Doin' Dirt

“Oh shit!” He groans loud as I grip his shoulders. And seconds later, he pulls out of me and comes all over my stomach and chest. Shit! Is this hot or not? He moves back closer to me. I bite my lip as I look at Harry, our lips are both agape and panting. He doesn’t move but our bodies are still linked together and I like it this way, where my arms are wrapped around his neck and his thumb is on the soft spot on my cheek. “Did you like it?” He asks me as he looks at me, kissing my forehead. I nod. “Answer me, Audrei.” He demands.

“I-I like it.” I swallow as I hold his neck. I see him smiling a grin and moves to my side and stands up. “Where are you going?” I ask, watching him as he wears his clothes.

“Downstairs. You don’t want us to get caught, remember?” He says. I don’t know but there’s something in his tone that I find it annoying.

“But- okay.” I look away as I lie my head back on my pillow. “Lock the door when you’re out.” I turn away and just lie here on my bed… thinking… reminiscing what had happened minutes ago and it’s just purely fucked up. What the- I can’t believe what I just did to myself.

I pull my blanket higher to my chest and my pillow closer as I snuggle on it. What I did… what I did… what have I done?

But half of me didn't regret a single thing but the other half just wanted to pound myself on the wall so hard until my brain cracks. I'm so stupid for doing this with someone in this situation. I don't know what we are and I clearly don't know who he really is. It's just days since he stayed here.

What I did is totally wrong and I have all the right to myself to blame everything in me if something goes wrong because I did what I did and I'm just hoping so hard, so bad that something in the end of that pot of gold in the rainbow would have real gold and not the fake ones.

I am playing with myself. I am letting my emotions take the best of me and look what I have right now... I just got laid to a man I don't know and is obviously too hungry for sex.

-

As I hit the last step, Harry passes by me without saying a word nor a look. He just passed by like the wind blowing silently in midair. Wow. I roll my eyes and follow him to the kitchen.

“Hey kids, hope you like chocolate oatmeal cookies.” My aunt greets us in a blooming and charming mood. What’s gotten into her?

“Yeah, I do like your cookies especially when they’re just that soft and chewy inside.” I smile. Looking into the plate of cookies Aunt Marie puts on the table, I see Harry glancing at me. I take a peek and he looks away, grinning.

“Awe. I know you do, darling.” My aunt kisses my hair as she wipes her hands on her apron and takes it off. “I’ll just take a bath. You two enjoy your cookies. I’ll be back.” She smiles as she walks away.

She’s acting so different in a small matter of time. What did she drink?

“Why do you keep on looking at me like that?” I finally have the courage to ask as I put three cookies on my small plate. I take my seat and just chew on this warm cookie my aunt has baked.

“Nothing. I just- nothing.” He grins.

“Stop grinning. You’re creeping me out.” I roll my eyes as I continue to eat.

He takes a piece of cookie and chews it all. “Do I, love?” He goes closer to me. Holding me by my waist as I try myself not to fall on his charms and just lie on his firm chest.

“Get away from me.” I push him off but nothing.

“I’m just happy that I got you and you’re all mine. Remember that…” He removes his hand from my waist and moves it to my arms as he puts his face near mine. “You’re mine now.”

I shrug him off. “Never gonna happen, Harry.” I stand from my seat and went to the couch.

“Really? When did that happened?” He cheekily grin. “Let’s make this relationship of ours to the next level.” He smiles.

What?! Next level? Relationship? We are in a relationship? Strangers in love for the word. My subconscious kicks me and I ow in pain. In love? Fuck buddies for sure but what is he saying?!

“What?” I ask, totally confused.

“I thought you like me.” He smirks.

“I don’t. Do you?” I wanna slap my mouth for just rambling but I said what I’ve said and I’m just hoping that he’s deaf enough to hear those words.

“Do I what? Like you?” I look at him, shrug and just eat my cookie. “Well-“ He shrugs too and just smirks. I hate that smirk of his but he looks so hot when he does. I raise my eyebrow but he stands from where he is and goes closer to me, taking a piece of cookie on my plate.

“Hey! Get your own, there’s plenty on the table.” I scold him.

“Gotcha.” He chuckles and I roll my eyes.

“I don’t really understand you.” I honestly say.

“You wanna? It’ll take time, Audrei. I don’t wanna go back from where I’ve started. I’m just being cautious.” He says as he sits next to me.

“Why? What happened?” I look at him, clearly interested to know what happened. What did happen? Cautious? Back from where he has started? What is he talking about?

“Soon. I’m not ready to tell anyone.” He looks down at his hands and I try to reach it and grab it. He looks at me, shocked.

“I can wait.” I softly mumble.

“Why are you so good to me?” He asks.

“Because this is who I am.”

Notes

sorry for the long wait. i just prepared myself for tomorrow's class which is hell of a not-so-great-time-of-my-entire-life. i wish you all happy new year and i hope that this 2015 will be your year, make the best of it because you have nothing to lose! i love you! message me anytime.

- d r e a

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