it subsides,but what if someone's still alive and will die until then?should I go check myself? I could be their last chance and if I don't go check I'll feel this guilt and wonder if there was someone alive and I didn't save them.

I see the smoke coming from the cliff,it's impossible for anybody to be alive. I heard it crash twice and I could tell it was smashed.nobody could be alive. I should be home soon or dad will go insane and come out in this weather and do something crazy. I don't want him to do anything out of mind.

I make my decision, I'll go check the cliff real quick and return home in lightning speed. I gallop up the hill and reach beside the cliff and look down. I see the jet burning in flames, a thick smoke surrounding it.it's smashed,completely destroyed, aluminium material sank in some parts and it's crumpled up in the middle,where passengers should be and the door part was dislocated and fell apart from the main part.all glasses were either smacked or melted in the high temperature.

It was impossible for somebody to survive,I stood there in sorrow.moonlight neighed in a loud voice,more like a call for someone,than his usual neigh when he sees something sad or feels my sorrow." No boy,nobody is alive.they're all died.let's go."

I pulled his rein to a side to turn around to leave,I was about to march down the hill when I heard something that got me frozen.

"HELP!"

Notes

so..I thought I will put the second chapter as well so you guys won't have to wait long :) hope you enjoy it.
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