Always

*a week later*

I wake up screaming again, as always. I sit up and find I am drenched in my own sweat. I really hope no one can hear me. This is one of the reasons I need my own dorm to myself. Nightmares. Images of the horrible dream quickly flash through my mind.

Today I have classes. I sigh.Then shower and dress. I make it to my English class in time. I have always wanted to be a journalist but my parents have always encouraged me to be a doctor, specifically a cardiologist. I walk into the room and immediately I get looks from people. Why do I always have to stand out? I wish I was outgoing and talkative. I just wish I wasn't me.
I spot a familiar blonde head. I quickly take the seat next to her.

"Hey Perrie."

She jumps. "Oh I didn't see you there! Hi! I can't believe we have a class together!"

How does she always talk like that? She it's like she lives on coffee. "Yeah."

The professor comes in. "Alright then lets get started."

I pay attention during the whole class time. I love this subject. I thought I saw Perrie almost fall asleep. I have 2 more classes to attend after, Chemistry and Biology. I make my way to Chemistry after about an hour at the dorm. I take a seat. I'm next to a boy with light brown hair.

He looks up and smiles.

"Hi, What's your name?" He asks

"Jessa."

"Nice to meet you, my name's Louis Tomlinson but call me Louie." He tells me.
I nod. After the class, I meet him outside.

He asks, "Can I have your number?"

"I uhm... I'm not looking for that kind of thing right now..." I nervously say.

He frowns," No I didn't mean it like that. I thought we could be friends maybe."

I mentally kick myself. "I'm sorry." I say, and hand him my phone after opening the contacts app. He types and about 5 seconds later, he's raising the phone up. What is he doing? He hands me the phone again. I laugh once I see his contact. He took a selfie with a ridiculous pose. He smiles and hands me his phone. I do the same but I make sure to get Louie in the background.

I return to my dorm. After getting myself some iced tea and changing into a huge shirt and sweatpants. I study the two syllabuses I got from class. My phone vibrates with a message. I expect it to be from Louie but its from Perrie.

'Anymore classes left?'

I reply: 'Nah u?'

She types: 'nope I'm bored come to my room?'

'K I'll be there cya'

I get up, get dressed, and lock my dorm room to go see Perrie. I find the room number and knock on the door. A girl with black hair the same color as mine and beautiful eyes opens the door.

She smiles,"You must be Jessa, Perrie has told me a lot about you."

"You must be Leigh-Anne."

She nods and leads me inside. I see Perrie on her phone.

"Hey."

She looks up. "Hey."

"This is Lei-"

"I know."

She smiles. "Let's go shopping!"

"I really don't..."

"It'll be fun!" Leigh says.

I sigh, "Lets go."

We get to the mall and they immediately pull me into a store called 'Forever 21'. I would never walk into this type of store. Just by looking the clothes I can tell I would never be able to pull any of this off. They start browsing through while I awkwardly stand. They find some clothes and hold them up.

"Does this look good?" Leigh asks while holding a skirt up to her waist.

"Yeah sure I guess." I say even though I think it's way to short.
After they finish buying what I think is more than a year's supply of clothes, we head back.

"Why didn't you buy anything Jessa?", Perrie asks.

"I already have enough clothes." I reply.

We walk in together and they drop me off to my room. My phone buzzes as soon as I walk in. Louie.

"Hello?"

"Hey Jessa, I was planning on calling you earlier but I had a lot going on."

"It's ok."

We start talking about chemistry. It goes on for a good five minutes.

"Well I'm tired, see you later Louie."

"Ok bye."

I change into something comfortable and wait to fall asleep though I dread it. I really need to see a therapist soon. These nightmares have kept coming and coming. My eyes start getting heavy and I drift off to sleep.

Notes

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