"We can dream when we're wide awake, or fall in love with a heart too strong to break."

Those lyrics played in my in my right ear, because Beth had the other headphone speaker in her left. We had spent the whole day laying down listening to music and it was the first normal afternoon I had what felt like a long time. With the exception of the guy who brought me my necklace. Sebastian, the guy's name is Sebastian.

I didn't want to add another ailment to my list, but if I had seen him before why couldn't I remember? When I saw him earlier he acted as if we had never had even met. I so badly wanted to tell Beth that I didn't know who he was. But it got me thinking if I couldn't remember him, how many more things have I forgotten.

When the music stopped Beth sat up and I pulled the headphone out of my ear. "Players dead." Beth announced shoving her iPod back into the knapsack. "You know it's almost been a good hour before you looked down at your phone." I said to her.

"Hour and a half actually." She retorted slapping me in the head with a red licorice. She had eaten the last one from the bucket. "Your hand just been clued to your phone this whole time. So what's his name?" I asked coolly.

"I'm not saying anythinggg." She singsonged.

"Her name?" I mouthed. Beth glared at me then rolled her eyes. "Don't be silly you know the only girl I love is you." We both boasted with laughter. I thought the symphony of our voices was disturbing others when my nurse Jamie came to the door.

"Hey girls I hate to break up this reunion but visiting hours are over." Jamie announced still hanging outside of the room.

"I didn't even know it was that late. But you know time flies when you are hanging out with your best friend who has been in coma, cause she got in a car accident with her boyfriend who is in an internationally famous boy band." Beth gasped.

"I don't think that's the saying." I corrected.

"Well whatever just give me a hug." I stood up quickly and surprisingly I didn't feel my knees stiffen up. "I'll stop by tomorrow before I leave after doing some much need shopping."

"Okay." I turned around to pick up her bag to hand it to her. She latched her hand onto my elbow and her face grew intense. "Can I give you some best friend advice?" I thought there was no point in me answering that question. Whether I said yes or no she would've told me anyway.
"Talk to Harry Victoria like he talks and you just listen. I know you and you move on from people like the wind." She said looking at me waiting for me to agree with her.

"What if I just need time?" I say thinking about exactly what had been on my mind all day. I was still chasing old feelings and one look from Harry they might just go away.

"Then the clock is ticking." She said to me.

"For the record his last name is Ross I'll give you that much." Beth yelled out bypassing Jamie she, waves back to me as she walked out of the door. "Who's last name?" I called out after her. She didn't hear me.

"You need anything before my shift ends?" Jamie asked me.

"Um no I'm fine thanks."

"Alright then." She said skeptically. "Goodnight!" I said eagerly to try and convince her I was okay. After Jamie left I ran over to the door to see which direction she was headed in. Once I saw her put her jacket on and say her goodbyes to some of the staff members. I turned back to rummage though the clothes my mom had sitting in a suitcase on the small couch in the corner of the room.

I searched for a pair of pants but I made do with the suede jacket and ankle boots that I found. I never wondered around in a hospital after hours before. The lights were dim and the hallways were empty. I eased out of my room hoping I wouldn't be spotted by anyone. I just hated being confined to that one room, though I necessarily didn't know where I was going in the first place. I simply just followed the exit signs hoping it would lead me to somewhere. I turned the corner too soon thinking I was in there clear. A woman in pink scrubs was pushing the wheelchair of an elderly patient.
"Do you need help Miss?" The woman said watching me attentively. She remained cautious of me like she wasn't sure of how I was going to act. I stood still in my place as she inched closer. The man who sat in the chair stayed sleep with his head hanging down. The lights flickered over our heads and I thought I was in a middle of a horror film.

"Wait a second your Ross's patient. What are you doing out of your room?" She asked me. I couldn't lie only because I hadn't found a good enough excuse. I forced myself to say something.

"Running." I answered. She cocked her head and watched me avidly. That's when I knew he was now listening."Running from what?" She asked me probably assuming I was mental.

"From me for a while. If that makes sense." I said thinking over my sentence in my head. I figured if I left my hospital room for only a short few minutes I could maybe look at things diffidently, find a brighter side to my situation. Because right now my vision was clouded and very much dark.


I could tell that the woman was thinking it over in her heard whether to call for help or not. Till the old man looked up at me. "Eventually you are going to have to stop running at some point my dear." He said. I took his words into consideration and so did she. Continuing walking down the hallway I was the one to stop her this time.
"You're going to let me go?"

"What are you talking about I never saw you leave your room." She said as she continued walking down the hall. Not looking back I kept going till finally I ended up on the roof.

I closed my eyes when the cold January air touched my face. Sucking it all in feeling frozen from the neck down I opened my eyes to see that I wasn't completely alone. .

Notes

So sorry for such a short chapter I momentarily have a head cold, but I still wanted to post a chapter. Hope you had a great holiday weekend Xx