Back For You

I sat staring up at the sky. I cannot believe I just blew up on them for that. I usually can keep myself together until its late at night so I can just scream and cry into to my pillow because I get frustrated because of having the feeling like you have no one that can understand you. Do you ever get that feeling? Because I always do, and its not the best feeling to have when you feel alone all the time. I am never alone though, why do I feel like this? I wish I knew the answer. But does anyone really know the answer? Of course not most kids in my situation think about suicide but why end your life? If God thinks its your time to die you would be dead but no he is making something special for you something to make you want to live. That's how I think about it, that's how I get to have another day of my life. That's what keeps me alive. I think my gift from God was Niall. He is perfect and he makes me want to live, he is my guardian angel that is in disguise. I heard the back door open I turn around to meet with those beautiful blue eyes. They had a glint of worry in them but also love, no matter what every time I look into his eyes I see a sight of love. I feel a smile come across my face.
"Hey babe you alright?" He asked sitting next to me.
"I am now." I said scooting closer to him. He wrapped his arms around my shoulders.
"I'm so sorry about what happened baby, the worse things seem to happen to the best people." He said leaning his head on mine.
"I'm not the best person." I said under my breath.
"What was that princess?" Niall asked.
"Oh nothing." I said cuddling into his chest because a gust of wind has just blown by.
"Are you cold?" He asked.
"Ehh just a little lets go back inside with the others." I suggested.
"Alright." He got up I was about to stand up when he picked me up bridal style.
"I have saved the fair maiden." He said with a heroic voice. All I managed to do is giggle. We entered the house, Niall ran and threw me on the couch.
"Wow mate, you really know how to make her happy." Liam said to me. Niall looked at me and smiled,
"I do. Because I love her." Everyone in the room awed I ran and crashed my lips into Niall's when I pulled back, I looked into his eyes.
"I love you too!"
"Alright love birds sit down we are asking each other questions to get to know each other better." Ashleigh said patting down on the ground for me and Niall to sit next to her.
"Alright what did I miss when I was gone." I said.
"Well when Monique was 2 her head got stuck in a car window. When Andrea was younger she said whenever she went on the inter-tube she would sing spongbob then Ashleigh said at one of her softball tournaments her and her team mates tried to prank the other team then fell into their own trap. Harry said his worse habit is getting naked. Natalie said you and her tried to sneak out of her house in the 7th grade but failed because you dropped her from her second story window. Louis once mooned his teacher. Liam lost his virginity at age 16, Niall well he said the only thing he would get in trouble in class is for eating. Then me I told them about our drunken adventure we had in high school." Zayn answered. I laugh at everything he said especially what happened to me and Natalie. Oh good times.
"Alright breanne." Andrea started. "Tell us about how you meet the boys. Me and the girls want to know how you met each one."

Notes

I know kind of sad in the beginning, I know someone who is going through this type of thing. But I make sure she doesn't think like that. If anyone feels like this talk to me I want to help. Suicide is a serious thing and I hate how kids around our age kill themselves. But anyways there is going to be five different parts for this!(: