Don't Be Scared

The concert was great. The boys came back stage a couple of times for various different reasons. I loved it.

"Rio?" Niall asks. I'm in the boy's dressing room
with only Niall. I didn't even notice the others had left.

"Yeah?"

"Are you Okay? You seem a little distracted. "

I laugh a little. "I am a little distracted. " He sits next no me on the small love seat but he's not touching me. I want him to touch me.

"You wanna tell me what's bothering you? Maybe I can help."

"I doubt you'll be much help. "

"Why? "

I look over at him. He's not even looking at me, he's looking at his hands on his lap. That's it I can't take it anymore. I stand up, grabbing his hands and place them around My neck as I straddle him.

"Because I'm distracted by you." I whisper against his neck as I begin to kiss it slowly making My way to his mouth. A low growl escapes his lips.

He stands up gently so that he's holding me. He's not holding me long before he places me on the love seat. I'm a little confused at first until he rushes to the door to lock it. As he sits down next to me he slowly pushes me down so that I'm laying on My back under him. I move My hands to the hem of his shirt but then decide to just leave it on as I unbutton his jeans, slowly pushing them down. He helps by kicking them the rest of the way off. He waists no time at all as he begins to take My shorts off. He laughs a little as he sees the shirt I'm wearing.

"I can take it off. I have a tank top on under it." I whisper as he kisses me.

He just smiles and rolls his eyes as he tugs the shirt off, tossing it aside. He places small kisses along My collar bone when he gets to the place My shoulder meets My neck he actually begins to softly bite and suck on My skin. I let out a moan. I didn't think it was that loud but he quickly covers My mouth with his hand as he looks up at the door. Probably hoping one of his security guards won't come busting the door down. Then he looks down at me with the most amazing smile as he slowly uncovers My mouth.

"Next time you feel like doing that just kiss me instead." He whispers. I only nod.

He slowly moves his hand down to My panties and softly rubs the spot above My pantie line. then without any warning he slips his hand into My pants and begins to rub me. I pull his mouth onto mine so hard it actually hurt. He just laughs at me.

"Do you have a condom?" I ask. Because you know, safety first.

" I don't. But one of the boys might." He gets up and heads to the makeup table. After a second of looking he pulls something out of a drawer. I sit up so fast he looks over at me questioningly. I just smile and take the condom from him.

"Allow me." I get on My knees in front of him, take his boxers
off, open the condom and side it onto him. But I don't stop there. I actually put his tip into My mouth and begin to slowly move My head down so now all of him is in My mouth. I fight the urge to laugh when he puts his hand over his own mouth and moans "Fuck."

Just when I think he's about to cum he pulls me up and My panties down. Slowly pulling me onto his lap. I kiss him hard as his full length goes in. I guess I'm doing all the work this time. I don't really mind. I like being in control.

I start slow, teasing him a bit before I begin to move faster. I can already feel My orgasm coming. I hold it until I know he's ready.

Just when I think I'm about to explode he puts his lips to mine letting me know I can let go.

I press my hand to the back of his head, pushing his lips harder into mine. My lips open as he moans into My mouth. I actually enjoy the feeling of orgasming at the same time.

Afterwards I press My forehead to his trying to calm My breathing a bit. My legs are shaking , actually My whole body is shaking.

"I really missed you." He whispers as he runs his hands in My hair.

" I missed you to." I can feel tears coming down My face so I get off his lap and put My clothes back on. Everything except the Niall shirt. He does the same.

By the time we're both dressed I'm crying even harder. Why am I such a mess? I sit back on the love seat and cover My face with a pillow. I can feel him sit beside me.

"What's wrong?" He asks genuinely concerned as he removes the pillow from My face.

"I...I just... really missed you. I honestly don't know why I stopped talking to you. All I wanted this past year was you. To be near you. To just touch you... you must think I'm stupid for throwing myself at you. Last time I did that it caused us to fight the next Day. You almost died."

"Rio. C'mon." He pulls me back onto his lap so I'm facing him dead on. "I honesty felt the same. This has been the longest year of My life. I love you Rio. And in case you didn't know this. I'm not going anywhere for a long time." He kisses Me softly before adding: "And that fight had nothing to do with you throwing yourself at me. It was me. We we're at a place with so many people and I wasn't ready to share you just yet. I wanted you to myself. I would have told you that then, but you know." He wipes the tears off My face. I kiss him one last time.

"We should go. There probably wondering where we are." I grab his hand and pull him out the door. I can't believe we just did that! Call it poor judgment all you want. I'm Madly, deeply, crazily in love with this boy and I'll gladly shout it to the world.

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