Diana(ON HOLD)

Chapter one

I rushed down the steps, shouting.

"Daddy, I'm goin out!"

"Okay, Di," he walked out of the kitchen smiling. "Jake said it would be great if you stopped by."

"Okay, I'll stop by dada."


"Will you go see, umm, Katey too?" He asked a bit hesitantly ."Jake said she was, you know, not doin good." He continued.

"No dad,I'm not. I don't want another heart break. It was hard enough for me to pass this, I don't need her to break my pride again." I said roughly.

"I got it Di, I got it. Do whatever you think is right, I didn't mean to disappoint you honey." It meant he was so worried he didn't call me HONEY unless he was really nervous about me.

I fought back the tears which were building in my eyes, I hate making him feel bad. I look down and say in a low voice. "Sorry dad, it just was a hard time for me to get my shit together, and- I don't wanna remember. I'm tryin to avoid being in the same place with her as much as possible, so it won't hurt that much. I'm just being back to my life without her, it's hard for me."

With that I ran out toward the stable. "I'll be back by sunset." I yelled.

"Don't be long Di, I can see the big black clouds coming thisward. There's a storm coming!" he yelled back while coming out of house, walking to the barn.

I didn't answer, I saw the same clouds as well, but I was planning on staying out a bit long. I opened the door to moonlight's stable and whispered, "Hey boy." he puffed welcome as I wrapped my arms around his neck and burried my face in his long lush hair. I breathed his lovely scent in as a tear rolled down my face,feeling more relaxed.

I rubbed the tear angrily, I shouldn't cry, I don't have the right to. I can't cry for what I've done to myself. I hate the girls who cry for every single problem they are responsible for, themselves. It's pathetic, unproudable. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a rough boyish girl, cause if I was, I didn't get myself in this emotional, girly fuck hole. That's because of my a-bit-too-deep emotions. I fucked up everything with my own world.

By the way, I'm Diana. Diana Rosella Kingstone. People call me diffrent things; Di, Ana, Dia, Li, Lia, but mostly Di. Boyish, right? Oh well. Maybe because I was brought up in a master farm, Not a good excuse? Maybe I was brought up by a single father? Yeah, my dad. Wondering about my mom? She died when I was two, in an accident.

Dad didn't marry since then. He was too young, in a very acceptable age to marry again, but he loved my mom so much he couldn't stand any other woman enter his life. It was always a wish for me to find some one as loyal as my dad.

But having no sibling or relative I came up the way I am. I came up in a big master farm, with any kind of farm animal you can imagine, in the arms of wind, beneath the shade of willows and oaks. I rode my first horse when I was four.

It was a white pony and I called it Aroura, or more like Avova. Then my first real horse when I was six, Arizona. And when she died I was only ten. Then there came moonlight. We've been together for eight years. Long for a good friendship, right? He knows every single secret of me as a teenager.

I was the long haired boyish girl in elementary school, I used to play with boys. I hated the way girls went cross each other and beterayed each other by befriending their enemies. I came up in a loyal family, I couldn't be with two faced people.

Boys used to be better, not as girls. They liked my horses. We rode Arizona, fooled around in our or their farms, no more. But after elementary school, even the boys changed. They started to prefer my body to my horses, so I basically ditched them and I was almost completely alone.

But then came high school, first years as past ones. But then, there came a girl. She was always there,but that was the first time I noticed her Sshe was friends with many ones but with no one at the same time. She was kinda like me, no one really understood her.

She was lonely inside, she dreamed like me, she almost felt like me, we were the same, but at the same time so different. I was so excited about our similarity at first that I didn't see the distance, I guess she didn't feel it as well. So we basically became best friends. I can't remember any better time in my life than being with her.

Junior year and first half of senior year was as a fairytale, but in second term, hell hole began. I told her about my biggest fear and she broke me,d on't ask why, I'll tell you later. Then I did what I didn't do before. I lied. Have you ever lied to save the best thing in your life? Well, if you have, then you understand how I felt, if not, you will never understand the misery, hopelessness and hate of yourself I felt.

When she realized, she pretended that it was okay and we are back together, but she despised me, called me a liar, and smashed me more. She shattered my pride to pieces, broke my heart and left me like that.

She went back to her previous friends, thinking they would be like before, but they disappointed her too soon, so she was alone as well. But you know what? I don't give a shit anymore. She broke my pride.

Di! Who do you think you are fooling?!! My inner voice yells.

No one actually, I sigh. Yeah, it's still important for me, I let her in, I let her break me, I am responsible myself. That's why I don't deserve to cry.

I rubbed tears from my face, reined moonlight and jumped on him.

"Hey!H ey moonlight!" I yelled in a strong tone and loped away toward the horizon, to the place I loved the most in this world, the place no one, no one could find me, to my secret hiding place.

Notes

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