Just say yes!

'Emma, ​​where are you? I can't find you at the club?'- I had forgotten about Bella, I had to think what to tell her quickly, but the words slipped from my mouth.
'Please come.' - I couldn't hold my tears and my voice trembled.
'What's wrong?'- Bella sounded worried, because she knew that I was crying.
'Just come, I'm at home. I need you...'
'I'll be there in fifteen minutes.'

I walked back and forth in my room before Bella came. I went to her and gave her a bear hug. She froze, not knowing what was happening. I was determined to tell her the truth, the whole truth. I couldn't lie anymore because I was caught in my own lies and games.
'Let's sit down on the bed and I'll tell you everything.'
'Everything?'
I looked into her eyes, which were staring at me indignantly, and nodded. Both sat opposite each other on my bed and took a deep breath.
'All about Harry wass true, but ... Jace doesn't like him and thinks he'll use me. When Jace saw the photos on Internet, he hit me, so I had a bruise on my face. He told me not to see Harry ever again, but the task from the university brought us back together. Then came Matthew- Jace's boss. He works as a security guard at the Mahiki club and saw me and Harry kissing. When I tried to talk with him, he made ​​me an offer to kiss him on the cheek, and I accepted. Later, he kissed me on the mouth, and Harry saw us and started hitting Matthew. I didn't know what to do, I hadn't seen Harry in this light... I told him to go away and leave me alone. I was obliged to defend Matthew because he knew the truth and was going to tell Jace.'
'Jace hit you?'
'Yes, it was one of the worst nights of my life. It was scary, I don't want to remember.'
I closed my eyes and hugged Bella.
'But what about you and Harry?'
'I told him to go away and leave me alone. I just told him to go away, but I wanted to hug him so bad and tell him that everything is going to be fine. I wanted him to embrace me with his hands, warm me up and kiss me...'
'Emma, ​​does he know about this?'
'No, he doesn't need to know that. I don't want to go through this again. Our relationship will hurt me and him very seriously. I'll get over Harry one day, but not now...'
'You aren't right! I'll ask one last question, and you alone will decide what to do, because after all it's your life.'
'I ...' - I nodded in agreement and waited Bella's question.
'Do you really like him?'
'I... I like Harry so much that it hurts. I don't want to loose him.'
I leaned down, feeling the enormous gap in me. It hurt, it hurt so much. There was no light, not tonight.
'Everything will be okay, I promise.'
Snuggling in Bella, as only she could understand me now. My eyes slowly closed and brought me into a world that probably would be better than reality.

Even in my sleep I couldn't be peaceful. I woke up all in sweat from the nightmare that I couldn't remember. My heart was beating fast, it was going to pop out. I could hear the beating in my ears, but I took a deep breath and calmed down. Bella was gone, leaving me alone. Alone with his smell, I could still feel it on my skin. Harry's smell made ​​me shiver again.
I was looking at his pictures on my camera, which made ​​me remember all moments together, his smile, his eyes, his lips. How could I forget? How could I let him go?